So I can admit that I do wish that for 40 I was able to do something that follows the over used term EPIC... But around Christmas can't really go to Cold NYC or the Bunny Ranch... Do to time and Location didn't make it to any of the Burlesque Acts.... But I thought I'd post a few pictures .....As I watch some of "A Christmas Story" as a side note saw a cool presentation of it in Buffalo Years ago.... Heard it got turned into a Broadway Musical I bet it is great.....








So There was just What I'll call the Santa Parade and it reminds me that Buffalo use to have what was the Toys For tots Parade ... It was on Grant St. but often not Advertised and over the years it got farther away from Christmas and have no idea when or if it stopped ...

So I posted Privately about how tough sometimes it is to deal with family... But did gifts at my mothers House .... Then the niece will do gifts with her mother at her house... Think that makes more sense then all of us doing gifts over there... I remember as a kid liking to go to aunts on the eve opening stuff at my place and then there was another place called down home or Open houses it was crazy but fun... See this way Maya can see her father and not worry time wise... Also if they want to do something else... So making cookies and the cat and stuff.....







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OH Yeah Merry Christmas it is odd that I want to put a hashtag in every where....:) Oh yeah or what ever holiday(s) you do... Even if that means you work for 7 days in a row and then go some place or take a trip or what ever enjoy.....

So I can admit that I should have posted these pix on Sat. After the open Practice but not sure what happened some how ran out of time argh and then with tweeting as I watched football on Sunday then Wrestling on Monday Plus all this mass shooting stuff trying to decide if I should really write a blog about it...

So These Pictures where taken After the Event at the Alumni Plaza.. Now When it first Debuted people did go and they had an event but do to the NHL it wasn't like how it could have been with a game and very special ... I believe the Yellow blocks are the people who paid for their name to help cover the cost .......















Now Last Year thing where a bit different they had the practice and then at the end they had everyone run out with the Anniversary Jersey on but this year the players started with them on... But the Bandetes hit the floor 1st... The odd thin is the software that goes kinda with the camera I have didn't put the pictures in the exact order so here goes think these might be in the right order....
















































So From here Some more pictures of the Open Practice but I like to try and put up what I assume are the best or most important photos first in a case like this... had some Youtube issues other wise I'd post a few videos ....



































I wasn't going to get a new Jersey but at 25% off hey why not Happy Birthday to me.. Now one way to go might have been to get white with no name but didn't want to miss any of the practice and then have people sign it.. I didn't want to get a name though and then not get that person to sign it so I skipped the signing ..... Now the white ones look better then the black ones they almost look like a racing jersey or something... What looks like grey and like Bs but keeping a black one clean will be tough enough.. OH yeah 23rd is my Birthday ... Yeah 40 means I ain't young no more and it ain't so easy.. On the Day I'll be Watching what ever Football is on... Think there might be a couple of (e:peeps) that are on here but aren't on Facebook if yeah know me slide on in to Casa on Elmwood at about 8pm... That may have missed the invite... Not saying anyone has to go or anything... Of course I wish I had the money to through my self a stag with Strippers Or even just Burlesque some place... To be clear that is the 22nd.... If it wasn't so close to Christmas A vegas trip would have been great also... If I had my Papers Toronto would have been great... Now lets just hope the Team is good this Year it should be we shall see...

So two quick things

Thank You LLoyd's cause they are how I found out about this cool event, Also nice to see you (e:MrMike) ... There was some really cool stuff those who get out to either of the Art Festivals would see some stuff you've seen before like the Robots Had to get 2 Shirts and Then those little monster things those are cool I just don't have an area for them to sit on or even for a tree for the cool ornaments also someone had some great skull ones also... I didn't take pictures of anyone's artwork... That being said some photos are from elmwood here they are....














Then Inside Yes the light is a little funky turns out better to not use the flash kinda odd but.....



















As Much as I love Lloyd's I haven't had Amy's Yet so I tried their Wet Shoes it was good ......

So I've never lived in NYC, LA, Toronto or a major city but to me Murals at least are part of living in the city... Or maybe just when I was a kid growing up poor there where a couple famous ones on The "West Side" (IN LA Voice) .. The Buffalo News has a story about a Movie that they had at a Gallery and I guess some Taggers are upset about it...

When I went to share the movie it gave me link and so copy pasted it not sure where it takes you ....



You might need an account to the service to see It?

The Link to the Buffalo News Article



Now the next thing I'm doing did Is doing the copy and Paste thing and then put it in " " cause last time the box thing didn't work ... My mother pays for the Sunday Paper someone at work gets it every day so....

'Nickel City Vandals' stirs controversy on Buffalo's graffiti scene
December 6, 2012 - 2:09 PM

Nickel City Vandals from Aaron Ferguson on Vimeo.

Last night, I stopped by Daddy's Garage (a sweet new graffiti gallery and shop on West Ferry Street) for a packed screening of Aaron Ferguson's new film "Nickel City Vandals." which Ferguson was kind enough to let us embed above.

(I had to miss this panel on the future of culture in Western New York at Daemen College in order to attend the screening. But this look at a small subsection of Buffalo's active street culture that's just beginning to inch out from the underground turned out to be well worth it.)

The documentary project, completed as a part of Ferguson's studies as an MFA student at the University at Buffalo, considered this moment on Buffalo's graffiti scene. The filmmaker and many of his subjects -- including the hilarious and insightful legit graffiti artist known as Brakes as well as Sam Lunetta, director of the city's anti-graffiti task force -- painted a picture of a graffiti scene in a kind of holding pattern. The scene lacks the artistic sophistication of some years ago, the film suggested, but was beginning once again to pick up steam as a crop of new graffiti artists with unique styles beginning to rise through the ranks.

But not everyone agrees with Ferguson's portrayal of the Buffalo scene. At the screening, which drew a large, diverse and curious crowd, representatives of the hard-core BF (or Buffalo's Finest) graffiti crew handed out a strongly worded statement calling the film's integrity into question. Below is a scan of the letter, which was handed to me in an envelope by a very serious-looking girl after the screening ended. At the bottom of the sheet is a graphic representing legendary Buffalo graffiti artists known by the tags "ATAK" and "HERT." The latter of these has been claimed by Buffalo-born Ian Deeber, a graffiti world cause célèbre who pleaded guilty to graffiti charges in Pittsburgh and was sentenced to prison in 2010.

The distribution of the flyer created a bit of a stir at the screening, but the filmmaker and the subjects in attendance seemed relatively nonplussed. "The graffiti scene can get wild sometimes with others trying to hate on and degrade people who are trying to do positive things for the community," Brakes wrote after the screening.

Controversy and all, the night seemed to both signal and encourage a new and broader appreciation for graffiti, as has the recent mural tribute to the late Spain Rodriguez painted near Buffalo's Central Terminal. We're entering a new era when it comes to how the public views street art and graffiti -- whether legal or illegal. And from where I'm standing, films like "Nickel City Vandals," which will always raise the ire of underground artists who would prefer to remain so, are a welcome addition to the city's broader culture.

--Colin Dabkowski

So my take is kinda this I've gone past the trains and them past me more times then I can count (Work near the tracks so)... I've seen the out line bubble letters and some bad tagging in my hood just hand written names that sorry isn't art... The stuff on the trains is... Of course there are different styles (People who type would call them Fonts) so with shadows some with pictures.. I saw one that was amazing (Wish I had my camera) where the person as part of their name had bricks it was really cool... Of course everyone has a different version of art.... I can see why if I had a nice building and someone tagged it I would be pissed... But Again there is another movement that they just touched on that to me is different and that is Street Art... Some of that is really amazing... They didn't show it directly they showed pictures of it in a gallery.... Maybe if I get my papers together when it gets warm I can go to like Toronto and look for some and try to get photos and not get killed... Cause I know I'm not treking around not only bad areas but some of them are with a camera to take photos....

Again comments by those who know much more about this then me would be very nice.......

1. This Is a blog I've been meaning to write for a bit of time so sorry if it isn't what it should be... I'm sure no one will agree with me and that is fine... this isn't face book so you are allowed to tell me so (If anyone who read this one read the last one)

2. I honestly am not sure how much I can say with out getting into trouble or at least where the possibility of that starts or If I'm even high enough in the food chain for that to be an issue.. So I will say this.. Where i work we send product to many places Target, CVS and so on and so forth including Wal-Mart... No I'm not a pro writer but Need to toss that out there so anyone reading this or anyone whom you never know could share this knows....

There was a time when I thought Wal-Mart was evil and they may have done some bad things... But that isn't what this blog is about really Again this is a blog not a research paper or a piece that is running in the news in some form.. But I Like Wal-Mart and I do shop there... But also after work it is quicker to get to them then to Target and I can get home quicker also....

---Kinda a tangent but... The Reason I thought Wal-Mart was Evil is that they would show up in some small town. Then in these towns local places couldn't compete and they would close. Hey why go buy food then go buy wood then plants when you can get everything you need in one place..Not a new Idea Sears did this a long time ago... But see it isn't Wal-Mart's fault that people in town also think about prices and go there instead of the local flower shop or local record store... Price is a huge factor in where people buy stuff some times it is a choice and sometimes not... As a quick example that is why people go to Pricerite and not Wegman's ....

BLACKFRIDAY! Oh no we are all going to die Or get 3 TVs for the price of one depending on what facebook status you believe .... This is what got this post inspired was posts I saw after that... Now hey if after thanksgiving instead of sleeping or watching football you want to go get that huge Wal-Mart tv or what ever fine.... But posts (Something in the news i missed also) about low wages at Wal-Mart .. I didn't share them cause guess what I'm for them ...

Yes I support Low Wages for Wal-Mart workers... Again this is were research would be great to have the numbers to compare but would it be a blog any more? Target Doesn't have Lay-a-way and Wal-Mart does there is a reason for that... If you have the money to shop at Target you don't need lay-a-way (Or atleast during christmas not sure about all year like K-mart did)... So I'm saying Target it costs more or at least appears to at Target then at Wal-Mart and that is ok...

Yes some people just go where they think things are the cheapest.. But I believe that most people who go to Wal-Mart have to cause they don't have enough money to get stuff at Target or other high end places in the mall..

Now every business has a profit margin.. Now if Wal-Mart just went up and raised the starting wages of every worker and brought everyone else up accordingly since they would be paying out more money in wages they have to make that up someplace.. Now yes they could be nice with all the money they make and still have killer profits just not as killer .... But there are people who make money off of how much profit they make so.. The Natural thing to do is raise prices on everything.. Now what happens to the person who shops there for say food .... What bill don't they pay... Do they not do Christmas this year... Go Hungry ?

Now Granted there might be some places where there is only Wal-Mart and not Target so I'm not talking about those places... If you are a stock boy or Cashier or even management and you could pick a place to work Where would be better Target or some high end Retail place or Wal-Mart I doubt it is Wal-Mart .... Now I have no idea how they decide whom gets a job... But if it is true that places pay higher then those jobs must be tougher to get or should hold one to a higher standard .... The Wal-Mart near where I work is Near the Galleria Mall and Target also... So I'm contending that the people who work there couldn't get a job at Target so it is good they have a job if not for Wal-Mart they wouldn't .........

As an Example I've been to a few Targets and you all ways see people working and me at least (They think I'm a cowboy who is going to steal I guess... What never heard of a Metal band or watched Wrestling :) )They even come up and ask if you need help... But all wal-mart the people are talking to each other and you have to find someone one and half the shit has Keys so if you want to buy a memory card you have to get every thing else first... Yes Wal-Mart is aimed at the poor and that is ok....

Example 2: Back in my old days before the (e:strip) I was a stock boy at what is now 7-Eleven when we where owned by tops... Yeah you do pay for things being a block away from your house and short lines... But again back then Wegman's was the Premium Brand.. Think the non management route after about 2 years there you still made less then to start at Wegman's ... I loved most of the people I worked with they where great.. Now granted that and a Grocery Store is different but a few people tried and Never got hired there... One Manger did but he got an entire section and it was a bit over his head even for the more money so think he came back... Great guy buy the way... Wonder how that crazy mother fucker is doing... Yeah I admit I wonder how a bunch of those people are .. No facebook back then... Ah good times man.... But it goes to the same point the high end places some people just can't work there...

So I think I kinda made my point that if Wal-Mart paid people more.. some of the people who work there wouldn't have a job there.... And with prices up what would people do who can't shop any place else go what would they do.............................

1. I admit writing a blog about facebook is kinda lame
2. All things (stole from Tony I think the term) The book of Face aren't bad
3. Been meaning to write this for like a week so it might be a little weak and not how I really want it to read

Yeah I can admit that I have found a little bit of Drama over there... Maybe I'm just use to the blog Style where ... You get to see others points of view and think about your own and not saying change but think about it another way or at least gain some knowledge ....Oh but on facebook forget about that.....I recently got into it with someone whom I thought was a friend what ever that is whom requested me and is now deleting people ... Why so angry cause I don't agree with that ? and try to hold you to a high standard .....

But see that is the thing with facebook is we all state our opinion in many ways some times those funny cards and there is what happens... People who agree we can like or we can share... And then when we share everyone else sees and people who agree share.. So what happens is we whom ever does that sharing the same idea so We have a little group of Conformity ? Now to disagree with ones ideas oh no on facebook you can't do that... People yell and tell you to stay out of it and it really ugly really fast and people want to delete you and all kinds of stuff ... Ok maybe over doing it a bit but that is the attitude .... This happens with music as well see a band and share the video and next thing you know all the friends who like that band like that it and you have another little circle of people who like the same thing....

The fact is that yes people can like and share what ever they want and be friends with whom they want... There are a lot of great things one can do on facebook but that isn't what I'm writing about... There is one of those little pictures that says something along the lines of it is my wall if you don't like it delete... Yes it is good to say that I post what I want if you don't like it or are offended it is easy don't report me just delete me.... But the under current is what bothers me... It implies that they only want to state their opinion and that your is unwanted at least if it is different .. If you conform to their ideas then great if not don't say anything ..........

TheNote: Yes on facebook if you are going to make something longer then a status update they have a note... Aka a blog ? Yes You can tag people in it but I think only once it is written in other words I can't write about cats and then Tag Say (e:TheeCarey) in one part and then ask someone else something in another part.... They just show up as part of the note.... But see it isn't right on the front page every where you go (some might say it is a programming thing but I don't buy it) You have all ways had to use a few clicks to get there.... And I think again cause facebook wants things to be shared and talked about that people agree on....

TheLikeButton: Of course you can post comments and still disagree but the like button tells everyone you agree with something and also now shares it before it went to like a little pop up if someone was on screen and they could find it... Now unless settings are changed you see what people like... Now I think this ties right into ads... Pepsi posts a nice ad and or coke and I like those cute little bears that if they could would rip you to pieces and let the penguins eat what ever is left..HA You hit like and everyone sees it...

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>TheDislikeButton: That is correct there isn't one . This yells to me that you have to agree.. But what it really does is if you don't like something you just don't hit like instead of saying you don't like it... This helps the circle of people who agree on something to form again... Now I get that they don't want (I assume this is one of the reasons) people to dislike sponsors and ads and that kind of things like movies cause it could cause people (Yes Companies are legally people now aka Citizens United even though I don't completely understand) to not be part of facebook and not bring their movie clips and stuff.... The wanting for a Dislike got so bad that there was company that through Firefox gave you a dislike button.. If you disliked it , no one saw it other then the person who posted the thing they posted if they used firefox it might have even been a hack...

I just think that Facebook isn't set up for decent yes it can be used that way.. It is so that people can share interests that they share and that is fine.. But there is also a side of we are all going to agree and if you don't agree well fuck you... Oh yeah and don't tell me either...

Just read it and I guess I said what I wanted to say kinda of course over the time when I wanted to get here and really couldn't it has faded a little bit but......... Maybe I'll get some comments.... And maybe it made sense ?

So Friday and now Thursday is Black Friday ( in metal voice it really sounds cool :P ) . Now I think Saturday is some thing that is supposed to be small businesses ... Oh yeah and then there is also cyber Monday..

Now I don't know if this is the same Holiday but at one point it was started by American Express if they have gotten their name off of it that might be better then advertising it not sure not how wise or how much the public knows.. Yes it is good to go to small places and support them if they have a product someone wants or could use... But there is also an angle and that is what I will get into.....

There are places where you can use credit and debit cards and some places where you can't that is why if you are going to the bar tonight take cash. Nietches as an example doesn't take plastic .. Now they may have there own reasons in terms of how they want to do Business[like the clients don't like it, or they don't want to have pens at the bar?] for there are also business reasons....

In the past it was common for place to take only Visa and or matercard .. Now in terms of credit cards they charge interest when you don't pay it and that is how they make money.. But these came companies have debit cards. and they get a small % of the sales from the store charged to the card... So places have to decide do they want to take a slight cut so people can pay with these cards cause some people that is all they will use... When I had a discover card so many places didn't take it.. I think part of it was people didn't really know them.. Again they worked a little different they didn't use the master card and then say a bank and not sure what the percentage was... But this brings up American Express ... Yes I used to have one it was a pretty blue card it really was...

I don't know what the rates are now.. But back when I had a credit card the % that American Express got if you used their card someplace was a higher rate then the other two... If you except that card you had to give them that rate and a lot of stores it wasn't worth it... So if that was your card you where out of luck.....

So when I first heard about this Movement that was started by American Express or at least their name on it... It seemed like an angle here is a way to get into small shops who often won't take our card cause we take to much from them... Again though I'm not sure but seems like an angle to me.. Maybe the only small shops that get pushed when one looks deeper take their card?

So had to get a new phone so I had to go to target anyways but TV burned out last night it was very old so got a cheap new tv... With the connections is why I think the picture is liny.... But onto crazy elmwood.....

So Went up to Elmwood and this chick wanted to suck my cock.. Now don't get me wrong it might have been fun... but at least it could have been a hot tattoo girl... Or even the suburb look :) Now I was tempted would have been nice to see some big black tits and come all over her or in her mouth for like $10 .... Will I assume them things gotta be out :) Been some time since I've given :) I mean kidding gotten head.... but like where would she blow me on elmwood :) Be sides it wouldn't be safe where would we go... Might be dangerous now of course if I just had like a bill in my pocket :) I don't think it would be safe now if I had someone to watch then maybe :)

Yeah there is a lot of road work or is that side walk work that makes things kinda crazy out there....

Couple of things from the way back home... Right by Hoyt lake there is a highway sign and the back of it is Tagged.... They wouldn't put it up like that so I assumed some one climbed up and sprayed it... I think it would be cool to see a documentary following taggers I think it could be pretty cool... I like the tagging .... It isn't the same as like dead gangsters so... I think as long as it isn't on anything historical it kinda gives life to things it is organic... Now some taggers must go through a lot... What I don't like is they need to have some respect... For example The Livary that they tried to save or saved or what ever some how those windows got tagged would be cool to see how that happened though.....

I get it we are buffalo we are supposed to be hearty but if you need a hoodie or a jacket go sit in side not out side of the coffee place :)

Also right around that same area people out side where selling Girl Scout Cookies if I didn't need to get stuff I would have got off and bought some.....
well the area is allways interesting....

1st of all if I've written this before or if you've read it before then sorry I feel Like I've touched on it before

2nd I guess the category fits it could also be TV since I will be talking about that but I have way more of those(TV as Subject) so I put it there....

Maybe it is just cause I was never very good in English or maybe it is just that blogs are thoughts really and not a paper but sometimes not sure where to start...

I think that I (and maybe many others) have a break from reality.. What is real can you even tell anymore...Are well all really just in some one else's dream..How could you tell well you couldn't but...... Some times there is something that is important and powerful and sad and heavy (Funeral or wake or what ever you call it) and your mind goes to some other place far away..... [not good by the way]

1. 1 What is the truth : When I was growing up we where all told the news was real and that it was true... But then somewhere along the line we learned that us and "The Russians" used propaganda ... But see if that was in the past how do we know that the lie isn't the word past and that there are just new forms of it...

Now I can't tell you how many times I've Heard if you want the truth listen to fox news.... Now if we believe that fox tells the truth then other stations must be lying... But wait or is it that Foxnews is the one lying... Now what I suspect is that in most stories there are many facts and different angles and different people choose to use different ones to push their view on the news...

Take this one step further I think the show is called something like Western New York Living... I watched and entire episode once and thought it was good.. Then I noticed at the end (only cause they have to by law) some of the stuff they reported on where paid segments ... In other words they can't say it was crap if it was cause they are paid for that part of the show by said company....ARGH....

Any one of my age grew up and at least knows about star wars. At the time we are told Luke's farther died no big deal... Luke doesn't give in to the Dark Side, in that cave or whatever.... Until "Luke I'm your Farther" "NO!!" now we all see the rage but it doesn't work.. But see from the Jedi Perspective (now if you are reading this and haven't seen them now you have to and the new ones also) little Ani did die and some where along the way VADER is Born Or pulled out of lava depending on where one thinks he turns..... The point being is the truth isn't easy to see and can very.... (how ever we at the time just think he killed lukes father)

1. 2 Entertainment as escape .. There are many forms of entertainment from music to reading watching TV or movies seeing art.. But both books and movies and TV all work on the same Idea tell a story.... For now I'm just talking about or would that be writing; about the stories that aren't say historical or based exactly on what happened... I grew up on comic books and they got turned into cartoons and moves... and with all this what makes it work is that you escape you see zombies or vampires or other planets all kinds of great adventures...

I think though that some of this starts to break our grip on reality a little bit.. The Character isn't this guy on a pirate ship who is going to get cursed it is Johnny Depp as an example... So this escape now gets attached to someone who is real and line starts to blur a bit....

In terms of TV some of the best shows are Character Driven ... Anyone who was a fan of firefly as soon as they see those actors in any thing else it is like what... Ah man that movie really sucked but the capt sure had a great part in it... Or another example is House... At first look it is about medical stuff and yeah that is a big part of the show... But it is really about house and how he interacts with everyone.... What it really is, was a mystery show.. And as the series was ending makers of the show admitted yeah House is supposed to be like Holmes and Wilson like Watson... With the deep connection to characters who seem real breaks the reality line a little bit... Now that sounds crazy but.. I'm sure many people have wished they had a doctor as good as House in real life and would put up with all his shit to have one... Nice crack in reality....

1. 3 TVs and Moves are made and are supposed to be an escape oh and books also.....

A Quick example is Malcolm X ... There was a book.. Spike Lee made a movie based off the book.. Now I don't know if the book was what is known as authorized in other words the family said yeah that is true but no you can't write that or how that works... But at the time people said "Spike you fucked up the movie" I thought the movie was great.. How true not sure.. Very powerful though wow.. I think the movie was put out as a true story but can't remember.. But of course in a movie they have to make it dramatic but this conflict can break reality a little bit....

Now since Most people(not everyone) takes in information as this is fun this isn't true then that is how we think of things in that form.. And that messes with us when we see things that are real or are supposed to be...

Take the show the real world (Europe 1st) what a great idea for a show.. It is supposed to be real.. But of course things are set up in way so that it isn't really like living with other people yeah some of it is.... But no TV or least you can't show it... When ever you go any where you have to let the crew know, certain places they can't film so you can't go...Drugs are banned but Alcohol is fine... Some places they don't have the rights to show the name of so....But it is presented as real and a lot of it is even though it is kinda set up... But this is a case where what is real is blurred and also our mind is kinda use to TV as entertainment so the real stuff kinda isn't...

I think where the idea that entertainment isn't real takes over in Documentaries and that style of show... Don't get me wrong I've seen some great ones from Spurlock alone and other shows... Yes we watch them to learn and they are on TV and real... But I still think that our mind and body in some cases it is entertainment and a bit not real so the line of what is real and not gets blurred even more.....

This is a little off Topic but it is close.. Wresltling and WWE are known for really working this a lot... Yes who is going to win the match is decided a head of time but the wrestlers work out all the moves and a choke hold put in tight would make you pass out.. And people have really been hurt bad... There are all kinds of storylines.. But there is some stuff that is real.. Think they use to call it a shoot.. That is when a wrestler talks about things that happened in the match or the company or something like that.... But sometimes something happens in real life and then later on they make it a story line.... Most recently Jerry "The King" Lawler had a legit heart attack of some kind on air after a match... I missed it live..... So there where fans who thought it was a story line... Well now he is back( couple of months?) and he is better and it is part of a storyline... In fact this is the 3rd time this has happened.... Way back when Man in the moon or what ever was made he really did attack Andy Kaufman now when Jim Carey was playing the part sorry don't remember all the details he did something to get "The king " going and he got attacked... Now where these real or was it just a way to get press who knows but again there blurres the line of what is real......

1. 3a Thought I should touch on sports a tiny bit and maybe a bad example but I need to... I don't know if this really applies to sports like football and basketball but maybe it does... Or maybe it just sports one plays... I'm thinking more things you can do on your own... Yeah you can ski and are ok but unlike that video you can't out run the snow wow.... Of course in the video they don't show the other people who died doing it ...Not really but things that you see others do and you think you can or could (but you never really could) Breaks reality a bit... When I see ski or snow board tricks I think wow amazing that is some skill glad I don't have to judge... Kinda like diving I guess ... some of the tricks seem unreal but they are very real and so are the people watching them... Ok yeah reality is broken a bit....

1. 4 Taking Pictures... The Camera is kinda a shield... I never thought about it before.. But in a way if you only use the view finder or screen and not your eyes away and just shoot.. You aren't watching what is there you are watching the screen and that not sure where it puts you but some place a bit away from reality ... I had never thought of that really until I heard a pro talk about that on this show called Witness on HBO... Only seen the first episode... But that also kinda explains a theory I've had for some time.. Matt has from what I've seen and not only him has all ways taken amazing looking pictures.. There is something that I don't have that I think others do... I call it the photographic eye... And what that is... They know how the camera is going to see the image or what they are taking a picture of as opposed to how it looks to them... Cause they aren't the same we have two eyes and a brain and things get flipped and there is a blind spot and with our brain we know things and we can still see things that are dark ...... But I'm not sure how that factors in I'm sure it is an ability that one might not even think about but if one does then is that another one more thing to not see what is going on as real.. Also you are there just to document or share or what ever not to be part of what is going on and so does that move you one step back and break reality a bit......

I don't know if I really had a point ... Not really sure how to write about the internet and connections on line and what effect they have.. Porn I'm sure has a huge effect but If I tried to like research that this would never get done :) But I will say this things like twitter where some model posts pictures and you might be able to talk to them a bit... I think does break reality a little bit....

Oh yeah when I said break reality I should explain.. That I think there is a line that separates them and when it is blurred or broken you can't tell what is real any more... Now what I wasn't going to say and this might be something to get into later is .. Does what you think is real make it real.. Well it at least does to you but that it only does to you might be the problem....

Yeah I do feel like I've left stuff out but not sure what... Other then that I do think being an only child for so long teaches one how to entertain them selves and I'm sure that is a factor as well some how...Being off in Fantasy land....

So I don't know as If what I will say I've said here before or not. So today I had a day off from work and I ran around a bit... On my way home I went past Middle Sex (Not sure how that st. goes from across from McKinley to hitting Delevan I think in any event that I forget her name girl with the orange hair and Huge Boobs who was an (e:peep) and seemed nice to me at least) and I've done it many times before but it dawned on me I wonder what people do to have the money to have one of those homes... Ok the heating bill alone I don't think I could carry... But I thought it would be cool to get like a video on each home with a pop up of the job and what it brings in.....

Now that brings up the fact that I have a day off of work.. Now the reason I have one is because the company calls it a Benefit even though if you don't use them you lose them... We are non union ... Unions aren't good or bad it is how they are used....

So many people aren't loyal to there work or think oh it is just work I'll blow it off... But that time you got sick and went to the doctor, that nice car, that house, the concert you went to the food on your table all that nice stuff is cause your work gives you money and benefits.. Not enough hours or pay find a 2nd job... Yes there are part time and full time jobs and I'm more talking about full time jobs.....

Now some people go union union union and that they are the savior..Um no not anymore not with the global economy.. Yes Organised labor (not all ways the same thing) is what pushed this country into safe work and better rights and Benefits... So yes workers get more.. In theory that means they should be more productive ... But it also means it costs more...

Cost is why Jobs get shipped to China, India, Mexico and where ever... Those people work for less money... Plus regulations are loser.. Now am I saying Unions made the jobs go over there....NO... But the made it cost more to produce things and stock holders want to make a bigger profit each year so... At some point the jobs will get moved... Of course something things can't be made over there so....And some things it wouldn't make sense to... I'm sure on here in the past I've said it should be illegal but...

OK: Gotta stop here and give full disclosure: I can't say whom (from what I understand) I work for.. Nor can I say what we make... But some of the products we send to external customers are made or have parts made in other countries... Now with out knowing how it would effect my job yes I do think that maybe there should be a tarrif (sorry no spell checker you know what I mean it is like a tax) on goods coming in.. That helps keep things made in America on an even axis... Keep things fair....

No would that stifle growth I don't think so.. I admit that NAFTA is a bit over my head but here is what I do know.. It seems to me that If I run a company and if I send Jobs to mexico and every thing that comes back here I have to pay an import tax on of some kind it isn't worth it move jobs... Now it still might be cheaper and I still might do it .....

Now if these unions are so everything should be unionized here is an idea go down to nike (read an article and at one time they where one of the best employers in mexico but still below USA levels) and go unionize there.. Go get a workers movement In China and India... And any place else.. Now of course if wages go up the companies only care about bottom line so prices go up... But also as prices go up we generate more tax money and at some point jobs may come back here... or at least not leave.. Worst comes to worst Workers get helped out and isn't that what unions are supposed to be for :The Workers.....

But see one of the problems is also that Americans are often lazy.. yes all the tech we get from Japan doesn't help..Yeah it is fun but.. The Americans use to be known as the hard workers (WWII) ... People right off the boat even further back... The bail out of the auto companies has a lot to do the battle between unions and owners and profit and greed and having a big house and cars and kids in school.... But see if people could adapt and change for the times it wouldn't have been an issue.. The Japanese made better and cheaper cars .... I assume they are harder working or maybe they can't be an empire any more but that is a different post (Ah you've all heard Bill Maher make that point so....) But at the end of the day the product was better... But the US could adapt... So bail out and it looks like Ford and chevy are doing pretty good.....

So (If anyone is even reading this or even made it this far) this is what pisses me off about the NHL and other leagues in the past.. No Fucking loyalty.. People like watching hockey->Hockey game->Teams and leagues say NHL-> So more fans watch and go to games ---> Money from games and and team gear

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>$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$ The point is fans go to games so once people know they are watched they sell stuff for the teams and people advertise... Even if it is just at the pee wee level and it the company name on the team and they buy the uniforms.... So the only reason the owners make money or the players is cause fans pay in some form or tune into the game.. But both sides put them selves before the fans... And they also put them selves before the other side and all the people who work the games.. Cause there is no loyalty.. If not for the players no league and if not for the owners no pay to the players.... Now granted I get that neither side wants to get cheated or what ever... But When you where in the AHL it wasn't about the money it was about being the best and making to the NHL so... I love when guys who are fucking no bodies in a sport work out and learn in a team and get great.. Then go fuck you guys I'm going where there is more money even though you guys discovered me (say it in any voice you want).. Now I'm not only talking about the NHL this would have been Football or baseball in the past..No fucking loyalty ARGH!!!!

Now I'm not saying you should be what would be called a company kiss ass...Or anything ... But you should at least have pride in your work and do what you can... And understand that the work comes first.. Yeah you can have fun but you have to work also... Remember that you work so you can have money and benefits so you can do other stuff but the work still needs to matter.. Yeah there are a lot of shitty jobs out there.. But if you can find another or want to take the chance and don't like what you are doing there is the door.....But wait you want to leave loyalty can't be fucking the company train someone underneath you to do what you do....

I feel as though this isn't the post I was aiming for but I think I touched on it kinda... Oh yeah also 24 hours in a day.. if you work a full week you are at work for 1/3 of it a bit more you have to get there and get home.. then one is supposed to sleep 8 hours... So do the math you see people at work (unless you fuck all night lucky you) more then family.. So don't be to much of a dick.. Ok don't want to go back to work on Wends.. But when I leave the place takes a big hit so....