Time and a few thoughts
First of all thanks @tinypliny for the invite to the Yoga class.... Hope everyone had a great time.... That pose in your Post I could never do that... That is some extreme body control... With all the Abuse I put my body through Yoga may have been a good idea... But I have no work out clothes then what do I do with all the stuff in my pockets and where to change and all that stuff argh.... Not to mention I have so little time......
I really do need more time with waking up and going to work and coming home it feels like a long day every day.... Not sure if it really is.... What I think this is leading to is that I will go and get my own computer when I get my taxes back. Yeah I over paid a bit at H&R block but the thing is no place does the state for free so If I was going to pay I might as well pay and not do any work then pay and still have to try and figure those things out.. I took all kinds of math in school and doing the state taxes is almost at that level...... See If I have my own computer I can do things like post photos here and download them and upload them as I watch a show... Now an action movie or show that would be out since the action you need to see..... I could even do stuff on breaks....
I don't like to mention work but it has been stressing me out lately maybe that is part of the reason I feel as though I have no time... Or maybe I just need a "Happy Ending Message "... Quickly I hate that I can't spell worth shit that is the wrong word but you all know what I mean (assuming anyone is reading this)... But I don't think it is really the time issue I think well I know I have some anger issues and some dealing with people issues.... But yet for some reason none of you e:peeps make me upset maybe it is an amount of time thing.... I think I might have PTSD.............
My thoughts on PTSD have changed a bit lately. At first I thought it is the military's fault for not training people the right way. But as I thought more that isn't true. What I think happens is that when you are in a war zone your body adapts you could even use the word evolves. Some where along the way you learn or maybe it is instinct like an animal that hunts and you learn to watch for things that are warnings or could lead to danger... It could be things like watching your shadow walking home, listening to all the sounds, when you see a person gaging if they are walking towards or away from you (blocks away)... But see I don't think this is a Disorder I think it is a way to survive... In the case of people in the military the problem is that they are no longer in a war zone (unless they live in a bad part of the city) ..... Yes there are other effects like loud noises freak them out again in a war zone that might be ok but a in a city where cars back fire all the time it can be a problem... But again The problem isn't with them it is that the environment doesn't match with them.... I do think that people who have it bad should be helped my the Military so that if they want to go and fight they can or so that they can work a normal job or what ever....
In my case: At work I'm all ways looking around seeing what is going on. But part of that is that I don't just do one thing. I need to access the situation. If the guy filling the line is running low I need to pick orders if that person has the line full then I need to help box... Once my boxes are backed up I need to send them through.... Sometimes the line orders are less important then the truck orders so I need to look and see what the stack looks like. Every time that door opens it could be someone bringing out more orders if it is what kind of orders are they and what does that mean for what I need to do... So maybe if that is PTSD it is a good thing to have at work or maybe it just seems like some of the same things.... Walking at night is all ways a blast..... But you know what is wild I could walk the streets of Toronto with 7 gangs and I bet I would feel safe something about those streets make you feel that way... But Buffalo you had better be ready to fight or run... Ok even during the day I'm often accessing the situation (not the guy from that Jersey show I've never seen).......... Not to mention in winter I have to look and see if there is ice to walk on .....
The Last two days I've taken the #22 home and that is kinda weird going past the Pilgrim Village... I used to be over that way all the time... It is also weird to see all the new stuff on City Honors and there is some huge building being built behind "The Village" that is kinda odd.....
Yesterday on Facebook I saw that for only $1200 a month there is an apartment above Club Diablo.... Wish I could swing that, it would be perfect.... Granted I think everything is included.... I would love to live downtown I would be right at Diablo and near the arena and the square and not to far from the waterfront it would be awesome but of course moving would blow hard. Why is that we use that as a bad term getting blown is great and often a key part to great sex......
All in all I am happy being single doing what a want to do and not being bitched at and not having to go yoga or some activity and then making someone else go to something they don't want to go to..... That being said I'm not anti Yoga... A cousin of mine was in a class for some time and really liked it.... But on the other hand finding a nice "Pin Up" girl who isn't controlling would be cool.... Again I like being single but after some time I think one starts to lose ones mind a bit...........
I had some other point or something I wanted to get to but it got lost in here someplace......
I really do need more time with waking up and going to work and coming home it feels like a long day every day.... Not sure if it really is.... What I think this is leading to is that I will go and get my own computer when I get my taxes back. Yeah I over paid a bit at H&R block but the thing is no place does the state for free so If I was going to pay I might as well pay and not do any work then pay and still have to try and figure those things out.. I took all kinds of math in school and doing the state taxes is almost at that level...... See If I have my own computer I can do things like post photos here and download them and upload them as I watch a show... Now an action movie or show that would be out since the action you need to see..... I could even do stuff on breaks....
I don't like to mention work but it has been stressing me out lately maybe that is part of the reason I feel as though I have no time... Or maybe I just need a "Happy Ending Message "... Quickly I hate that I can't spell worth shit that is the wrong word but you all know what I mean (assuming anyone is reading this)... But I don't think it is really the time issue I think well I know I have some anger issues and some dealing with people issues.... But yet for some reason none of you e:peeps make me upset maybe it is an amount of time thing.... I think I might have PTSD.............
My thoughts on PTSD have changed a bit lately. At first I thought it is the military's fault for not training people the right way. But as I thought more that isn't true. What I think happens is that when you are in a war zone your body adapts you could even use the word evolves. Some where along the way you learn or maybe it is instinct like an animal that hunts and you learn to watch for things that are warnings or could lead to danger... It could be things like watching your shadow walking home, listening to all the sounds, when you see a person gaging if they are walking towards or away from you (blocks away)... But see I don't think this is a Disorder I think it is a way to survive... In the case of people in the military the problem is that they are no longer in a war zone (unless they live in a bad part of the city) ..... Yes there are other effects like loud noises freak them out again in a war zone that might be ok but a in a city where cars back fire all the time it can be a problem... But again The problem isn't with them it is that the environment doesn't match with them.... I do think that people who have it bad should be helped my the Military so that if they want to go and fight they can or so that they can work a normal job or what ever....
In my case: At work I'm all ways looking around seeing what is going on. But part of that is that I don't just do one thing. I need to access the situation. If the guy filling the line is running low I need to pick orders if that person has the line full then I need to help box... Once my boxes are backed up I need to send them through.... Sometimes the line orders are less important then the truck orders so I need to look and see what the stack looks like. Every time that door opens it could be someone bringing out more orders if it is what kind of orders are they and what does that mean for what I need to do... So maybe if that is PTSD it is a good thing to have at work or maybe it just seems like some of the same things.... Walking at night is all ways a blast..... But you know what is wild I could walk the streets of Toronto with 7 gangs and I bet I would feel safe something about those streets make you feel that way... But Buffalo you had better be ready to fight or run... Ok even during the day I'm often accessing the situation (not the guy from that Jersey show I've never seen).......... Not to mention in winter I have to look and see if there is ice to walk on .....
The Last two days I've taken the #22 home and that is kinda weird going past the Pilgrim Village... I used to be over that way all the time... It is also weird to see all the new stuff on City Honors and there is some huge building being built behind "The Village" that is kinda odd.....
Yesterday on Facebook I saw that for only $1200 a month there is an apartment above Club Diablo.... Wish I could swing that, it would be perfect.... Granted I think everything is included.... I would love to live downtown I would be right at Diablo and near the arena and the square and not to far from the waterfront it would be awesome but of course moving would blow hard. Why is that we use that as a bad term getting blown is great and often a key part to great sex......
All in all I am happy being single doing what a want to do and not being bitched at and not having to go yoga or some activity and then making someone else go to something they don't want to go to..... That being said I'm not anti Yoga... A cousin of mine was in a class for some time and really liked it.... But on the other hand finding a nice "Pin Up" girl who isn't controlling would be cool.... Again I like being single but after some time I think one starts to lose ones mind a bit...........
I had some other point or something I wanted to get to but it got lost in here someplace......
I had no idea you were in the military. When was this? And were you army, navy or airforce?