"better luck next week" written by Lilho on estrip.org

01/28/11 10:09 - 27.ºF - ID#53503

better luck next week

I'm seriously hoping next week is better than this week has been.

My loans have still not gone through and I'm literally down to my last dime. I would have never gotten this stupid diamond in my nose if I realized that my loans wouldn't go through until I'd been in school nearly a month.

To top things off my hearing aids are on back order and I can't hear a damn thing in class. People whisper shit to me all the time. I can't hear whispers. It all makes me want to just talk to no one.

Its tiring and frustrating having to constantly tell people to speak up and then to have them laugh because they think it is funny that I miss out on nearly half of all of conversations. It makes me want to crawl under a rock and not come out until I get the damn things and my money comes through.

I still have more books to buy... I'm not big on crying anymore but I'm just having such a bad week that I'm holding them back.

:o( next week will be better.

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Location: Phoenix, AZ
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01/26/11 11:20 - 28.ºF - ID#53497

my family

The elder members appear to have some issues. I feel they are racist and I hate it. Its embarrassing to me... Especially considering the fact that I am of mixed race.

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01/25/11 08:29 - 29.ºF - ID#53495

deafness and bad news

I will not be going to blo next weekend, everything is messed up with school right now...

I swear the one time I do things right... The outcome is unfavorable.

I'm really sad I can't visit but my brother isn't even returning my calls and I don't know if I would be able to see my niece. I'm so tired of stressful family stuff... Its mostly my brother and it just makes me so sad we can't ever have a nice holiday because he's there and we all fight or he's gone and my mom is sad. Now with the baby I just feel like he doesn't want us around her and she's the apple of my eye and I miss her so much.

My health insurance is actually paying for my hearing aids and I'm wondering where the h they are. I can't hear anything in class and I basically sit and don't talk to anyone because I can never hear.

Both of these things combined are making it hard for me not to turn into a pile of mush.

I will be visiting blo and have hearing aids by mid March or else. :o(

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01/23/11 01:34 - 5.0ºF - ID#53484

sparkle nose

i have wanted to get my nose pierced forever and just never did. i had my eyebrow pierced a long time ago which isn't for me anymore and i'm definitely not into tattoos or anything.

at first i was pretty shocked and thought it was too big but now i think i love it.... it's a real diamond in there.

if work or the school that i intern at get upset i'll just say i'm hindu now and it's part of my religion and culture.

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Location: Phoenix, AZ
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01/22/11 08:04 - 15.ºF - ID#53481

all the way

Went hiking with my momma and cousin Aubrey this morning. Hiked that mountain to the top and down! Woot! Not bad for someone whose only exercise has been shopping and eating for 8 months.

Exercise really does make you feel great and feels empowering. its like even though the world is full of jerks you can challenge yourself and always come out on top.

Go me, go hiking. I pierced my nose today and there's a diamond in there... It looks super cute and not like I'm alternative or anything- just a cute sparkly diamond! Yay!

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01/21/11 12:49 - 17.ºF - ID#53466

tea party time

(E:hodown) and I are headed for the grey skies of blo in two weeks. To what do you owe this excellent surprise?! A bday party for one littlest ho who happens to be turning 2 yrs old! I'm pretty excited....

Now I must find winter clothing damnit. Seriously... Not so excited about winter but I love my family and that baby and all my blo boyfriends.

Apparently because I am going to be a teacher that means I have to become bff with my classmates... Also one instructor passed around a list for each person to sign up to bring snacks in. Ok, I worked 40hrs a week in addition to my internships and 16 credits so sorry but I will not be wasting extra time providing a snack for 35 people. I don't have time for that. Also, while it would be nice to make a friend, I barely have time for the friends I already have so no - will not be making tons of friends at school. The only true friend I made thus far in college is (e:Tina)...

Do I just have a bad attitude? I just want to do well and keep to myself I don't like revealing a ton about myself to strangers which is why I have a blog... Ok that makes no sense. I doubt many people read this shiz anyway. And if they do I am not required to converse with them or provide them with snacks.

I have the weekend off go hiking!!! And hw... Boo. Maybe an adventure...yay!

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Last Modified: 01/21/11 12:49

01/20/11 01:48 - 20.ºF - ID#53460

more than halfway

So my obsession with the dance classes lasted about a week, as do all of my new favorite things...

I have such an odd schedule now that its hard for me to commit to a class especially with my friend being sick this week and I refuse to go alone.

Decided to hike with my cousin Aubrey this morning and three times a week for the next few months as a way of spending time together and also to do something healthy! I felt really on the mountain and was determined to make it all the way up when the wind caught speed and begin pushing us over. We gave in and headed down, partially because it was hard to breathe and partially because it was kinda scary... Here's a few pics. Of to 8 hrs of class and then a 12.5 hour work day tomorrow. Thank god for the weekend off.

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01/19/11 09:07 - 27.ºF - ID#53456

when you're alone

And life is making you lonely you can always go... Downtown.

I keeping getting that song stuck on my head. That rat or mouse from some movies sings it and he falls into the champagne glass... What movie was that???

Anyway, I want to go tropical so badly!!! I wish I could go over spring break but I don't like the thought of a giant frat party so I must wait.

I just really need an exotic trip or something to look forward to so I can get through the semester and a spa day is not enough and idk about vegas...

Maybe ill just wait til summer and surprise my moms.

Downtown. The lights are much brighter there, you can forget all your worries forget all your cares!

Apparently someone has enough time on their hands to place religious paraphernalia inside books they deem inappropriate at my local Barnes and Noble. I read valley of the dolls and then loved it so went to purchase another book from the same author and I found a card inside telling me I need to be saved because I am a sinner...

I might go back to the bookstore tonight and buy yet another jaqueline Susann novel and see if they placed this lovely trinket inside all of her books...

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01/15/11 10:37 - 24.ºF - ID#53445

simply put

sometimes men in general can be the biggest all around douches in the world. women too...

sorry guys i was stuck in the icu(guy c u today with an all male crew) and pretty much spent the whole day hating life.

they were either jerks who talked down to me or making weird passes or staring at my rear. eeew.

im accepting my non role in the dating world forever.

and i saw an rn picking his nose.

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01/12/11 09:55 - 19.ºF - ID#53427

most fun ever!

I am such a homebody these days... I decided to step out of my shell a bit this past weekend and go out and have some fun.

Fun is an understatement for the weekend... Probably one of the best weekends of my life!

Decided to go out dancing with my girl Liz on Saturday after a day of shopping and lunching with the moms. I bought her a laptop with a bit of help from (e:hodown). It felt nice to do something for my moms, she had a rough year.

So I actually was going to bail on going out because I'm lame but I'm so glad I didn't! We ended up meeting all sorts of characters and professional sports players which it seems I have a penchant for this, which is odd because I know nothing about sports. Anyway I yelled out to this guy who was talking to me that he looks like Lebraun James and it ends up he plays for the cavaliers, kinda a huge insult. Oops. He was trying to have an after party at the Ritz but we ditched out in favor of sleep. Then I met some former NFL player, which I again know nothing about.

Oh a whim I bought courtside tickets for the suns game and proceeded to sit directly behind the cavaliers player I insulted the night before. sitting courtside is like being in the cool club, it was so fun and VIP feeling.

Then we went dancing again Sunday night and they were all these people in town for the college football championships which I again had no clue about. We went this club that blasts cold smoky air onto the dancefloor, very fun. We ended up tearing up that dancefloor... So fun! All the pretty girls we asking to dance with us, I guess we have skills?!

Anyway, to top it all off, it has been comfirmed I will be starting my first block of the professional teachers program @ asu, so now I want to celebrate again! I'm proud that I finally have a set direction in my career. Asu is also a really good school so that makes me excited as well!!!

2011 is a year I definitely have a great feeling about!

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