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Category: feeling lonely

10/31/05 07:04 - 56ºF - ID#28216

waking up tired and lonely?

I admit I did enjoy the party and had a verry good weekend. I would have been there sooner but I got into the sabres game then nooded off when the game was tied, woke up saw the highlites that we won. But when I woke up on sunday I was very tired. I came here and posted the pics and watched football. I have to admit I fell asleep on the eagles and woke up on the second quarter of the Bills game. I watched the end of that game, and saw them blow the game or maybe New England was really that good. But what I don't understand is why I woke up tired. I understand during the week when I have an alarm. I know there is this internal clock sord of. But with leaving so late that should have been thrown off and my body should have rested. The other weird thing is I felt kinda lonely all day. Lonely isn't really the right word to describe it. I have felt this way in the past after big events Like Warped tour and Edgefest. Events where there are tons and tons of people. It is a kinda let down and by yourself kind of fealing but not really lonelyness. Does anyone else know what I mean and had that or Am I alone on this one? (still fealing that way a bit today but not as much)

On a seperate note The Steelers are on tonight. I hope I can stay awake during Wrestling so I can check in on commericals and catch the end of the game. Go Steelers. Hey My Raiders and 49ers won and that dosn't happen to often in the same week anymore. At 8 i'll watch wife swap. I think that is a great reality show. There is no sex invovled it isn't that kind. Wives switch familes and see how other familes live for a week. Then after a week each wife gets to change how the family they are staying with lives. I think it is a cool way to see how differant people live in there familes and the culture of families. Most of the time both families at least change a little bit from the experance but there are a lot of bumps along the way.

I hope everyone is having or had a great Halloween. I can't chat cause I don't want to bump that dancing picture of TK down. Happy Halloween!!!!!!!!!!
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Category: photos

10/30/05 11:24 - 49ºF - ID#28215

The Party

I had fun last night at the Halloween Party. I admit I may have been a bit on the silent side. But over time as I get to know people better I will get louder. Not that I go to verry many parties but this was a differant kind for me. There are the family get togathers for graduations, then the house party with dancing and BBq's some time. Then there are those parties after a college sporting event. Where games of asshole (no idea how to play it but funny to watch) and all out wrestling have broken out.

I know if I list people that I meet for the first time I will forget someone not on purpose or anything but here goes, (e:jim) , (e:alison) , (e:Paul) , (e:Matthew) , (e:Drchlorine) , (e:terry), (e:Leetee), (e:joshua) and TK. Some quick Observation everyone there seemed cool that I meet. I don't know how to describe everyone and it really wouldn't be fair since it is my first time meeting them with the exception of (e:Jason) and (e:ladycroft) (she rules by the way). I will say this though Paul seems like a very cool mellow guy, I don't know what I was expecting but I wasn't that. Matthew (from what I over heard) is very smart. I can say that it was a verry positive experance.

In terms of costumes I liked Comic themes like Joker and Posion Ivy, and Aqua man. But I think the best one was Timeka's from metriod. Alltough I have to admit Marilyn was verry hot. I have a bunch of pictures I took below. Hopefully I will be at the next party to and get to know everyone a little better.

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Category: politics

10/29/05 04:07 - 50ºF - ID#28214

Current Beast Artvoice

As I'm sure a lot of you know there is a new "shitrag" as (e:jason) might call it called BUFFALO CURRENT. (I assume it is new and not the beast repackeaged, if you want to find out where there are a lot of strip clubs pick up nightlife magazine they have a lot of strip clubs listed in the back) I picked one up for two reasons there is an article I havn't read about Buffalo getting a stripclub or would that be not getting one. Plus my former bosses brother is a basketball coach and it might be interesting to read about him. Here is the part that I don't get. Why can't there be a Strip Club in Downtown Buffalo. I heard it wasn't the type of entertainment or venture that they are looking for. The same people who say this think A casino is Ok and and all the chipewa bars. For those of you who don't rember there used to be strip clubs there. I wasn't old enough to go. There is a strip club called the Colony in north buffalo. Not sure if Club Chit Chat is techniquly in Buffalo or not. But I think there is nothing wrong with having a strip club above a localy owned downtown restruant. Yes plays, galleries,sports, gambiling, drinking and finding a girl to take home with you is all fine and I don't have a problem with any of it. But I think it is hypocritical to say it is ok to get crazzy on the chip strip and bet all your money away but you can't look at topless girls dancing as you eat or drink. I think that what makes an area of a city or town is diversity. I will use Downtown toronto as an example. I don't know a lot about it so this is all just from personal knowledge. To me China town is part of downtown. You have small shops, places to eat, adult bookstores, various places to eat chains and non chains, drug stores, stripclubs, Theatre, movies, sports (leafs, raptors, blue Jays, the rock, The Argonots), The Eaton Center, and things at Dundas Square. I think that is what get people to come someplace. I have never been to NYC. But if I went to see {don't remeber the exact name of it} the stage verision of Monty Paythons Holy grail I would want to do more then just that. I would like to Visit Fuze, MTV, Hardrock cafe, Statue of liberty, maybe a rangers game and some fun at night. I don't think a city should turn down something down because it isn't part of what they think fits the city. Maybe some people who normally go see hot young girls in falls would go see the tamer Downtown version. Plus who is to say that once the casino is bulit that the Indains won't put a strip club on there land, who knows. It just pisses me off when everyone gets overly political and they wind up stopping things from happening. I don't think I'm ever going to see a new bridge built to canada. If this was a little ranty sorry, just wait untill I read the article maybe it will change my view a little.


I hope that the pictures I added to the post help to show my point. Since I have gotten the digital camara I do have Toronto pics but not as many diverse places as i would like. But I think that some of these pictures help to show what I mean. Yeah so one of the places I thought had a funny name. I don't think I have posted any of these pics before if I have sorry

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Category: sex

10/27/05 08:34 - 42ºF - ID#28213

gender

I admit that this post my wind up sounding kinda wacky but I appoligize for that in advance. Something ladycroft said in her post got me thinking. I forget what the comment was and I'm not sure what she meant entirely. It was something about how ladies don't have to look like clothes hangers. That got me to thinking about how I like some really thin un healthy looking girls like Fiona Apple and Paris Hilton (looks wise). But those are not the only type of ladies I like from a physical perspective. That got me to thinking about people who suffer from Body dismorphia, wich is basicly not matter what size you are not seeing how you really look. I know it is more complicated then that it is a disorder or maybe even a condition or mental illness. That got me to thinking about gender and how confussing that can be to somepeople. Someone can be born a man anatomicly and feal like they are a women. Then once they are a women still date women. That seems odd. Why not just be a guy and date them instead of being a lesbian. But it is more complicated then that. Just because your sex organs and your gender does or doesn't match is what makes you gay or stright those are two differant things that over lap. I know Jerry Springer wasn't the only one to say this "I'm a lesbian traped in a Man's Body" it was said jokenly because he was a stright guy. I think that if I was a chick instead of a guy I would still want to be with chicks. Ladies look so much nicer then guys do. I also think I would do guys to and do as many of them as I could, but I'm just guessing. Again I don't really have a point other then gender and sexuality is more complicated then a lot of people think. I'm a guy who likes ladies and find differant ones atractive for differant reasons and I'm lucky. Going up to someone to talk to them is hard enough. I can't imagine trying to tell if someone of my own gender is gay or stright. maybe I just watch to many educational shows and dramas like queer as folk and the L word. I did have sord of a point when I started this but I completely lost where i was going. Thanks for bearing with me, maybe I'll see you guys and gals around soon.
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Category: epeeps

10/26/05 07:16 - 45ºF - ID#28212

Rollins

Last night I went to see Henery Rollins (e:ladycroft) has a great post about it [inlink]ladycroft,92[/inlink] . It is hard to discribe spoken word. I'm sure she does a much better job of it then I do. I got to meet (e:jason) and (e:thecarrey) also briefly. It turns out we where sitting in kinda the same place but on oposite sides of the stage. I thought Rollins was great. I think he spoke for close to 2.5 hours. Some of it was really funny, some a little sad. But it was all very entertaining. I did buy a DVD of "the shock and awe tour" of his. I look forward to watching it. I missed him the last time he was here. Next time he does a tour I would love to see him again. I think it would be interesting to see him in another town and see if any of what is says changes and how. I don't see him bashing Oklahoma City if he was near by there. I Think that you can even not agree with most of what he said and still have a good time. You could go, I see his point but disagree and still find stuff funny. I got go and try to see some of that hockey game. Friday I go downtown again to see Gerorge Carlin. One thing I dissagred with was the hotness. Nobody ever checks me out, but that is ok I do so much of it I think I make up for all the people who dodn't check me out.
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Category: advertising

10/24/05 06:37 - 44ºF - ID#28211

flat screens

I admit that I like watching TV and some day I will buy a nice big TV. That way I can see great depth and amazing pictures weather it be concerts or movies. I can't afforid HD TV's or Flat screens. But even if I could I wouldn't but one of those slim flatscreen TV's for one reason alone; their adds. They also show these thin little TV's and how littlespace they take up. But they leave out the fact that to watch a movie you need a cable box, satelite box, VCR, or DVD player. Also in the adds the TVs never plug in either. Those ads really piss me off. The reason is that they are trying to sell you on how the TV looks on a wall and the picture. But the fact is that it dosn't really look like that. They really piss me off with that crap. I have seen some clever ads that I did like but those had to do with the picture its self. On another note I read a good interview of Henery Rollins in artvoice. I'm going to his Spoken word tour. I know a couple other (e:peeps) are going to. I hope to meet them, that would be cool if I did. I wonder what he will talk about. This is my first spoken word tour of anyone I've been to. I have seen comedians but that is differant.
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Category: hockey

10/23/05 11:41 - 41ºF - ID#28210

sabres

I found this blog through nhl.com it sent me to the Sabres site. It is there starting goalie Ryan Miller's blog. I read a couple of his posts. I was there looking for hockey pictures. I would love to post some pictures of goalies making saves or being burnt or comitting roberies in net. I did think about going to last nights game. I spent money buying food and wrestling DVD's on line and I finaly bought my hatebreed ticket so I figured i had spent plenty of money so I would watch the game for free. I think the next game on TV is wendsday I think it is a special game in Rochester. I noticed some great seats open at last nights game. I don't know if they where open cause people where getting food or couldn't make it, but I would love to sit that close. One of my goals this year is to go to a game and take some pictures and even if they are crappy post them. Sports pictures (for me atleast) are very tough to take. Digital Delay is hard to guess at. For example a car is 20 feet away the camara sees it then you see it on the screen then you press the button then by that time the car might only be 10 feet away (based on how fast it is moving) then you press the button the camara waits takes the picture and the car is a foot away. I guess it is like throwing a pass you don't through the ball to where the reciever is, you pass it to where he is going to be. For me it is complete guess work some pics come out great and some not so great or at least not what I was trying to get.

This is a badly taken picture of a picture of Niagara Falls from the i think 1998 but i thought it might be older then that but it says 98 at the bottom of it. It is kinda a retrospective. Maybe I should have gone to see the wall at the knox yesterday. Oh well pregame starts soon.
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Category: photos

10/22/05 05:20 - 44ºF - ID#28209

Walk

Today I got to sleep in, that was nice. I walked down Elmwood and bought tickets to Hatebreed's early November show at the showplace, Opeth is playing the day after them I may go see them. Home of the Hits is a cool record store. So then I walked down to tops on Grant St. and bought some food about 40 dollars worth of frozen and canned stuff and chips and Pop for the Football games and Sabres Game tonight. That Steelers vs. Bengels game could be amazing The Greenbay game might be verry good to. I kinda want to find a cable movie to watch in a few minutes but not sure what movie I will pick. Hopefully I will be posting some more Buffalo pics soon.

I thought some of you might like to see some pictures I took on a previous walk down elmwood of some nice cars.

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Category: tv

10/21/05 07:39 - 55ºF - ID#28208

South Park Interview

Ever since I have seen the first episode of South Park I have thought it was great. I liked the move they did and also thought "Team America World Police" was great also. Basketball was ok but I think the idea was good. South Park has changed over time. One thing I love is how they will put in recent issues. The shivo episode was one of my favorites. I think putting in current issues makes it funnier and it also marks it as a certain point in time. A lot of Cartoons don't do that. I know it has to be tough to come up with new ideas. I think this article interview is interesting. I wish I would have bought the first season on DVD. If you bought it from Comedy Cental they gave you CD's with there comentary track. I guess some of what they said bashed the DVD distrubtion company. I think it would have been great to hear. I hope south park can inspire others to push the envelope and be funny and get a big audiance, and continue to be funny.

In the topical world of 'South Park,' the weekly deadlines never end
By JAKE COYLE
Associated Press
10/21/2005

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Trey Parker and Matt Stone, right, are in their ninth season.

NEW YORK - With the political relevance of "The Daily Show" and the huge DVD sales (and subsequent hiatus) of "Chappelle's Show," it's easy to forget about that other Comedy Central show, "South Park."
But Matt Stone and Trey Parker's crude cartoon began its ninth season this week, and it remains the network's most-watched program. It is, perhaps, the most manic thing on TV, with entire episodes created just days before they air.

With a ripped-from-the-headlines approach, it's the "Law & Order" of comedy. The first episode, "Two Days Before the Day After Tomorrow," tackled Hurricane Katrina - by way of the neighboring town flooding.

Parker, who turned 36 Wednesday, and Stone, 34, last month inked a deal for three more seasons and "South Park" has begun appearing in syndication in some markets - both of which assure the world of Cartman, Stan, Kyle and the rest will continue to expand.

Q: Cartman once described independent movies as "gay cowboys eating pudding." Now we have "Brokeback Mountain," an upcoming movie by Ang Lee about gay cowboys.

Stone: If they have pudding in that movie, I'm going to lose my mind.

Parker: No, if there's pudding eating in there, we're going to sue.

Q: Are you guys prophets?

Stone: No, but Cartman is. (Laughs) We went to Sundance a lot in the mid-to-late '90s, and you could just tell it was going toward gay cowboydom.

Q: It's a fast process for you, isn't it?

Parker: It is. We take a lot of time before just to come up with the broad ideas, but until the Thursday before that Wednesday, that's when we really sit down and go "OK, how can we tell this story?" And it leaves us a lot of room, too. A lot of times on a Thursday, we'll sit down and go, "Hey, have you seen this Terri Schiavo thing? This is huge, we should do a story about that."

Q: Sometimes "South Park" is quite topical.

Parker: Yeah, the reason we're able to do that is it's still just Matt and I really doing most everything. We still write, direct and edit every episode ourselves. . . . We can sit there on a Tuesday night and (rewrite the third act), run in the booth next door, record all the voices, get the storyboards together, edit it and see it in a couple hours. It's pretty amazing. It's pretty amazing, too, having done it almost nine years.

Q: Does the fast process backfire sometimes?

Stone: I actually think that makes the show better in a weird way. It's kind of a punk-rock ethic. Like albums that are too produced, you can tell they produced all the magic out of it.

Parker: It's a little more White Stripes.

Q: Are you surprised at the longevity of "South Park"?

Stone: It's totally crazy. When we first did the show, we thought it would be six episodes and then we'd be done - and now we're in our ninth season and signed up to do three more years.

Q: What do you do to keep it fresh?

Parker: It's so much fun, since we still do everything, you can sort of see our growth as writers. When we started this show, we knew how to do funny, outrageous stuff, but we didn't know how to write.

Q: Is there something you're personally sensitive about or is everything fair game?

Stone: We have a really funny breast cancer episode coming up. (Laughs) I just think it's not contradictory to make fun of something and be sensitive about it. It's just the way we examine the world. "Sensitive" isn't the right word, but we actually have thoughts and feelings about all this stuff; it's not just destruction-oriented.

Parker: Just last week we were on a plane and we were pretty positive we were going to die - and we were making jokes. It really, really felt like the end, and we were making jokes.

Q: Are you thinking about another movie?

Parker: Um, no.

Stone: "Team America" almost killed us. We'd like to figure out a way to do our own movies, but not die doing them, and maybe help some other people produce their movies, like graduate to the next level because we are getting up there in age.

Q: What about a live-action movie?

Stone: Like "Deuce Bigalow: Male Gigolo"? (laughs) That's what we should do, really.

Parker: We could make so much money if we would just write scripts like that and go shoot them and put big stars in them. But, first of all, we hate actors. And second, I just can't imagine being on a set of a movie like "Deuce Bigalow."







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Category: tourism

10/21/05 06:37 - 55ºF - ID#28207

Canada insentives

I think that insentives to help get more people from canada to shop in Buffalo is a great idea. I hope that this idea is carried on for other things as well. I know the sabres have a night where Candian money is taken at Par and The Bandits Had a game like that last Season Vs. The Toronto Rock. I hear adds on the radio for travel packages to Toronto. It would be great if Buffalo did the same thing. I think mall shopping is great and gets people to spend money here and that is more tax money that goes to the government. But I think that is is even better for local places like Home of The hits, or Urban to get buisness also. I think that it could be done during the summer as well. I know in toronto they have trips to Fallsviewcasino. I think it would be great if we could get some of those people to shop in Buffalo or even in NF usa or go to a concert at the Dome Theartre. I know Musicals and Plays often go to Toronto First. But if Buffalo could get some of them to come here first we might be able to get more vistors to the area. Or if Shea's had lower cost tickets then Toronto then we might be able to get people to come see a play and do something else like go to the falls or a Sabres game or something. I think this could be the start of something great, we shall see. The article below from the Buffalo news is interesting and sounds promising.

Canadians offered $50 if they stay overnight to shop here
By MICHELLE KEARNS
News Business Reporter
10/21/2005

A new regional collaboration of hotels and shops will give away $50 shopping certificates to encourage more Canadians to come spend the night and spend more of their increasingly-valuable dollars on this side of the border.
"I thought, "What the heck, we'll give it a try,' " said Ed Vidler, president of Vidler's 5 & 10, a 75-year-old store in East Aurora known for its old-fashioned penny-candy charm. "I call 'em the bonus extra. They're wonderful to have."

Vidler came to downtown Buffalo Thursday to speak during the formal announcement of the new $20,000 "Shopping is Hopping in Buffalo" effort, organized by the Buffalo Niagara Convention & Visitors Bureau.

The campaign will be promoted on the Toronto CHUM-FM radio station and by the local WNED public television station, which broadcasts to Canada, in hopes of selling 500 packages before the deal ends in March.

The $50 certificate is given with a hotel booking and works in the local shopping districts of East Aurora, Buffalo's Elmwood Village and Williamsville's Main Street and three of the area malls: Eastern Hills, Walden Galleria and McKinley Mall.

Next year, the bureau plans a second campaign to sell people in Southern Ontario on the idea of making a trip for the Frank Lloyd Wright houses and the other local art, architecture and culture features.

"We think that's a prime market for us," said Edward Healy, director of communications for the bureau.

Already the Walden Galleria reports that more cars with Canadian license plates have been appearing in the parking lot - 15 to 20 percent, compared to 8 to 12 percent a few years ago.

One hotelier, of Cheektowaga's Sleep Inn, called travel agents offering the new deal and got 14 bookings at $110 a night for November, an attractive month for its traditional "Black Friday" sales day after Thanksgiving.

For Torontonian Jamie Patterson, shopping in the Buffalo-area is an easy draw. His dollars are now worth about 85 cents to the American dollar compared to 60 cents of a few years ago.

As the man in charge of travel and retail marketing for the 1.5 million Ontario members of the Canadian Automobile Association, Patterson came to Buffalo and spoke at the WNED-TV studio in support of the new package.

After it was over he walked out to his car and talked about how he found a pair of Kenneth Cole pants for $40 at the Walden Galleria. He did a rough approximation of the cost and savings and said at home the pants would have been $70 in Canadian. Patterson had also been eyeing $85 watches that would have cost about $115 at home.

The selection seems better, too, he said. The Galleria says it has 76 stores, out of 211, that are unique to Buffalo.

"It just makes good sense," Patterson said of crossing the border to shop. "It's a nice trip."


e-mail: mkearns@buffnews.com



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