Well I hope everyone who goes or went or is at the Square has a great time. I wanted to go. But when I got home I was to tired and so with out meaning to it was nap time, wow it felt so good. Lifting Boxes all day in the heat can really zap your energy. Buy thursday it can be a verry long week. Don't get me wrong I really like my job picking orders, but sometimes it is a long day. I guess if you look at it all I really have is my Job, it is kinda sad. But it also feals good in a way. You come home and know you put in a hard days work. Yeah you can work less hard and not get as much done. But all the orders have to get done eventullay so why fuck off and make the job harder on the other crews. But that being said sometimes I think maybe I should work less hard and go home and not go on (e:strip) and not go watch TV and I should go out and have fun. But what would I do on Elmwood, or even someplace else, um no clue. So I keep working hard and I guess let that and the paycheck and having pride in it be its own reward. I don't think I could live with myself if I got a check and said what the fuck did I do to get this money. I don't know as I could do that. But the real question is if I had say an office job or a job where I was by myself would I be more social and call people? Maybe, but part of the reason I never do is cause on the weekend I've delt with people all week and I just want down time where there is no schedulle. Where there is no "So what Do you feal like doing today?" or "So What Movie do you want to see". Don't get me wrong I like my friends and everything but i find that stuff stressfull sometimes. Sometimes I just feal like taking a metal fork and just stabbing my self and seeing if that helps. My one buddy Al is a preaty cool guy, I know him and his brother from the Nieghboorhood I grew up in. But I still never call. The other thing that happens is I mean to call and see if someone wants to do something on the weekend then next thing you know it is friday and it is the weekend. I really do like my life. But there are a lot of things in it that need to change. They have needed to change for a long time. But I'm either to lazy to change them or have just given up on changing them. I for some reason have always had this view that My life will not be a long one. With all the Great tasting but horrilbley bad for you fast food I eat for lunch this may be verry true. I may want to make this post private ah fuck it, whats the point really. I doubt anyone is still reading this anymore. Today I was fealing kinda I don't know by my self when I got home, I still would have writen this anyways most likely. But reading posts got me fealing a little more I don't know how to say it really, then the sadness kicked in during Timika's post (not her fault I don't want it to sound like it is, cause it isn't). Funerals really bother me. Then I remebered and thought about 2 that I went to. But those fealings left when I went onto the next post so her post dosn't really have anything to do with my reflecting. I did have my palm read once by a friend and the line that supposedly tells how long you will live was a long line, but I didn't really belive it then. I'm generaly a positive person. I look at things in a positive light but but I'm also a realist. Being a realist is often not the best because it makes you not aspire to do things, because you know you can't do them so why bother. But it is also good becacuse it makes you not get exicted and have high expectations, that you can't fullfill. I know if I had just read this I would be thinking man he needs to chill with some weed and just go get laid. I'm not realy a drug person, cause I need to be in control as opposed to the drugs but maybe that should change. Besides I'm normally preaty mellow why get more mellow. Well yeah getting laid is cool and all, but sometimes the one night stands feal great at the time but latter make you feal empty inside. Well maybe if it was one ladies or someone who looked like my post #669 then that would be a differant story. Who knows. Yeah I'm fucked up for those that didn't allready know.

Ok that is enough Negativity or reflection for now I gotta go eat and watch a video or some tV or something. I'm going to the bisons on friday and Monday is EDGEFEST, I'm listening to Thirtysecondstill mars right now, good CD. Saturday I want to go to the Marina I think there is some ship downthere. I may even go to the falls or maybe see if I can find any of the guitars for hope. But my main goal is to spend money and have fun on MONDAY, also a day off from work will be great to.

First of all sorry that in the survey I used the wrong address. I used the webpage address instead of the journal address. I have used A picture site called webshots for years it really is a cool site. And now that I think of it Journaling hear has made me increase how many pictures i put up there. Today I wasn't going to post. I really don't have much to say. That is why I havn't said hi to any of the peeps or would they be Peepetes since they where all females in chat. But I have enjoyed reading the surveys they are interesting. I admit there are a few peoples who if they decide to answer it or find out about the survey might be verry interesting to read. I know there was something else I wanted to say about my survey other then I kinda messed up on the color thing I was trying to make the questions and answers differant colors. In anyevent maybe it makes mine a little differant. I do look forward to reading more peoples surverys.

People:
1. How did you find out about/why did you become of estrip?

Side Walk Chalk Adds

2. How "out" are you about having a publicly accessible online journal. Do your friends know? Does your family know? Do your co-workers know? Does your boss know? Do you use your real name? Do you use your real photo?

I don't use my real name but it is the name I use basicly everywhere on the web. There is also only one other Metalpeter that I know of. I don't think my boss, co workers or family know, if so they have never mentioned it. I do use my own Photo. But that is good cause it makes it eaiser to vent. And i can be more personal.

3. How many epeeps have you met real life?

Lost count around 25

4. How has estrip changed the way that you meet people, on and/or off line?

Yes I meet people at (e:strip) parties. Still can't really get into spot, maybe if I was with someone else. I havnt't really taking it to the yeah wana met somewhare, yet stage. Well except Timika but that was all her really.

5. How has estrip affected you love life?

As of yet it hasn't affected it. But who knows that could always change. But i have from it found a couple interesting adult sites but that hasn't really changed anything. [yeah i did have one internet crush would you call it, but that is all it was, so still no effect]

6. How many of your friends have joined estrip because of your influence?

None.

7. Are you from Buffalo/do you live in Buffalo?

Was not born here but yes and yes

Equipment:
1. What type of hardware or software purchases have you made as a result of using estrip?

nothing bought but i do use firefox now along with IE.

2. Have you used the mobile version of estrip? Why or why not?

No, No cell phone.

Lifestyle:
1. In what way has estrip changed your Internet surfings habits? Describe the amount of time you spend on estrip, when you use it and about how long?

It depends on what topics get posted. Sometimes It seemed to take hours to read the AJ/Jason/josh political wars was way to much reading and took to much time so I stoped. Maybe an hour a day. Assuming there isn't an interesting chat going on publicly. I think I still spend about as much time on line. But I do it here as opposed to using a forum site.

1a. How many journals do you usually read per day?

Depends on how many people have posted but I would guess about 14. I always have to read (e:thecarey) , (e:ladycrofts) , (e:jenks) and (e:Imk2) if the journal is something I don't care about I skip to the next one.

2. In what ways has estrip changed the way you perceive your local community?

not sure.

3. How has journaling about your life affected the way you spend your free time?

I'm a litlle bit more social. I go to some (e:strip) parties, go to bars and wind up having a fun time my self as opposed to with peeps cause I always mess it up some how. Sometimes I will hear about an event that I forgot about and will wind up going (Henery Rollins).

4. Has estrip changed your living situation in any way?

no

5. Do you find that you mediate/document more of your experiences now that you share them with others?

Yes because I never had a journal, so I do document more.

6. Has publishing on estrip affected the way that write?

My writing was always kinda crapy, and it still is. But at least I get practice typing and do some writting.

7. Do you have other online journals? If so, with what service and has estrip affected your usage of that journal?

Well I do have my space but I was allready on (e:strip). So since (e:strip) was first it really couldn't affect it. I do journal sometimes there but that isn't why I joined it.

8. Have you ever gotten in trouble for using estrip at work?

I don't use it at work. One I don't have the time. and more importantly I like to be able to vent freely with out people at work talking to me about what I wrote. Not to mention my Sociopolitcal views varry grately from theres so it would just cause more arguments and debate wich can be fun but all day would get ugly.

9. If you have stopped using estrip, why?

I may have stoped using it for a little bit. Something happend but I don't remember what so I may be miss remembering.

Well in Honor of journal #669 I thought I would have a little bit of fun and put up some pictures of ladies that it would be fun to 69. I followed a few guidelines other wise there might be hunderds of pictures up. I tried to use small pics. I wanted to use mostly actresses I think there are a few exceptions. This is only a partial list of famous chicks. I also decided not to use any nudity. The reason is that some of them like Tara Reid and Jamie Pressley (how ever you spell it) have legit nude pictures. But some other peoples might not be like Jessica Alba. This is not meant to be a sex fantasy post. I wouldn't post that here. That is why I didn't use any Porn Stars like Jenna Jamison, Tara Patrick, or Asia Carera. These are just the people who came to my mind first.

On sunday went with the family to Old Man Rivers and that river walk park. Think it is called Niawanda Park or something like that. I had fun and the weather was great. Not sure if I prefer them to Missipi Muds. Missippi muds does have that cool upstairs part. There was a good crowd. Some kid had a pet farrett on a leash and it was walking around the resturant. Then in the park there was from a distance looked like a dalmation but it had a fluffy white tail so it was an interesting day.


The link is to one of my webshots albums for MIA 06. I thought I would post 3 pics. All the pictures came out good as pictures. But some of them are kinda dark and some of them are great. Looking at them is at least a good way to kill time.

Mainly writing this post to vent and once writen I will as a test make it a private post and see if it works. So some of you may wind up reading it or it may be invisable we shall see.

Phones gernerally realy piss me off. Last night I get a phone call from someone who dosn't have anything to say. What the fuck, if you don't have anything to say or any reason to call then don't call. I saw some stand up comedian go on this same topic for about 3 minutes. But it is true why call if you have nothing to say. For example this morining Jen and Mike where on line. I could have said Hello to both of them but I didn't really have anything else to say; so I figured why bother.

Phone messages. I get mostly junk phone calls. The ones where they say that it is verry important that you call them back and they give some phone number. If it is so fucking important for me to call back then give me some details am I going to die in a month and life insurance has run out, is my dick small and I don't know it. and this pill will add 4 inches, has my credit information been stolen, tell me so that I know what it is about. The one that makes me the most upset is when they ring you pick up or the machine gets it and they say please hold for an important message. What the fuck, hold you called me ashole. Shit like this makes me wants to do like that guy did on the snickers commerical and fly to that tellamarketers place and smash his phone.

I was looking for some files on the computer today to add to my screensaver wich didn't work PPS files and webshots won't work togather I guess. I found a picture of Timika. I gotta admit I kinda miss that bright pink hair. For some reason I felt like running my hand through it, I think I may be losing my mind. Considering it is a picture.


Update:
When I put it into draft mode then I couldn't see it either when I was loged in. So I figured fuck it we'll keep it public. I think I confussed this with another site that I go to where you can make posts private and public sorry about that. I restored it so that is ok. Maybe I'll go for a walk down elmwood today and take some pics who knows.

I went to see the newest Fast and the Furious movie. I liked it a lot. If you like hot chicks fast cars and some action then it is your thing. With out giving anything away I'm glad that it had a story and that they built the story up. Not just starting with kids racing cars in Japan. If you have seen the ads someone makes a Cameo. If you don't know who it is I won't ruin it. Hopefully they will come out with a 4th and it will pick up where this one ends. That brings me to my Next Point saw a Preview for Miami Vice. My first thought was The Movie looks good and I'll go see it since I liked the show, wich ironicly started as a TV Movie if I remember Correctly. My next thought was Colin Farell great actor and He makes a good Sunny/Corket/Burnet but then I thought hey but Don Johson would be better hey and here's and Idea lets get the other actors from the show back also. Maybe they want to distance them selves fromt the show in case it flops or maybe because they want to do a series of movies or maybe even bring out a new verison of the series. I wounder if the old cast members where even contacted?

Glad everyone who went to see Soundclash and Soulive at the square had fun. I was stage Right or the left side of the stage on the grass. It was hug fest again. All these girls kept hugging it seemed, they where all preaty cute to. Even Two guys behind me hugged. Yeah being hugged by a cute girl I don't know might have been strange but they could have at least been considerate and thought about me. One funny thing was there was this cute short little girl who I swear looked just like Katie Holmes but with lighter hair she was a hottie and always kissing verry softly her man. One part that made My day was these two girls where togather (no out ward signs that they were lovers or anything) When one of the girls hugged this other girl and she didn't lose it, but when the hug got to be a little longe she pulled back on the hoodie she was wearing and let girl know but it seemed preaty friendly. I really enjoyed the show but it is so hard to concentrate on the show when there are all these ladies standing around me. There was even this tall thin blonde chick and her boobs where right at eye level How am I supposed to watch who was on stage. I manged somehow and got a few pics. When I got there I didn't see any of those you going to burn in hell signs, did those guys find somplace else to protest or do maybe they like Soulive?

I plan on going to see who ever is playing on thursday, it maybe Blues Travler I hope to maybe take pictures of some fine ladies who knows. Oh yeah I put one MIA 06 pictures on my webshots page but it is only day 1. I have to make album #2 this week some time.

Post #669 is coming up soon so I have to find pics on the web of ladies you know I would like to 69 but since I'm in the 600 I would say it would at least have to be 6 of them.

My computer is starnge I was on here the other day and the banners would show up on (e:strip) now there are no banners, whacky computer. If anyone is still reading this? Has anyone here ever wrote a post and made it private? I'm thinking about maybe doing one private as a way to maybe vent somestuff with out having people read it. I belive once you post it you just click on that eye but I have never done one before. I know I'm forgetting something else I want to talk about but not sure what that is.

I hope the weather is nice on thursday for the square. I want to go see SouLive. I saw them once at townballrooom. They are a great live band with all kinds of instruments. On another note I've started to upload pictures to webshots if I ever get them all up I'll post a link to them. I wanted to stay out of the main st. debate but I got drawn in. Its a verry interesting topic but sometimes people yell or get angery really quick when you talk about race, culture and social class so sometimes debates or discussions can become diffacult. Maybe if I go to the square I'll take the camara.

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That is the art I bought I just lost 7 pictures to the site they are to big to really post and shirnking them all takes way to much time on my computer currently so right now posting more pics really won't work som maybe if I get access to a high speed internet acess computer I'll put some more up. What I wanted to do was tell a story with the pictures but I guess I will have to do that with my webshots page I'll let you know when they are put up. If anyone said anything to me in chat I wasn't blowing you off but my chat frezes some times and if loading pictures it dies basicly. Why is it that when I run into people I don't think to break out the camara. I do think this on chick was checking me out at Allentown or maybe it was just my giant cookie.

I will include more pictures later but I'm short on time.

On my way to the bank I ran into (e:Ladycroft) that was a pleasant surprise unlike the artic wind that was Blowing. Then later I ran into Paul, Matt, Terry and Holly and talked for a few.

I like how at MIA they have interactive art that you can watch. Hopefully when I post more pics of bands you will see the pictures behind the stage change or get added two how ever you say that.

I know I heard some bands that I liked who names I don't remember but the ones that I know I liked where The Juliet Dagger and
The Voo Doo Dolies and Klear. Klear has another new lead singer He is a lot better I think then the guy they had last year.

Some of the dancing was really amazing. They had more Poleplay dancing on sunday again. Sorry for scatterd thoughts. The night endend with people who dance to fire to the performance of Robie's band Amungus not sure if I spelled it right. I did buy some art to that when I put it up I will hopefully put up the artists web site. I have tons of pictures and will try to tell the story with out puting up to many of them.