I felt it last night before I tried to get to bed after checking out Tom Jones. ((e:jenks)) wrote a very emotionally filled post about the utter disappointment with the male gender in this metro area. To be perfectly honest I can not blame her at all. I have lived here all my life and seen guys do some pretty screwed up stuff. Not that they don't do it anywhere else, (my Ex's Father gave her a lifetime of therapy) but around here it does seem that us males do contemplate our actions on a sub-base level of consciousness. Lord knows I have fallen down there in the bowels of something that can be described as a masculine mental deficiency.

Then I go to work and find a mess awaiting me. Larry, the nicest guy you will ever meet was out $800. He was beside himself and at the last time we checked surveillance was still looking for it. The poor guy he has a newborn at home, he needs this job. While if it ever came to the ultimate frustration I could just say, "See Ya." Even if they fired me as long as I could pay c.o.b.r.a and get an OK for a reference I would be alright.

I am not rich, but I'm not poor either. I could survive working a crap job in this town until I got my act straighten out or went back to school. Heck, taking a couple summer months off right now would actually be fun.

An interesting weekend to in the sense that I ended up hanging out with my friend Tom and just crawled along Allen St. Running into a bunch of people that I haven't seen in a while is always a good time. The strangest part of the night was witnessing two people that I have know in the past stand side by side and back to back to each other for about an hour and a half. It was pretty much surreal and my friend Tom got a big kick out of it. Due to the fact that A* is our common friend Pat's arch enemy, or as he refers to her as the "Anti-Pat." Ironically his room ate Gabriel showed up later graced us with her presence.


Saturday I ended up going to out to the Olympic Family Restaurant on Sheridan and Military. What goes on in the heads of Ken-Ton men is beyond me. I once knew a guy from Kenmore and we always would go to this place after a night out and such. He was sort of a stereotypical Kenmore guy, he got me into the Notorious B.I.G and drove around in a pimped out Honda, went to Canisus High School, but he was a descent guy. Eric never was an asshole to anyone. In fact he would always get the worst of it. If I told you about his ex-wife you would understand.

Then there are guys like this in the Ken-Ton Area going into this place drunk at 2am.
The low point was this drunk guy trying to pick up a waitress there and the reply she gave back was just messed up. It was basically this:

Guy: Wanna go out sometime
Wait: You're joking right?
Guy: No, I really want you, here is my #
Wait: Do you know how old I am? I'm an old lady!
Guy: I don't care you have a nice ass
Wait: I'm 30 and have 2 kids
Guy: All I want to do is Fuck!
Wait: How old are you?
Guy: 22
Wait: Well Ok, I'll hold on to you # and think about it. Have a nice night!

I hate to stereotype but he had on South Pole gear, a few gold chains and a white baseball cap. Needless to say the whole restaurant stopped and just honed in and listen to all of this go down. I love guys that know how to respectfully talk to a woman!

What is going on over the last week or so? I have seen and been witness to some remarkable women being dumped by their guys! I can see dumping someone that is a bad person but these women are hot and intelligent. That is a combo that you don't come across too often. Well you can always say that sometimes men feel intimidated by intelligence, but come on now!

I did read a interesting quote on someone's myspace page, "For every attractive woman you see someone got sick of her!"

Scary thought

Just my question is: What kind of women are these guys going to replace their ex-girlfriends with?

I feel really bad that the only time I ever make an appearance at Mohawk Place is when there is a Transmission Dance Party. Here is the pretty descent place that features good local music and solid recording artists and I never go to enjoy that aspect of the place. I go to hang with underage kids dancing to music that first came out when they were probably in elementary school! Well at least I can take comfort in that thought. Usually the theme of a Smiths v. Cure or Depeche Mode v. New Order features songs that were recorded when most of the attendees were not born yet.

The way I look at it at least I get to go and look at the black and white signed photo of The White Stripes over the archway midway down the bar. It's always fun to show my friends that Jack White III and Meg White autograph and say "They played here!!! OMG!!!" Then again where am I going to find PBR for $2?

OK weekend slumber over, back to reality and the effort to change it.

Being the good boyfriend with my Ex (i.e. doing things that I should have done when we are together) I humored her and ventured out to Levels. Dance clubs on the Chip Strip make me gag. In all the time we were dating never did I go with her to that place no matter how much she begged me. Years ago when it was Zoo Bar I stopped in a few times but that was it. Never really enjoyed myself there and nothing ever spectacular ever occurred in a place like that. Heck the existence of a place of that nature reinforces the fact that 54% of Americans have an IQ lower than 89.

Please note I am not a total freak! The difference in why we went this night was it was the Fetish Ball. Now I attended Fetish nights at the Continental and they were off the wall and out of this world. Oh, some good memories. I even participated once and may post...UMMM on 2nd thought

This night was pretty lame. Evil Jim from 103.3 was there and it was unspectacular. All they really had to offer was a gift bag of condoms, lube, Planned Parenthood numbers, adds for a lingerie place on Hertel and a really bad Porn DVD.

The highlight was an old Drag Queen V that I had known from back in the day. Apparently the surgery was very successful! Wow is all I can say after about 7 years. It has been that long since I went to the drag show at Marcella's.

Overall she wanted to leave early, as the whole event was a big disappointment. It was the same crowd as any weekend night at Levels. In all just a total lack of substance. Yes, the people from lesbian karaoke At Roxy's did do a good job M.C.ing the event and doing a suicide girlsesque number. It was just a big let down. Especially this guy from NYC that tried rapping in a Lords of Acid type of way, but coming off a combination of bad performance art and Vanilla Ice. Yea, after him it was time to go at that point. I did like the ultra lounge in the front of the place. The only redeeming quality of the place.

Yea read a post in which someone mentioned the Pop Godess Britney Spears, this may be of interest



Wanted to head out tonight, but just ended up cleaning.

A bit of a waste given I don't have to work until 2:45 in the afternoon.

Calling into work tomorrow. Not to do anything fun, just for the purpose of going on a few interviews. I need to do something else. The same players and the lifestyle is just mentally exhausting. It was really fun in the beginning, but as everything else what you see on TV is nothing compared to the things they leave on the cutting room floor.

On top of that I just have been very tired lately. I really have not done much except avoid my "dark" friends. What the future holds for me in that regard is a bit sketchy. I have been friends for decade + with some of them, but their Goth lifestyle is a real drain. It has gotten to the point where I do not even want to go that place on Washington St given the choice of staying home on a Friday night or going there.

My social life has become dull and complicated at the same time. Staying at home has become more of an option since I have returned from my mini vacation. At the same time old friends have been attempting to get my attention. If someone blows me off for months at a time I just get to a point where I basically write them off. Then all of a sudden a surprise text message appears and I act as if I saw Lazarus. Weird.

Well I going to make the call to work now. I am a devious boy or just basically acting out in self preservation.

So I basically spent my day over in Canada playing Poker @ Casino Niagara. Started out playing 1-2 No Limit but the guy next to me smelled really bad so I ended up going to 3-6 Limit. A nice friendly game but there was this one rock that just could not do anything wrong. By the time I left he was up about 400. I was down for most of the 6+ hours I was there. All I was doing was playing good quality hands. By the end around 9:30 ish or so my Italian buddy engineer guy that I had a good time playing with had to run to his wife or else she was going to kill him. A good time to leave. The only thing I am afraid of is this guy was coughing quite a bit and I'm a bit paranoid of such things.

So on the way out I became a bit hungry. Harvey's was something I was craving but by the time I arrived at the location on Montrose & Thorld Stone it was closed. The next stop was Quizno's on Lundy's Lane. Fortunantly I found a good substitute for my Canadian Cravings. A Montreal Smoked Meat Sub!!1 Good times, plus the music they had playing was descent and I was glad that they stayed open for me. So I tipped them $1

I have a pretty crazy week lined up for me. I just hope I can get through it in one piece without too much stress, well bad stress anyway. The lesson I have to lean is not to get too frazled and worried. Today's session was a nice small exercise.

So I basically spent my day over in Canada playing Poker @ Casino Niagara. Started out playing 1-2 No Limit but the guy next to me smelled really bad so I ended up going to 3-6 Limit. A nice friendly game but there was this one rock that just could not do anything wrong. By the time I left he was up about 400. I was down for most of the 6+ hours I was there. All I was doing was playing good quality hands. By the end around 9:30 ish or so my Italian buddy engineer guy that I had a good time playing with had to run to his wife or else she was going to kill him. A good time to leave. The only thing I am afraid of is this guy was coughing quite a bit and I'm a bit paranoid of such things.

So on the way out I became a bit hungry. Harvey's was something I was craving but by the time I arrived at the location on Montrose & Thorld Stone it was closed. The next stop was Quizno's on Lundy's Lane. Fortunantly I found a good substitute for my Canadian Cravings. A Montreal Smoked Meat Sub!!1 Good times, plus the music they had playing was descent and I was glad that they stayed open for me. So I tipped them $1

I have a pretty crazy week lined up for me. I just hope I can get through it in one piece without too much stress, well bad stress anyway. The lesson I have to lean is not to get too frazled and worried. Today's session was a nice small exercise.

Friday's always kick my butt. After working late on Thursday and coming in early the next morning I am exhausted. So when you wake up at 10 at night your options are a bit limited. After getting a bit nostalgic for some Maple Road chain restaurant cuisine after hearing about the demise of Bennigan's and Tony Roma's I went to T.G.I. Friday's with my Ex. It is so strange as we get along better after we broke up.

When we finished our late night dinner, I didn't want the evening to end. So as I always did when we were dating I challenged her a bit. I suggested that we hit Allen St, for some reason she was always afraid to go down there. Hardware actually made a great impression for her as she immediately enjoyed the atmosphere.

The highlight of the night: Hardware now served MICKEYs Fine Malt Liquor. I have been waiting to drink that stuff for 8 years now ever since the movie SLC Punk!

Yes I am weird. That place has a good selection of liquor and wines and when I go there all I drink is Pabst Blue Ribbon and now Mickey's.