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Category: crush

02/08/08 04:16 - 31ºF - ID#43247

makes my heart skips at least two beats


ok. i am working at the hospital today, and my manger just told me that my crush is working today in the ICU. i have no reason to go to the ICU, but to admire his fine man self.

i am looking alright today, so, what do i do?

he makes me so nervous, i can barely put together a sentence. maybe, i should pass by the ICU asm any times as possible. oh my. someone told he broke up with his lady, not that it matters. i will keep him as fantasy!

ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh man.

i think i'm just going to be a huge loser and stay in the office and avoid the situation alltogether.... or not. can i have a drink before? i mean, i'm at work, but it's ok, right????
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Location: Buffalo, NY

02/06/08 11:14 - 31ºF - ID#43222

i think i complain way tooooo much!

i feel like i never post anymore. not that i don't post, just not as much. anyway, i'm so busy, by the time i get home, it's all i can do to wash my face and brush my teeth.

since i use this place to rant, these things are currently really bothering me:

  • the people i work for constantly feed their kids mc donald's. now, i will admit to oreviously eating that shit a few times a year. but, i watched part of "supersize me", and i can honestly say i would rather go hungry than ever eat one of those fries again. something is not right when a french fry lasts a few months in a bell jar, looking the exact same after all that time. wtf is in those things? i will never allow my chldren to eat that. wendy's maybe and in n out burger, and some other crap food, but never mc donald's, ever.

  • so many people seem to spend less time with their children than they do at work. i vow to never have children unless it is the other way around for me.

  • i'm beginning to question the consumption of alcohol. now that i never drink, the thought of a hangover makes me not even want any. plus, so many of my relatives are messed up because of it. what would you consider an alcoholic? someone who has more than two drinks a night? or someone who only drinks heavily on the weekends? i definitely wont stop drinking totally (plus i know ill drink a lot when i'm in town next weekend(maybe)), but i've been dd recently and when i see all of the drunkies and i'm not drunk, it's kinda gross. plus, i feel a whole lot healthier.

  • wells fargo can kiss my ass. i had my bank card stolen, they used it, and then i thought it was resolved. then they send my some dumb form and say i have ten days, don't even give me ten days, and then take the money out of my account again. seriously, i am so over their lame ass charges. it's like they are waiting to throw some fine at me every chance they get. i hate corporations.

anyway. i am supposed to work friday, but i think i am going to take at least most of the day off to see granny. i feel so guilty, but the only free time i have is before 7am and after 9pm, and she is def not up at those times.

i think i have been seeing someone for the longest amount of time in over a year. we are pretty different, but he is a pretty nice guy. i wonder if i am capable of dating right now, i mean anything more than a fling, and who knows what he is thinking, but im just gonna go with it. plus, valentine's day is next week, and thankfully i will be headed on a red-eye to blo, so we can just avoid that altogether.

i really, really hate dealing with the bank, and i am not looking forward to the yelling i will have to do tomorrow to get this straightened out.

have to go, boy calls!
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Category: superbowl

02/03/08 02:44 - 34ºF - ID#43159

im getting alot of heat

but seriously, is there anyone out there that thinks the superbowl is a waste of time?

i do.

and people think im crazy.

i don't get it, maybe its just another guy thing. so glad im not a guy.
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Location: Buffalo, NY

02/02/08 03:42 - 32ºF - ID#43140

im scurred of the superbowl!

that one day everyone will love things like,

"my so-called life", and the fact that it is broadcast on, as much as they love the lame-ass superbowl.

really people, get over it.

dats right, i be hatin.

maybe i just have absolutely no man in me. i mean, there's been men in me, but no man in me.

i think i want to just chill out and drink wine tomorrow, and watch the series, "plant earth". i just got netflix again, and i really feel like it is the best way to go. or not to go, to any event realted to the superbowl.

p.s. if i see one more stretch hummer limo, i am going to barf, or run, they might have crystal adorned grenades in them. speaking of which, the club i "tried" going to tonight kept yelling out, "fire marshall! if you guys don't get back, we are going to shoot!" i so should have made a video with my phone. any talk of violence, and im out. peace be with you as well, i am going to go home, and have my private dance partay and a glass of wine!

my scuured of superbowl face!
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Location: Buffalo, NY

01/31/08 02:24 - 23ºF - ID#43110

the cold

i have decided i cannot come back to blo until global warming really settles in. its about 45 here now and blustery, and i am dying. i'm dying.

i cannot take the cold. brrrrrrr.

it's amazing how much i am loving school right now. i actually look forward to class(except spanish, which is like 4 hours long and awful). i really enjoy my professors, and respect them. teachers are just such cute and loving and great people! yay!

my next goal is to get a full time job as a teaching assistant. even if i only work 20 hours, i can get full benefits, which would be so great. i just have to figure out how to work around my other jobs, and such.

anyway, it is so hard to find time for anyone/anything lately. school and work are great, but so consuming.

i need to make more time for the fam, esp granny. she is not well, and my time with her is precious. for a sick old lady, she's such a little sparkplug.

plus, i have been seeing someone. but i don't want to get too much into that. i will say, it's good times. ;O)
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01/27/08 11:26 - 29ºF - ID#43054

the beginning stages,

of some sort of neurological disorder has settled into my brain. seriously.

i am incapable of going even one day without losing something important. a bank card, an address, my phone, some cute accessory.

i have been hanging out with this dude. anyway, i left my hone at his apartment, and i don't have his number because it is in my phone. he probably doesn't even know it is there because i think it fell outa my purse and went somewhere under the beds. beds are such a bad place to lose things. it's like an endless abyss of forgotten things. seriously, sometime i go, what i like to call, "under-bed shopping". i clear out the crap from underneath and i find items like a missing shoe, missing clothes, even books and magazine i was reading and lost...

the moral of the story is, i can't wait until people are slightly more like robots. then i won't need a stupid phone.

plus, i hope he doesn't turn it on and look through it. there's only like 10 numbers in it, which kinda makes me look like a loser, but i lost everyone's number when i lost my last phone, and i never call anyone anymore. if you read this and i used to have your number, email it to me ok?

this sinus infection is killer, i took a five hour nap today, and i think i'm gonna go to bed in a few. today was a buffalo kind of day, rainy and cold, and i accomplished nothing.

basically my goal for this week is to go through it and not lose anything. i am going to try, but i think it will be really difficult.
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01/26/08 03:28 - 24ºF - ID#43044

un question for the e:strip resident,

or anyone who knows really.

is it true you aren't supposed to drink alcohol while taking antibiotics? i went to the doc the other day, and it turns out i have a nasty sinus infection. i am taking antibiotics, and am curious if it is harmful to drink while taking them.

so, i will not be in the blo next weekend. i changed my flight to arrive feb 15th. consider me your late valentine. i will be prepared to give, cleavage, love and chocolates! all while wearing bright red lipgloss.

i decided to postpone the trip for a bit because of work and school. also, granny is back in hospice, and i have been a bad #1 grandaughter and haven't spent much time with her as of late.

its so strange how time flies and i am beggining to feel like someone who lives here, as opposed to someone who just moved here. i am definitely liking it so far, and there have been many adventures.

with any luck i should be able to tranfer to ASU in a semester, and be that much closer to being done with school...finally. sorta, because then i will need my masters.

anyway, have a good weekend peeps!
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01/24/08 02:45 - 21ºF - ID#43012

not enough time in a day

this seems to be the current theme for my life.

school is going really well this semester, minus the fact that i didn't make it today. i have succumbed to my mystery illness and made an appointment to see the doc. i figured one week of coughing fits and little sleep, and i should go see whats up.

i think im going to have to change my flight and cut my blo trip and bit shorter. im thinking of flying red eye or something thurs, instead of coming wed. i just don't think it would be a good idea to miss two days of class.

i also think i need to stay home this weekend and chill out. the going out things does me in. is this part of my new im getting a bit older thing?

anyway, i feel really upset about the whole heath ledger thing. its always so weird when someone really talented dies. i always though he was more on the normal side, but i guess not.

hi ho hi ho, it's to the doctor i go!

p.s. i lost my keys again yesterday. that has happened twice in two weeks. any suggestions?
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Location: Buffalo, NY

01/16/08 09:44 - 30ºF - ID#42918

i hate the dentist

they drilled the fuck out of my mouth today, and im so numb i can't move the right side of my face.

i also can't eat. my dinner was a jamba juice. not my ideal. i don't like skipping meals.

i also had a $90 copay, goddamn. then next visit, i prob wont have insuranance, so im sure ill have to shell out like $500.

a least its like mouth insurance. i want to keep my pretty smile.

i also wanted pain meds, but they wont give me any. what the fun of this if i don't get meds?????? im pissed.

in better news, my purse was stolen over the weekend, and some fucker who got my check card spent $150 at a gas station. i cancelled the card sunday, it didn't show up until today.

i also got into a bit of a fight with some girls in my class. i really like my classes, but the people in them not so much.

i can't wait to be in blo, and just drink and drug away all of this aggression. haha. just kidding. sort of...

i am learning spanish, so that i can maybe finally speak to all of the mexicans who think i am mexican too. hola senor!

i am gong to now spend the rest of the night trying not to bite my tongue!
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Category: computer talk

01/11/08 04:10 - 39ºF - ID#42842

pc's from, the stone age

so, at my one job, the hospital we are still running on windows '00.

does this seem off to anyone else?

until recently, my technology was behind. but this is just so fucking bad. the computers are also about 8 years old, and it all just seems so rediculous for a hospital.

the technology here is a good 10 yrs behind, if not more. it seems like they could cut down on costs so much if they just invested in some better pcs, and equipment to bring this place into the 21st century....

with that said, i am going to recreate the spreadsheet that was deleted because the pc froze.

old technology is like bad fashion, not ok unless you are third world. in which case, you could still have the cool little laptop for children and some colorful woven clothing your mama made for you, which is kinda fashionable still.
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