I was probably the most livid woman in the country last night. We have have family visiting and I'm letting them use my room. I'm pretty much used to living alone and when my mom is here she is pretty respectful about giving my privacy and staying out of my stuff. If she needs something, she asks.


Well, my uncle and his girlfriend are smokers and now my. Newly redecorated spotless room smells like old cigarettes. I decided to ignore it and wash everything Monday. Then, I kept noticing my toiletries and beauty products in different places on my room and bathroom. I have very sensitive skin and acne issues that I spend a lot of time and money keeping under control. Some of the stuff I use is special ordered and really expensive... I am just livid that they would go through all my stuff an just use it without asking. It would be completely different if t was my sister or girlfriend... Because they always share with me, and ask for something before taking it.

I love my uncle and his girlfriend is really nice, but kind of rough around the edges. I have bought food for them without reimbursement and then they use all my sunscreen and shower stuff like they live here and help pay for it. If I had unlimited resources I wouldn't care, however they know I'm on a budget and actively looking for a job.


No one other than Zooey or my sister is ever allowed to use my room or bathroom again. I'm trying my hardest to be nice... But the one thing I spend money on is beauty products. It's like taking someone's super nice car without asking permission to drive it. I literally hid all my stuff in my mom's room... I don't care if they think I'm crazy. I don't have $300 to replace all my stuff because they didn't feel like bringing shower stuff and lotion. I don't use other people's things without permission when I visit people....


I can't wait to have my privacy back on Monday. And furthermore, can't wait to find a job and have my own space where I call all the shots.


They also go in and out to smoke every 5 minutes and slam the door, when we asked them to shut it gently about 50 times....

my iphone is cureently being fixed though! Annnnnd, I know it is not grammatically correct to start a sentence with and, however they changed the back cover to pink. The total cost, $90. Way better than the other places I compared prices at. I am promising myself to be good and no longer drop my phone 5 times or more a day... Perhaps I will never drop it again. I went two years with out any issues, so I feel that's not bad for me. I break things all the time, drop stuff on my feet, and walk into walls, hard metal objects and any clumsy type of activity you can imagine.

I've really started to focus on finding a job, and I feel I assumed it would just be so easy. False, there's tons of competition out there and a lot of companies require degrees and want to pay less than 30 grand a year or under 20 an hour. How do people live like this? I've made it mission to find the best job possible and keep evolving my resumes and cover letters into masterpieces. I'm getting better by the day, and I feel good vibes headed in my direction.

Mission: Have a job before Ho-low-ween. Blo style... I wanna live in Cali o yea.

(e:flacidness) I hope all of your birthday wishes come true! I'm right behind you, here's to three more decades. :)


These are from the after party... Classic gangxsta

With a guy who opens doors and treats me well... Plus not bad on the eyes. Oh yea!

I have a series of questions that I ask m on the first date:

Do you like seafood?

Do you like the beach?

Are you super religious?

Are you homophobic?

If they answer yea to the last two its just and go... And I pegged this guy to say yes. He has a gay brother and that makes me like him more. Two of my palest friends are gay and I think about whether or not they would like they guy on most dates. I also think about whether my mother or sister would like them... If I feel like one of these people would be strongly opposed, I cannot date that person. Not because I don't make my own decisions but because my family and friends are so important and there isn't any time to waste dating someone who won't fit right into the madness of my family and friends!


The seafood and beach questions are important because I just love seafood and think about it constantly... Beach as well.


Still moving to LA when I find a good job... Maybe this guy will last more than three dates. But it's kinda sad because I usually like one out of over 50 guys I go on dats with and I hate going on dates because men can be way more emotional and depressing than women, in a scary way.


I completed my brown mission... Now I'm addicted to being tan. Jersey shore Sarbear. :) Actually it would be like savage sarbear, my hair gets all crazy from being in the pool and I'm getting kinda dark so I look like a crazy island lady who spears her own fish.


I cracked the glass on my iPhone and I saw my uncle fixing one a few weeks ago. What he was doing was way more complicated, so I'm gonna get pink glass for the front and replace it myself. Cheers to DIY.

I haven't sunned in over a month... It's time to get brown. And maybe get noodles later...


Photos up from yesterday's adventure... I was hesitant to leave the house after a series of bad dates. This guy the other night proceeded to get drunk... And I wasn't monitoring his drinks because I'm not his mother. Anyway, he told he his life is terrible and lonely and this is as good as it gets.

Really???!! My life can be lonely in terms of a companion... But I think my life just keeps getting better. Not a fan of people who are complacent, but don't wanna change things for the better. This guy just went in on me, so I told him he's a downer and left.

I just can't with that... It was like the twilight zone. Second dates are for exchanging pleasantries and exchanging fun stories and letting your best show.

Now, I have moved on and deleted him because I can't deal with extremely sad people unless we have a family or friend bond in which case it's normal to disclose anything and everything!

Went to foodie spot Cowboy Chow, where they make cocktails that taste like flowers as bread that I want to eat and have with me all day. I also had buffalo carpaccio and duck sausage stew... I love food!

Oh and then I had a cupcake... So maybe today is a no food day. I do have another cupcake left... this is a problem! I also drank sparkling wine from a can and should have bought more because its the perfect mix of classy and tacky and a lil trashy and cute all in one and that's just maybe how I would describe myself... And smart too. It should be assumed sparkling wine in a can is smart.

Best show ever... Want to marry Jason Momoa. Sooooooo my type. Destination... Somoa.

Like now. I feel uncomfortable now that vacation is over. Too
Much free time can make the mind a scary place. Plus I'm creeping way too much... I should have been a detective. Can I say stalking is my hobby? Yea, I can. I'm stalking you... In the most polite way.


Mission: Move to Cali.





I will start tomorrow.


In San Fran solo... Random took my photo. Me with my uncle's Tesla... Pretty awesome ride. He likely has more in common with the car than me. Seriously... He is confused and upset by my girly-ness. I am confused and upset by his vegetarian ism and weird rich person high tech uppity- ness.

It's 2 am and I'm blogging about random crap. See? Must start working tons of hours and not have time to worry about how much extended family members like me. Zooey still loves me and that's what matters the most.


There are fruit flies in my house and they fly around me all the time and I swear I feel like a farm animal or something. It's a very disturbing feeling and its affecting my mental state.


I want to just play dress up all day and be a style blogger and get paid for it... I have a few cute new items and maybe if I decide to wear anything other than ts and shorts and leave the house I'll post.


I thought I couldn't stand my mom until I spent a week with someone else's mom and they annoyed me so much that I yearned for my mother's nagging.


And I still hate cats... And everyone has them. I will also never date or trust a man with a cat.


Ok... Gonna go back to reading the Cuba diaries because reading about people with nothing makes me feel very rich and well fed.

All the people there last night looked homeless... Like homeless chic... I don't understand.


I lost a hearing aid last night... RIP... At least I still have one. I hope whatever job I get has good health insurance because I will be marching myself back to the audiologist and getting new ones which I probably need anyway. I'm just so deaf...



I accidentally like a photo on Instagram of my cousins friend or something.... I feel like such a creep. Corrections, I am such a creep. This is why I dislike social networking and technology... Too much public sharing and creeping. I will just creep on people stuff all day long. Awkward.


San Francisco is the most expensive city to live in apparently but I don't get it... Maybe I was just in the homeless section and I need to see more because I'm convinced its a city of well to do hobos.


This place must be bad luck... I cracked my phone screen and lost a hearing aid in the course of two days. I feel like a major loser and I need to regroup.


On the upside... The weather in San Jose is so nice and sunny and mild.


My friend took this photo at Chinatown Summer nights in LA last week... It's cute minus the fact that I seem to be missing a knee...

I'm on the plane from phx to San Jose.... I was in LA the past 5 days. I think Cali might be my place. I'm gonna start looking for a job in LA when I get back home.


Phx is so hot I feel like I am just melting all the time. Plus I realized I really have no fiends there and I am either needing too be far away or out the country.


I seriously loved how nice the weather is in LA and how laid back people there seem. I'm so into the casual summer all the time look.


I'll really really miss my mama but she mostly in LA during the week and tickets are super cheap to AZ.


July has been my best month this year... Maybe in the past year. Cali got me feelin them good vibes ya'll!!!!!!!

My first time at a conveyor belt sushi place.... I believe it was called Teharu.....


So amazing.... I never used to like sushi much, but lately it is my obsession. This place doesn't have te best sushi I've ever had but the prices were awesome and Iove being able to pick things as they came along.


It ended up being $25 for my friend and I, plus we had beer and saki. We are a ton... Tuna sashimi, tuna and shrimp nigiri, spicy crab rolls, spicy tuna rolls, Las Vegas roll, seaweed salad, octopus... And a bunch of other stuff I can't remember.


I probably won't hang out with this friend again because they never have money and assumed I would be paying. I'm so tired of people pulling this crap on me... I'm not even working right now and I seem to have more money than a lot of people I know. I refuse to take any more money out of my savings and will probably just stop eating out after my San Fran trip altogether.


Here's a few pics... My phone died so I didn't get many. :(