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05/16/04 11:01 - ID#25962

obey and you shall be rewarded

i was thinking yesterday, while at work, about how everything, or many things in our lives are based around control and fear. It is the sick notion that sitting at the top of my work ladder, is a big fat ugly man with hair coming out of his ears, and nose, who relishes the fact that he has over 50 cameras in that store to make sure no one is stealing from him. You'd better not be fooling around, or idling, because Burt, "the Notarius" is watching. What a stupid, stupid, petty, rich bastard. That man makes so much money, and does nothing with it. He does not have any sort of scholarship fund, he doesn't seem to give to charity, he just seems fat. Maybe he buys only the best most fttening foods, with truffles in it, so he can mantain that sexy figure.

The strange thing is, that people seem to respect him, or think he is noble. Why can't we go back to the day when capitalism was thought of as evil? It is so horrible to think tht we live in a world, where our value is determined by how much money we have. Why is it that once people who were one day not wealthy, become wealthy, they become huge, greedy assholes, who only care about their money, and don't care that they have hair coming out of all of the holes in their head? I'm talking bout a revolution...when can we al live on that farm Paul?

Now that I think of it, teaching has become one of the only professions in which I think I could stand. It does not involve stores, or selling stuff. Kids are fun, and innocent, and just so much better than the evil adults.

P.S. Mike, there are no killers in your house, you are gonna be just fine. Tina has the same strange fear, but there are only so many murderers, and they are not just randomly hiding out, everytime the house is dark and peopleless. Well, maybe...
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05/14/04 09:35 - ID#25961

mmmmmmmmmmm...flowers

the flowers, they is perty. the theme of my day is tropical. just being in warm weather, and walking around in the sun, smelling the lilac trees, sitting in the garden. all of these just make life so much better. lets all make love to nature, oh yea baby.
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05/14/04 09:33 - ID#25960

word of advice

ladies: don't use tampons. just don't use them. they might get lost somewhere in there.
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05/13/04 08:45 - ID#25959

who needs sleep?

apparently not i. for a while now, i have been having the most awful dreams. the kind that include people you know, and situations that seem so real, that when you wake up, you are not sure if that really happened.

here's last night's: i was coming home from work and parked in the lot next to my house. for some reason i wasn't wearing pants, and my brother and his friend were in the driveway, so i scattered to find a pair. i found some shorts, and these girls i know from high school suddenly appeared with many shopping carts full of wine. then this man(who just so happens to be this dude i was talking and arguing about art with at alle st hardware last night) stops the girls and takes them away for having alcohol underage. he seems tob some sort of ub person, who enforces illegal activites. in the dream, he made sense. he then decides to question me, and seems puzzled and bothered by the fact that i am pantless. i rush to put some shorts on, and then as i get out of the car, he decides to search my bag. i have pot in it, that i was selling for my brother; just a dime bag for some guy at work, and im supposed to give him the weed back when i get home. the ub man takes the pots and threatens all this stuff; i start crying and trying to explain that it isn't mine. i steal it back, he takes iagain, and this repeats for a while. then my mom and brother cme outside. my mother seems to know what is going on and at first seems angered, and then amused, but she nevers tries to help me. finally, i get out of it, and give the pot back to the brother. the end.

right after this saga, i woke up sweating like crazy, and feelin kinda pukey. its 730, i went to bed after 2, why am i up?
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05/13/04 04:02 - ID#25958

i should be sleeping...

I hate being tired and wanting to go to bed, but can't. Something is wrong. Ce n'est pas bon.

The more I go out, the more I dislike it. I don't like being around people that are really drunk, or just any sort of drunk person in general.

Alcohol is ok, and I enjoy one or two drinks, but recently, any ore than that just makes me vomit. The thought of being drunk does not appeal to me, and I just feel strange after a while. I can't ever sleep that night or eat the next day. I guess any sort of love for alcohol I had is gone. I enjoy it in very small doses, and not that often. These feelings, I take as a blessing. Lots of drinking isn't good, and it just makes me feel bad.

I am glad it is summer. I am glad i'm not a dirty old man. I'm happy to have a brain. I'm glad I get to go to bed now. What a strange night.

Does anyone have a flower press? The plants are growing and I want to make pretty things with them!


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05/11/04 01:52 - ID#25957

on the sunny side of the street

the sun is just about the best thing ever. it makes everything more fun. sometimes i like to just sit outside and listen to the noises of summer, birds chirping, people passing, and the ice cream truck rolling by. mmmmmmmm, ice cream. the summer bringd this wonderful ray of light at the end of a long sleepy summer. it is almost like magic, and like my sister likes to say, love is magical, so the summer is filled with love and magic which are just about the two greatest things ever.
i still havent cleaned up from the party, i guess i should stop being so lazy and do that. i think i am gonna make some meatballs today, and pasta. i know, beef is bad, but i really want meatballs after watching that horrible show, "the restaurant" last night.
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05/10/04 10:51 - ID#25956

goodbye :O(

what a weekend. friday we moved tina out of the dorms. that was crazy, and also somewhat fun-gotta love the iternational dorm. sat we partied. sunday we felt like puking and then celebrated mothers days without our mother and with the granny and aunt. i will stop talking in the thired person. or, i guess i was talkin about tina and i. we are the dynaminc duo. and soon, the duo will be split up. i am not happy about this.
this year would have been so different without her. i can't even explain how it feels to make a new friend that feels like someone you have known your whole life. it is the best feeling ever. someone who always knows when something is bothering you, even before you open your mouth. someone who will sacrifice sleep, just to stay up and hang out or talk when you aren't feeling your best. thank you tina. i will miss you this summer, and wait for your return!
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05/06/04 09:03 - ID#25955

i died

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a quote from a metric song. i think its funny.

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05/08/04 01:17 - ID#25954

party!

ok people, here's the deal. you missed the last hodown, and you missed out. so, be there sat april 8th at 1030, for some good family fun! there is sure to be some estrip folks there, and also some not estrip folks too. its byob, so byob. and bring ur music. and bring ur friends. and bring ur danciny clothing shoes, and fancy party shoes. we shall dance the night away in springtime fashion! email me for info on location...
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05/06/04 08:59 - ID#25953

i died

there is no end to the allergy season for me. i shall live a live of stuffy nose and tissues. i have so much to look forward to.
i really do have a lot to look forward to. i just have to do lots of work to be able to enjoy this summer. i must paint, and opack, and get rid of lots of things. i have to be frugal and boring, and not stylish, and not spend any money this next month and a half. if you see me spending money, slap my hand and say, "NO!".
my mother is having surgery on the 18th. I am kinda nervous. She has abnormal pap smears, and they need to remove some pre-cancerous stuff. I just hope it all goes well. I love my mommy, no matter how crazy she can be. She is the greatest, and she buys me mexican yummy lunch when i don't feel well.
I have come the conclusion that I am now boring. I used to want to do so much crazy stuff, and now I look forward to be domestic. What happened to crazy party sarah? I think she is tired now. partying is only fun once in a great while, and since i seem to have a huge aversion to any kind of drug, i am going to take the "high" road and be high on life. well, most of the time that is.
i want someone to have a spring party, lets have a srping party, and wear fancy spring clothes and be happy.
my nose is starting to clear up. the doc said it was completely blocked. nasal passages are not meant to swell shut.

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