this is the ecard, (e:hodown) sent me. i have decided to no longer date younger guys, because they are idiots and have no clue what they want, or how to deal with me. anyway, i am now an older woman, and this is le card... i'm reverting back to older nice guy approach.


raaaarrrrr...




i didn't really get a gift from my momma yet. i can either get a savings account with some money in it, or a necklace of my choosing. i don't really want/need anything... so i haven't decided yet. plus i have 12 hours days everyday and not much time to shop or even go anywhere with her. plus, we had a nice dinner and drinks with friends the other night, and that was generous enough.

and cougars have jobs and can buy their own things.

all work and no blog makes jackie a dull girl.

my life is officially mostly boring and i never blog.


what happened?????

i need a new blog focus.

and i spend way too much time wondering if other people actually wash their hands, and for 15-20 seconds with soap. i'm really thinking no, and it grosses me out...

esp chidren, with their nasty touched everything, stuck their hands down their pants, and then in their mouth nasty little hands. the kids at the daycare i go to play on this playground and the ground is covered wth wood chips. i officially hate wood chips. i swear these kids come back inside for movie time looking like they've been through the war after a half hour on that playground. they love eating and playing with the wood chips, and rolling in the wood chips, and sometimes throwing them. they are the war chips.

my children will not be allowed to play in wood chips, and i don't really like sand either. and they will wash their hands regularly. wow, ocd. they're gonna turn out weird, but the don't exist yet, so maybe there is still hope...

it's 10:00, time for bed!

smooches (e:strip)!

i am now being judged as a "scottsdale" type. oh no!


i look like one of those pathetic girls, who have daddy buy shit for them and shop and do nothing but sit around and read magazines????

ok, i like to do all that, but i do pay for all of my stuff. and yes, assholes, i live rent free. but i work 50+ hrs a week and go to school.

i am spoiled, but i'm not lazy. maybe a bit bitchy, but notttt lazy. and i do my part to better the world.


so there.

i am going to get my nails done in the am, it always makes me feel better. maybe it's the toxic fumes... either that or that fact that no matter how hard i try and practice, the asians always do a better job on my nails.

when all the germs come out and start festering.

im pretty sure i have a sinus infection, but i refuse to take antibiotics. i took some about two months ago, and they did not agree with my stomach at all. i was a week full of crackers and bananas, and getting really sick at work, and the movies, or wherever i was.

anyway, i will getting the flu shot at work on wed. i got it last year and i was flu free. my mom didn't get it, and was sick for two weeks.

i think people are way to into taking drugs to cure everything, and thats part of the reason mrsa is so rampant in this country.

anyway, go get your flu shot, and no kissing.

i kissed this boy. and now im sick. therefore i now hate him.

i'm so sick of the stupid dr at work who keeps asking me out. i went from being all for it, to flattered, to just annoyed. he annoys me.

i have come to the conclusion, that until i find someone completely worth it, dating is a complete waste of my time.

what is not a waste of my time???? wel, good question. working, going to class, doing homework, reading, playing rock band(which (e:hodown) is in the process of sending.. ahem) and paying bills.

until then, i shall just make out with random hot guys as i wish. nothing else, just making out. it's enough to satisfy my urge, but not being totally slutty.

now im totally sick but still going to work, so i have surrendered to the scrubs. they are my friend when my head is hard to hold up, and i want to wear something pajama-y. which is never, unless i am sick.

makeouts, and double stuf oreos...

according to a new dress policy at work, i must wear scrubs, or a lab coat...

i ordered a super cute baby phat lab coat, last monday, and it's not here yet. so, my friend gave me some scrubs that don't fit her. they are actually a cuter option for such a hideous look.

i have zero choice. it's either look non-fab and have job, or no job and look fab for a short while until the money runs out...


:(


i am shallow and ridiculous, but the best part of my day is getting dressed and picking out my outfit. i guess i'll just have to focus on the hair and makeup tomorrow then.

sometimes it seems like this world is so messed up, it's gonna just blow up or be blown up real soon.


either that or the second great depression, or some sort of monster plague is headed our way.

maybe i'm just melodramatic.


maybe (almost) everyone in my family is completely losing it, or about to completely lose it.


i think for the first time i'm going to be smart and not buy shit. i'm putting money in the bank tomorrow, and keeping it there.

should i stock pile food too????

and instead of complaining at work, i am going to be sugar sweet. i make ok money, and i need to have a job...

i'm going to hide in my bed now and watch the hills and pretend i own marc jacobs things.

happy birthday granny. i miss you so much!!

i'm taking a children's literature class, and while the professor is really annoying and one of those too happy people, i enjoy the reading assignments.

i just finished, "the daydreamer" by ian mcewan. same guy who wrote atonement.

it's odd because that book was really depressing and a downer, and this book is so cute and fun. it's a collection of shorts stories told through the eyes of a very imaginative young boy.

i found myself laughing out loud many times, and i will definitely by reading this book to my kids one day.

when i was reading it, there were so many times when i remembered being a child and having the same thoughts about random things.

it's an easy read and will definitely keep you entertained, and it's even better when your friends read it too, so you can talk about all of the funny situations!

ok. so when (e:hodown) was here, she's on hey lappy, which is the same as mine. i prefer a streamlined look when there are other laptop users around. the momforce is stuck in laptop land circa 8 years ago, but (e:hodown) has the same lovely macbook as me.

and she has the black one. i like it dark.

anyway, she's looking at all these sites, and she always has the scoop on the nyc social scene. who's awesome, what to wear, and which bloggers we love to hate.

[link=]http://nonsociety.com[/link]


so it's these three girls who apparently all come from money and they blog about their pointless lives. i must say the techie one seems actually pretty smart, and i guess was super geeky until those other girls got ahold of her and glammed her up a bit.

the other two are insanely annoying. i seriously don't know anyone even here where all the richies live, that can afford to wear jimmy choo, and manolo shoes everyday.

it seems they spend their time picking out outfits and going to fashion shoots and doing juice cleanses, and getting colonics. they range from 22-26ish, and i am just in awe.

i would be totally fine if they were more trashy or slutty or interesting, but the site seems to have no purpose or intellect.

i mean, i will be the first to admit that i would love to be in their shoes, but i would at least do something worthwhile and give to charity or try to give back somehow.

plus, for all of the primping and money they have, i don't think they look that great.

this site however has some super hot chicks who are stylish, super smart, and funny, and actually care and write about things that matter...

[link=]http://jezebel.com[/link]


i am still obsessed with nonsociety though.

i need a new web obsession.

i need to get a life of my own.

it scares me how i really think i have entered adulthood. i am now constantly finding things to clean and organize. then when i start i don't stop. i don't think i have had a bathroom or room so clean and organized ever. and i'm thinking of organizing it all by color now.

and this has nothing to do with anything, but i am the first picture/link when you google video chat. i have to avoid ichat now at night, or really all the time, because i get creepy men wanting to video chat with me. thanks (e:paul).