day 8:

protein bar

turkey chili

hummus

carrots

grapes

banana

coffee with hazelnut creamer

triscuit crackers

i really can't remember what else...

day 9:

protein bar

banana

apple

hummus with pretzel chips

lobster spring rolls

at sushi bar: yellowtail and tuna, both raw...mmmmmm

saki martini

vodka soda

tiny bit of hummus and carrots

spoonful ben and jerry's

• this was a cheat day because i forgot that spring rolls are fried... oh well, and alcohol is loaded with calories.

(e:enknot), i spent 3 months eating burgers and not working out. i think i can take a break from that for a while. i also find that eating better has better for me digestively, since i have lots of problems. i don't feel bloated or sick to my stomach as much. it also feels like such a waste if i workout and then eat crap... kinda pointless

it has really been a rough year for me, getting fired for retaliation and fighting that, meeting my father and dealing with those issues, and struggling to stay on task with school. i also have had many friendships that ended, and that's always hard. however, forcing myself to work through all of this and the depression i am pretty proud of myself. it isn't to accept certain things in life, especially mourning the absence of a parent. the point i am trying to make is, it is really rewarding to not give up. i finally feel like i am on the other side of things and my hard work is paying off... i am so close to graduation and i can't wait!

i never thought i would want to teach high school, but the teacher i work with is so amazing and inspirational. the students know she really cares and they respond to the way she treats them with respect. the students are also so respectful of me, and they get excited to see me. i think this is probably the best feeling in the world. i know a lot of my peers having really bad placements and don't want to teach high school, or maybe teach at all. i think working with a great teacher makes all the difference, because teaching is truly a talent not all people possess.

hopefully, i'll make a good teacher. i really love building relationships with students and getting to know them. it's so different than any other job i've had.

i was invite to the honors society, but i am too busy now... maybe next semester. it's cool to be invited either way.

i found out that some student are being investigated for academic dishonesty. apparently they took a test online and submitted the same written responses. the teacher said was an open exam, so why would you even consider completing it with someone else? if they have to appear in front of the dean, they will be kicked out and who knows if they can attend university again... all of that work wasted when they are so close to graduation.

i have my tickets for vegas and blo!!!!! i'll being spensing lots of time with those cute little baby nieces of mine, and my brother and (e:tina).... and the boys.... so excited!!!! bl- dec 27-jan 2, woot!

apparently this was the day that people i used to be friends with blasted me with annoying emails. uh, there's a reason we don't speak anymore so let's keep it that way.

i sent (e:tina) a sephora gift card last night. i love giving gifts and i can't wait until christmas because i know little zooey is going to be so spoiled and go mad over all of the gifts we give her. christmas with little kids is so much more fun!!!!

so here's what i ate:

protein bar

half a korean pear(they are huge)

cheese crisp crackers

hummus

carrots

string cheese

pepperoni

two organic chicken tenders

bit of ranch

i did some circuit training yesterday morning and then went for a 2.5 mile walk/run last night. i'm proud of myself for actually sticking to this healthy plan for more than 2 days. i also actually feel better all around too... it's amazing what happens when i don't gorge myself full of crappy food.

Get a life.

today i ate:

1 egg

toast lightly buttered

tortilla soup

carrots

half a korean pear

protein bar

whole grain pita chips, about 10

hummus, 3 table spoons

1 tomato

string cheese

prosciutto

other than some things being too salty, this is my best day yet. i feel good, and i am nooooooot tempted to eat crap or candy. plus it's also saving me money to plan out all my meals and only eat at home or bring my lunch to school, internship, work.

i kant believe kim k.... krazy. if she kant find love, who kan? i want to know so badly, who was the krook in this case.... her for wanting publicity? him for using her? or both of them????

have you ever worked out so hard or been so out of shape that you threw up after?

right now, that's basically me.

i really don't want to throw up though, so i am trying to hold it in.

count on any jillian micheals dvd to do that to you. i swear even people in really good shape suffer through those things. it's pretty much 50 minutes of bootcamp. i think the reason they are so hard is that you use mostly your own body weight for resistance, and if you have a few extra pounds it makes it that much harder.

anyway, day 5:

2 cups coffee with hazelnut creamer

1 egg

1 piece lightly buttered toast

1 piece ciabatta bread pizza with tomato, pesto, evoo, cheese

1 slice provolone

banana

and maybe a pear and vegetable soup for dinner

i'm hoping i can walk tomorrow, i need to at least hike or something but jillian has left with me little strength lol.

Day 3: I kinda cheated so...

Greek yogurt

Teavana chai tea

Salad with tomato grilled chicken bacon bits, lil bit of cheese and ranch

String cheese

Hummus and carrots

Handful french fries

Handful pita chips

Small portion Ben n jerrys ice cream

Sandwich with turkey and cheese

Day 4: I started of with a hike and coffee! I did waaay better, pretty much perfect.

Banana

Coffee with hazelnut creamer

2 eggs with asiago, tomato, red pepper, red onion

Piece of ciabatta bread with olive oil, asiago, tomato, pesto

Protein bar

Grilled chicken

Veggies


Brown rice


String cheese

I'm gonna hike again tomorrow and do some work with weights. Woot. I feel thinner already... For real.

My brother sent me a giant whoopie pie for my bday. It just arrived, and its 5 whole lbs of yummy.

I actually froze it because a) I need a houseful of people to help eat it and b) I am not on a giant dessert diet.


Behold!

so i cheated a bit today because i had some drinks, i'll be better tomorrow

here it is:

coffee with hazelnut creamer

banana

salad with mixed greens, hummus, roasted red pepper, tomato, goat cheese, hummus, grilled pita

2 skinny margaritas

2 mojitos

handful fries

bowl of roasted red pepper soup

in an effort to undo the harm i managed to do in a month... i am going to blog my daily food intake for a whole 30 days.

not only do i need to get back in shape, but i need to hold myself accountable for eating bad things and make my health a priority. plus if i write it down, i can't deny that it entered my system.

i want to look amaze for vegas in a month, and it's a great motivator and also will encourage me to exercise and eat right!

i also have some digestive issues that seem to flair up when i don't eat right. veggies and whole grains, here i come!

today:

zone fudge graham protein bar

1/4 cup hummus with organic carrots

cup strawberries

organic beef hotdog on slice of whole wheat bread with a bit of organic mayo, mustard, ketchup, pickles

handful pita chips

bowl of roasted red pepper crab bisque- surprisingly not laden with fat

coffee with hazelnut flavoring

1 string cheese

so i probably had too much salt, but i think that's a good start.

tomorrow i start the workout plan... i really think i can lose 10 lbs in 30 days because i tend to lose weight fast if i try but i wouldn't mind if i just toned up a bit and had more energy after 30 days. wish me luck!

i shall report tomorrow evening.

i received an email today about pledging to use less paper @ asu.... which i am totally fine with. however, the instructors need to all get on the same page with this. i think it's so insane that some of my professors won't accept electronic assignments. i actually think some of them just don't know how to use technology all that well and this is their reasoning.

i have a professor who is near 80 and she can use blackboard just fine... people need to git wit it.

i am becoming friends with a lot more people on campus than before but sometimes it's frustrating because all of the women in my program are engaged, looking to get engaged or already married at a young age. this is odd to me... i am not interested in owning a home or having children at this point. as modern women don't owe it to ourselves to have a bit more lofty dreams?!

one of the cool things about being an educator is the ability to teach from so many places... i plan on taking full advantage.

i started my diet today and then the mom's bf bought me a sandwich, soup and cookie. not as bad as fast food but just as many calories.

a friend invited me to sleepover but i don't like going to her house because she has so many pets. i have such difficulty finding friends who don't have/ don't like animals in the home. a fish or turtle here and there is fine, but dogs and cats no way...

i am also picky because i have really nice sheets pillows, and a great mattress. so what then is the point of a sleepover? i'm like a boring grumpy old lady. with the face of a young lady.

i've spent at least 250 this month so far on gas... which is hard earned money gone to such a waste. this valley is too big... too big and too many suvs.