11/24/04 11:28 - ID#26068

home again home again, jiggity jig

so, all my hs friends are home for the weekend, and im feeling like i don't even want to see them. i don't really want to do/see much of anyone, with the exception of about five people. the boys, tk, tina, nick, school people, and thats about it.

i think i have just totally distanced myself from my kenmore life. its too hard to think about being home, especially at times like this, when i live no where near my family, and
know i can't go home this weekend.

im sad. somehow avoiding things that i used to assocaite with home makes me feel better. ie, all my still packed things from my old room, old friends, kenmore, and such.

i hate the feeling of longer for a place that no longer exsists. i do however love estrip headquarters and the fact that it feel homey to me always.

this weekend: art project craziness.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

11/22/04 05:48 - ID#26067

hey hodown

i know the feeling. the past two nights my sleep has been interupted by less than cordial roommates.

lets go back to sat night: sleeping was going all right after working a long hard day. nick was over. five am comes. bam. loud drunk roommates outside of my door talking about bread bowls. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

sun night: excellent sleeping which is much needed to cure my sinus illness. 330 am. smoke alarms going crazy. open my eyes and nose to see and smell room filled with smoke. i begin to plan fire escape plan. i will just jump out the second story window into bushes and hope to only break oone body part. i head to the potty to tinkle. this fiasco has my bladder in a tizzy, and then head downstairs to see multiple high people eating some kind of snack food and begin to question what happened. idiot roommate(i.., typical male college idiot, sorry boys) dosent realize he should turn the damn oven off when the house starts to smell like charbroiled something. didn't fall back alseep til 5am due to the nasty smell. turns out it was a pizza roll, turned mini charcoal brick.

oh the joys of being this lovely college age, living with filthy, rude coeds. ;)

ps drove all the way to school today to find out there is none. sewage problem, ewww.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

11/21/04 08:41 - ID#26066

p.s.

my aunt wants to know what size underpants i wear. ? my faimly is strange.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

11/21/04 08:41 - ID#26065

church of capitalism

I Officially HATE THE MALL. there's no angry face, otherwise i would show it now.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

11/19/04 07:38 - ID#26064

can you feel the love tonight?

well, i can't. well, i couldn't. what ever happened to my f*&^%$# family? i feel like i have none. well, realy i don't. oh well. i guess its time to bite the bullet and grow up. growing up is the saddest part of my life thus far.

in other more uplifting news, i have a job interview on tues morning. to work with kiddies. i love the kiddies. better than selling lotion to suburbian housewives...gasp.
this job would mean full time regular hours, and an escape from lotion land, ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

my life right now, is completely opposite from what is was last year at this time. now, its a lot harder. i have to do stuff on my own. its hard. but i guess i know i can do it. life aint always fun kids, especially when you can't even remember the last time you bought a new tube of lipgloss, or anything besides food or gas.

i want to work with the kiddies...

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Location: Buffalo, NY

11/16/04 09:13 - ID#26063

people are so strange

paul wants to throw everything away

terry wants to keep everything

i really don't care.

but i did do their dishes today, those bitches can't clean up after themselves. the shame.

paul also wants to have an online sort of survivor show, but with maids, who will clean his house. oh boy

apparently my sister has a "house cleaner" as paul calls it. he wants one, so do i. matt says they steal stuff, all of them. hehehe....

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Location: Buffalo, NY

11/14/04 09:48 - ID#26062

i heart slumber

yea, that's right. sleep is the best. especially on a new bed, equiped with matching bedding, a mattress pad, and some nifty memory foam. it's weird though. i never sleeep well unless i know i am totally alone and have no interuptions. its always nicer to have a cuddle partner, by far, but im a mover and a shaker and bed hog. i obviously didn't learn how to share(the bed) at a young age. if you have a twin size bed, and you upgrade to an adult sixe bed, don't ever go back, you will find yourself wondering; how did i ever sleep on that tiny little piece of shit?

thats pretty much all i've got to say for now, well except the fact that this is world is incredibly cruel and cold(especially here in buffalo, well the cold part). and if i feel this way. how does someone in sub-saharan africa feel, or someone in afhganistan? you are wrong to say you don't care, but if you argue about it, you are really just the same as the person who doesn't care if you do nothing about it. anyway, if you have an answer to this problem, get back to me right away. im very confused.

12 hr day tomorrow, maybe i can fill my nind with thoughts of consumerism, tanning, hollywood, and anorexia while working at le mall. "ze establishment, peau, i spit on you."

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Location: Buffalo, NY

11/07/04 10:33 - ID#26061

sadness

I think the world is just a struggle, or I know it is. everyone feels lonely, sad, depressed some of the time; especially me. right now, my sadness is a result of feeling alone without any family nearby. I am so used to being surrounded by lots of people that spoil me and give me attention. now, being an adult, it is not my job to be cute, but to find a way to make it on my own. it's hard now, but I'll figure it out. any anyways, we aren't alone. there are people everywhere, and seeing that everyone can feel that same sense of lonliness, it is up to us to depend on eachother. thats what I think anyway.

holly, and soyeon, hang in there.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

10/30/04 01:49 - ID#26060

admitting defeat or something like that

ok. i was wrong. i guess the saying, "kill 'em with kindness" is right.

somebody i work with said some meany-poo things about to another co-worker, who happens to be a friend. this woman, should not have said these things, being that she is a true adult, family and all, but i shall not digress and nale the situation worse. i will ingnore it and just be nice. :) i really have been nothing but nice to these people, but you can't make people like you.

all i need is the people i got. i got some great people. they love me long time, and i don't even have to give them dollar.

oh fall, you are lovely. make the winter stay far and keep your colorful breeze close. ;)

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Location: Buffalo, NY

10/27/04 07:39 - ID#26059

PARTY, and other things

[size=m]Party on saturday! why? chemille tina and i have some reason to celebrate. the first is leaving for bigger better things. the last are having a late bday celebration. sat, the 30th. 930ish? byob, see ya'll there[/size]

in other news, i spent an hour in traffic today just trying to get on the 33, only to find out all of the entrances were blocked. so much for trying to get to school. i owe a lot of money for parking tickets. my ass is grass. ... moral of the story: mass transport. it would just make my life so much easier. sooooooooooooooooooooon. i love you nyc.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

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