It's back with a vengeance. Will I just now go completely deaf in my right ear? It woke me out of my sleep last night which had never happened before.... This concerns me because sleep is the one escape from tinnitus that I have. I honestly would rather go deaf in my right ear than hear this shit forever.

I picked up a few extra shifts at work this week, which is great for the savings plan but somewhat disturbing to mental state. Some golfers brought escorts with them on the course yesterday. One of the women tool her panties off and put them on this man's head right on front of me. I was working the back shop right before the 9th hole.... These people were drunk. I don't like being exposed to that at work because I feel it encourages men to act inappropriately with me as well. I'm all for a good time, but I take work seriously and don't appreciate sexually charged comments directed towards me while I'm trying to make money. Anywho.... Interesting day.

Tomorrow is my day off thank god. I thought golf was a classy type sport... You would be surprised at all of the strange things people tell me.


Let us pray the ringing will stop. :(

i am convinced that only bad comes from being too informed of current events and happenings around the world.

the news is such a biased and terror invoking experience for me... the more i know, the more convinced i am that i will get bombed or that i am dying of some terminal illness.

all of this makes me want to just get rid of technology and live on an island with my family and friends only... i'm sure (e:mike) is the same way. i really hate the doctor and dentist and every medical experience ever, except working at a hospital because that was fun at times.

perhaps my exposure to so many sick and diseased people has made me paranoid. i'm still convinced i'm dying of something, and this won't change.

so now, i feel like i'm probably just severely mentally ill. that has to be the real issue here...

and now switching gears... when i started serving i would get so nervous being watched and having to be at ease and hospitable with golfers, but now i actually really like it. i was telling my aunt about serving and she said she missed being able to talk to all kinds of people... i think that is what i love most about my job. we get people who come from all over the world, and i get to have a glimpse into their lives. it makes me excited about the future and traveling. i love learning about new places and getting to know people. i feel like it is such a good quality to have, being able to converse with strangers and make them feel at ease. it has really helped me to be less stand-offish and shy around new people.

i think people assume that i am really uppity and bitchy when i keep to myself and it is really of mix of me actually feeling nervous around new people and also not hearing half of what is going on. i've learned to just be upfront about my hearing loss and what a difference it makes to just tell people, "hey, i'm deaf, i wear hearing aids."

i got a credit card the other day, and i have 1/5 of my savings goal. being done with school and only having work is like the easiest thing ever. i can actually make money and save it!

i'm gonna take over the world bitches!

I was early to rise... Not sure if it made me wise or healthy and wealthy but whateve.


Woke at 5 after waking up every two hours for 8 hours thinking I might have slept too long. Then had weird dreams all night.


Went into work 10 min late to a massive flood I. The kitchen... Water everywhere. Apparently it was 3 inches at its deepest. When I arrived it was a cool inch of water and then also water covering every counter top and shelf, no big.


Proceeded to act like nothing was wrong to all the golfers and served up coffees and drinks to go.


Then proceeded to work until about 430 with no sitting or breaks to pee or eat from 1130 on. I think this place is helping me lose weight... But it's also kinda like being a worker in the third world except that I net 12-50 an hour depending on how good of a day it is. Today I made some nice monies which I then deposited in the savings. I like this feeling. I kinda wanna take out all my savings in ones and just make it rain for a bit.

After the flood was settled things got interesting again. I'm pretty sure a swinger couple is trying to something with me and this is odd. Also, one awesome guy from Cleveland asked if the cart girl was a man. This is is the second time in a week someone made a man reference about her. She hates me so much because well, idk, and then I saw her drinking on the clock and be gross with that guy so i'm really afraid she might hurt me. She is seriously mad buff and I am a pansy.

I officially love Canadians and especially Canadian golfers... They are so well mannered and seem to be interesting well educated people. Everyone had told me they don't tip well but then I tell them I am part French Canadian and from Buffalo and they love it and I getz thee good tipz from themz.


I literally cannot remember what this post was about so I'm done writing and shall go to bed because I'm confused about what's going on. And by bed I mean play plants vs. zombies for a long time because I am obsessed with that game. #thuglife

It was such a great day at work yesterday... Instated busy but never felt stressed like I was gonna walk out of that bish... And I made a ton of money. Why can't that be everyday????


Now the real issue is I feel so unmotivated to find a other job even though it will slow down soon. I feel like I can't stand phx anymore but now I should stay to help my mom and watch her house while she travels.

I feel just like I did before I left blo and I'm just over it. What to do....


I suppose I should stick with the original plan of saving tons of money first. Perhaps I'm too picky about dating and I should just go with a basic... Ugh I just can't. But it would be so nice to meet someone who is emotionally stable, educated, and likes to be social... And is tall and attractive, duh. I'll be ready to reproduce one to two babies in a few years and if my man don't show up soon ima have to adopt an Asian or African baby. It has seriously been my dream for like 10 years to have a multicultural multi ethnocentric family... We are going to eat lots of different kinds of yummy food and have a family drum circle. Plus, we will all love hip hop music and Bob Marley.

I am really putting off getting ready for work because I worked almost 11 hrs yesterday and I'm tired and would rather go back to bed.

Maybe later I'll actually post something of substance... But my brain has turned to mush since graduation and all I do is think about nails and fashion and beauty products. I also like to think about working out and rarely ever follow through... This will change though. Singularity will happen in our lifetime... That was just a random check to see if people read this far- fools!!!!!

This is about me and work, not the show. Omg my work just gets better and worse everyday.


Like in, the tale of two cities, it's the best and worst of times!


People think I don't notice but I know everyone's crazy shiz and people just tell me stuff they shouldn't.

Today a customer grabbed my coworker between the legs and she liked it and sat on his lap while I uncomfortably sat rolling silverware just a few feet away. Then my coworker proceeded to pour a strong drink in front of my boss and mosey on down to the fire pit bar.


I have serious issues with this chick because she lets golfers say ad do whatever on the course when she works the beverage cart and then they come in for food and drinks expecting a show and a little slap and tickle. Um no, I can be flirty and cute but let's keep in classy.

Apparently this chick has been seen kissing the ass grabber guy... And apparently you don't get fired at my work for drinking on the job.


Bottoms up!

zooey has invited the fam and i to a popcorn sleepover... but only grams can sleep on a bed. no one else can go into zooey's room because we won't fit.

also, we are going to dance to music and stay up all night... baby raver?!

just sent out easter goodies for the babies and i got a lil something for mommy and daddy too. i now allocate at least $50 a month on these children. i love giving and receiving gifts and it's fun to be able to buy cute little girl's and baby stuff.

pretty excited about this week. gonna see an old friend i haven't seen in a long ass time and have some other fun stuff planned. i have thursday and friday offf and then work all weekend. normally i get upset about working holidaze but i'll be making the paperz and that always feels good.

words cannot express the amazingness of only having to work. i spent so many years working and going to school and spending tons on gas and go out to eat for most meals because of my hectic schedule. now i spend so little on gas and eat for free at work and rarely have to grocery shop. it's so much less stessful with only a job to worry about.

i've decided that i might stick with serving for a while... people keep quitting at work which is favorable for me because i can pick up all the extra shifts. on a good day, i can make more than i used to in a week at most of my other crap jobs.

when i do leave to search for the right career i have decided i would love to work for a company being an educator, i.e. teaching new policies and procedures or new programs. or, i would like to work for a company that produces educational materials and help develop products or sell for them. i know i can never work a job i am not completely committed to in some aspect.

for now, things have seemed to fall in my favor and it feels good! spring is seriously so beautiful here and i forget how lush and green the sonoran desert can be. i am however, so allergic to all of the damn wildflowers. it's so green right now, the mountains looks like they are covered in grass.

i'll post some photos this week when i hike.

Instagram is basically now just an extension of Facebook which really upsets me considering how much I loathe the FB.

What to do? I really should just make my profile private but I hate when other people do that becuz I love bein a creep.

Mostly I love the photos of anything fashion, nail, makeup related and various random photos as well as mostly any photos of Rihanna.

Dilemma!!!!

Went hiking yesterday on the "Lost Dog Trail", and lost our way at least 3 times. By the end of it we were by a school, had no water, and were very hungry! I never get lost hiking but trail had some many turns and not the best markers... We were going for a short hike and ended up being out there for 2.5 hrs. At least it was a lovely day and I burned those calories!

I was supposed to go to a spring training game yesterday but my friend had too much homework ad cancelled, so I had my nails done of course and met a friend for some food and drinks. There was this guy at the bar sitting next to us and he was pretty cute and flirting with us, however he was playing with his armpit hair which was odd and gross. His friend also proceeded to make several ignorant comments about small town life and I wanted to punch him.

Then I went home and ate a second dinner which was clearly a bad choice because I am still full and I have no choice but to workout now!

My mom(the wiz) has decided to take a travel job which means I am in charge of her house while she is gone. I don't have to pay rent which is awesome, because I now love to hoard and save monies. However, I am still scared of the dark and we get lots of crazy creatures out here. I will be the master I charge of all upkeep and will have to make sure the pool and landscaping are taken care of... I suppose it will be a good experience since I will likely own a home in the next 5 years...

Some lady ended up drinking at the golf club today... Mind you she did not golf or know any golfers there. She also does not live in AZ.... By the end of her visit she had broken her phone, attempted to crash the wedding we were hosting, bought stuff from the pro shop, and became overly emotional and excited about a wedding in which she knew none of the people.


One of my coworkers asked me why I was so happy towards the end of the day... He assumed I was excited about the wedding stuff. False. Weddings don't excite me. Sure I'd get excited if there was a person whom I could envision this with. I was probably smiling about something funny that had happened or about the fact that I work at the craziest place on earth.


I witnessed several different employees fighting and arguing and tons of madness and it all just makes me laugh at the end of the day. I ain't got no worries.


Just gonna make this money and forget the rest foo!


Went out for dinner last night with the fam and it was so fun! I swear I was laughing the whole time! My aunts sister has the most crazy and hilar stories... The photo split shows the cake pops she wanted to make for a baby shower and what she actually made... Alien baby cake pops!!! This image brings me so much joy and laughter every time I look at it lolzzzzzz! They are just so disturbing and funny looking... Laughter is my fav.... And work.

I also realized this morning I can do several versions of booty shakes that are quite impressive... Maybe it's all the squats or the running around I been doing but my booty looks good! Go team fitness!

I can't believe I didn't use the restroom from 1045am today until 545.... Or around then. That was also the first time I sat down since I got out of the car to start work.

I kinda love being so busy at work... My mind is completely focused on doing my job well and I have no time for idle thoughts.

I suppose I love work so much and keeping busy because it makes me happy. I feel useful and it's the best when I get customers who are thankful... Makes my day.

I feel like there's quite a few people that I have lost touch with recently... And it isn't that I don't care, however there are only so many times you can call or text people. Okay, for me, I just stop. I figure anyone who wants to talk to me will contact me eventually. It also makes room for new relationships and extra time for me to focus on my path.

I recently had my résumé revamped and I'm super excited to put it out there once I type up all the changes.... According to my fancy new résumé I'm a pretty intelligent, motivated, and skilled person. I like this.

So... Yea work and saving and working more are my favs.... That and my new morning hike/walk routine. The weather has been amaze here this week and it just makes me happy... In my own little bubble of work and sunshine and walks.... I'm a total loser but its pretty awesome having a job where you get to be outside and surrounding by so much beauty and nature.

Booty poppin Neva stoppin! I'll be so sad when the golf season slows down... I'll need to find a new jobby and I'll miss living two seconds from work... It's the best eva! You can only ever be 5 min late at the most!


The kitchen staff are always tryna play some love connection game ad set me up with these youngins... Apparently this new boy likes me. I promised myself I was never going to date a other guy under 30...

It's official I'll be in the dyrty buff July 2-10... :)