"well" written by Lilho on estrip.org

03/04/06 02:05 - 28ºF - ID#26267

well

so, i decided to stay at my current job. the only reason being, they offered me more money. i don't want to stay,but the money thing ways in way more than anything else, so that's that.

i did put my foot down and say, you have to pay me for days cancelled, and give me some compensation for the week off. i feel i wans't as firm as i need to be about this, so there will be another talk very soon.

these people are fucking dumb, but whatever. the kid is cute, and he loves me, and it will be spring soon, and i'm taking his ass out.

oh the joys of being young and poor.

anyway, the most disturbing thing about these people is:

the mother doesn't cook, ever. not even pasta.

she eats a can of prgresso soup for lunch every single god damn day. can we say high blood pressure

they don't eat dinner together. holden eats first. then paul. then rebecca.

holden will be 18 months and still eats baby food.

dinner consists of something stouffers for rebecca and a tony's frozen pizza for paul

these people are almost forty, i hope they don't plan on living to see their son graduate from college. they're gonna die young young at the rate they are at. and they don't exercise either; ever.

it's all just a great big example of how i never ever want to live my life!

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Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: eat me

03/01/06 08:52 - 25ºF - ID#26266

mother fuckers

so anyway. i tried to quite my job, but its just not gonna be that easy. argh.

the people i currently work for, but am supposed to leave in a week and a half, have now offered me more money to stay with them, and would like me to come back next year. well, well. you put your foot down and people start to listen.

bascially, it goes as such. i'be been cut off by the motherload, and i suppose justly so. i am 22 and its time to start being a real slave to the man, or many men. any offers? ok, jk.

so, i took this job at this day care center f/t, in the hopes of some benefits and better pay, blah. now the people i work for are freaking out, and will offer me compensation for when the father is off(he's a teacher), and more money. i just don't know what to do.

to make matters worse, these people have absolutely no backup plan, refuse to put the kid in daycare, and the mother started to cry when i quit, and has been upset since. now, i feel bad, but, it's not my kid. i'm way smarter than that. i don't want a fucking kid. not til im paid, bitches.

so, the other issue is this. the job is so boring! the kid is cute, but so little, and frankly im kinda getting sick of him. it's too cold to go outside, im def not allowed to ever take him anywhere in a car, and i feel like im going crazy with no one but a 17 month baby to talk to all day.

the new job would help me meet people and have a chance to work with some older kids and plan activities and all that.

im so stuck, i don't know what to do.

on top off all of this, im trying to get things in order to go back to school. i have no clue whats going on.

and, my job is making me fat and lazy. i sit all day, with a baby. and eat. and eat some more. the new job would require lots of running around and no time for food.

ask yourself, "WHAT WOULD JESUS DO?", or better yet, what would you do?

deeglam writes at 06:21:52 03/02/06 - Comment #5214: damn! your journal post definitely got a lot of talk here! anyway....i am proud of you to say the least....i know that you have been contemplating on leaving the baby now for a while....i think that you need to do what's best for you in the end....you are young and you have a lot of potential...and it may not even be the money more than it is the experience....and if you feel this job you have isn't going to get you anywhere, then why stay with it, ya know? You have talent in many things...and I would hate to see it wasted... so do what you need to do to make a better life in the end. I love and miss you and I know you will make the right decision!

flacidness writes at 01:10:21 03/02/06 - Comment #5209: we've all seen pictures of jesus's body and he would go with the day care plan and run around and get his flabby ass in gear. ya dig?

joshua writes at 11:30:57 03/02/06 - Comment #5206: I'll keep it short and sweet - take the daycare job. Easiest decision ever.

Its natural to feel bad for them, but on the other hand, this is their problem and not yours. It is their child and ultimately its their responsiblity to care for their own kid. If the mother is having a problem dealing with that, she'll have to learn to find a way to work around it.

Sarah you have to look out for #1, because if you don't nobody will. The daycare thing is a better deal for you, and ultimately that is all that should matter at this point.

leetee writes at 11:41:14 03/01/06 - Comment #5197: you can't keep a job for anyone else's sake. well, not entirely. i so understand the akwardness of that 2 weeks after notice is given... we just want to make it go away, don't we?

but think of this -- what will happen when you do go back to school? will they make you feel guilty about that, too?

zobar writes at 10:54:01 03/01/06 - Comment #5189: I know it's not the same situation, but my sister was once working in a very small [2 person] department, where she was not happy, so she started looking for a job. One of her prospective employers called the office and got patched through to her boss [woops]. The boss didn't say anything, but they offered her a substantial raise a couple days later. She took the raise and kept the job, only to find out - no, she really did hate the job after all - so she ended up leaving anyway, after spending another full year there.

- Z

jenks writes at 09:08:48 03/01/06 - Comment #5182: yeah I agree with the above. Sounds like the only thing keeping you at a job you dislike (hate?) for many (valid) reasons is a fear of hurting feelings. And I TOTALLY understand that. But, you have to put yourself first. Maybe you can tell them you can still work once in a while as needed, (like as a babysitter for the night), or maybe you can give them names of other people that might want the job (if you know any), to help them not be stranded... But yeah, ultimately it's their problem not yours, and you have to do what's right for you...
The real world's a bitch, ain't it? I wish I could just be in college forever.

ladycroft writes at 09:01:05 03/01/06 - Comment #5181: make a pros/cons list. what's the pay differential? overall..if you really want change, more activity and older kids, take the day care job. you might have some emtional investment at your current job, but there is no shortage of caretakers in buffalo. they will be able to fill your position. keep applying at those salons and work day care mean time. keep smiling!

theecarey writes at 08:59:30 03/01/06 - Comment #5179: Reason-based argument tells me that the day care job will offer a schedule, benefits, and much needed mental, physical and social stimulation.. This job may be easier to quit later on once you know what you are doing school-wise.

Sarah, it sounds like you know what you want to do.. Listen to what your instinct/heart tells you.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

02/28/06 04:25 - ID#26265

new job

its all about taking control. i found a better offer. the next few weeks are going to be so awkward.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: nanny

02/27/06 09:39 - 20ºF - ID#26264

my burning question

i am currently a full time nanny. i get paid a mere 6.50/hr and am wondering after a year if i should get a raise, or i should have just started out making more.

anyway, whatever the answer is, im quiting as soon as i find other full-time work. the people that i work for suck. they cancel all the time, which makes for a part-time job, and Sarah can barely pay the bills, let alone have money for food, and extras. thank god i have great friends and a great bf.

just imagine the shock on their faces when i say, "i'm out."

but seriously, they suck, and im quitting asap.

p.s. im sick of winter, where are you spring and summer? i look so much better in the sun sipping a cocktail and tanning by the pool. don't we all?

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Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: poetry

02/25/06 03:58 - 31ºF - ID#26263

shme shmu part two

The Tale of the Shme and The Shmu
(The Tale, of which this is part two)

There once was a shme and a shmu,
(The latter is me, the former is you)
Always each other's proverbial walking stick,
On those days when things were thin or thick.

And sometimes, along came a gray, rainy day,
when things would not be going the Shme's way,
and she'd become one hostile and mad chick,
beating the Shmu senseless with a not-so-proverbial stick.

Lying in pain, the Shmu would sigh,
and pick himself up, with the roll of an eye.
and calm whatever anger he felt,
and play with the proverbial cards he'd been dealt.

Approaching the Shme, with the utmost care,
and listening to the Shme in dispair,
tragic tales of sorrow and plight,
slowly things would return to right.

On other days, the silly Shmu would misbehave,
his mind would shift to a mischievous brain wave,
and he'd have his laughs at the Shme's expense,
setting her ablaze (in the metaphorical sense)

Upon seeing her, in her angered rage,
The Shmu embarassedly returned to his age,
And he'd beg the Shme to excuse,
Thankfully, the Shme has yet to refuse.

A story of a friendship, similar to none,
And yet, a story which has only begun,
A friendship to last, through, through and through.
I hope we'll still be pals 'till we're both ninety-two.

(If you haven't killed me by then) - also written by Alyshah

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Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: poetry

02/25/06 03:55 - 31ºF - ID#26262

shme shmu

Tis the story of two,
A shme and a shmu,
A shme of who made men swoon,
A shmu who was a buffoon,

The shme got all the gets,
The shmu lost all bets,
The shme, trendy-dressed,
The shmu was just depressed.

The shme was par-none,
The shmu was no fun,
Of the spectrum, at opposite ends,
And yet one day, they became friends.

An odd pair, it's true
And always they'd argue,
Different in all ways,
but still friends after many days

Why would these two still be pals?
Despite there being better suited guys and gals?
Though different with every hope and fear,
They had one common appreciation: a cold pint of beer.

A appeciation that made their bond last,
With each argument that passed,
A friendship paralled by very few,
A friendship of the shmeshmu. -written by Alyshah- and he's a guy

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Location: Buffalo, NY

Category: in shape

02/21/06 02:13 - 30ºF - ID#26261

this is what i want my body to look like

in thee months. im wondering, is it possible? i don't really want to lose a ton of weight. maybe 5-10 pounds. i just want a nice ass, a flat stomach, and some tone in my arms. my legs are pretty ok, they just need to be worked out. oh, and those boobs are def fake, and mine are never gonna be that big, but im hoping they don't get smaller.

seriously, this picture is hot. i wanna look like that in my bikini this summer.

i also just want to feel in great shape. i already feel like i have so much more energy, after only a few weeks. i think im ready to step up my cardio. yay!

ohhhh. i have an interview at a salon tomorrow. it in williamsville, which is good, because thats where the good ones are. they seem pretty nice and flexible, and this would mean more money to add on to my crap nanny salary or byebye to nanny job for good. those bastards need to appreciate.

wish me luck...

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Location: Buffalo, NY

02/21/06 11:05 - ID#26260

parking ticket hell

why did i bother to come here? i have a hearing and yet I've been waiting an hour. boo. waste of my day.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

02/18/06 03:45 - 13ºF - ID#26259

steppin out

while in ny for thanksgiving, i was on the search for the perfect, stylish and warm winter coat. i found it. you can see it in my user pic.

my sis had this long black bubble coat that had a broken zipper, and i was embarrassed somewhat to be seen with her because she had to "step out" of it.

well, turns out, my dream coat has the same damn problem now. plus the fact that its not pristine white anymore. more like dirty pissy snow. yay. and now that we really do have winter, and i really need the coat, its all fucked up.

its my sorta ghettoness coming out.

seriously people. email me, call about this hair stuff.

(e:jason), and (e:ladycroft), i have off this week, so it would be the perfect time. maybe we can have an (e:strip) hair doin' partay. lol.

everyone gets did up and crunked up. ho style. straight up.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

02/18/06 12:17 - 26ºF - ID#26258

hasheesh and haircuts

who needs a haircut? esp the dudes. anyone? i can do it. ill even come to you. and it'll be cheap too. jason, josh, i know you guys are always looking for a good cut.

need another job. need two more jobs.

big sis is all cracked up on hasheesh. hahaha.

im so over winter.

i really have pics that will end up here, maybe sunday. maybe not.

people who eat canned and frozen shit all day everyday groos me out. esp if it's filled with msg and sodium. ewww. stouffer's my ass. cuz thats where its gonna go.

p.s. i love you gymmy gym. lets get physical.