Why am I inside when it is gorgeous out. Oh yeah cause I don't know where to hang out, out side I guess. I'm looking forward to Seeing Bill Maher on friday. I have seen some of his comedy and I think it is funny, so I hope it is a great night. I wish I could report on all the amazing concerts and shows coming to this area but that would be impossible you pretty much have to read the Gusto, Artvoice and other papers to see everything that is going on, on a weekly basis. This just covers Buffalo then you have Rochester (assuming you drive) and Toronto. If a band you like isn't coming to Buffalo then they maybe going to the place at Canada's Wonderland. I also thought that I should mention that I think in August the CNE or as it is now called The EX is in Toronto I believe I haven't been to that in a long time, I should really look that up. I have no idea if they are still playing but Toronto has a MLS soccer team who plays at a Soccer only stadium. I believe that stadum is on the CNE grounds. I have no idea what I'm doing for the 4th of July if anything Maybe I'll just go see "The Transformers". Also in August is Americas Fair and that has I think 3 events in the grand stand I want to see. But the next concert for me is Thursday "The Violent Fems". Yeah so I don't know any of there music but maybe I'll just take pictures of the crowd. June 28th Jeff Martin of From the Tea Party is coming back I would like to see him again but I gotta remember to get tickets. I think in Aug. Margaret Cho is coming to Kleinhans. I have seen her on TV and sometimes she is very funny so that is another thing to check into. One thing that i like about Buffalo is that there is so much to do. The one problem is that some TV shows like the Dead Zone start up and other shows and if they are shows you like it is hard to see them when there is so much fun stuff to do. I know another sort of boaring post. But when you wake up early for work you can't be going out drinking till you puke on a hot chick.

Well if anyone read my previous post I just wanted to add that there is a 3rd part of what I want and that is to not deal with people. That entire thing of what movie do you want to see and when do you want to see it and just working out what we both want to see and can live with. Not that it is really a bad thing but sometimes that can be stressfull. That is the one good example that I can use. I guess maybe another one would be finding out if the person you are with wants to go to a certain concert or event before you wind up getting tickets. Then if they aren't sure thenyou get caught not knowing how many tickets to get. So because of that being alone or at least not having someone to check in with is a nice freedom. That being said I did wind up going to a movie this afternoon with my sis we went to see Oceans 13. I liked it and she did to. I didn't see 12 but I did see 11. So I don't know if any of this story had any connections to 12 or not. The movie seemed to be its own thing and I understood it all. But maybe if I saw 12 there would be more meaning to it, not sure but I had a good time. It was nice to sleeep in this morning and not be tired since I never made it out of the house to see Jackdaw last night. I just didn't feal right and was kinda tired. I wish I had something exciting to post but I don't, who knows maybe someday.

Not sure if the above link works I can never remember how to link to other articles I mean previous journals. But that being said for those who read my journal you may remember I wrote this long post about what I wanted. That post was really for me I guess. As I was at the sqaure last night the mind starts to wander. Sometimes that happens at out door shows. It can often be hard to concentrate on the show when there is all that "eye candy" there. You try to watch the show but all those hot/sexy/Pretty/gorgeous women of all shades and types catch your eye with out even trying to look. Then the groups of girls and the groups that know other groups. Ok so this thought comes in my head that maybe all I really want is a cute lady with a great ass and boobs (never seen a bad pair before) who gives great head. But maybe just seeing all these PYTs (to "" Micheal Jackson) at once changes how one thinks. It was like if we had anything in common it wouldn't matter just the cuteness would. I know that isn't the way to be. But there is that "superfical Atraction" when you see someone you don't know. Once you know someone that doesn't matter at all. That is one thing that is kinda cool about the internet is that you can form that connection with out knowing what anyone looks like to predjuice you. I guess the best example of that is chating somewhare. I havn't done that in a long time. I did meet some pretty cool people that way. But with it being Yahoo and not local they where from no whare even close to Buffalo. So there are those two sides of me. The one that just wants a hottie and the one that wants someone really cool. I guess that is all I have to say so hope everyone has a great weekend.

The couple things I was going to post about I basicly said in comments to others like about the Soprano's and Government consolidation or regionalism. So I thought I would put up a few pictures as a bonus to the Allentown art festival.



















I admit I did have a good time last weekend but what should I do this weekend. Thursday I want to go to the sqaure. Friday I may go see Jackdaw they are at sportmens but If I know me I will stay home. Going to see a movie would be fun but there is a little part of me that says to go the falls and go on the maid of the mist and buy a water camera we shall see what happens.

First of all pictures aren't a real reflection of art fest You don't really see all the tattoos and all the eye candy and of course all the art in the great detail. For example there was some art that from a distance looked like a painting but close up it was different levels of paper under a frame. Hopefully my pictures do it justice. Hope they aren't to boaring. I just wanted to mention that I did see 6 (e:peeps) Dragonlady and Z, (e:carolinan) and I can't remember her user name, then there was 2 Chico and Chica (for short). I noticed two couples holding hands and one couple (I assume) of girls where both really cute.














I'm not putting up all my pictures and some of them are of buildings. These sneakers coming up looked really cool not sure how they translate on the web.





Oh yeah I didn't do any of this art but the stuff I bought I thought was pretty cool the same can be said of any pictures of art work I put up. Sorry I don't know the names of the artists.








































Those two last pictures are from today near the Allentown That assumes you are still looking at my pictures. Here are some more from today or Sunday or day 2 how ever you want to think about it.











These next two pictures are of these cool looking things made from Beer and Pop cans. I didn't see them the first time around but I was alerted to them from (e:dragonlady7)'s myspace post so for that thank you I found an elephant for my sis there.



These two pictures are about documenting what isn't there and that is MIA. This year it is out at the fair grounds in August the 11th if memory is correct.




To finish up I know there is other stuff I meant to mention but I'm not really sure what it was so here are a few more pictures of art.






I had a fun two days it was really nice to get some exercise. I hope the pictures look good and aren't to boaring. I wish I could have gotten a good picture of all the seagulls flying around but I wasn't fast enough to get a good one so I didn't post any. Oh well the fun is over back to work on Monday.

I'm sure most people know that Sat and Sun. is the Allentown Art Festival. I believe it officaly starts at 11am both days. I know I will be there trying to find more Art that I like for my apartment and maybe even something for my mothers place who knows. I also wanted to mention that there is that part that was allways known as the "unofical Allentown " part that is on allen and they have vendors and lots of music. I thought I saw one ad for that at Elmwood and North. I'm not sure what bands are playing at what bars but I do know a lot of them play at Nietches. In the gusto in the Buffalo News today they had an interesting article about it being the 50th year of the festival. I didn't think to look and see what bands are playing where or anything like that. I havn't gotten artvoice yet to see what there coverage on it is but maybe I'll check out there website. Well what ever people do I hope you all have a great weekend.

In my previous writing I mentioned the above picture, I think it looks pretty cool to me at least. On Sunday I went to the Pride Parade but only the Parade part I walked down Elmwood Ave. until I found a group of people and there was a bunch of them in front of Spot so I thought that was a good place to watch from. I thought I would only take pictures of the parade and not the people watching it. I ran into (e:paul), (e:lilho) and I believe (e:mike) as they walked down Elmwood. I also talked to (e:mrmike) after the parade. In the parade I saw three people all (e:peeps) I knew (e:Zobar) , (e:Dragonlady7) and (e:Liberated) . They will all be in some of the pictures well here they are.


The above picture is from Richmond and Bryant.

















































The next pictures are of the Queen City Roller Girls. I thought this would be a good place for a break. And a good place to explain that these pictures are in the order that I took them (single uploaded pictures not in a group). The reason for that is since it is a parade you should see floats walkers or people in the order they moved, ok back to pictures.










I do think that having pride in who you are is important. That being said I think that there is a fine line between that and hate. I don't mean in terms of having pride that you are gay. What I mean is that often People use there pride for there own skin color and Nationality as putting or looking down on someone else. It happens all the time. So when ever anyone has pride they need to look at them selves and see if they are where they want to be. My best example is St. Patrick's Day. I think it is great that there is a parade and a lot of people like that you can drink on the street and it becomes a drinking holiday. But there are two negative aspects to it. All the non Irish people act like the Irish and get all drunk, that is a negative sterotype. Part of that Is because of the saying "Everybody Is Irish on St. Patrick's Day". Now that is really racist changing everyone to an Irishmen. All in all I think the Parade is a great idea it is good to have pride in who you are. The blacks have there pride things to, the only one I know about is Juneteenth. Then the polish have Dingus day and now they have a parade. Then there is the pride parade. I think that as long as others can have there Parade why not The Gay Community. Of course there are people who say it is wrong and they do it to flaunt there life style and to push there agenda. But to those people I would say if you don't like it don't go. Just like if you hate Italian Food don't go to the Italian fest or if you think all Irish people are drunken idiots that get into fights then just don't go to the Parade. I Hope that the Pride Parade grows and gets bigger every year. This is only the 2nd time I've been and I'm not sure if I had ever heard of it before last year.

Here are a few pictures that will maybe cause A little bit of Buffalo Pride.

Even though I allways read (e:ladycrofts) post for some reason my brain thought it was the going away party, I don't know how I could make a dumb mistake like that. My quick reflection is that I had a good time and was out side for most of it. The party seemed very segregated though. It was like (e:peeps) only outside at the fire and then other people inside or on the porch or dancing. The few times I went down there (not to dance really) it seemed like there where few people there and I couldn't really take a picture of only two people. That being said I had a great time and it was very nice.

Car mentioned in a previous Post.



For those who have been there before you might notice something different. This is one cool piece of art I think.

Missing Image ;(

These picture I know won't be in the exact order but they will give a general sense of the party. When I got them printed they looked pretty cool some of them. There where a few that where really dark but you could still see the people but with my picture viewer you can't so I did a little bit of touch up and they will be here somewhere.



























In those fire pictures above I'm not sure how visable the (e:peeps) are I know on my photos in my album they look cool and once I publish this I hope they look cool to, or looked cool since you will have allready seen them when you (or if) you read this.













In case you couldn't tell it is tough to get both a good view of the fire and the people and you kinda have to pick what one you want to see (or atleast with my camera). If you use the flash then when it lights everything up then you can barely see the fire and when you use the fire as the light source (ever changing) then it makes it tough to see the people.






























These last 3 should be the bonus ones or well not really bonus but weird looking altered ones.




It was nice to talk with the (e:peeps) I talked to (I said more then one word to carey). I know I had a good time I hope everyone else did and no one felt out of place. Is is one kinda thing that was kinda awakard looking back on it, but I won't really touch on it here. All I had to do was really say a few words, but it is no big deal. I did meet someone who wasn't an (e:peep) but forgot there name. I had some other point I wanted to say about how the segregation wasn't really anyone's fault just kinda the way it was. I think I won't have time to put up pictures from the pride parade that maybe tuesdays post. But here are two pictures that I forgot to put up from Richmond near my house from a while back. I wish I could have got more of the Yellow Car but my camera didn't take another picture for some reason.

First of all I have to say sorry that I didn't get all the pictures I should have. When I first got there, There where some people I had never seen (I assume they where couples they looked cute together don't even get me started on that skinny tall Asian girl she was amazing) before. Sometimes it seems weird to take pictures of people you don't know unless they are with people you do know. Then there was a entire part of the party where I did not feel good at all. When that happens it kinda takes your heart out of it. So there where at least two groups of people I never got pictures of. Those of you who where there and see my pictures may know that one group of girls/ladies I'm talking about. In terms of crazzyness I must have missed some of it. I missed the Hookah. That would have been a great way to bond and have a sense of Community. The problem was is that I was all congested so I thought I might have a cold can't be passing that to anyone else. Turns out as I'm just congested with sinus and still sort of have a Headache. Hopefully my luck is better at (e:ladycroft)'s party tonight. OK onto the pictures in no particular order.




























Before I forget I did have a good time and I hope everyone else did also. I know some of my pictures could be a little bit better. But I think that everyone looks good in them.


























As you luck at these pictures you may notice that there are a few pictures that are two pictures in one. That is a feature I have on my camera. Sometimes those pictures look great and sometimes not so good but hopefully you guys think they look good here.

















































So As I was writening this something wacky started to happen some pictures showed up twice and I got error messages so this entire picture thing may look very strange in the end. But here are two more party pictures.

First of all If I have posted about this before then I'm sorry for sort of doing it again I know I have mentioned part of this before in comments. But before I get to that I had a green Mint Shrek shake at McDonalds today it was good, but not sure for how long they will have it now into the meaning full stuff.

I'm sure that how I feel isn't an only me thing, I'm sure there are lots of people who kinda feel like there are lots of Them. What I mean by that is that you act differently in different places and don't even think about it it just Happens.

I can't go into great detail about work. But basicly we joke around as we work as kinda a way to pass the day. It isn't mean (most of the time) it is just for fun. A lot of it is one liners. Some people do a few practical jokes. But I don't for two reasons. 1) that can get out of hand and turn ugly very easy. 2) More importantly we have work to do and can't be doing stuff that slows other people down [we have enough fucking off as it is](work mode is on) or interfears with them doing work. The thing is though at work I'm a lot more out going and have that one liner ablity that is really not a usefull talent anywhere else. It would be great if I could turn that on at a party and incorporate that some how.

Then there is the Sports Me: I will say this is more at the arena then on TV. Or maybe the TV since it is just me is more mellowed out or less loud. On the way to and from the Arena I'm just relaxed and trying to get there or get home. But once I'm there it is like I am pumped up allready and yelling and cheering and pounding on the glass and taking pictures and super pumped.

Concert Me: Is a little bit different Yes I am pumped and excited to see and listen to the band. But that has to do with If I'm into the music or not and that really drives me by how much I'm into each band. But between sets All I do is look around and have trouble waiting. But I also do that some during the show to. Part of that is knowing what is going on around you and watching the pit. If you are on the floor or ground you really got to make sure cause you don't want to be surprised when a crowd surfer lands on you. But often when looking at the stage there are some cutie pies, Hot Babes or what ever term you want to use and that can be a distriction. I know that I could never go see a Football game at a strip club cause there would be no way to follow either thing going on.

The Party me: Yeah I am social; If there are people I know. I will talk to people but should really do it more and talk with more people. The people who I do talk to I do enjoy talking with them. But what seems to happen sometimes is what I call the Cafeteria aspect. That is when you hear two conversations going on at the same time and are kinda between them but not in either of them. Or sometimes you might hear part of one of them and part of another one so there is no way interact with either one. Yes I can be very out going and say some prettty outragous things but I can't seeem to get this side of me to come out. Maybe it is that I go in with the wrong state of mind. Maybe I think that a party is a way to relax and I should think of it as a way to break out of the box. But If I clould have thought that way then I would have made it to those parites that I told a certain (e:peepp) I would be at. Yeah I still regret that I cound't make it to those. Hopefully I can let a little bit of the wildness that is in me out with out going over board.

The home me: I'm very ladi back and also very lazy. Oh did I mention messy to. That with the lazy ness and the not caring attitude makes a place that non of you peeps want to see. Home I eat watch tv sleep and watch movies oh yeah and the shower when I feel dirty. So at home I'm basicly a cat I guess. The exception to that is if I'm watching sports or something very exciting like 24.

I do know that there is a central part of me that runs through alll of thses somewhare but what that is and where it is I'm not really sure. I am me after all what ever that is. At some point I need to start to merge some of the mes and hopefully get all the god stuff togather. Oh yeah my spelling sucks and it doesn't help that this computer is crawling so I'm sorry for all the typos. I guess that is it for now hope to see everyone at the next to parties and maybe I can break out of my silent reserved self we shall see.