"let blow some shit up" written by Lilho on estrip.org

Category: anger

05/15/06 05:07 - 57ºF - ID#26283

let blow some shit up

i would really like to just find a fucking job that works out.

all other aspects of my life seem to be in the right place. but the job thing just isn't working out.

fuck.

at least i can go on vaca song...soon. (e:thesimeon) is singing me the ronery song, im ronery. ah, a ritter ronery.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: kinda happy

05/10/06 04:21 - 80ºF - ID#26282

what a nice day

so, i was flingin the dogs, with my coworker mike, and tellin him all bout my blues, and he told me his. he's fun to work with, and easy to talk to, and probably one of the few really awesome straight guys i know, in a totally platonic way.

he did my wishing well, and it read, "forge ahead".

i decided i would. turns out... im getting severence pay from one of the jobs i was fired from. i have an interview tomorrow night. and now, i feel a little less angry at the world.

you doubt people, and then sometimes they throw you for a loop and do the right thing. let me tell you, that feels so fucking good. it feels so good, just to be treated fairly.

i just wish there was more fairness in the world. or at least a little human compassion.

ejoy ur day ya'll, i know i am.

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Words: 155
Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: gossip

05/06/06 05:02 - 49ºF - ID#26281

mother fucker cocksucker

to mrdt and all those who think i've been sending out the bad jive...

i've had and lost three jobs in three weeks, i have more too worry about than someone i don't agree with on (e:strip).

i don't even have a computer at home. at don't even check my email, or post once a week.

so, (e:mrdt), i didn't send you that shitty comment. if i did, i would send it with my name attached.

g'night.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

05/03/06 07:43 - 63ºF - ID#26280

i swear this is the last time...maybe

today, i got a a new job...again.

lol. i know. this is totally redic. but, i shall be an assistant at Kallista for Hair, on elmwood, near breckinridge. i can finally put my license to use.

now everyone can be happy. mom. me. boyfriend. sister.

lets all join hands and dance in a big circle.

now i have to quit my other job and get my money. how fun.

i register for classes on monday. yay. time to be student again. not sure i remember how.

now, mom can get of my friggin ass, and, we can all have a nice vaca in three weeks!

three weeks, poopsie and me go to az. i don't think (e:thesimeon) appreciatesme calling him poopsie all the time. i don't have baby to play with anymore though, and someone has to be my poopsie:O(.

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Words: 143
Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: annoyed

05/02/06 09:04 - 63ºF - ID#26279

why?

the new job, not the hotdog stand. the personal aide position doesn't seem to be the job i was offered. i worked sat and sun, woke at 6 both days, and worked my ass off, for the most damanding, unhappy, mean man ever. it seemed nothing i did was ever the "right" way. and he kept giving me weird looks.

sorry sir, if i don't know your 4 hour enema process. sorry, that i moved the paper to the left, my arm was sore from holding in front of your face for over and hour. i'm sorry i don't know how to lift you, shower you, make your toast right.

after all that ass kissing, i've been to reach the women in charge of scheduling, and i have not gotten one phone call back. that's two days.

i just want to know why i get fucked over with jobs like this so much.

i just need a fucking job. i can work. as you can see above, i can deal with most anything. including a lot of shit, and yet, i still seem to constantly get screwed.

plus, my mother won't get off my ass. acording to her i suck at life. i never do the right thing. i never have the right job. i'm lazy. this shouldn't be so hard. she always had a good job. she always knows exactly the right thing to do. she is perfect.

i'm going to visit her in three weeks, and now, i really don't want to go. when she was 22. let's see, she had an asshole druggy husband, and a kid, and no education. how does that make her better than me.

i'm so sick of everyone telling me what i need to do. maybe people should just try and be loving and supportive and put theirselves in my shoes. sometimes it's easy, sometimes, not so much so.

and to add to all of that, i'm the fatest i've ever been, and i feel ugly. that's a first. i need to be locked up and starved for the next three weeks. i'm serious.

i think tomorrow will be much better.

p.s. i'm being much too dramatic. but, would it kill to return a phone call? ugh.

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Words: 373
Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: work

04/25/06 09:48 - 39ºF - ID#26278

life is good

and that's just how it is. one door closes and a better one opens.

looks like i've landed a better job. a much better job, making somwhere between 10 and 13 an hour. and i get benefits and such. awesome.

i will be an aide for a prominent laywer who was injured in a motorcycle accident 12 years ago. his wife is a anchor, i won't name, god forbid they see this and think it's weird.

anyway, they have a really nice house, and I get to hang out and help out and cook! good food too. he loves seafood, and lamb and thai, and everything I like. Plus, he's incredibly intelligent, and funny too.

and, they are cool with my vaca time coming up. i'm a lucky girl.

it will be a great job to have while i'm balancing school and work in the fall.

p.s. this summer is gonna fucking rock!

p.p.s. go eat at ming tea cafe, so tasty!!

and drink lots of wine. wine is good.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

04/23/06 01:22 - 50ºF - ID#26277

getting fired can be kinda fun

so, i got fired from the nanny job. only because the people were too fucking chep to pay me 8 bucks an hour.

now, i get paid more to run a hotdog cart downdown. thats right. im the newest hotdog slinger. classy.

im so done with watching peoples kids and getting paid third world rates. you'd think people would pay, but they don't. it's their fucking kid. c'mon.

at least i finally let them have it. they needed to hear that they screwed me over and that they didn't deal with the situation professionally at all. i put myself out there for them, and half rasied their child. it felt so good to put that bitch in her place. i hope she cries everyday because she doesn't get to come home and see her kid for lunch.

anyway, it's been fun to idle this week, but i need to get my ass in gear.

my honey is so fun these days. he bought me flowers the other day for being a crankster the night before. it's amzing how flowers can really brighten up a room. we've also been taking a lot of walks, which is nice.

and i made him a roast for dinner last night. actually, it kinda took all day to make, but so worth it.

we are a boring old couple...

best part of my week?

MY NEW LIBRARY CARD! they let you take out 50 items at a time. how exciting! the joy.

and vaca is in a month, and i hope to visit the big ho this summer too.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

04/15/06 09:20 - ID#26276

robin

ill def give you a cut. call me 208 6906!

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Location: Buffalo, NY

04/09/06 01:09 - 41ºF - ID#26275

no more posties

i seem to never have anything of interest to say here anymore. maybe its because im rarely ever around a computer.

i really hate my job and my life right now. only because it seems like i am wasting time. i just want to go back to school this summer and feel that i have a purpose again. i don't like being out of school. i need to learn and have some sort of schedule. plus, nobody ever has time for me anymore, so i might as well spend my time getting an education.

i should be working in a salon, and regretfully, i will soon. i hate the whole beauty culture environment. don't get me wrong, i love being girly. i just don't know if i want to live it all day with a bunch of brainless idiots. hmmm.

i just feel like i was very stupid for a long time, and now i pay and it blows.

i don't like the whole comment thing anymore. i feel like anyone can just say whatever they want in your journal.

groucho.

mommy comes. t-minus three days. sister comes, t-minus five days.

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Words: 191
Location: Buffalo, NY

03/31/06 10:02 - 60ºF - ID#26274

you sick fuck

i didn't post those journals.

i never post anything anymore. not that anything i ever posted was so great.

....

back to the point. someone told hold of my account and posted that slander filth last night.

they changed my user pic as well.

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Location: Buffalo, NY