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08/05/10 12:27 - 77.ºF - ID#52366

tomorrow's to do list

since i always lose my little pieces of paper with lists, i decided to put my to do list here. that way it cannot be lost!

1. actually get up when alarm goes off loser!

2. work out

3. drink copious amounts of coffee, and eat yogurt and berries

4. print reports and timesheets for work

5. print fedex label for (e:hodown)

6. one load laundry before work, esp. scrubs

7. fold laundry you did four days ago, lazy.

8. go to kinko's to mail fedex package to (e:hodown) or be placed on sista probation

9. work

10. do not respond to texts from people who are on probation, even if they don't know they are on probation. you are still not liking very many people.

11. buy toilet paper and healthy lunch supplies for work friday on way home from work!

that should cover it. if i have time between jobs, i may treat myself to a manicure.

ok yea, wait there's something else

12. start twitter account because (e:hodown) has told you that you must. this to do comes with much spite. i really don't want to. i am so anti twitter and anti facebook.... poo.
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08/03/10 12:07 - 81.ºF - ID#52357

the food police

i am currently being watched very closely by officer julie(aka my mother). she criticizes everything i eat. last night she said, "you have gained weight and you need to watch it."

ok, pretty sure i am the the same size i was two months ago... when i was working out daily and watching what i ate. for some odd reason, i have been super hungry all the time recently and have been eating whatever. i haven't gained weight. i have lost a little muscle tone. i think it's because i work so much and eat lots of veggies and fruits in addition to the bad stuff.

(e:hodown) and i are so annoyed with this. my mother has been trying to control my diet and exercise since i was a teen. i have never been overweight. i actually enjoy eating food. being stick thin like my mother is not a priority to me, i have a womanly body and it suits me. also, i'm pretty strong and i have a lot of muscle.

i just don't get why other people tell me how great i look, but my own mother is so critical.

i just finished eating a whole pizza. yea, i did. and i don't care what she or anyone else thinks.

glorious 1st day off in two weeks, pool time!!!!!! nap first!
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07/29/10 01:57 - 74.ºF - ID#52324

pop champagne oooohh!

1.5% raise like woah! i'm a baller now. i have 4 jobs, i have a problem.

anyway. why can't people understand the difference between their, and they're????? and then there as well...

i'm here. waiting for my cuz to pick me up and take me to le gas station taco place, best ever!

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07/27/10 12:43 - 69.ºF - ID#52316

mostly the babes

i miss my niece so much, i just want to cry. i'm always so happy when she's around. i really don't like babies much... but i love her sooooooooooo. she's such a crazy, funny, goofy girl, and just so adorable. i'm finally posting some pics of her fiirst bday. i would like to have you know i shelled out a ton of cash for that, and (e:hodown) helped of course. that little girl is going to leave me strapped for cash, because i have many grand plans for us...

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she had two cupcake cakes. one hello kitty. one paul frank monkey.

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petting zoo. there was also a pony.

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the fam, and a little boy i babysit. he's in the fam now too...

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the baby goat would not stop eating my dress.

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zozo loved the animals! she was laughing and smiling, it was so precious!

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too lazy to get back and rotate it. who dat?

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now, who dat?

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excellent form.

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proud grammy, with her most prized possession. well, she doesn't own her, but she would like to steal her...
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07/23/10 11:27 - 77.ºF - ID#52268

coupla things

first of all, i finally watched avatar and omg, i loved that movie!!!! by far the best i've seen in a long time. it must have been so cool in 3d. i really want to live in that world and be blue and beautiful and connect my long braided ponytail to other creatures...

it's friday, and i'll probably be asleep by 9pm. was invited out by several people, but recently i just like being at home much more. i feel like i spent the past few months being super social, and i'm ready to really just relax when i have free time. i know in my last blog i said i was bored when i'm not working, but then i discovered the national geographic channel, which is basically the most amazing tv channel ever. i don't even like tv, but national geographic is so great. we used to have a million around the house when i was little, i think someone had a subscription and i remember how much i loved the beautiful photos and the articles were always so interesting... i think i am going to buy a subscription tomorrow.

i'm supposed to go out tomorrow night, and i really don't want to. i have to spend most of sunday with various children at 2 different jobs and being super tired and watching children does not mix at all.

i think i should feel like a loser, but i have been trying to save money and help my mom out more. this recession really hit the housing market hard here. if there is one person who deserves anything from me, it's my mother. she drives me nuts sometimes, but it has actually been amazing having her around the past three years. i have some big shoes to fill...

i am dreaming of having all of my family in the same place for xmas this year, including that baby. i miss her so much.

night peeps!
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07/18/10 01:04 - 80.ºF - ID#52227

dying for Indian food

I have been wanting Indian food for so long!!! It is my most favorite in the whole world!!!

My next day off is Tuesday and I am determined to stuff myself full of delish naan and curries. Currently searching yelp for the best in the valley.

I will drag my lil cuz along and even drive and pay for her if I have to...

Samosa... I love you so!


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07/17/10 11:00 - 75.ºF - ID#52220

change

so here's the thing:

i over-analyze everything in my life, including people and situations, relationships, moments.

anywho, i started wondering about change and people. do we just become better or worse versions of ourselves, or do we actually change?

i guess i would say i have changed quite a bit, mostly for the better. my biggest vice would probably be that i love gossip and talking way too much. there are situations where silence really is golden and i feel like i just continue to talk way too much about meaningless things that are none of my business.

the changes for the better would be that i know myself better now, and have more confidence in the direction i am headed in. i'm not afraid to be alone, or be lonely. i don't feel like i need to be popular and have everyone like me. i just feel stronger in general.

but, is this just a more mature version of me, or did i get rid of some of the bad things?

i look at people i have known for a very long time who seem to be the same just older, and maybe a wrinkle or two. then there are others who seem to have fallen from their pedestal to become a very sad weathered version of who they once were.

how much of the choices we make affect who we become? do our lives have some sort of path set out that we have less control over than we think, or do our actions set the path...

i would say it's probably a bit of both.

i was bored at work today, had a lot of time to think.

i just wonder if most people have this vision of what they want from life, and if some people eventually let that go and just settle for something less lonely or more convenient.

i feel like so many amazing things are possible for me, and my life is pretty great right now... but i never want to settle. i realize i am probably not going to be world famous and swimming in designer clothing and diamonds... my wishes are simple for the most part:

1. finish my education.... this is the most important, because it will allow a much greater chance of the other things happening.

2. travel... i want more tropical, more adventurous, and more exotic destinations on my road map.

3. family. i already have this, but it would be great to see them more, and for us to all appreciate each other and get along(mostly)

4. love. any kind really. friendship, or romantic, or even the love from a child(which, sometimes i think is the greatest love of all, not the one whitney carries inside of her. she smoked crack and i don't know what love she is talking about.) i just want my life to be filled with any kind of love that is pure and honest. maybe i can just kidnap my niece? who's hard up for cash and wants to run an errand for me?

5. beauty. i hope to age well... this is think can be made possible by eating way less cheese and doing way more pushups. i drink water, and take care of my skin. exercise will need to be increased; greatly.

6. diamonds, and various other precious gems. i have started collected some nice pieces, and i hope for this little collection to grow greatly in the next ten years, by donor or self purchase, i don't care. i just want the jewels. and on a totally off note, wouldn't it be awesome if there was a nice restaurant where you could go and the would serve you like kings and queens and they let you borrow jewels and crowns and beautiful sparkly things while you ate 15 different kinds of delicious meats???? it's really not possible, but i'd like to think of it as pretty pretty princess, with steak and pork, and the like. basically, my dream come true and i would like to move this to the top of the list, but that makes me and empty person, and im trying to fool you into thinking i actually have a soul. jk, sorta.

and that's it. that being said, i am really going to try and get up t 5am for a hike... which means i should go to bed now. which makes me the oldest young person... who's trying to stay young.
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06/17/10 08:04 - 68.ºF - ID#51936

attack of the robots

So I think my sadness is mostly gone... Maybe I just needed sunshine? Oh, and a long chat with (e:brit)! ;)

Anyway, I seriously hope that brit is gonna visit, I miss her and we would have so much fun!

The children I work with have these scary new robot toys that walk around and make noises... I hate them, they freak me out. What ever happened to lincoln logs?

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06/17/10 11:54 - 62.ºF - ID#51933

a general sadness

this has nothing to do with this post, but nice job on the site updates (e:paul)!

maybe it is because my niece left, or maybe it is because i'm tired of working so much and making no money...

i just feel kinda down lately. i doubt it's lasting, i sometimes get like this for a few weeks and totally snap out of it. no one would ever really notice either because i am pretty good at hiding my true feelings most of the time.

i wish i could take a trip and go somewhere tropical, well, i bet we all wish that. i really wish i could take that trip with my whole family, i really miss my sister and brother and that amazing little baby.

i need to get in exercise mode again, because that always makes me feel super good. the last two weeks, no three weeks, i have been a consumption machine, eating anything and everything in sight. i don't think i have gained weight, but i have some pool parties and resort stay coming up.

another major downer is the shiteousness of the dating here in az. i have never met so man sketchy men in my life. i feel like everyone here is kinda passing through and it's a huge valley with lots of people and men here just seem off. not just their style, but their personalities as well. they all lie.

pretty sure one of my closest guy friends is really in love with me, but he is not for me. not that way at least, and he tried to set me up with his friend who seemed just my type and he turned out to be jerk of the century.

i'm hoping the transition to asu will welcome fun new people, however most of the people in the education program turn out to be super conservative goody goody types...

was so bored yesterday morning before work, i cut bangs. they at least look awesome.

and if one more person refers to me as: missy, honey, sweetie, gorgeous, cutie, baby... i will scream

supposed to go on a date on sunday, but not super excited.

i just want to lay in the pool and at pizza and drink champagne, and ignore everyone except for my lovely ginger friend...

i think a blo trip is going to be needed soon... before the tundra settles in.

plz send (e:paul) and (e:hodown) to me. thanx.
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06/12/10 08:27 - 68ºF - ID#51862 pmobl

thievery

I went to my fav restaurant in town last night... Southern Mexican... Bario cafe.

Brought my leftovers for dinner as I have to leave the hospital and go straight to my other job, which will equal about a 15 hour day.

Someone ate my food! Everyone denied it but I know who did it, I've seen her do this before. Payback time. I'm bringing in delicious looking tainted food from now on, so eat away slumdogs!

I wouldn't eat food in a takeout container in a communal fridge, who knows how long its been there?

This whole ordeal has sent me over the edge! People should know not to mess with my food, I'm crazy and I am going to find out who it was and that person is going down peaches!
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