so, when i was in blo, i went to america's best contacts and eyeglasses to replace my ghetto glasses with some nice new non-scratched ones. i was really happy with the prices and selection.

i didn't realize at the time, but they actually have one here in phoenix.

so, i get super excited last night because they finally came after 2+ weeks. now i don't have to walk around not seeing out of the right lense because it is scratched so badly.

so, i open the box, and try on the first pair, and they are fine. that pair was not even the pair i really liked. i go for the other pair, which i am super excited about, and they are some old man glasses for some stranger named "Vincent".

eff you america's best, now i have to wait a million more weeks to get my damn glasses, and send these ones back and everything. was it really that hard to send the right pair???? it's not even like the name "Vincent" is remotely close to my name. the glasses look nothing alike, and now i am just pissed.

at least i have one pair, but as we all know, having more than one is much much better.

i will be taking care of this situation today, and tomorrow.

my friend thinks the guy im seeing is a jerk, and she told me yesterday i shouldn't see him anymore. it was kinda like she was saying, if you see him, i don't really wanna be your friend.

she said a lot of nasty stuff about him. i really like him.


yea, he was mean to me the other night. but i think he had the right to be pissed. i had him pick me up completely wasted from that party i never told him i was going to, and i was dressed pretty skimpy. plus he thought my friend was gonna puke all over his car, and i got him lost like three times.

i talked to him about it th next day, sober, and everything was fine. but she can't see past the fact that we were the ones in the wrong in this case. he's supposed to be completely sweet and caring in that situation???

she says she will never like him and i am too good for him. i honestly don't think its her business to say.

i feel so weird about everything now, and i don't even want to be around her or anyone.

then she had lost her keys yesterday and kinda blamed it on me.

this all just really makes me miss the kind of friends who don't treat you this way, like (e:tina) , and (e:brit) .

i was never one to tell someone what to do, and i know she is just caring about me, but she is overreacting. she said, she didn't realize that i was the kinda girl who likes to get beat up by her man. wtf???? i don't think any man has ever hit me, ok maybe my brother, when he was a boy.

but seriously, just because someone is a jerk for an hour, that by no means turns them into a woman-beater.

i always admired this friend's strong will, but now she is just being a bitch. she said its not her fault she lost her keys, and tried to find someone else to blame it on. it is her fault. she never thinks she is in the wrong, but she is. and it hurts me that she called me a weak woman.

i feel like i will always feel weird around her now- and i wont ever want to tell her anything.

the basketball player invited me to his celeb pool party. my friend and i were super pumped. it was supposed to be last night but they changed it to during the day and my boss let me leave work early because the census is so low.

so i get to my friends and we get ready and start to pregame. i totally forgot to eat yesterday, because i had to get my work done in time to leave early and then i drank quite a bit, so i ended up pretty drunk. so was she.

we get to the party and its pretty cool. right away we started chatting up the people there and we were having a great time. i made friends with the bartender and he let me go behind the bar and chill with him. and then i got a few work phone calls, and went outside to take them. apparently this was not allowed because when i came back in, some scary man came up to me and asked me what the issue was. i said i didn't have any, and he told me that yes i did, and then this bitchy woman comes up and tells me flat out i need to leave, and gives me no reason why.

the basketball player's personal body quard and security guy watched the whole thing transpire and came over to see if we were ok, and asked what happened. i told him that i was told to leave and i didn't know why. he insisted that o go over and ask her- he explained that she is the property manager. so i asked her, and she said it was because when i went outside i shut the door too loudly. i explained that i didn't mean to , and reluctantly agreed to let me stay.

from then on, i felt like i was being watched, and we eventually headed outside. there was a and ice cream bar and i got some gelatto and was joking with my friend and dancing with her and feeding it to her, and some guys were watching us and came over to talk to us. then, the mean lady came back, and told me i had to go. the bodyguard saw this, and tried to reason with her, but i guess she just really hated me, so he rode back with us to the car in the shuttle. he felt really bad and didn't understand what i had done.

then my friend starts crying and gets really sick. she puked all over my car.

and i looked at my phone and the guy i've been seeing and really like had texted me. so i texted him to see if he could come get us, and it was disaster from there. my friends was a mess, and i wa so drunk. i am mortified now. i don't want him to see me as some drunken party chick. don't get me wrong, i like a party, but this was unusual. i don't usually drink very much, and i have never been kicked out of anything in my entire life.

he drove my friend home which was clear across town, and then i went to stay with him. he said he wasnt mad, but i don't know. i might be pissed. and he had to get up so early to go to some important breakfast thing.

i think i am done drinking, for a while. seriously. school starts monday and i have to do really well this semester. plus, i don't like drunk sarah. and i don't think she is attractive to the guy im seeing.

i hate letting people down. and i am embarrassed that i was kicked out the party, and then i probably looked like such a slut when he came to pick me up because i was dressed kinda skimpy and very sexy, but it was a pool party...

so it was lesson, no more crazy parties where i am in over my head. no more drinking. and be a little more classy...

so (e:mike) brought over this giant bag of candy to (e:pauls) on thursday night. what a glorious thing!!! i don't have any friends here, or anywhere else for that matter that are amazing enough to just show up with giant bags of candy!

in said giant bag of candy was a "pop rocks" chocolate bar, and all i could think was, BARF!

but it was sooooo good. i even have a video to prove it, but i have to steal the photo card reader at work to upload my pics tomorrow since i have now lost my usb cord for the 3rd time.

seriously, where do you buy these, and why are they not the #1 candy bar out there????????

i think i said i was gonna hang out with so many people while i was here in blo, but come to find out, i don't really feel like seeing much of anyone.

i am gonna miss tina so much, maybe thats why. i kinda just want to spend pretty much every moment with her. shes so cute and fun! and she likes to talk about fashion. and perez.

its gonna be so sad when i say goodbye, because she is really the last girlfriend i have. i have a few in az, but she is last of the the originals. its so hard to meet people that truly accept you and love you and im freakin gonna miss her.

ps. the weather here sucks which also makes me want to do nothing.


i think the tinster and i are gonna hit the mall today, that is pretty much my fav thing to do with her, shop, or eat chicken pizza, and i think we can do both!!!!!!!

i woke up thinking, dang its hot and humid up in this !@#$%!


our ac is broken for the second time this summer. im pretty sure it cost upwards of 2500 to have it fixed just two weeks ago, not even.

i am shit for real this better be fixed today. because i have lived 21 days w/o sleeping in my own dang bed, and i am not joking around i will threaten someones life if they don't get here.

no ac here in summer is like an eskimo without an igloo. i have to do laundry and pack for my trip and tomorrow is my day off to do that...

very much not happy right now.

i decided to come home from an 11 hr workday and highlight my hair.

i ended up looking like vitamin c, but not in a cute way like (e:hodown) . more like i tried to highlight my hair at home with drugstore dye, and it is somewhat orange and i look like a cheap whore.

luckily i keep around a few different colors just in case, even though i haven't let color touch my hair in two years. why i decided to do it tonight, who knows. my mind was made up. i think i had too much free time at work to read my new issue of elle, and i felt like doing beauty things.

anyway, its 1030, my hair has been rescued, and it now resting in a towel turban while saturated in about half a bottle of conditioner.

this is why i don't color my hair ever.

plus, my hair gets so damn dry out here, i feel sometimes that it might be a fire hazard... i would say the fire danger level is quite high right now. maybe a few weeks with no blow dryer will be a good thing.

i think the result of the color are going to be quite fabulous but this was way too much work.

lipgloss is never like this, a few seconds and boom! shiny colorful lips and it is beneficial for picking up guys and moisturization!

im sitckin with the gloss from now on people.

i am so tired! I've been working since 830 this morning. i worked at the hospital and then left to come here and work at my other job.

i am not sure sure what time the parents will be home, but hopefully before 11. i am not sure i can stay up that late!!!

did you ever get that tired feeling and your eyes just hurt and then you get an awful pounding headache? its like, your body know you need to go to bed and its punishing you for not doing so.

sometimes a whole day at the hospital can be really tough. our census has been really low, and they is actually not much work for me to do, since i handle all of the patients paperwork, appointments, and consults. but, it seems less tiring sometimes when it is busy, maybe because time passes quicker.

also, three patient passed away in the past day. that can be very depressing. especially to see the family, and you get to know that family members when they are there so much. two of the patients that passed seemed to be getting better, and then they just went like that. i saw one of them. i don't know i wanted to see him, but i did, and now i think i am going to have nightmares.

i really think nurses have one of the hardest jobs out there. doctors too, but sometimes i think nurses more so. they spend so much times with the patients and do all of the dirty work, and then when a patient passes, it can be like losing a friend.

i am happy that i am going to be a teacher, and i get to see the development of people, not the digression...

i miss my grandma. :(

when i see all of the older patients, so many of them are so out of it. my granny kinda lost it towards the end, but she still went so gracefully. i remember that last time i talked to her before she got really bad. i was holding her hand and thought she was sleeping, and she squeezed my hand, because she knew somehow that i was crying, even though her eyes were closed as she said, "I am going to be ok sarah."

it just made me cry more. she was so strong. she never complained, and even when she was dying, she was trying to make it easier.

it will be so good to visit her grave. i feel bad about not being at the funeral, but most of my extended family is just way too much for me to handle, and this way i can pay my respects in peace.

i think now is the perfect time to go to blo.

it's going to be really nice to not be in that hospital for a whole week...

i will be in tha dyrty buff....


aug 8th-15th.



that's less than two weeks from now....



:O)

one giant leap for me being on time...



i bought alarm clock today... i am officially becoming a responsible adult. really.

i get up for work everyday at 630. i floss- even though i hate it.



this is a huge deal, after years of using my cell phone, which is never the best idea. i hate having my phone on at night, unless im out or up. so, now i don't have to deal with texts or calls, and i can wake up to that age old lovely buzzing noise that many have come to know and hate...