seriously. why can't there be better technology, so cars are wya fast, and people can just go wherever in their cars. oh wait, you can just go wherever, if you are super rich and have a jet.

considering the fact that i am not fergie, i will be limited to common travel.

my flight was supposed to take off an hour ago, and it's now 12:37am. i'm fucking tired, and i will for sure not make my transfer in nyc. this means, my already short three days in blo, will be shortened to maybe 2 1/2.

if the plane is not taking off tonight, i am not sure i have it in me to only come for two days. fuck you jet blue. the last three time i have flown your shitty as airline, you make me wait. you made me wait for 4 hrs in the plane. now your computer system doesn't work. wow, i feel really safe getting on a plane with a faulty navigation system.

i am so done flying jet blue. i was willing to forgive a few times, but when they get a call from me, tomorrow, i am going to be really really pissed off. they will pretend to be all sorry and give me a voucher, so now i will have to fly there crappy airline again.

i didn't have time for dinner, and was at least looking forward ot a glass of wine on the plane, or three and some snacks. but now, i am stuck in this airport, where nothing is open, not even a bar, with no food, and no travel in sight.

at least they have free wifi.


in conclusion, i really feel like being a traveler by plane these days, is more like incarceration.

i don't want to view life as a series of disappointments, but sometimes it just seems that way.

funny how some things fall at exactly the right moment. i know this trip to buffalo will be insanely cold, but it will warm my heart.

i really like it here, but the saying, "there's no place like home", rings so true right now. i need to see my friends, and get hugs, and drink beer.

i don't even remember the last time i had a beer.

i think i need to take another break from dating. i need to acquire a tougher skin. but maybe not, maybe the fact that i am so sensitive is what makes me, me. the momma says it is a good thing. i really should just listen to her more. she said, "be careful sarah, you have a soft heart". why do moms have to be so spot on?

maybe i will try an experiment next time and just do what she says. i bet it will turn out the way she says. she has the magical mom knowledge. yea, i'm the biggest mommas girl ever. i don't care. she's amazing and the only one who has never let me down. she always knows the right thing to do, and she is such a great example of an amazing woman. she never acts in spite, and she learns from life and moves on. she truly lives everyday to its fullest and appreciates all that life had to offer. it can also be a double-edged sword. i am a child of privilege and have been given more or less everything i want and need from my mother. i am spoiled. i expect so much from people, and i think that i expect people to be so great like her, which is asking way too much. i have also been extremely spoiled by (e:hodown), who i refer to as mom #2. it is insane. who else has a mom and sister that pays for fancy dinners, lovely trips, and pretty jewelry. especially since living here; the term, "the good life", seems underrated. i get to live in one of the most beautiful places i have ever seen, rent free, along with all of the perks that come with it. so, when other areas of my life don't match up, i shouldn't be so alarmed. i don't think many things will be as good as the two leading ladies in my life. i will just have to accept it, because most people aren't nearly as lucky as i am. i can say, i have two people in my life, who i know will never let me down. i wish i could say the same for myself, but that i am working on!

now, if i could just learn a thing or two from her, i would be good to go. unfortunately, being young seems to be the endless trial and error period. it goes something like this:

• lead yourself into the unknown
  
• realize you should not have done that
  
• feel the burn
  
• probably do it again, unless you realize not to

so, with that said, i accept my role as a ignorant creature who will be tested for years to come. i just hope i don't come out on the other end with too many wrinkles, but i suppose there is always botox for that.

i currently like delicious looking men who wear nice clothes and shoes, and take me to swanky wine bars and talk about education.


i also like new dresses and shoes.


i love my car.



i also love to dance, and i expect to dance a lot this week.


yum is my new favorite word.

will ferrell is the answer. he really is. why can't he be my friend in real life?





it could be worse. at least im making like 20 bucks an hour to sit here and do nothing. it could be worse.

omg!


ok. i am working at the hospital today, and my manger just told me that my crush is working today in the ICU. i have no reason to go to the ICU, but to admire his fine man self.


i am looking alright today, so, what do i do?


he makes me so nervous, i can barely put together a sentence. maybe, i should pass by the ICU asm any times as possible. oh my. someone told he broke up with his lady, not that it matters. i will keep him as fantasy!


ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh man.


i think i'm just going to be a huge loser and stay in the office and avoid the situation alltogether.... or not. can i have a drink before? i mean, i'm at work, but it's ok, right????

i feel like i never post anymore. not that i don't post, just not as much. anyway, i'm so busy, by the time i get home, it's all i can do to wash my face and brush my teeth.

since i use this place to rant, these things are currently really bothering me:

• the people i work for constantly feed their kids mc donald's. now, i will admit to oreviously eating that shit a few times a year. but, i watched part of "supersize me", and i can honestly say i would rather go hungry than ever eat one of those fries again. something is not right when a french fry lasts a few months in a bell jar, looking the exact same after all that time. wtf is in those things? i will never allow my chldren to eat that. wendy's maybe and in n out burger, and some other crap food, but never mc donald's, ever.

• so many people seem to spend less time with their children than they do at work. i vow to never have children unless it is the other way around for me.

• i'm beginning to question the consumption of alcohol. now that i never drink, the thought of a hangover makes me not even want any. plus, so many of my relatives are messed up because of it. what would you consider an alcoholic? someone who has more than two drinks a night? or someone who only drinks heavily on the weekends? i definitely wont stop drinking totally (plus i know ill drink a lot when i'm in town next weekend(maybe)), but i've been dd recently and when i see all of the drunkies and i'm not drunk, it's kinda gross. plus, i feel a whole lot healthier.

• wells fargo can kiss my ass. i had my bank card stolen, they used it, and then i thought it was resolved. then they send my some dumb form and say i have ten days, don't even give me ten days, and then take the money out of my account again. seriously, i am so over their lame ass charges. it's like they are waiting to throw some fine at me every chance they get. i hate corporations.

anyway. i am supposed to work friday, but i think i am going to take at least most of the day off to see granny. i feel so guilty, but the only free time i have is before 7am and after 9pm, and she is def not up at those times.

i think i have been seeing someone for the longest amount of time in over a year. we are pretty different, but he is a pretty nice guy. i wonder if i am capable of dating right now, i mean anything more than a fling, and who knows what he is thinking, but im just gonna go with it. plus, valentine's day is next week, and thankfully i will be headed on a red-eye to blo, so we can just avoid that altogether.

i really, really hate dealing with the bank, and i am not looking forward to the yelling i will have to do tomorrow to get this straightened out.

have to go, boy calls!

but seriously, is there anyone out there that thinks the superbowl is a waste of time?


i do.



and people think im crazy.


i don't get it, maybe its just another guy thing. so glad im not a guy.

that one day everyone will love things like,

"my so-called life", and the fact that it is broadcast on abc.com, as much as they love the lame-ass superbowl.

really people, get over it.


dats right, i be hatin.


maybe i just have absolutely no man in me. i mean, there's been men in me, but no man in me.


i think i want to just chill out and drink wine tomorrow, and watch the series, "plant earth". i just got netflix again, and i really feel like it is the best way to go. or not to go, to any event realted to the superbowl.


p.s. if i see one more stretch hummer limo, i am going to barf, or run, they might have crystal adorned grenades in them. speaking of which, the club i "tried" going to tonight kept yelling out, "fire marshall! if you guys don't get back, we are going to shoot!" i so should have made a video with my phone. any talk of violence, and im out. peace be with you as well, i am going to go home, and have my private dance partay and a glass of wine!

my scuured of superbowl face!

i have decided i cannot come back to blo until global warming really settles in. its about 45 here now and blustery, and i am dying. i'm dying.

i cannot take the cold. brrrrrrr.

it's amazing how much i am loving school right now. i actually look forward to class(except spanish, which is like 4 hours long and awful). i really enjoy my professors, and respect them. teachers are just such cute and loving and great people! yay!

my next goal is to get a full time job as a teaching assistant. even if i only work 20 hours, i can get full benefits, which would be so great. i just have to figure out how to work around my other jobs, and such.

anyway, it is so hard to find time for anyone/anything lately. school and work are great, but so consuming.

i need to make more time for the fam, esp granny. she is not well, and my time with her is precious. for a sick old lady, she's such a little sparkplug.

plus, i have been seeing someone. but i don't want to get too much into that. i will say, it's good times. ;O)

of some sort of neurological disorder has settled into my brain. seriously.


i am incapable of going even one day without losing something important. a bank card, an address, my phone, some cute accessory.

i have been hanging out with this dude. anyway, i left my hone at his apartment, and i don't have his number because it is in my phone. he probably doesn't even know it is there because i think it fell outa my purse and went somewhere under the beds. beds are such a bad place to lose things. it's like an endless abyss of forgotten things. seriously, sometime i go, what i like to call, "under-bed shopping". i clear out the crap from underneath and i find items like a missing shoe, missing clothes, even books and magazine i was reading and lost...

the moral of the story is, i can't wait until people are slightly more like robots. then i won't need a stupid phone.

plus, i hope he doesn't turn it on and look through it. there's only like 10 numbers in it, which kinda makes me look like a loser, but i lost everyone's number when i lost my last phone, and i never call anyone anymore. if you read this and i used to have your number, email it to me ok?

this sinus infection is killer, i took a five hour nap today, and i think i'm gonna go to bed in a few. today was a buffalo kind of day, rainy and cold, and i accomplished nothing.

basically my goal for this week is to go through it and not lose anything. i am going to try, but i think it will be really difficult.