the light is a light yes. outside of patient room, you can see it lit up. at the nurses station it dings. loudly. in addition to the phone and other alarms it becomes very very hard to concentrate, or really hear anything. people talk to me from down the hall, or in passing without looking at me so i can't read lips... i am going to buy an ear shaped pin to remind everyone, "hello, i am half deaf".

in other news, i am wondering why men seem to think it's ok to act like complete scumbags in my presence???? and not people i meet out, but people from work. i definitely don't act super flirty at work, and i wear scrubs, so it's not a sexy office situation at all.

i just attract losers. my new plan is avoid all men. they creep me out. a lot. and minus one exception and that person knows who he is, men are cheap.

if you aren't going to take me on a nice date, you are not worth my time. i like nice things and i work very hard and i have plans. if the person who wants to date me is not going to appreciate a quality woman such as myself, then i am just going to ignore all men. let me rephrase that; i am currently ignoring all men.

enough of that. i am super excited for school next semester, i am taking some cool classes. and then asu in the fall! the private school cost 20000 more which i am not willing to pay even if i would finish faster. i am just taking my time, since i seem to have nothing else super important going on...

I know hate is strong word but I know I hate the call light. They drilled plexiglass to the top of it and made it super loud. Then their are vents going off, Ivs beeping and the phone ringing plus people talking loud and the TV on and I am pretty sure I am going completely deaf and insane.


I might actually like my job if I wasn't tortured with awful sounds all day. They sound torture prisoners of war. I am a prisoner of war.

i have been sick for a few days now... main complaint the throat and draining sinuses.


i hate going to the doctor and i think its bad to take antibiotics too much, so i am going to try to let this work itself out.

it means, no alcohol though for sure. and sleeeeeep. and vitamins.


i also have not been hungry for two days... i am always hungry!


i had a good day today, i accomplished a lot.... and supposedly the world's carrying capacity for humans is 12 billion, we are more than halfway there.

i will do my part by not having any children!

i needed a pick-me-up. and this did the trick.


painting my nails before bedtime, not the best idea. but color is always a good idea.



it's l'oreal, apple of my eye.

glee is by far the best show on tv right now:



this panther ring will arrive in the mail soon, merry xmas me and maybe one other lucky person, if i ordered two, which i may have, but prob not:



and this bishop allen song, is def my fav song this week, and maybe next week too. i think they are the cutest band ever:

and because whenever i try to post a link or video, it never works, and i know i am not doing it wrong you will have to youtube the song, "rain", by bishop allen. best most danceable song ever. i had dance party today, by myself.


and psssssst spray shampoo is the lover in my life. i only have to wash my hair twice a week now, which is so great because my getting ready time is much less, and my hair is healthier. this stuff is amazing and also the cheapest and most effective of all of the spray shampoos i have used thus far...



apparently gold is an unethical luxury item as well as diamonds, and most jewelry. tiffany does a really good job of only selling gold and diamonds that they track the source of. good thing they are also tres cher. le sigh, i am never getting diamonds...

i didn't post about dating for the longest time, because of fear that different guys read this but i decided i no longer care, for now at least.


the guy i think really likes me never calls and is always working so who knows about that.



then i think this other guy wants to go on a date but it turns out he just wants a booty call. sorry, but just because you are a dr does not give you that power, at least with me anyway. i told him he is cute and smart and we can hang out, but he did not seem to like that.

im just kinda done doing the whole fun single girl thing, and i feel like no guy is worth my time unless he is paying me attention and treating me like a lady.

so, i think i will be reading many, many books from here on out. dating is confusing and no fun, and somewhat pointless.

i have been very bitter lately and mad.



no reason really since my life is not very hard or complex.



i am just a giant ungrateful brat. and im mad i have to work holidays.



happy bitter thanksgiving. at least i get holiday pay, to pay for someone's xmas gifts.

this is what i did all day instead of doing my french. which i have not done in well over a month.


i am going to enter french purgatory as of tomorrow. i need to stop being a sinner and start studying...


also, i am locking myself up for some time because of this and also to save for xmas because i have expensive taste and i like things too much and every time i go out i end up buying things, way too many things.

anyway, i am obsessed currently with a few things lately, getting my hair super long, the twilight series(cringe), glee, and girly things like makeup and nail polish and dresses and jewelry. oh, and champagne, but not cheap champagne, and this nuvo stuff which is amazing!

behold:

check out the pig ring, i love it and hate it. and i look at it when i need a good laugh. (e:hodown) and i like to talk about it...



nuvo=delish. and pink.

i have been on a tech strike. and i think i like actually being around my laptop less.


of course i am still hoping i can get all of my data back.

i also hope they start hiring people at the apple store who aren't idiots...


anyway, i'm basically a month behind in french, probably more than that actually and i am going to be french intense for the next month. this means about 8 hrs of french a day on days of, and maybe more than that.

i saw 'coco before chanel' yesterday and omg, i love her so much. i think i cried about 4 times during the movie, because i am a crier. you must go see it, it's so beautiful and she was a pretty incredible lady!!!! so ahead of her time in many ways! audrey tatou was perfect for the role and needs to get an oscar!!!!!!

my sister makes me LOL:


me: its chat time beeeeeeeeeeyotch
ok, and no more talk about thanksgiving
i work annnnd aunt jean is going to be here

sister: wo hoo

me: ok
no woohoo

sister: ha ha i know
not fun

me: fun for you
to hear about
ok you need to talk to mom
and have her tell you about the plane
she bought me a book

sister: I want a book!

me: and its about some woman named sarah who saves thanksgiving

sister: sarah saves thanksgiving]

me: which is basically awesome and when you come for xmas we are having sotry time

she bought books for the baby too
i will buy you a book

sister: I want a book

me: do you want pictures?

sister: yes

me: ok

its a win win
im going to buy you a book that i want you to read me
at bedtime
and i want hot cocoa too
im gonna wear the footsie pajamas

sister: I hate those pjs
your feet are trapped

me: me too actually

always have

sister: me too


me: i bought new moon
does this make me a loser?

sister: no

me: im pretty sure it does
im a twihard now

sister: because my dirty secret is I LOVED THOSE BOOKS
I seriously couldn't put them down
it took me a while to get into the first one
but after that i read them all
emily is ashamed of me
they are poorly written
but i can't help it
i can't beileve i didn't tell you that

me: OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok good because im obsessed too
i watched the movie
and robbie p is so hot

sister: the movie wasnt that good

me: i had to read new moon

sister: not as good as the book

me: well i can't read book after watching movie anyway
im glad we can share this
don't tell emily lol

sister: no the book is SO MUCH BETTER

you miss so much in the movie

me: i can't ever do that though
idk
maybe ill try

sister: no you have to

me: do you own the other ones?
ok

sister: Um yeah
me: lol
hard cover?

sister: the last one because I couldn't wait for it to come out in soft cover
one of the very few times i bought a full price hardcover book

me: i love hard cover though
its so much nicer
and classier

sister: dude on the subway i want the lighest book i can carry
me: its my new thing

sister: i don't need to be classy
"classy books"

me: i only want hard cover
for my library
I've decided a library is the ultimate show of wealth and knowledge
both of which i don't not have currently

sister: omg you and paul should get together on that

me: you can tell by my use of "don't not"

sister: I've decided a library is the ultimate show of wealth and knowledge
should be your new status

me: now it is

sister: that makes me laugh

me: i can't believe i never told you
I've felt this way a long time

sister: my motto is: I've decided a dungeon is the ultimate show of weath and power.
i can't believe either because its hysterical
I mean its true
but the way you say it

me: not a dungeon
that a turture chamber

sister: well i think that a dungeon implies that

me: which is the ultimate show of evil

sister: in a dungeon you can either hold people in a cell or torture them
if you have a torture chamber you can only torture

me: haaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

sister: not also detain

me: i would like to detain you in my dungeon then