Pretty sure I am going to die

I have this horrible feeling I am going to die soon. Could be the return of the migraine or the non-stomach stomach pain or the shoulder pain or all of it combined. Feeling sick all the time is really, really bad. If this turns out to be some long term I feel like this for the rest of my life thing, I don't know if I can handle it.

It's like all this skeletal pain mixed with intestinal pain.

I can't figure it out. Nothing particular makes me sick when I eat. Actually, the eating part is good, as is after. It is the when I have not eaten part that is really bad. My intestines get all bloated and my stomach starts making crazy noises. Between that and the noise my neck/shouler make now - I sound so broken.

I have finally made a doctors appointment with my cousin who is a gastrointestinal specialist for next week. I wish it was tomorrow, but tomorrow I am busy with the dumbness that is my life. I decided to forgo the primary care physician with the hope he can suggest one. I seriously just can't wait anymore. I am sure that will mean the stupid health insurance will not cover my visit but maybe it will because I went to him before. If it doesn't I am going to switch to another company just out of spite.

What is it going to be? What, and how did I go from feeling relatively fine to totally broken so fast. Could it be a lack of Vitamin D from my almost zero sun exposure this year?

This is interesting . I guess I shoulod be fit considering I walk "30 minutes a day, five days a week" I don't feel fit.

I have all these pictures I want to post but I can't move my head around enough to go get the camera.