07/13/05 10:51 - 84ºF - ID#26159

everybody's changing

and i don't feel the same.-keen

kinda how i feel. im just a little nervous. found a new place. have to get a new job. working in a salon. im nervous. i guess i just hate the idea of rejection, even though i've dealt with it and we all have countless times. i think, why can't someone seek me out and offer me a job at a great salon? that is not going to happen. somehow i hope it will.

i need to get over this. i need to face the fact that nobody is going to walk me through life, except me. nobody. you just can't depend on people to be there.

i keep thinking, man, this would all be a lot easier with nicole and tina around, and of course, (e:hodown). the big sis always tells it like it is.

i have no girlfriends here. jess is out of town, or always with doggie. nicole is always on some big epic adventure, and tina, well, ladt year was a bad year for us. we will see eachother more this year.

well, good day peeps. stay cool.

p.s. i did my mothers hair last night. amazing.:)

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Location: Buffalo, NY

07/12/05 10:18 - 81ºF - ID#26158

my mother is on something

something that makes her unable to sit still for more than two minutes. this woman is nutso. i am stuck where she is staying, while she is here, for the day, because i had to take my car in and she going off to meet some friends. hmmmm. a day spent in someone else's house waiting for my mother to come back from playing with her friends. i wonder how many paper airplanes i could make today. probably a ton, literally.

so, im hoping that the apartment i am sending my mother off to see while i'm at school today will be the one. im really at the brink of sanity.

im hungry, need breppast.

p.s. my street is covered with pollen. so if you are allergic, steer clear of ashland b/t bird and potomac.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

07/10/05 02:59 - 85ºF - ID#26157

i love sunday!

but don't we all?

started out with bacon and egg and one (e:thesimeon). then ooff to the boys for some cemetary walks and giggles with (e:terry). (e:matthew) was off taking pictures of pretty lady statues.

now, we are done with walk, and im hungry again! the guys are trying to get me to invite mommy ho over for some gumbo night...mmm. hmmmm. maybe.

either way, why must it be monday tomorrow?

below is a pic of (e:terry) speaking into someone's grave fountain. just can't ever get that boy to be serious. damn.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

07/09/05 11:45 - 71ºF - ID#26156

beach and mystery gash

just spent the last two nights at crystal beach. i come back thirsty, with headache and strange mystery gash between my eyebrows. it seems to be getting bigger. hmmm.

anyway, we jumped off the old pier thurs night, and i think i forever injured my ears. i figure in about 20 yrs ill just be totally deaf.

the beach is nice. just being by any water is nice. even if it is the chemical infested great lake erie. i do not like sleepy in gritty sandiness, so it will be nice to return to my bed tonight.

today is laundry and odds and ends day. tonight, the possibilities are endless. actually, that's not true. ill probably just finish the book that it has taken me forever to get through.

this journal has no real order of events, but, randomness is good.

so these beach people... they were cool. sort of friends of friends, or something like that. its nice to be around big families, but i guess its never as good as being around your own. its weird though, we never seem to be in the same place at the same time anymore. nobody lives in blo anymore,and i guess i wont stay here long either. its just getting harder and harder to make things work here, pkus there's a whole world out there, and i feel like im holding back. where's the crazy sarah of yesteryear? she's been locked away for quite some time now. ah well.

i miss the boys. i think they come home today.

p.s. i hope the mystery gash doesn't scar.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

07/07/05 12:29 - 73ºF - ID#26155

i hate boces

i called the director of my program to see about getting a job and she wont help me. ok. well, she wont even consider helping me, she says, because of my attendance.

the whole attendance policy is such bullshit. you can miss 50 hours out of 1000, and after that you must pay for the time you missed. why? if you aren't there, you are wasting anyone's time, using supplies, etc. other schools don't have this policy, and its complete bullshit, especially when you are working full time and going to school.

furthermore, none of this was even mentioned until after the fact. ok.

i guess this just solidifies the fact that hairstylists are cut throat people. do i want anything to do with this profession?

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Location: Buffalo, NY

07/06/05 09:03 - 67ºF - ID#26154

rainy day

its funny how my mother insists i get up early and get some exercise, and then im up before her. i don like sleeping in other people's houses/beds, its just no fun. the beds here are all hard and stuff. its like they put a board in there somewhere, not cool. also, all these people have to eat is packaged shit with msg and tons of sodium, hello bloating.

everyone has disappeared for the summer. blady blah blah. must find yet another jobby. i hate having millions of jobs. i just want one. i can't wait til the babysitting thing starts up again. watching little babies=fun.

what can we do on a rainy-poopy day?

p.s. I've decided that craigslist is a really fun website, and hopefully it will find me good new home and roomy.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

07/02/05 10:42 - ID#26153

blues

bills to pay. dues to pay. missing everyone. feeling kinda lonely. i wish i had a friend here. i had a dream about my old house last night, about my old life. I am sick of taking cold showers.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

06/29/05 12:09 - 75ºF - ID#26152

sometimes my sisters life seems a bit more fab than mine.

ps. nice userpic hodown

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Location: Buffalo, NY

06/29/05 12:05 - 75ºF - ID#26151

the dampness

is taking over my life.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

06/20/05 05:29 - ID#26150

i guess im on a starvation diet

since everything I've eaten in the last day just doesn't agree with me. :O( I'm not sure if it is a bug or a food allergy, but i just don't want to throw up again. unpleasantness. no sleepies.

im taking the night off, so that i can hopefully return to my normal self tomorrow. this means bland food, or no food and an early bedtime, if my roommates let me get to sleep early for once.

i still don't appreciate the sex story journal entries (e:egyptian), do you not know how to write about other things? the interent is filled with that stuff, take it someplace else. thankyou.

on a more random note: (e:hodown) gave me some lovely lace curtains on my most recent trip tp ny, or nj, rather. i just hung them on sat, and i must say, they make my quaint little room look that much nicer. i love bedrooms, and beds!

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Location: Buffalo, NY

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