Before I get into last night and my topic I wanted to give this link It is an article about bog sites in buffalo from the Buffalo News. I think it is good that (e:strip) was mentioned. I belive it was the first time ever in the news.

Over the weekend I was In a chat with (e:ladycroft) that really got my mind going last night. Or maybe it was just that I was tired and missed the first few minutes of The L Word and that and some of the closing ceremonies of the olympics; not sure. Last night I had trouble sleeping for some reason also so recalling my thoughts may come across in a strange way. I think that a lot of us guys are affraid of good girls. Yeah the slutly girls, or the dumb girls, or the ladies who only party and don't do anything with there lives are easy to take. But rad chicks who like sports. Or who are really smart. Or who have travled the world or are super busy. They are verry intimadating because we can feal that we arn't worthy or that why would they be with us. Sometimes we think wow they are so busy when would they have time for us and that can be a problem. I think another thing that hurts our self estem or confidance in our selves is that a lot of people lie or tell half turths and we know this so we don't know if ladies are telling us the truth or lieing to us. When it is some chick who is only a one night who cares. But when it is someone rad and we think that maybe she is saying stuff about how we are cool or good in bed or rad ourselves to not hurt us. Yeah so this soundend a lot better in my head last night. Sometimes a great chick is a lot more pressure for us guys. With how fast my mind was racing last night I knew if I wasn't able to post it then that it wouldn't come out right. Last night was verry strange I was fealling kinda down and not really lonely but sord of but once I started watching TV I mellowed a bit. I saw part of really funny cartoon on Adult swim called Moral Oral it was great maybe that is what put me over the limit or maybe I just wanted some hot chick to talk to, who knows.

For the ladies of (e:strip) I think I may need to start that service. Granted I don't have a cell phone or a car to get to anyone so I doubt the service will go anywhare really. Some people for theropy like to start politcal fights and name call online. But I'll take ladies hitting me if it makes them or myself feal better. I know there is something I'm forgetting. I wish I could write my thoughts the way they came flying out last night, they where driving me insane. If I feal I need to post before I go to bed it may be an addiction. On another note there is the lady I work with who if she gets mad or looks upset I always tell her she can take it out on me, she never does, but thinks it is funny. Oh in case no one can tell I'm a little fucked up in the head.

I admit this entire (e:robin) thing i don't know all the details on. But uncutsaniflush brought up some interesting points and questions. [inlink]uncutsaniflush,88[/inlink] I know that there are a lot of games that go on with dating. Then there are the rules. I don't get it just be your self. I couldn't date someone I didn't like. However that being said. Once I figured out or knew I didn't like them I might not end it. If we where really just having sex and not doing much else then I would keep having sex. I think that differant people want differant things from relationships "Girls don't like guys, they like Cars and Money". Sorry I had to break out into song. But some people want not to be alone, sex, money, drugs, companionship, a good friend, someone just to talk with, make someone else jelous, arm candy to show off, or have other motivations. It comes down to what the person is really after. IF some girl (who by the way would be nuts by the way) thought I was a stud muffin and wanted me just for that reason that would be fine, as long as she was honest about it. Granted it wouldn't last to long I don't think but that is ok. I have to like someone or at least think they are fun to be with but that is me. On the "Kicked to the curb" I don't really know what that means. What is differant about that then say a normal I don't want to be with you anymore? Rejection is very scary. But I would rather be rejected then to have some rad girl who dosn't like me go to movies with me and maybe a concert or two. I had some more thoughts after I read uncut's journal but lost my train of thought a bit. Games are one of the many reasons why i'm single. I think a funny shirt would be one that says "the only thing I'm good at is being single". or "I'm single, hopefully I won't screw it up like I do everything else". I know that there are lots of goldiggers out there. I have even heard that some ladies hang out near military bases or at bars where military men go. They are motivated by Money then when the guy ships off they have the house to them seleves. I think that is so wrong. I could never do that.