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Category: simplicity

10/25/06 09:51 - 42ºF - ID#36072

reccommend a book

Its getting to be that time of year for suggling- preferably not alone ;)

brrr. I think I will bust out the hot cocoa soon. I hear Baileys has come out with a chocolate mint liquer. That might be a nice addition to the hot soothing liquid..

I am starting to read, Paulo Cohelo's, The Alchemist. Well, actually I began reading it before the summer began, then I found myself with no extra time or mental energy to read it as I was finishing up school. Now I have returned to it. I think it will be helpful to me on various levels.

I am looking to pick out a book to read after that, which should be very soon as it is simple book.

I want to read something that isn't scholarly-- unless it comes highly reccommended. I am looking for something that I can wrap my mind around, become completely emerged and lost in. Something that I don't want to put down. The weather is colder, the days shorter and it is time to nest a bit. Reading is a perfect compliment to that. Besides, I haven't really had the opportunity to just read for the fun of it in quite some time.


How about some suggestions fellow (e:peeps)??

btw, nice theme, (e:leetee) love the bats!
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Category: reflection

10/23/06 10:00 - 39ºF - ID#36071

Marquis de Sade

Some of you know that I am renting a room/office in Buffalo. When I first moved in, I tossed it all together very quickly. I was just finsihing school, then I found myself in a new job-- and everything became unbalanced. I just needed some transition time. My room looked nice, but it hadn't been worked on since I tossed it together. I needed a few more details -- such as books and a consistent internent connection ;)
At the house warming party many peeps had mentioned doing something to separate the office area from the bed area. Seemed like a great idea and that thought planted itself into my head. So this weekend I went out to buy things that would do just that.

A ton of material and hardware (and friends) - thanks (e:pyrcedgrrl) and (e:terry) - contibuted to the change. We spent the entire evening on Saturday putting it together. When "done", I didn't like it. I mean, there was just something about it. I know that when I perseverate on something like that, I have to figure it out. It must be changes, it must be the way I want it in my head. OK, so I thought I was doing that when I began.. but in the end, I thought it looked tacky and Bordello-like. Or clown tent like-- ironic since i hate circus's and clowns, etc-- not sure what it was exactly that I didn't like, but something didn't sit well. I knew I had to figure it out or I was going to tear it down. I figured that I would give it a day and so I slept on it.

Well, the next day I didn't have to tear it down as it all fell down. ALL of it. Oh, and my mirror that I put up, haha. One by one I heard one crash after the other. I just laughed--with a few curse words mixed in there.

I took it as an opportunityt to get it the way I wanted and to engage in some creative problem solving.

I hope it is still attached. I ended up attaching material to the wall to make a bit of a wall- to separate from the office area.. but it has more of a canapy look around the bed as oppsed to the prior Bordello-circus tent look. Its cute and cozy now. YAY. A few more details and tweaks will finish it off. I still want to hang a mirror or three and add a plant- but that can wait.

haha, someone pointed out that the way my desk is set up (its a big one) looks like a reception/secretary desk. *insert all sorts of bad jokes/scenerios here*

It humored me to work on that this weekend. It was a nice change from the environment in which I work...

Every move I make is dictated by rules and regulations as put forth by the state. Not just State Ed but the sector of government that oversees developmental disabiltiies as well, actually even more so. State Ed is lenient in comparision. So a lot of my freedom to think is squelched because I have to reference it to some S.O.P. (more like, S.O.B?)When there isn't a standard operating procedure, I have to ask ask ask someone higher up, as figuring it out on my own may lead to some legal damage, etc.

bah.

I'm a risk taker, a visionary and creative, energetic and enthusiastic by nature.

This job that I have is great in that it affords me the ability to learn and network and have the time off to pursue something that I really want. I have an entreprenureal spirit-- I like to build, create, and move on to the next project.

So I dot my I's, cross my Ts and juggle a slew of details with such an air of seriousness, that I am concerned for the long term effects it could have on my spirit. (for a few weeks I couldn't even write much on here as (e:imk2) noticed). So.. long term effects.. I say this because, constraining my creativity, energy and freedom to think outside the box has been amputated, at least in the job environment. I don't dislike my job. I rather enjoy it- it certainly is a shift of gear from my last job. I just want to be able to loosen up a bit. My prankster ways are no more. Fortunately, I am getting good, I am really organized, I have great follow though, and I manage to get things done in a timely manner. There are a few thinsg here and there that slip-- or I just didn't know exist yet-- but that is all part of learning. Not that everyone I deal with remembers that, lol.

I like making decisions, working on tough problems and chipping away at huge challenges. I would just prefer more of an energetic environment and the use of all the characteristics that make me, well, me. Maybe I can influence others to have some fun- change the culture a little bit-- encourage people to "let go" and not take it all so seriously. Sure it is some major stuff we deal with-- but if it isn't going to kill you, then why let it weigh you down?

As usual, with the abiltiy to see the positive, I enjoy learning something new, to think about how what I do effects so many others and that I am indeed making major progress and have the opportunity to take on more and all sorts of high level responsibilty.

What intrigues me about this time in my life and in particular about this job, is trying to figure out a way to find balance again. Also to work through this period of dissonance to determine my future direction. Am I uncomfortable because I don't have a full grasp of everything yet-- that I am used to being the one who really knows everythng about what they are doing? (which isn't always great either, as I need to learn, be challenged, etc) Or am I uncomfortable because this particular positon isn't the best/ideal match and I have to think long and hard about my next step? hmmm.

Funny, I already know what it is-- my next step is to build a business. That mentality has been in the works for awhile now- before school ended. Being in this situation is helping me to see yet another angle of business. I think this is all good for me. As long as I keep what I really want in mind-- and go after it. It does no good to just talk about it. So I gave myself 'homework' this week in regards to looking up/researching/talking to people about some ideas. I find myself thinking about all that is related to that. Again, this all began in the summer, but it is only now that somethings have settled down that I have been finally able to return to it. Thats where my mind/heart is.

I'd rather work 16 hours a day at something I am passionate about than 8 hours at something that pays the bills (and i am grateful for that much!)-- but I am using this time to learn all that I can, network like mad, and use it as yet another stepping stone in my life.

So I have to figure out what I want to learn, what I want to take away and what I want to contribute while I am there.

damn the red tape!

Beside my original job responsibilities, I have been tossed a section of the company into my lap- that was recently taken in by my department a few weeks before I began. It needs a major overhaul and it has a lot of bad history to it.

Now its mine!! -- and I think that is the most exciting element to me so far. Its something I can get my hands into- get dirty a bit-- and have some use of my "think outside of the box" mentality. Its got a bad rep, morale is down, its a general mess and its been shuffled around for years. This is the one area that while the progmatics, protocal and such need to be adhered to-- the change element is all mine. At first I thought it was a matter of patching the weak spots-- then it was determined through analyis that it needs to be dismantled-- all the while helping those involved to transition, build buy in and increase morale-- and encourage them to be part of the process- something they may not have had before. How can I lead unless those I am leading provide me with direction? Sure I could ride in, just say, "this is how I want it"-- but I'd much rather ask, 'how do you want it?"

blahblahblah

my grammar and spelling is really bad on here- feeling half asleep, partly laying down, with Kayla prancing back and forth across my lap I am typing, rather "pecking" as I think and without really looking.

so yeh, spending time working on my bedroom/office was a pleasant creative diversion this weekend. Next weekend will be an even better diversion!


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Category: silliness

10/22/06 08:23 - 50ºF - ID#36070

stinks and other stuff

hahah, I am always amused at the random comments in the chatter. This is yet another example of why I love the Chatter: (read in order)

  1. kookcity2000 19:10 Paul how do you tell a bot from a guest

  1. paul 19:15 the way they smell

  1. kookcity2000 19:15 so those are smells that you smell on a frequent basis

and thats it.

Then I read (e:kookcity2000,54) and it made me giggle even more. So, what do I tend to smell on a frequent basis? hmmm..

my olfactory is usually presented with the following daily aromas:

vanilla. This time of year I burn a vanilla scented candle.

sticky stuff oozing from a Noco factory that I pass crossing over the Grand Island bridge. Yuck

smell of hot rooibos tea- either natural or infused with lavender. I drink it every single night (and green tea in the morning, but that doesn't have much smell)

earthy freshness coming in or going from Youngstown; lucky me.

food wafting from restaurants on elmwood avenue.

my leather furniture

smells I try to stay far away from:

cigarettes and perfume and anything with a 'harvest' smell.

I hate Endust furniture dusting spray in that scent. I used to clean houses for a living while working on my undergrad- clients supplied their own cleaning stuff and I'd have to use a particular kind/brand if they wanted. Endust was the worst and 409 cleaner. It all gives me a headache or atleast a general icky feeling.

I get scent nausea- headache, itchy red eyes and mood irritabilty if around the source for an extended time (especially applies to cigarette smoke). I need fresh air.

  • yawn* I am tired.

late night last night-- fun, but ooh I am feeling it today. That and the cold, super rainy and windy day today. I just want to snuggle under covers all evening, but I am working on a project instead. More on that later.

be well, peeps!
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Category: potpourri

10/21/06 01:11 - 44ºF - ID#36069

change

dude, where's my car-
charger for my iPod? I can't find it and my pod has no battery power. I am stumped. I'll be forced to listen to the radio in my car as my wall charger is in Y-town and I am in B-Lo.

The plan this weekend is to get everything together I need for my NYC trip along with making some adjustments to my B-Lo room/office. I begun to move stuff around to see if I like it better set up differently- I might be on to somehting. Its late now and I have made enough noise, so I will resume tomorrow. I want to create it to be more reflective of me. The colors and such are perfect as is- I aim to tweak the room such as hang a mirror, find a book shelf, carpet, winter bedding and some material to divide the bed from the office area. Perhaps even hang a plant and trapeze. I don't have a master plan, but I know I am in the mood for change.

And since it involves some shopping, I have put it off. I have also been busy with other things and havent felt inspired- or inspiration had been sucked out of me.

I need to do something creative, so this is a start.

hurray!

what else? I'm tired and I forget..

:) good night
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Category: nerd

10/19/06 09:53 - 50ºF - ID#36068

i cant see you (updated)

No longer wishful thinking for would-be super heroes (and perverts) Invisibility is here; well partially. Check out how scientists have created a cloak to make a copper cylinder invisible.



"Cloaking used special materials to deflect radar or light or other waves around an object, like water flowing around a smooth rock in a stream. It differs from stealth technology, which does not make an aircraft invisible but reduces the cross-section available to radar, making it hard to track."



And another thing.. (now I am paranoid about the use of my dot. dot. dot. habit)

Someone sent me an email observing that the recent Cory Lidle plane crash into a Manhattan high rise building had a peculiar detail. If you take the date of the crash 10-11-06, and look at it upside down, it more or less shows...

well, you figure it out. Little eerie coincindental detail.

I really hate watching and reading the news. It is the most horrific and or stupid information told over and over and over again.

I tune in occasionally, but usually I just tune out; I really think it is unhealthy.

ALright, time for a shower and a lovely cup of rooibos tea.

Updated: shower completed, tea almost finished, I am curled up in bed with my laptop. Yes, (e:mk) your life will never be the same having a wireless laptop

And so, I too go to the name link found in (e:mk)'s journal. Thanks!

"how many of me"



According to this site, I am the only person with my first and last name.
I really am Thee Carey.
Carey: There are 32,997 people in the U.S. with the first name Carey.
Statistically the 1003 rd most popular first name. (tied with 30 other first names)

59.09 percent of people with the first name Carey are male.

Marquis: There are 11,009 people in the U.S. with the last name Marquis.
Statistically the 3355th most popular last name. (tied with 12 other last names)

nifty. Off to bed I go
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10/19/06 02:48 - 59ºF - ID#36067 pmobl

lunch break

I am feeling rather chipper today.I am on my lunch eating last weeks veggie soup,well, stew (it should probably have a bit of broth to be classified as soup, yes? Barley sucked it up, should have gone with the lentils!)

It still tastes yummy.

I'm sitting in my car, watching and listening to the rain. Here is an unbroken tree and a picture of the pile of crap that has collected in my front seat; since my front passenger door does not open, it happens all of the time,

atleast that is my exuse. I am really not a pig :)

have a great day folks
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Category: weather

10/17/06 06:22 - 56ºF - ID#36066

Out with the shovel in with the paddles

Glad to see (or rather it appears) that all of (e:strip)s beloved (e:peeps) are all doing ok!

Damn monsoon out there now, huh? Check your basements! Get out your rafts and floaties! Even Youngstown hasn't been able to avoid all that wet and dreariness. Still strange that we didn't even get a flake of snow. (no longer complaining!)

Sooooo, I miss Buffalo!! It hasn't felt right to go try and hang out, admist all this chaos. I have stayed on my side of the Grand Island bridge. And although I have had plenty of heat, electric and cable, I havent had enough human contact- and that has been a bummer.
Visit by Mom doesn't count, haha.

I had Friday and Monday off from work due too all this. So although I did quite a bit if socializing on Friday, the remainder of the weekend and Monday were too quiet. There wasn't even anywhere to go that was open.

I love my alone time, but this was too much! I was forced to entertain myself on that Other Place (shhhh, My Space) haha and do laundry AND dishes. wow.

other thoughts and stuff:

(e:PMT) miss you guys!

so, (e:ajay) Are you missing B-Lo? What a warm welcome, huh? Glad you made it in and out ok!

It really is ironic that (e:mrmike) is without cable.

again, Happy Birthday, (e:lilho) -- I think you need to have an after chaos celebration; you got a bum deal on this birthday!


Or maybe we can have an, "I survived Buffalo's Blizzard, Tornado, Hurricane, Monsoon, Power Outage, Driving ban, Flood of Oct '06" party. We'll even have party favors: heat and electric. WOO!

That is the extent of my random thoughts, for now.










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Category: nature

10/15/06 07:21 - 48ºF - ID#36065 pmobl

Getting out walking about

A long brisk walk through Fort Niagara. It always feels good to stretch my legs and breath in frsh air. The leaves and earth smells are growing strong. It was really quite a beautiful fall day.

I brought my Pocket PC with me as that is my only means of taking pictures at this point in time, unless I dug out an old 35mm or 110 camera, Ha!

I attempted to go look at cameras yesterday, but many of the stores are still closed up.

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I think I am impressed with the quality of the camera phone pictures-- well, much more than I thought I would be. I mean, the colors aren't stong, a lot ofdetail is missing, but its a pcoket pc- the camera is the least of the features. It will work for basic social pictures whiile I look for something more suitable.

I am looking for a camera that I can use to fulfill my photography endeavers. I want to be able to take a picture of the moon, the detail of a single snowflake and finally capture the many looks of Toronto from the shores of Lake Ontario.

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Niagara River emptying into Lake Ontario. Old Fort Niagara to the right.
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Sail away Sail away Sail away. Many boaters out today (not these ones-- but there were a few motor boats zipping through the river) I would have liked to have joined them. Although chilly, the sunshine and awarm hat made it bearable.
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Sipped a mug of hot coffee while watching the sun set..
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I wanted to take a video of the water crashing into the rocks; apparently I have no clue of what I am doing.
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Miss Kayla, Joey's equally adventurous sister
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Well, I think I am going to take on the culinary project of making my own Pad Thai. Wish me luck, I hope it turns out well. My mission this year is to learn how to make a few of my favorite ethinic dishes.

The weekend is wrapping up, I enjoyed having the extra day off due to the weather and such, even though it meant that most everyone was stranded. I think it was Friday that people were being turned away from the Grand Island bridge as the travel ban through Amherst and B-lo greatly limited traveling. So many places were and continue to be closed due to power outages and damage.. I am sure it will take awhile for things to be up and running again. As long as everyone is safe..

SO yeh, I stayed home all weekend. Cleaned, organized and walked around Lewiston Friday afternoon, then enjoyed a small party at my place later that night, bummed around the house Saturday, spent a lot of time on the computer, including My Space hahahahaha (I have ulterior motives) and ventured out to Wegmans for Pad Thai fixings and magazines. Today, more relaxing and pretty much kept to myself. The jaunt through the Fort never bores me.

I think I have hit my limit of alone time. I need to be around people asap.

Later gators

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Category: weather

10/14/06 03:14 - 46ºF - ID#36064

missing peeps?

I think there should be a (e:peep) check in.

There are a few I havent seen on the site since Thursday; perhaps they are without power. yuck. namely, (e:imk2) (e:mrmike) and ..

Since there has been a driving ban and power outages everywhere, I have stayed close to home and have been on the computer a lot (of course!)

Had a fun improptu gathering last night at my place. (e:pyrcedgrrl) 's BIRTHDAY was yesterday, and since just about evrywhere was closed, my apartment was open! I couldn't stop laughing the entire evening. Good stuff. Joey, my beloved fur blob was very happy to have an apartment full of people. He is very sociable and loves the attention, particularly from the men. As everyone left, he kept stretching out and reaching out his paws to them. Very cute.

Slept till noon. Oy my head hurts today, perhaps a wee bit of a hangover? Nothing a large cup of coffee and a few pints of water can't cure.

I would like to make my way out to a digital camera store. I think I found one that might suit my needs, the Sony Cybershot H5. I could always order online, but I want to fondle a few before I make my ultimate choice.

one of many, many, many reviews I have looked at over the past month or so:


Guess its time to get dressed.

Hope everyone is doing alright!

Happy Birthday, (e:lilho) Are plans still on?
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Category: weather

10/13/06 09:43 - ID#36063

today October Storm

Although it would have been a bit fun to have snow to play in today, I feel really bad for all of the people who are without power for who knows how long. 250-300,000 people? wow.

Then there is the damage-- the kind that will take awhile to clean up and then the permenant damage to the aestetic view of various yards and streets. I can't get over how many trees went down.

Someone on tv mentioned that the damage is equivelant to a typcial hurricane. Apparently its Buffalos version of a hurricane with the amount of damage and disarray.

No nearly as much tree toppling would have occured if the leaves and such had already fallen for the season.

Earlier this afternoon (e:pyrcedgrrl) (give her a B-day shout out!) and I ventured into the Village of Lewiston to grab a cup of coffee at the Orange Cat coffee house. As they tend to keep irregular hours, it wasnt surprising that they were closed, although we were a bit annyed as we both looked forward to socializing with the locals. We tried another place, and it was closed.

hmph.

???

We continued down Center street looking for caffeine. Everything was closed.

???

Slightly perplexed until we arrived at a street light being operated by a generator. The usually super busy village appeared to be a ghost town.

Ahhh, we understand now. Everything really is closed because there is no power.

So we did have some power outage in this area as well.

We managed to stroll into a semi open DicCamillos bakery on Center Street. They had some coffee left over in their thermos' of which we reluctantly purchased. It smelled a little bitter.

and it was.

So we took our new found source of caffeine and continued our stroll down Center Street until we reached the Niagara River. Not bundled up enough for the cold air, we sat on a swing over looking the water and talked anyways, both detesting and relishing the hot bitter coffee.

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Tonight, we have fresh coffee, a large bottle of wine, cake, music and friends over for a small impromptu gathering. Very nice.

if you happen to be in the area, stop over!

I hope you are safe and warm.

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