transiberian.


watched it tonight. was supposed to be movie night. half of it i didn't watch because it was so disturbing.

seriously. if you want to see crazy russian pretend police looking for drug money and slicing people's body parts with knives, and that is your ideal entertainment, then this movie is for you.

otherwise, i suggest elf, or some claymation christmas goodness.

on a positive note there were some excellent actors in the movie and it was really well done, just makes me never want to go to russia, and maybe china too. and def never go on a train and talk to strangers.

i think i need to see something heartwarming before bed, otherwise i am going to have nightmares of scary russian men slicing my legs.

happy birthday to the loveliest sister ever! can't wait to see you!!!!

had been stolen by both works and school.


more by school. just three math exams to take and then finished. its my fault for waiting to take all three at the end of the semester, but i should have known better than to take a math class online.

anywho, i have realized how much i love art history. seriously, it's a challenging course, because there is so much info to take in, but i find it so interesting and really rewarding. i think its pretty much the only class the i have ever studied for, but i liked studying!

i wish what you studied in school could just be what you liked, because then i would totally switch back to art. oh well.

i can't wait until tomorrow is ova! i can be released into the world for a month of fun!!!!


in completely unrelated news, i am so over this season here in az, everything is so dry. worse than a blo winter. i want to soak in a vat of soothing aloe and lotion. pus my skin is breaking out, which it never does, until now, and i am pissed off.

when it's not nice outside, i feel like always being cuddled up and eating comfort food. i think if i had stayed in blo i would be for sure really fat by now...

i'm at school, in a lounge area, and there's a tv.

i had to turn it off because jerry springer was on and the title of the show was, "a godfather, a tranny, and a midget."

one can only guess what might take place on that show...

i don't really care to see though.

at this point, i would like to thank my mother for raising me properly, not in a trailer park.

i kinda lost my job yesterday. due to the recession.

a week after i spent a fortune on gifts.


luckily, i can just be frugal and i'll be alright. my heart goes out those who lost their jobs and have a mortgage to pay and children to support.

i have a second job that does not pay nearly as much, but i can fall back on it for a bit. and i talked to every person possible at the hospital and begged for hours and i'm getting 20, half of what i was getting, but in the meantime, way better than nothing.

i just need to focus on finals and getting through next week, and then it's out searching for a new f/t job!!!!

i did not want to get up for work this morning. i did. and i go, and i wasn't even supposed to be there. i need to start writing stuff down.

anyway, the other secretary is such a frumpy old lady. i asked her to switch a couple days, which was never an issue with any of the other secretaries, but apparently impossible for her. she's so weird.

she told me, oh i never work on fridays!!! i was like, umm, is that that big of a deal???? i work everyday weekend, so i don't think it's that big of a deal, since she gets the way sweeter schedule.

anyway, i came home and slept, because it's sinus infection season, i think i get four a year, and they are oh so fun. i wish i wasn't such a sickly test tube baby. seriously, i am allergic to everything, and everyone, and always causes some sort of strange illness.

i decided to decorate the tree. the mom is in mexico doing god knows what, but hopefully having fun and not getting food poisoning.

for some reason, i think it's gonna be the best xmas ever. almost done with my shopping, just have to tie up some loose shopping ends! i think i want to be done by next sunday, so i can totally focus on exams and be ready ahead of time.

i also have to find recipes for a demi glaze for my roast duck i will be making, and also for tiramisu, with homemade ladyfingers! i know it's the recession, but maybe next year it will be so awful and a depression, so we should totes live it up now right!?!

note to self: begin starvation diet now, so that you can lose 20 then gain back 5 over holiday season. or maybe i should be a vegetarian for a month? or maybe i should just exercise starting like now. good plan.

the tree! i took it upon myself to decorate it, because let's face it, nobody else was gonna do it.

is go xmas shopping. but everything else is getting in the way!!!

i have a slight shopping addiction, and this is a great way to feed the need, because it is buying for others. and maybe some for myself.

im also a huge bargain shopper, so im hoping to find great deals, so people get more presents from me because i know how to find a sale.

sales are prob one of my top fav things in life.

i have now realized that secretary means slave. seriously, that place wears me out so much, that i can't handle much at the end of the day. it's basically food, shower, bed.

i have that weird sore throat feeling like i am for sure getting sick, so i am now going to drug myself with a cocktail of meds.

three weeks until xmas yay!!!!!

i thought be december the school could have this all worked out. seriously?????


i have not gotten any of the money i am owed. i have paid for my tuition with my own money.

i have freakin bills to pay, and thank god for the job and a half, otherwise i'd be so screwed.

i want my money, and i want my money now honey!!!!!

they say they can give me one third of it tomorrow. this sounds so strange. i don't understand.

i work at a hospital which is all forms and paperwork all day, sending faxes and getting signatures is not that hard.

i could have processed and completed all of the paperwork for my loan myself and in a day, not four months.

i need to do xmas shopping, but i just made another giant car payment, so hopefully i can do it next monday. because monday is my only day off, in which i still work two hours.

all this blogging makes me hungry. need food.

so (e:hodown) and i were ichatting today. and she brings up the view counter thing and how i am #2.

this scares me for so many reasons.

the number reason being the lack of discretion i have displayed in the past, and probably present.


who the hell is reading this stuff????


and then i wonder, do random strangers read my blog, and then they see me in person or something???? could i maybe have a stalker?? ok, i know, i am not whitney houston from the bodyguard but just humor me here.

this thing started out so small, and (e:paul) kinda made me. at least i got to choose my name unlike (e:hodown), whose name was chosen for her. she hates it! it's funny though.

i bought (e:hodown) a tickey to the blo for new years. i am purchasing my ticket in a few days because farecast says to wait because fares will drop at least 50 dolla.

i told (e:hodown) i am her pimp and she is my bitch. she just asked that i not bitch slap her. i said ok. that doesn't mean that i am not going to play that really fun game with a lighter where i threaten to burn her. (e:paul) knows all about this game...

just kidding, i would never burn my sister.

i think that i am going to take fried chicken to a whole new level this time and make it indian style!!!!!!

i tried to take my cousin to a nice dinner for her 18th bday last night. what a fucking bust.

the restaurant was supposed to middle eastern. it was such crap. we got there and the place was kinda shabby. filled with creepy men.

my mango martini had chunks of ice in it, and was not very good.

we ordered and an hour and half later, still no appetizer, but our entree had come. it was supposed to be lamb. looked more like rat lags. seriously, there wasn't even one bite of meat on those things. the rice tasted awful, like dirt. and there was a huge hunk of uncooked onion and one half of a grilled tomato on the plate and some stale pita that looked like it came from the grocery store.

when i left to use the bathroom, some nasty man that my cousin dubbed "the conquistador", came over and sat in my seat and began to ask her questions. of course she is young and not yet a huge bitch like me, so she was nice and thought it funny.

when she told me, i wanted to go to his table and spit on him and punch him.

he was asking her how old she was and where she is from, and her name, and were we taking pictures of him, and just being a perv. thankfully the belly dancer started and he got up and left.

when i got back and she told me, i gave him the death stare at least 5 times, making eye contact.

our idiot server finally came around and i had the appetizer canceled, told him as a new yorker and someone with a lot of knowledge of food, that that stuff was not acceptable and had him bring the check.

they still charged us for the food, and barely apologized, not offering to make it up in any way.

i had aubrey give me some ones, stuffed them in the checkbook, and told her to walk out fast. there was no way i was paying for that shit service.

we ended up eating pizza. i told her i am going to make it up to her next weekend. i have a few ideas, and know some good places. i was just so irritated.... and still am.

i don't like when my plans fall through, but this time, i am going to make it foolproof.

fuck you layalena.