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Category: philosophy

08/24/06 08:57 - 70ºF - ID#28454

Dreams Vs. Sacrifice

Today on the way home I started to think about this as a saw a few nice houses. I thought it must be nice to have a nice house and a nice car and assumed most of the houses where family homes. Wouldn't it be nice to live "The American Dream" you know the hot wife the great job the couple of kids. But for some that isn't "The American Dream" there are various ones for some it is living in a house overlooking a beach, For some it is living in a loft apartment and bringing home a differant person each night they go out untill they find someone specail,for some it is having a country house. But what ever those big dreams are wouldn't it be great if you could fullfill your dreams. To do so for most is verry tough but there are some people who have all of that and have a great life. It takes sacrifice to obtain your dreams. But how much are we willing to sacrifice, and how Much can we? I think this is a topic to look inward on and reflect on our self.

Would we sacrifice fun and hanging out with friends for the dream? What about fathers who never see there kids because they are allways working to give them a great house and nice vacations? Would they just be better off to spend some time with the kids? At what point does the dream become more important than your moral code? Would you defraud old ladies with scams of their money, shit they arn't going to be around much longer anyways? What if it meant cheating at work or undercutting other employees to get to the top? Where does one draw the line and say it is ok do go this far, but there is only so much I can sacrifice to get to where I want to be? What about doing illegal things like stealing cars and selling drugs, would that be ok? Again you are not doing this for greed you are doing it because you your 18 year old hot girlfriend to be have sex with you everyday in exchange for nice stuff. Yeah dreams are great but what if you want to aspire so much that you break your own ethics code?

Now lets move out of the real world for a minute and into the supernatural of theoretical philosophy. What if a evil being like say a demon or something approched you and said all you had to do to be obtain your dreams was to give him a soul or give him power over someone else. Would you go out and abduct say a homeless man and keep him in a shed in the backyard or basement and as long as he was locked up you would be a sucesss? If you said yes to this what if the demon took it a step further and said for each imprisoned man or women you lock up I will give you more then you have dreamed of and your kids for example will get to fullfill there dreams, would you do it? It may sound like an odd question but people figuratively sign deals with the devil all the time. They work in a company and lay people off but give them self a raise, so they can have that dream. People go out on the street and have bums fight each other and film it so they can have money so they can try to fullfill their dreams at that time. Is money the root of all evil? Well it can be if you let the way you get your dreams be thourgh money and you only think about your dreams and don't consider others.

What about when a society holds others down so it can have its dreams? Is that ok? Who is more important the one or the whole? Generaly in communism the whole or the group of people is more important then the indivual and in America it is often the other way around. But what if a demon or maybe even a politican came to a city a state or a town or maybe even a country and said Everyone in this area will prosper and people can obtain there dreams . What if all they had to do was to make sure another area suffered? Would you Nock down there power lines? What about tainting their water? What about droping bombs on them, where would you draw the line? If anyone is still reading this you maybe saying that is crazzy no one would ever do that. But it isn't as weird as it seems. What about the blacks in Lovejoy problems that happend a few months ago. Is a lot of that racism yes. But I think another part is that Whites don't want poor ghetto people moving into there neighboorhood and making it worse. There is a save Iron Island group that I really don't know much about. The first thing I thought was why arn't they in Klan outfits they might as well be. I'm not saying it is right but most likely they are people who have dreams and even if they can't achive them all they don't want people coming into there hood and ruining there shot at those dreams. So if you where one of those people how far would you go? Would you say you arn't wanted go away, and then just try harder to keep your dreams alive? Or would you sacrifice your self for you kids dreams would you attack them and run them out? When I was a kid if you didn't live in Lovejoy you didn't go there they didn't like outsiders of anykind, whites included. What if there dream was just to be left alone, How far would they go?

I know the tittle isn't the best. But maybe it is still ok, The reason being is that I think most people will sacrifice but they will only do so much for there dreams and everyone has there limits. There becomes a point for everyone where the sacrifice becomes to much and it wins over dreams. So of the lucky people don't have to sacrifice to much to get there dreams. I'm not saying that it is easy for them at all, I still belive that they work hard. I just wish I could have posted this when there where 25 guests and 3 bots on the site. One last thing I will add is there are some poeple who like to sacrifice and the sacrifice is what makes them feal good and that is what they like. They love the fact that they work a 12 hour day and do things that help others sometimes that can be a great fealing. If anyone made it to the end don't be affraid to sacrifice a few more minutes and let your thoughts out as a comment.


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Category: news

08/23/06 08:17 - 74ºF - ID#28453

sri lanka temil tigers question

I will admit maybe I havn't done enough reserch yet and I need to do more on this subject, but I thought some of you who keep up on the world news might be able to share a little bit of info with me. I read an article that to me wasn't fact based enoungh. It was about the guy who got arrested in Amherst and how everyone was shocked that he supported The Sri Lankian Terrosits (sorry for the shitting spelling guys and gals) Known as the Temal Tigers. But what I didn't like is that the writer refered to them as terrorist but didn't explain why, they are terrorists. All I have found out is that they do Sucicide Bombings and have attacked Budhists. But Why do they do that and what is there problem with the government? I'm not saying they have a just cause. But I would like to hear the entire story of why they do what they do. I did find there sight through a web search. I couldn't read much of it part of it was grayed out and there was a question about does anyone know why in the US you can't access their site. I will admit I wasn't to comfortable checking out there site, I really don't want the FBI showing up at my home or work asking why I was there. I admit I have to do more research and maybe watch the news more to find out if they are truely fighiting for freedom as I'm sure they think they are.
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Category: art

08/22/06 08:07 - 70ºF - ID#28452

Tom and Jerry...

Ok so I read on Yahoo that Tom and Jerry got in trouble for smoking in a cartoon in the UK. Not sure if it was an old or new cartoon I can't remember. But what I don't get is that people are affarid kids will see the smoking and then want to do it. But hold on I thought cartoons didn't effect people. Wait they maybe be right, I think they could be. I think cartoons might effect people and so kids might want to smoke. But then wouldn't that also mean that the kids would then learn to be violant. So it is ok to be violant and settle your problems through violance but smoking is wrong. I want to fucking scream!!!!!!!!!

But then a remebered something i heard. Supposdly Tom & Jerry where taken off the air originaly because they where a racist cartoon. Remeber Momma you only saw her feat and legs and her broom and she was black, so it was offensive. I don't know if that is really true or not.

But that brings me to my next point. I want my cartoons edgy and even offensive as long as it is funny. That is assuming that the cartoon makes fun of everybody and isn't just a racist message being sent to try to recruit for a hate group.

That leads me into the fact that I don't want my cartoons edited. Bugs bunny wears a dress so do we have to cut that out so we don't upset the cross dressers. I know there where some offensive Bugs Bunny and other cartoons made a long time ago. But I want to see them in there original form. Cartoons should never be PC and should never be altered to be PC. Oh and if they are in Black and White leave them that way.

I hate political correctness and here is why. It is a way to cover racism. No one wants to admit they maybe prejudiced. I will admit it I am. I think that as long as I treat everyone the same and don't let that affect how I treat people then that is ok. But what being PC means is you call People Afro Americans then don't hire them because they are black but you use a word that have positive annotations instead of negative (or is that connotation I forget). Being PC is also about not offending everyone and trying to have everyone like you and not be offenend it is so fucking dishonest and so fake. With politcal correctness there would be no comedy. I'm a little off point here but my main point is lets not change cartoons cause some one is offendend. Cartoons are supposed to be funny and offensive.
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Category: tv

08/21/06 06:48 - 75ºF - ID#28451

Katrina Prision Break

On monday nights I Usaly watch Monday Night Raw. Tonight it should be verry good Since Summer Slam was last night, it was good last night some good matchs. Prision Break returns to Fox at 8pm I'm really looking forward to see where the story goes it was so great last year we shall see. I will taping on HBO at 9pm Spike Lee has that Documentary about New Orleans and the floods. It is on in two parts tonight and then 2 parts on tuesday also. At the verry least it should be verry interesting. I think Spike will show things in a differant way then we are used to seeing them. I belive Spike is also making a Feature Film for theatres about Katrina but that is going to be completely differant and isn't this but I'm not sure. I will admit I don't completely agree with Spike Lee on a lot of things. But the movies I have seen of his I have really enjoyed so we shall see about this one. On a side note if you havn't seen them I have fair pictures up on my previous post.
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Category: photos

08/20/06 02:41 - 70ºF - ID#28450

Fair Bus Derby 06

So I went to the fair again. With the rain I took things inside and did walk through the rain. I never did get a fried dough but I did get to see some animals and take pictures that you can see down below. I did put up a lot of pictures but these aren't the only ones I took. I think I would have just stayed home If I wasn't going to the derby. One thing that was to bad about the rain was that the parade was Cancelled that meant I didn't get to see all the Clydesdales but I did get pictures of some of them and the Donkey from the Bud adds. I also saw other horses also. You may notice the Elvis Hot Sauce that was to good not to take a picture. The place setting where in the creative arts building. The carved out tree was preaty cool to, not sure if the pictures do it justice or not. hope you all enjoy the pictures.

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That is a praying mantis on the seat at the bus Derby. It did wind up crawling up me. The odd thing is you or at least I couldn't feal it. Not sure really how many and what pictures to put up once the derby starts hopefull I put up enough to give a general sense of it with out them being to many and boaring. I don't think the carnage and damage really shows up in pictures and of course there is no crashing sound. Yes granted maybe I should have put this up a few pictures earlier but now is good enough. I saw the Fix the Logo bus from a far and thought thats awesome. I think my favorite was the #16 Sabres Bus, yeah it dosn't really say his name on it nor did he drive it but it is great looking.



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There was also a minivan Demolition derby heat the vans where verry quick and hard to get good pictures of but there are a few up above.




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On thing I maybe should have explained is that the buses goes in heats. The last two buses running in each heat advance to the finals. There is a last chance heat for all the buses who didn't make it but can still move. All in all it is preaty fun to watch.
#23 won in the end, they also had a best in show at the begining that the fans voted on but not sure who won that I think it was the #16 bus.
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Category: music

08/18/06 08:13 - 82ºF - ID#28449

Paris Hilton

I will admit I did hear what ever her song is on the radio. This is going to sound weird but it wasn't that bad. It might have been on Wild 101 or maybe Kiss 98.5 not sure. I will admit it isn't my type of music but it soundend like you typical KISS pop song not really any better or worse. Then I was fliping chanels and saw a little bit on her I would say on mtv and belive it or not she wrote her own songs, I almost shit my self no body in pop music writes there own songs anymore, well she at least wrote one of them not sure if she wrote all of them. I guess there is another Simple Life reality show on some station also. I opened up playboy and saw Her, no wait it isn't really her it is the "fake" Paris Hilton who looks just like her. Yeah I admit I have a copy of her DVD a night in paris. It is ok but not graffic enoungh it is kinda hard to get those graffic shots as you film your self. Why am I writing about Paris when I think Nicole Ritchie is hotter I have no idea, plus she seems more down to earth. Maybe it has something to do with someone saying something saying people are using dogs as an accesory.
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08/16/06 07:49 - 76ºF - ID#28448

Frantic

I Admit I havn't had really anything journal worthy to say. I did change my Journal Music to Frantic By Metallica. There are a few concerts I do want to go to but I forget when they are. Hope it is nice Saturday for the Bus Derby at the fair. There will most likely be some pics of it going up sometime on sunday. It is odd that I have more to say in comments than in actually journals. On TV thing I belive on Monday Prision Break starts up again.
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Category: photos

08/13/06 12:18 - 67ºF - ID#28447

The Fair pictures

Below are a bunch (not all of the pictures I took) of pictures from the fair. I had a good time there is a lot to see, it all depends on what you are interested in. They have this new little santas village that was kinda interesting. As I was walking along I heard this little kid going nuts. He couldn't understand how Santa was here and how far ahead or behind he was. The kid was thinking about it so rationaly and really getting up set. That brings me to my next point as I was walking later on Santa went by on his sled being pulled by raindear wish I could have snaped a picture of that it would have been cool then on the other side of me someone was walking a cow I'm verry glad I didn't get smooched. My next thought as I was walking is what happens if your cow decides not to walk. What if it just decides to be stuborn you can't drag it along like you can with a dog.

I really enjoyed the Peeking Acrobats, they always give a great show. I also enjoyed all the kings horses. The pictures really don't do it justice. Some of the horses walk back wards, in circles, backwards and to the side and can bow. I liked it but a lot of people didn't stay for the entire show. You can't tell it the picture of the minuture but some of the rides move. There where a lot of pieces laid out on other tables that is one of those things you have to see in person. They had some cool things being sold by vendors also. I bought this cool dolphin picture where the dolphin is raised. I'm not really a ride person but they seem to have a lot of them.


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08/11/06 07:49 - 70ºF - ID#28446

going to fair updated

Well the plan for sat. Is to go down to tops and get my money back from the Seether Concert that got canceled. Then get a ticket for the fair head downtown and find catch that bus out there. I also want to get a ticket for the Bus Demoliton Derby event it was fun last year. If i see the muchcin from Oz maybe I can buy something and have him sign it. My only real plan is to try and have fun. I'm tempted to bring a back pack if I can find one so if I want I can buy stuff. I do know I want to see the Peeking acrobats they are preaty entertaining to watch.

Here now watching the bills surfing on the time warner booth for a few minutes. Having fun saw some really cool stuff. hopefully pictures on sunday.
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08/10/06 07:37 - 78ºF - ID#28445

weird computer

I wan't going to post today, but my computer is acting strange. I like using Yahoo Mesanger, but there are still a lot of things I need to learn and remember how to do. Since I downloaded it I get this strange message about a problem IE if you chose to send and error report it closes the window you are working in and if you don't send one you can keep working, verry odd. So I reset my computer hoping that might help things, it dosn't happen as often but it still happens. But then I log on here with firefox and now the banners are back, that is interesting. The last time they came back it was only for a day. Hopefully I'll keep being able to see them. I did have a nice chat with (e:thecarrey) last night on IM just wanted to say thanks with the help. I still feal as if I'm forgetting something, oh well.
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