"doesnt anybody stay in one place anymore" written by Lilho on estrip.org

03/09/04 03:40 - ID#25911

doesnt anybody stay in one place anymore

oh boy. paul is a lucky one. he gets to go to ny and visit the greatest sister ever. she will cook for him, give him special treats, and if he is sad or homesick, she will cheer him up with a cup full of whipped cream. i want to go, however, this ho has obligations this weekend. i must consol a heartbroken one coming from toronto, house one who waits to go home to long island, and entertain the aunty, and spend special quality family times.

i have come to the conclusion that extanded family can just get annoying, especially when you see at least five a month and they stay at your house, and possibly in your room. there is something about people sleeping in my bed that i just don't like. i guess i never really learned how to share.

i do love my granny, and she is not doing so well. her heart is pumping like is used to, and she doesn't know. i need to be a better grandaughter.

i just read emily's journal, and what she said about what you wrtie having to do with who you are. i don't know how accurate of a reflection my journal can be of me. i think it is hard to say when you cannot see someone or hear their voice, but the journal thing is fun, does anyone ever read this?

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Location: Buffalo, NY

03/07/04 08:19 - ID#25910

dirty martini, dirty bastard

people i miss:

jessica kim ho, i miss that girl like crazy. most of the time i just womder how much fun my life would be with her in it. she could be possibly the greatest person of my life that i never see or talk to anymore. jess, i shall visit soon ,or loose my mind trying.

friends away at school, such as jpo, nikki, amy, julie(even though she has forgotten me), i miss you all, and i miss rusty and spending crazy times with him and maria

i miss some realtives, the ones who aren't crazy, that only leaves a few

i miss those crazy elmwood folk, matt, paul, terry and the like that i seem to not see as much lately

i miss the boy that i love, who is great, who i have never met

why i don't write ever:
i fear i have nothing to say that would hold your interest, or anything that really matters in the big scheme of things. apparently, my life lacks substance. i need to just see my sister and get this horrible period over with

p.s. a shout out to all the dirty bastards of the world, i would like to order a dirty martini and throw it in your face. have a nice day!

if i didn't make this clear, i will go to great lengths to get to ny to see that crazy grand puba, maybe even become a stripper, as i was told this morning, it is where the money is. go figure. fuck college, just call me "candy ann ho".

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Location: Buffalo, NY

02/16/04 06:14 - ID#25909

sicky-poo-poo

sometimes paragraphs are just too much trouble so i shall list:

last week:

drank a lot of vodka and beer...fun for me!
still didn't get school stuff done, now i am soooo behind
finally met the dreadlocked polock(a dream come true)
ate a lot of yummy food
realized that the constant ringing in my ear needs to stop, does anyone have this? if you do, we should talk
plaster=fun. i made these cool little fishie guys, which i didn't nk would turn out, but apparently, plaste i not that hard to do, in fact it is kinda fun
made the decision to live in the dorms next sem!
made the decision to really start doing well in school
decided that i miss my sister way too much, and i shall visit ASAP

this week:

not sure how i feel about boys, or dating, or even bothering wit them at all
kinda sad, about lots of things
really happy that i have an awesome friend here, really happy
excited about camping
badgers,badgers,badgers, mushrooooooms, snake!
being sick and having your head feel like it is going to explode is no fun
new haircuts are cool

i guess i have nothing of interest to say, well except for oe very important thing. treats others as you would like to be treated. i sounds very cliche but it will come back around to you. be honest, kind, and generous when you can, you will feel better about you, and other people will be better too. *i didn't rhyme on purpose*

p.s. getting valentine's day cards in the mail, with cd's is so fucking rad.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

02/12/04 02:27 - ID#25908

read my journal!

i want to be the leader of the journal entry, read my journal...gross pictures and all. i must win. why is this a competition. the two greatest things of my week have been my child(vodka) and a new special friend(who i will not name, but they(he) has made my day), and finding nemo. that movie rocks, really it is great.
best quote from the movie:
dori: "i shall call you squishy, and you shall be mine!"

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Location: Buffalo, NY

02/12/04 02:21 - ID#25907

a small village in texas lost its idiot.

check it out, garunteed to make you hate bush even more!http://story.news.yahoo.com/news?tmpl=story&u=/nm/20040211/pl_nm/bush_marriage_dc_4

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02/09/04 02:57 - ID#25905

nothing new...

i thought i should update, but i really have nothing new to say. i have been very good at doing nothing these past few weeks; years.
i do need help with something though... i have an interesting new art project, and i thought the site would be a great tool to use. the project deals with the idea of time, and how ideas and thoughts are percieved over time. i hae to correspond wit at least tne people via many forms of communication. the site is perfect for this. first, i must come up with a theme, but when i do, be expecting email from me!
i have been antisocial. sometimes, i think i just need to not be around people, they are distracting. however, i shall return to visit my boys this evening, they are always good for me.
you should should listen to the music on the radio, elmwood radio that is, i kinda like it. have a good day all.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

02/05/04 01:35 - ID#25904

baby with two heads

i just saw this, and i think you should see it too...

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Location: Buffalo, NY

02/07/04 04:45 - ID#25903

i'm not feeling alright today...

ugh. i don't want to move to arizona, but the more i think about it, the less of a choice i have. i have no money, in fact i have negative money, and lots of it. if my mom goes, i have nobody here. this really sucks to think that in about five months, my life here will be non-existent. it seems right now, that there is nothing that i can do. i will worry about it when it comes.
my rich aunt and uncle came today. i drove my aunt and my cousin to the mall, where my aunt proceeded to drop a couple hundred on ugly clothes for my cousin, which i am positive she doesn't even need. and by the way, why does it take 15 minutes to pick out a tee shirt when they are all the same? well, minus the fact that each one has a different idiotic saying on it. the mall should be burned, who wants to help?
my cousin doesn't need clothes. i need 330 to pay my fucking car insurance. i need 100 to pay ub for tuition. i need 250 for books and art supplies.
not only do i drive them, and then find all the right sizes, but i carried in my cousin's bags. what the fuck" they might as well put a stamp on my ass that says "servant".
i am really sick of being used. being taken advantage of. i won't name names, but, you should feel bad, because i am having a shitty life right now.
and my neck still kinda hurts from sleeping on it the wrong way.
list of things and people i hate right now:
moms
relatives
brothers
boys...one specifically, all others are hated by default
winter
arizona
my car
my neck
salt
i will stop now.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

02/04/04 09:21 - ID#25902

nemo-na-nemo-na-nemo-na

we gon watch finding nemo tonight...fun times...during all the madness. my granny comes home tonight, i shall be happy to see her. i bought her some flowers, yay for granny. yay for maria, and yay for nemo. oh, and yay for eigthies.

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Location: Buffalo, NY

01/26/04 11:53 - ID#25895

aren't the colors pretty?

I was read some stuff for a class i am taking, and it is pretty interesting. so, i have decided to share with you.
just a little trivia about color...

colors and their meanings:

red= blood, martydom, sin, war, anger, fire, the sun sexuality, evil, fertility, masculinity, festivity

yellow= treachery, cowardice, light, truth, warning, cheerfulness, spirituality, the sun, gold, radiance, earth

blue= heaven, the celestial shpere, water, baptism, space, coolness, eternity, faith, serenity, wisdom, feminine

green= spring, ressurection, envy, holiness, charity, regeneration

black(which is actually not a color)= death, evil, darkness, vod witchcraft, sadness, mourning, time, rebirth

white(not a color either)= light, air, purity, marriage, death, redemption, innocence, surrender

I think that color is possibly the greatest thing ever, at least for me. it is sad however, that i live in such a bland place.

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Location: Buffalo, NY