I was reading some journals and I belive BEAST said she Wished she had 5 or 6 guys she could call. I know I wish I had 5 or 6 girls I could call just to hook up with. That would be awesome. I have to look up how to link journal entries again. Tonight I'm going to a stag. That should be a lot of fun. I would love to do it with a stripper not that it would ever happen. I would love to have a avarage or normal ladies on my list buy a couple strippers would be amazing.

I had floor seats for wwe last night. I was a great time. I had a lot of fun. Rhyno and Tajiri wrestled for the tag tittles but lost that was an awesome match. Eugene wrestled Uncle Eric then it turned into a match with coach that was amazing. Eugene is awesome. Beniot had a great match with Kane. Maven and Garison Cade was an ok match. Victoria challeged for the womens tittle but lost to trish but she did fly out of the ring and sent tyson to the ground. I had a blast. It was a lot of fun and all the matchs where very good.

Friday I'm going to HSBC to see WWE wrestling. I think it will be very good. I'm really looking forward to it.

On Saturday I'm going to a stag. A friend of mine is getting married. I have only seen them on TV or in Movies. My buddies brother said there will be ladies there. I assume he ment strippers but I'm not positive.

I'm so glad that the work week is over. I have one more week of work then I'm off for two weeks. I would like to go to The Rock N' Roll hall of Fame. I went before but that was years ago. I would like to see how it has changed. I would love to go to New York But eight hours there and then 8 hours back I think I will skip that.

I thought that today I was going to inspect lipbalm all day. I only had to do it for about half the day, well a little less. There where some interesting conversations and I learned somemore about my co-workers and there lives. So it all worked out. It was an Ok day.

1st of all thanks to everyone who posted picks from Artvoice Street fest. The custom made bikes where awesome. 2nd thanks to all the ladies and girls who where there. Both looking at stuff and listing to music and performing. I like festivals for the activities but if it was all guys it would be weird we need ladies to distract us.

Today was a very boaring day at work. I woke up and almost called in. I was very tired. One of the products we make where I work is Softlips it is a brand of lipbalm. There was a lot of them that had to be inspected. That job is very boaring and puts you to sleep, or makes you tired becuase you aren't doing much. Then On top that it was cold in that area of the building. That makes you want to sleep to. Then I was allready tired. I noded of for a second so many times. I'm supposed to be working on that same job again. Tonight I will be watching WWE RAW, as I tape The Casino and Road Rules X-treme. So it will be tough to stay awake day 2. Maybe I should take a pillow. I wish I could. But we are next to another production line so we can't do that.

I went to Artvoice Steet fest on Sunday. I enjoyed my self and saw a bunch of bands. I walked up there from my upper west side apartment. As soon as I got the lay of the land I had to go home stomach problems. That is ok because a lot of people wheren't really ready yet but I came back and saw all the bands I wanted to see, it was a lot of fun. I thought Smile Empty Soul was very good. I think they are an awesome band. I was home in time to watch The Dead Zone. Right after The great performance by Smile Empty Soul they where selling Huricanes for only $2. I was cold so I didn't get one. All in all I had a great time.

The other day I remembered that A friend of mine in High school said I was antisocial. I never really liked that word because it implies that you thinking being social is bad or that you fight being social.

I admit that I can be very happy keeping to my self. But at the same time I write blogs here go to MTV and Fox's message boards. I used to go to chat rooms a lot. When I know someone I really like to talk to them. Sometimes at work the only thing to talk about is sex and that is fine. You just have to be carefull of who else is around because some people might get upset by sex talk.


Getting to know some one is tough. What do you talk about. Guys it is not as tough Girls, Sports, Guy Movies, wrestling or other manly things are a common thing to talk about. I think it is called small talk like how's the weather is not me. What I say I generaly always mean. So I'm not really able to just go up to someone and start BSing them. Yes once I know someone some times The BS might start to fly and then we need to go put our boots on. But that is differant. That is not walking up to someone and acting like this stranger is your new best friend or that girl at the bar that you only want to have sex with, really means something to you.

That being said When I do meet ladies or guys I do enjoy my self. I do like to talk to people and have some good conversations even if we don't agree. I do care about people and hope everyone has a great life.

I really have no idea where I am going, I'm kinda rambaling and I'm not expressing my self the way I want to. I don't think this is clear at all. I'm more confussed now. Yes I'm Shy. I think I'm a little antisocial. Plus I'm a loner. Plus I don't like to lie or BS people. When I say something i like to mean it. Yes sometimes the words in my head don't come out right.

I sometimes get depressed for what seems like no reason at all. It seems to stemm from the situation not from a physical sense. Take last night for example Kim Mitchel was great. I wanted to have a drink Downtown but all those places where way to packed. So I thought I might try Frizzy's on Allen or maybe Cozumel on elmwood since they are both in near my house. But as I was walking I was kinda depressed. Walking by my self. There where all these groups. I was all alone. There was the one guy with 2 or 3 girls groups and lots of others. I was like the only one by myself. Plus I was tired it had been rainy. So I figured having a drink or 2 would not be a good Idea at all.

But today I woke up early and went to see Dodgeball. Before I went I paid My Cable bill and school loan there went my whole check except for about a dollar. Dodgeball was very good, there was a great crowd for a movie before noon. I really enjoyed it.

Hopefully when parts of my life that suck get me down, I won't let them depress me, but I doubt that will work. But who knows I will try not to let them.

I think Sunday will be a lot of fun it is the Artvoice Street Fest. I hope it dosn't rain. I hope I don't have to fight that depression from going home alone. Then I have to wake up so super early, plus I can never sleep on sunday nights anyways so it could get interesting.

Thursday was another boaring day of work. Except for a few chicks talking about sex for a small part of the day. I work at 5am. I do sleep some on the way and on the way home as well. So By the Time Kim Mitchel came on I was a bit tired. Agent me and the other band It was either tony or johny C and the truth where both good. I admit I don't know much of Kim's music. I knew only 2 songs. But he was very good and I had a great time. He is very talented. It was truely a great show. I've heard so much about him, it didn't disapoint.