Well it took a long time but I belive I have all the pictures posted from the party in this journal and the one previous check them out if you went or if you didn't. I had A good time it was nice to meet David AKA (e:libertad), The brothers Larson where there that was cool. I admit there was one point where My arm decided it wanted to go tingly and when I thought I may have to puke but some nice fresh porch air helped that out. A couple things that i didn't get pictures of was the Depancing of mike and the Beer Pong, didn't see much of the beer pong tournament that went on with the use of a door proped up on two chairs in the kricthen. I was verry mellow even for me. On Saturday I did wind up hanging out with my sister at the Marina and at the Guitars for Hope exhibit at Chanel 17 near the marina and going out for lunch at the Mexican place on Chipewa as part of that hotel building. There are way to many of those pictures to post but maybe in a couple days I'll put up a few of them. I had a great Saturday. It was nice not being the last one to leave the party for once. The Party was crazzy. I will admit there is that little bit of crazzyness in me somewhare. I have been basement parties before and danced not that I really like to dance. Plus at work we are always breakin balls but that side never seems to come out lately, can't really worry about it. I did have fun rockin to 30 to mars. Why is that when ever I listen to them I get them stuck in my head, not that that is a bad thing. But it seems to only happen with them lately. Ok I've Rambeled enough. One last thing Timika, Jen and Ryan thanks for having the party and for putting in all the work that it took, oh and the same to (e:PMT) for the parties they have had.

Having trouble uploading pics but this one works so I'll be back latter to put up more.



It is moving slow these pictures arn't in order but here are some to look at then later on there will be more as I update this one.


























































































I wasn't sure where to cut it but I guess that is it for part 1. Just wanted to Add that I had a great time. I wish I could have been more social. For some reason the crazzy side comes out and work and the silent side at parties I have to try and flip that around some how. I don't know why I didn't think to bring a house warming gift even if it was something small would have been nice. I Realy like how the wood floors look it is a really nice place great porch with outside furnature really cool pad like the people who live there. Maybe part 2 will have some more reflecting.

Wow Sat is going to be a busy day. I hope the weather is nice and it dosn't rain. On a side note I saw the effects of the Tornado Today. Where work we had a dock door open and out of no whare the rain became extremley hard and wind was blowing like crazzy it was a wild storm that came out of nowhare. Turns out a Tornando hit a truck near the Galleria Mall. Lets hope that dosn't happen on Saturday have a few things to do.

First of all I saw an picture in the news today of the Ship I tried to see last week at the Marina. I guess I was a week off it is downthere this weekend. I think it leaves on monday some time. So I want to see that on Saturday. I also need to go see the guitars for hope at chanel 17 near the Marina. I think they are repeating the Blade the Series that I missed that after noon. Plus I need to decide and then buy Alcohol and maybe snacks for (e:TRJ) or is that (e:LDN) Then go to the their house warming. It seems as if I will be taking a shit load of pictures should be a fun day but Sunday will require a lot of rest So it may be a busy but fun day that I'm looking forward to, hope that there will be no rain.

Well last night I did get to watch a good amount of UFC. But I never made it to Blade, dammit should have set up the timmer. They had it with limited commericails that would have been cool. Then today I was going to go to square but my foot was bothering me and one of my legs was bothering me so no point in going. Hope those of you went have a great time (yeah so I used both past and future tense I belive in the same sentace) But what if someone reads this on there way there and they are running late or what if someone reads it on friday we need it in the right tense, not really just wasn't sure if I should make it past tense or not. Wait now not only am I having a discusion about symantics but I addresing the reader. Now I'm talking about the piece of writing to the person who is reading it, ok this journal really makes no sense anymore. In anyevent I look forward to seeing some of you on (meaning who ever is there, not that there are only some people I'm looking forward to seeing) Sat I atleast know I'll be taking pictures. Maybe I can find away to bring out the social side of me but who knows, I wouldn't count on it. Oh that is what I forgot to mention I don't have a link to it but there was an article in todays (thursdays) Buffalo news about a new Totem park in Niagara Falls Canada. It sounds interesting. But it is just to bad that more things like that can't happen on the US side of the border. Not sure why nothing really happens on the us side but I have an idea (maybe a little mob activity and stealing of money and stuff like that, just a theory). Why else would you read about all these great idea of places under domes, and water parks that go out of business and none of these devolpments come there. I knew someone who worked in the falls and they told me that there where allways lots of things that where supposed to happen and never did, and that it was verry frustrating but they had no idea why.

I was watching some of the Live UFC fights on spike TV a over the weekend and saw an add for Blade the series. It is on tonight for 2 hours. I liked the first 2 movies but Keep missing the 3rd one. I think it has potential to be verry good. I wish it had Wesley Snipes that would be awesome, but I think the guy who plays blade will do a good job. I find timing interesting and don't get always understand why things come out at certain times. Why know after the 3rd movie I would think that after the second one would have been a good time but who knows. Hopefully I'll be able to stay awake for it. Not sure If I'm going to the sqaure on thursday maybe I'll go. Maybe I'll update this post with some blade or at least vampire pics.

It was nice to have a day off from work Yesterday and Go to EDGEFEST. As I walked up to the line to get in there where a lot of girls and hardly any guys a couple hotties and a couple showing off there lovely assets. But the proportion of groups of girls to guys seemed verry strange. But that was early about and hour and 15 minutes before the doors where supposed to open. I wish I would have brought my Camara they where allowed but all the stuff i got and read they wern't allowed. Turns out only Professional camaras warn't allowed. There where some ladies I would have Really liked to take pictures. There was this Dark Skined girl with a great tattoo of wings on her back and a white girl with a simalur tattoo. But I think maybe the most interesting one I saw was this lady who had chopsticks (that is what they looked like) and had a dragon on her next and some kind of Asain writng down her back. I ran into (e:Timika) and (e:Yyvone) and her daugter and hung out with them for a few minutes, that was cool. Hope she posts the pics cause I would like some from Edgefest.


I will admit that I again sometimes had trouble concentration on watching the bands on stage (with the exception of 30 seconds to Mars) . There where plenty of cute, Sexy and drop dead gorgeous distractions. Not to mention you need to know what is going on around you. I really enjoyed all the bands. Even though Didn't know a lot of the bands music. I got Halifax, 30 Seconds To Mars, and Hawthorne Heights CDs signed. There where a couple of surprises I will admit. I thought Buckcherry was just a one song band but they where verry good and had a bluesy kind of rock N' Roll vibe and where verry good. I had Never heard of Subway or is it Subways they where verry good. Not sure if I'm saying it right buy Amberline was verry good to. I should have bought some more CDs and merch then I did, but that is ok. The only thing that I really didn't like was that there where No Edgefest Shirts. The artwork they had on the adds was a neat look I would have liked to have a shirt that looked like that.

It is kinda tough to recap an entire show in a post but this kinda covers it. I'm glad I didn't get that post event fealing of loniness that sometimes accures after events like that. I had a great time hope everyones weekend was great.

For those of you who posted on my previous journal thanks. And for those that did read it. I did get some comedy in that night and that made me feal better. I still felt a little stressed on friday when I went to the baseball game. It was fun but was really long and I started getting bored the bisons lost 14 to 9. Then after the game there was a home run derby and then fire works. Below I have a few pics. So the we got out of there about midnight.

Today I walked down to the Marina as a way to get out and enjoy the weather. Plus I wanted to see the recreation of one of the coulumbus ship but I most have missunderstood cause it wasn't there. But there is a River Fest around Ohio St. and Lousinana so I'm guessing it is there. At the Marina I ran into (e:PMT) and it was tottaly unexpected and I had a good time with all 3 of them. When we where on the tower some hot looking girl waved to me or us or the fact that people where up there. I wish I could have gotten a picture the boat was moving to quick to get camara out zoom and snap a pic. It was a verry nice time. I didn't wind up having anything to eat I was affarid of what the heat and walking might do. They droped me off on the way to home Depot at Wallgreen's I had pictures to get developed. I should have taken a picture of the 4 of us but I didn't think of it at the time.

on another note I looked up the guitars for hope on the web today and you can bid on them. I belive if I remeber correctly they will be on view starting july 1st so Satruday I have to go seem them at wned near Marina downtown and that Hotel with the fountain Adams mark. Hope you enjoy the photos. I hope matt puts his up they should be preaty interesting.

Well I hope everyone who goes or went or is at the Square has a great time. I wanted to go. But when I got home I was to tired and so with out meaning to it was nap time, wow it felt so good. Lifting Boxes all day in the heat can really zap your energy. Buy thursday it can be a verry long week. Don't get me wrong I really like my job picking orders, but sometimes it is a long day. I guess if you look at it all I really have is my Job, it is kinda sad. But it also feals good in a way. You come home and know you put in a hard days work. Yeah you can work less hard and not get as much done. But all the orders have to get done eventullay so why fuck off and make the job harder on the other crews. But that being said sometimes I think maybe I should work less hard and go home and not go on (e:strip) and not go watch TV and I should go out and have fun. But what would I do on Elmwood, or even someplace else, um no clue. So I keep working hard and I guess let that and the paycheck and having pride in it be its own reward. I don't think I could live with myself if I got a check and said what the fuck did I do to get this money. I don't know as I could do that. But the real question is if I had say an office job or a job where I was by myself would I be more social and call people? Maybe, but part of the reason I never do is cause on the weekend I've delt with people all week and I just want down time where there is no schedulle. Where there is no "So what Do you feal like doing today?" or "So What Movie do you want to see". Don't get me wrong I like my friends and everything but i find that stuff stressfull sometimes. Sometimes I just feal like taking a metal fork and just stabbing my self and seeing if that helps. My one buddy Al is a preaty cool guy, I know him and his brother from the Nieghboorhood I grew up in. But I still never call. The other thing that happens is I mean to call and see if someone wants to do something on the weekend then next thing you know it is friday and it is the weekend. I really do like my life. But there are a lot of things in it that need to change. They have needed to change for a long time. But I'm either to lazy to change them or have just given up on changing them. I for some reason have always had this view that My life will not be a long one. With all the Great tasting but horrilbley bad for you fast food I eat for lunch this may be verry true. I may want to make this post private ah fuck it, whats the point really. I doubt anyone is still reading this anymore. Today I was fealing kinda I don't know by my self when I got home, I still would have writen this anyways most likely. But reading posts got me fealing a little more I don't know how to say it really, then the sadness kicked in during Timika's post (not her fault I don't want it to sound like it is, cause it isn't). Funerals really bother me. Then I remebered and thought about 2 that I went to. But those fealings left when I went onto the next post so her post dosn't really have anything to do with my reflecting. I did have my palm read once by a friend and the line that supposedly tells how long you will live was a long line, but I didn't really belive it then. I'm generaly a positive person. I look at things in a positive light but but I'm also a realist. Being a realist is often not the best because it makes you not aspire to do things, because you know you can't do them so why bother. But it is also good becacuse it makes you not get exicted and have high expectations, that you can't fullfill. I know if I had just read this I would be thinking man he needs to chill with some weed and just go get laid. I'm not realy a drug person, cause I need to be in control as opposed to the drugs but maybe that should change. Besides I'm normally preaty mellow why get more mellow. Well yeah getting laid is cool and all, but sometimes the one night stands feal great at the time but latter make you feal empty inside. Well maybe if it was one ladies or someone who looked like my post #669 then that would be a differant story. Who knows. Yeah I'm fucked up for those that didn't allready know.

Ok that is enough Negativity or reflection for now I gotta go eat and watch a video or some tV or something. I'm going to the bisons on friday and Monday is EDGEFEST, I'm listening to Thirtysecondstill mars right now, good CD. Saturday I want to go to the Marina I think there is some ship downthere. I may even go to the falls or maybe see if I can find any of the guitars for hope. But my main goal is to spend money and have fun on MONDAY, also a day off from work will be great to.

First of all sorry that in the survey I used the wrong address. I used the webpage address instead of the journal address. I have used A picture site called webshots for years it really is a cool site. And now that I think of it Journaling hear has made me increase how many pictures i put up there. Today I wasn't going to post. I really don't have much to say. That is why I havn't said hi to any of the peeps or would they be Peepetes since they where all females in chat. But I have enjoyed reading the surveys they are interesting. I admit there are a few peoples who if they decide to answer it or find out about the survey might be verry interesting to read. I know there was something else I wanted to say about my survey other then I kinda messed up on the color thing I was trying to make the questions and answers differant colors. In anyevent maybe it makes mine a little differant. I do look forward to reading more peoples surverys.

People:
1. How did you find out about/why did you become of estrip?

Side Walk Chalk Adds

2. How "out" are you about having a publicly accessible online journal. Do your friends know? Does your family know? Do your co-workers know? Does your boss know? Do you use your real name? Do you use your real photo?

I don't use my real name but it is the name I use basicly everywhere on the web. There is also only one other Metalpeter that I know of. I don't think my boss, co workers or family know, if so they have never mentioned it. I do use my own Photo. But that is good cause it makes it eaiser to vent. And i can be more personal.

3. How many epeeps have you met real life?

Lost count around 25

4. How has estrip changed the way that you meet people, on and/or off line?

Yes I meet people at (e:strip) parties. Still can't really get into spot, maybe if I was with someone else. I havnt't really taking it to the yeah wana met somewhare, yet stage. Well except Timika but that was all her really.

5. How has estrip affected you love life?

As of yet it hasn't affected it. But who knows that could always change. But i have from it found a couple interesting adult sites but that hasn't really changed anything. [yeah i did have one internet crush would you call it, but that is all it was, so still no effect]

6. How many of your friends have joined estrip because of your influence?

None.

7. Are you from Buffalo/do you live in Buffalo?

Was not born here but yes and yes

Equipment:
1. What type of hardware or software purchases have you made as a result of using estrip?

nothing bought but i do use firefox now along with IE.

2. Have you used the mobile version of estrip? Why or why not?

No, No cell phone.

Lifestyle:
1. In what way has estrip changed your Internet surfings habits? Describe the amount of time you spend on estrip, when you use it and about how long?

It depends on what topics get posted. Sometimes It seemed to take hours to read the AJ/Jason/josh political wars was way to much reading and took to much time so I stoped. Maybe an hour a day. Assuming there isn't an interesting chat going on publicly. I think I still spend about as much time on line. But I do it here as opposed to using a forum site.

1a. How many journals do you usually read per day?

Depends on how many people have posted but I would guess about 14. I always have to read (e:thecarey) , (e:ladycrofts) , (e:jenks) and (e:Imk2) if the journal is something I don't care about I skip to the next one.

2. In what ways has estrip changed the way you perceive your local community?

not sure.

3. How has journaling about your life affected the way you spend your free time?

I'm a litlle bit more social. I go to some (e:strip) parties, go to bars and wind up having a fun time my self as opposed to with peeps cause I always mess it up some how. Sometimes I will hear about an event that I forgot about and will wind up going (Henery Rollins).

4. Has estrip changed your living situation in any way?

no

5. Do you find that you mediate/document more of your experiences now that you share them with others?

Yes because I never had a journal, so I do document more.

6. Has publishing on estrip affected the way that write?

My writing was always kinda crapy, and it still is. But at least I get practice typing and do some writting.

7. Do you have other online journals? If so, with what service and has estrip affected your usage of that journal?

Well I do have my space but I was allready on (e:strip). So since (e:strip) was first it really couldn't affect it. I do journal sometimes there but that isn't why I joined it.

8. Have you ever gotten in trouble for using estrip at work?

I don't use it at work. One I don't have the time. and more importantly I like to be able to vent freely with out people at work talking to me about what I wrote. Not to mention my Sociopolitcal views varry grately from theres so it would just cause more arguments and debate wich can be fun but all day would get ugly.

9. If you have stopped using estrip, why?

I may have stoped using it for a little bit. Something happend but I don't remember what so I may be miss remembering.