So this morning I go to try and get some help I need it.... I haven't really posted infringement photos from closing cause family visited and as nice as it was and fun there is a but (uncles)..... My cousins have a great life with kids and wives and great kids... as Happy as I am for them it isn't easy to not be that........ Yes my life is blessed in some ways but in so many ways it isn't .... I often feel like a failure well I guess I'll for now post Firedancing photos and it was nice to see some people out there I know .....

Opps think I did something wrong and pictures are going to be duped sorry about that kinda stressed argh........

EDIT I'm leaving before all the photos load think I messed this up grumble grumble work in progress........





















































































































































oh wait it did work.....................

So It would have been nice to go to Italian Festival but was watching XGames and I would have liked to go to 464 but wasn't sure if I could get there look and get back in time it was close so i skipped it .....

I forget the exact term but it was ATS troupe they where all organizers at Infringement ..... It was at El Muso on Allen














Now a half hour later was The Hell's Harlots but also at 9PM was Firedancing so I went to go get food and go see that but got there and a crowd and then we found out it was cancelled since they are having a big show on sunday during the closing I'll be going to that and hope to see the fire dancing .... So photos from that... It is also why I was in the back......

There is so much going on in Buffalo with Infringement Festival, Italian Fest, Eden Corn Fest , The Chalk Festival and sure other things like ROH in Toronto so go out and have fun oh yeah NFL Hall Of Fame stuff, and Xgames... Last night took a nap so I could watch some stuff but slept for 12 hours on thursday night oh wait wends night got home to late to post so sorry I'm a bit late....... But here are some more photos from the event hoping to have more things I go to ........
































Muppet Burlesque was great .......





















Bands......











McVendeta

So Infringing was so much fun and it is still going on and lots of things to do.... and I'm going to post pictures but not sure how many is to many and how many is enough if yeah want more I've got them in photo albums on the book of face (Stole that from tony and someone else ) .....



















Now There is burlesque and Poetry and bands..... Sorry I can't remember the band names ........

















The Hell's Harlots

















Time to make a Part 2 I think

So I did put in some time at the Garden Walk it was fun... Even though there was a point where I felt lonely that was weird but it passed and it was a good time...... Granted I did take some pictures of things and houses that weren't part of the garden walk......





































































































Well I hope that is a good representation with out it being to much...

So Do to how you can see the darkness in side I didn't use a flash for most of the photos think I may have overdone it writing this post photos













































Arlowe Price does side show stuff and if I get to that it will be its own post

So I have so many pictures not sure what I will do for uploading them ..... I went to the first show and it was so much fun.... and it was funny also ......

Fire Dancing as part of it out side think they had some out side during intermission also......







Not sure best way to do it..... I did take a few photos with flash but the way it looks in there yes stage lights but kinda dark it is a speak easy after all so didn't want to light up the entire place even with my small camera ...






























So I guess I'll cut it here and get back to this at a later time it might even be garden walk photos .... So much of this is like the host she is great or is that was great ..... Like the person with the sign like sings a song about pool halls it was so much fun.... Planing to go to Wham Bam Thank you Slam III at the waiting room on wends ......

So Before I went to see The Wolverine not sure how 3D it was but thought it was great ... Granted not sure if or where this story has been told before but cool story and great action and cool pay off during the credits.....

A few pictures have some video haven't put on you tube hoping to go later also hoping no rain we shall see.....

So with so many photos I've been debating if I should post pictures from StrippedDown for summer at the tralf ....

I all most didn't go but went and got a table near the stage and some awesome people I don't know came over .... They where really nice and it was a great time offered to buy food and drinks but I was full so got a few free soda pops was scared what drinks might do.....

The band is called Kick start Rumble and the burlesque is Eye Candy Burlesque I Depending on what pictures I Post you may see someone who is I think still part of The Hell's Harlots .....



























This part was fun and yeah the powder stayed in the air for some time.......















This part was pretty hot... They danced to the Song wicked Game and was amazing tried to get the feeling of it with out flash for how red and hot of a set it was.......



























Burlesque was a lot of fun... din't get many pasties think that was where I was sitting but is also up the camera when to fire it was a lot of fun though....

This is very personal and won't prof read it so you may not want to read it............................................................................

So one of the things that is all ways tough to know is how much is to much to share in a blog .... Yes there draft mode and this may go into that mode.......

So Yes there are some things I love about my life taking Pictures, (e:strip)s events, lots of (e:peeps), going to wrestling events, some times a concert and Bandits games but alas.....

There has been so much stress at work oh gawd... And when it isn't work caused I'm not happy cause life thoughts come into my head at work... Doesn't help that I have what to me is a very long day... Hey I know some people work longer then my trip to work full day and home but I don't know if my body has ever really handled the job even when I did it as a temp and part time thing for a bit.......

The entire Bug thing still isn't finished... It is a constant battle I've been going through of trying to be neat... Get a room nice and clean then junk mail and stuff builds up and there goes the mess again....

The point I'm trying to get to is it as reminded me of issues I've had before (e:strip).... Wish I would have understood hey being this stressed out... That you don't care anymore means hey got get some help call someone..... Some of these issues have shown up on (e:strip) ... As an example Before a a met a certain (e:peep) (Again thank you so much for that wish back then I knew I had a problem ) I would plan on going to a party and then not go... Looking back a few years after that and when at Parties I then understood in was stress or anxiety or maybe more that would make me get sleep or so on edge I couldn't handle it....

There have been some changes at work a couple people leaving that made the place a lot of fun.... Just isn't the same with out them... I know I also have a history of losing contact with people for guessing a few reasons .... Sorry they are awesome people .... And yeah I'm sorry for that... Not that they know about this blog or will read it that I know of.... I've even again before being on this site worked with some great people .......

So maybe only 10-15 years late on Tuesday I'm going to Herizon should I be saying this on line even I don't know... And see what they can do.... I'm a bit scared but I need it... See what happens from there... (Child and Family services I took 4 free sessions through work but one issue is kinda hard to get to so had to get a ride from my mother didn't want to burden sister and niece with that...... I just wish at the end they would have like said or given me a next step .... I wish going there would have worked but alas I think I need more)

Should I be putting my issues on a public blog site..... Guessing not but getting it out I think is a good idea....... But won't be putting this on twitter or facebook that is for sure.....

One of my problems is I'm of two minds... What I mean is ... I know so many people have it worse then I do... but so many people have amazing lives and at my age some of that is really tough to deal with... someone I went to high school with kids are graduating ... Stuff like that I can't deal with.... Wait that is a bad example.. There is a part of me that wishes faith no wrong word that something would happen that I have no choice... Like they lock me up... Or I get fired....But I also think that second mindness is from something I have but we shall see what they say on Tuesday....

In the past I have had what I guess is common called Sunday Depression and I've thought that my life depresses me... and maybe there is no fix for that.... Yes I'm often very happy ... But so many times I'm "Just OK" when I should be happy...... Guess I end it here...