"a bit concerned" written by Lilho on estrip.org

02/20/09 12:03 - 20ºF - ID#47824

a bit concerned

im beginning to think no one will hire me as a teacher because i am present on the web. lucky for me all of my shining moments have been captured by my tech friendly friends and i fear when prospective employers google me, it won't be pretty.

the stuff you find isn't so bad, however, one pic of me leads to a link in (e:pauls) journal and right there, bam, he's naked full frontal.

i expressed this concern to (e:paul) and (e:hodown) who gave me really solid advice: be an exotic dancer instead. thanks guys, you always come through with great solutions to any sort of issue or problem i have.

now, let's all pray for a miracle or two: my stuff magically disappears from google, and buffalo magically heats up to at least 50 in the next three weeks, plsnthxgdbai.

ps. looooooove the lady gaga! i wish i could walk around in leotards and never wear pants.... wait that sounds wrong. but i do love her insane style!!!

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Location: Buffalo, NY

02/18/09 11:49 - 32ºF - ID#47797

scary moment 2009

yesterday i was on the freeway and here was a bee on my car. i've never been stung and i feel like maybe i might be allergic, and i nearly killed myself and other people. it was basically one of the scariest moments of my life.

to (e:mike): when i was little, i was in toronto with my childhood bff and we were in chinatown for chinese new year and this nice old man gave us some candy bars. i was so happy and immediately started eating mine, and halfway through i looked down and there were worms crawling all over it. i showed my friend, but she didn't really care, and then i just threw it out and didn't say anything. when i think of that, i am still horrified. so, i know exactly how you feel, it's life changing because you will never look at fruit the same way again; the same way i don't look at chocolate bars with lust. it's more when i think of chocolate bars i think of worms and puke and gagging.

t minus 24 days until my buffalo arrival.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: the cuteness

02/12/09 01:01 - 51ºF - ID#47725

cell phone bed

(e:hodown) bought me this a long time ago.... i don't know what i did with it, and i want another one. sooooooooo cute! and the slippers you use to clean your phone!

plznthxbai.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: grey gardens

02/12/09 12:14 - 51ºF - ID#47724

this is my life

my mother just spray tanned me in her shower. i was basically nude. then i ran around to try an dry it faster; i am insane.

but at least i will have a hot spray(non-cancer) tan for my hot outfit saturday night!

i know what you're thinking, well, no i really don't, but i have been working so hard the past month and it's a sea of 14-16 hr days and this party is gonna be sooooo much fun.

oh the stories i will have to tell the grandkids one day!!!

:)

and it'd better warm up because it's been in the 50's all week, and i can't take it anymore.

i think the math test went well....

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Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: school

02/09/09 11:46 - 33ºF - ID#47689

im praying for a miracle

my math tutor just cancelled on me because her fiance and son are sick... or did she party too hard???

i am currently in a state of panic because i will fail this exam tomorrow without some serious help. eeeeeek.

she says she can help me tomorrow before the exam, but that is not enough.

i have already called a friend begging for help... i will do pretty much anything, i just need to get at least a c on this exam. screw a's, i just want a c.

NOT a good way to start the week. stressed about things like math....

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. :(

i am now going to say a prayer.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: recession

02/05/09 10:55 - 1ºF - ID#47649

begging works

the kind of begging i speak of is the more grown up positive kind. i think i convinced my boss to give me a f/t job.

also, she doesn't have an issue with me taking a week off in march, so blo is awwwwnnnn!

i suppose having faith does work, and also keeping a positive attitude.

i can't wait to see that baby girl and give her snuggles and kisses!!!!!!!!!

since i will no longer be working with the kiddie, i will be long overdue and in need of hugs and love from a little monster cutie.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: recession

02/04/09 11:39 - 15ºF - ID#47632

the good the bad, and the faith

i am really to put on happy face, but it's hard, because this week has thus far been just full of bad news.

so, i am going to make a list of the good and the bad to put things into perspective. the rest, i will just put my faith into, and really hope that things work out.

good:

guy i work with is the sweetest man ever and bought me some creamy vanilla starbucks things.

i have a place to live.

i have family and friends that love me.

i have a new baby niece.

i have a decent car that is almost paid off.

i have many many cute shoes and clothes and makeup galore.

i have the sunshine.

my health.

i have rockband, which is a major plus.

bad:

i have no job.

i hate the recession and the consistent flow of bad news.

i am canceling my trip to blo until further notice, and i already purchased the ticket.

i am going to beg my boss to give me more hours.

so, the good outweighs the bad, and i am going to force myself to smile. and also, have some faith.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

01/31/09 10:08 - 21ºF - ID#47586

long temper short fuse

lately i get set off about most everything.

every small detail must go my way, or else that is it.

i think i do quite a good job at hiding my rage... since i tend to just avid all people when i am like this, because i don't enjoy being so angry all the time.

i don't really think it has to do with anyone but myself, but when i get in these fits of rage... such as the current moment, i really feel like screaming.

anyway, i have found that focusing all of this rage on school and work helps, but as soon as i am not involved with either, and something bothers me i begin to freak out again.

maybe the super bowl makes me really angry???

one thing that does not make me so mad is the fact that i am now getting back all of my hours at work and then some. this is definitely good news because having to search for another job right now would be such a hassle, and also likely to cause another fit of rage.

when i get mad, i try to think of steve carell because i am in love with him forever and always...

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Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: public offenders

01/30/09 11:30 - 22ºF - ID#47571

public offender #1

i feel that my blog has been lacking lately. yesterday in class, i was inspired to create a new category of journals, "public offenders". this category is dedicated to the topic of people who lack certain social etiquette, and my experiences with these people.

what is a "public offender" you ask, and how can they be spotted? well, it's easy, such a person, or persons you will notice right away, whether it be their clothing, smell, actions, or simply their presence in any social setting. i feel that these people have gotten away with their wrongdoings for too long, and someone needs to bring to light this crisis.

public offender #1: i headed to math class yesterday after, freshly showered and looking quite dapper if a do say so myself. i enter the room a few minutes late, and head to my usual seat. after i had settled in, my noise is quite bothered by an awful smell. now, mind you i am currently sick, and also have many allergies; which means i don't have the best sense of smell. i start to worry maybe it is me, but then i think, no way, and i come to realize it is the person sitting next to me; he smells like a mixture of mcdonald's and cigarettes. i am repulsed. the smell was quite possibly one of the worst i have experienced. i tried to move away, but there was only so far i could go, and i didn't want to switch seats because i always sit there and i am friendly with him and he helps me if i am confused.

after two hours of class, the smell followed me through they day, and i was finally able to rid myself of it around 8pm. now, not all smokers smell that way, but this guy clearly has some issues with his scent. i don't think he will ever have a girlfriend unless she smells the same. i have been around other smokers, and did not experience this awfulness, but it makes me hate cigarette and macdonald's more than ever before.

coming up, public offender #2...shouldn't take long, there are so many people out there waiting to horrify your senses.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

01/28/09 12:00 - 23ºF - ID#47543

last week and this week

last week it was near 80 every day...

this week it's in the 60's.

something is very wrong here. i'm cold.

i suppose anything is better than the frozen tundra ya'll live in!