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Category: location

02/20/07 11:58 - 38ºF - ID#38219

leaving new york

i got home very late last night. it seems nobody ever wants to drive me to/pick me up from the airport. i do it all the time, but alas, i feel that i always put in way more than i get, from anything or anyone these days.

i took a cab home, which was actually fine, because i was really tired and didn't feel like talking to anyone.

the longer i stay here, the more i feel like i don't have enough friends. or really anybody to be there when i really need it. its ok because i learned to be fine on my own, but it would be so nice to live near my sister, or mother and have a friend/loved one always around. i guess im not the kind of person who likes to be fiercely independant. i like knowing that i can get help if i need it. plus, i want to be there for my family as well. i miss them so fucking much i think it actually hurts.

i know i always say, im not going to stay, but this time i really can't. buffalo is such a small little bubble, and i feel like i owe it to myself to want/have more. its so clliquey, and gossipy. i can't leave the house w/o seeing somebody i know, and half of them i don't want to see.

the problem is, where to go? new york is amazing and has basically everything i love, however, i just don't know if i can handle it there. its so big and busy and crowded, and expensive. arizona is beautiful and so is the weather, but it lacks the feel of an old city, which i love. the jobs there are plenty, and the pay is great. i wouldnt be poor like in ny.

i have a huge decision to make, and not very much time to do it.

p.s. the site looks really nice (e:paul)!
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Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: winter

02/03/07 12:46 - 12ºF - ID#37980

this is getting serious...

i now have to literally force myself out of the house.

for one of four things:





  • i wish the coldness to end.

wish it was more like this...

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Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: automobile

02/02/07 11:46 - 19ºF - ID#37975

miracle of life

i locked my keys in my car. this is the third time and less than three months.

i have lost way too many brain cells, or just wasnt born w/common sense.

either way:

  • not only were the keys in the car, but it was on. from 12p until 11p.

  • what a magical little car!~

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Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: ethnicity

02/01/07 12:58 - 25ºF - ID#37951

i am officially hispanico

on facebook, i attract a new black man everyday. nothing wrong with that. i like the dark chocolate. im pretty much open to any race.

however, is it because i appear to be hispanico?

do i have the ghetto flavor?

i just think it is funny. first an invite to the threesome, now the ghetto lovin.

back to class...
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Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: boredom

01/31/07 09:34 - 21ºF - ID#37944

really need to get up and do something..

i thought class was gonna rock today. turns out, there is some issue with the ta not getting paid, so our dyes were not set up, and we could not do much of anything in fabric printing. blah.

i keep trying to post all of these godamn pictures i have, but somehow, they are the wrong type of file or something, and i have to post one at a time instead of all millions of them.

i swear, if this weather doesn't get a little fucking better, im just going on prozac. i can't handle buffalo anymore. it is my goal in the next year, to haul ass out of this godforsaken city. help?

anyway, i think winter has just made me a little crazy,and im seriously counting the days til i get go to nyc and hopefully have massive amounts of fun.

(e:paul) we have to go to the gym tomorrow, i will pick you up @ 730.

p.s. my jbl spyro speakers will finally be coming home with me! my babies!!!!!!
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Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: sickness

01/30/07 09:54 - 16ºF - ID#37919

feel like crying

i could handle the coughing, the sore throat and tiredness.

i can't handle the earache i woke up with this morning. the pain is unbearable, and now i won't be able to go to class, which i can make up. but, i don't know if ill be able to make it to work. this would be the third day I've called in.

i need stronger drugs...

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Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: life

01/25/07 12:47 - 13ºF - ID#37863

keep on keeping on

i think this qoute that one of my professor's gave me, is quite true:

"You are completely responsible for the choices you make. If you make bad chioices, bad things will happen, sooner or later. If you make good choices, bad things are much less likely to happen."
-John Rosemond

i am so incredibly excited about school this semester. art is definitely to way for me to go. im taking some pretty cool classes, like fabric printing, so i will post some pics when i have finished work.

not only am i taking great classes, but the professor of 3 out of 4 of my classes happens to be my friend's mother. this is fun and scary at the same time, because i feel like i definitely have to make a good impression. not to worry though, i will kick ass and take names.

i successfully joined the BAC last night! look out for a fit new me! i am determined to feel comfortable in a bikine this summer. and also the benefits of being shape will be nice too!

while i think i will really enjoy this semester, it would be nice to make a friend or two. it seems impossible however, because ECC really is just ghetto high school. argh.

i think i have a sinus infection, but my cure is to just drink it off.

au revior peaches!
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Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: hater

01/24/07 07:49 - 23ºF - ID#37852

to all

im not a hater, just opinionated and somewhat bitchy. if you have an issue, take it up with the universe.

sorry im not spriritual enough...

one love,


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Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: depression

01/23/07 10:48 - 29ºF - ID#37840


I've been feeling really down lately. lack of sun, lack of exercise. too much partying, and drinking.

anyway, i have firmly made the decision to join the gym tomorrow nght. (e:enknot) will be going to, unless he decides to be a pussy and not come.

i am really set on just concentrating on school, work, and being healthy. maybe with a little crazy fun in between. maybe.

no more of this worrying about boys, and whatnot. its really just not worth it. it seems that so far, what i get and what i put out( no pun intended), do not weight equally. i tend to give too much of myself, and trust too freely.

perhaps (e:brit), i shall take you up on your bet. being single for a good while seems pleasing at the moment...

p.s. i will departing to nyc for a short holiday next month. so excited!
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Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: pajamas

01/19/07 01:46 - 30ºF - ID#37777

the shit is pajamas, P-A-J-A-M-A-S

i am going to do it, but i want you all to know. im not fucking happy. to make me wear some slutty ass pajamas, when i have like $1000 worth of lovely new clothing waiting im my closet.

instead i will wear stupid fucking slutty something, because thats what paul wants. happy birthday.

my number one least fav thing: people who can't return phone calls.

  1. 2: any sort of costume party.

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Location: Buffalo, NY



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