Was highly encouraged to go to Caputis after class to meet up with a slew of friends from work. Im there now. Two Heineken darks later and I am ready to go. Noone will allow me to misbehave! Word of caution, don't dare me to do anything you don't really want me to do! I've made history with some of the pranks I've pulled! (or been dared to do...) Friends were reminiscing over one in particular. Sometimes it fun to hear the same story over and over.
I also didn't ming the crazy welcome I received walking in the door. Happy faces, enthusiastic cheers of "CAREY!!!!!!!!" and someone giving me cake. Notr even sure who it was, haha. hmm Jim Steak Out is across the street.... and Mighty Taco is a few blocks aways.. mmmmmmm mighty taco.. migthy tasty.. I am there...


later:
It was a very interesting day. I think I will keep it to myself for now. Its all too deep for me to write about.

Its good to be home. I am so tired, as it was a long day and I am running on 5 hours of sleep. I finished my portfolio and can now focus on the last few school projects.

three weeks to go...

I just climbed into bed-- snuggled into my pillows and Bob (stuffed turtle), tired but not quite ready for sleep. With Sun Tzu's The ARt of War in one hand, and the tv channel set to South Park.. I am thinking this is a quirky combination; but thats me. WOnder what my dreams will be like tonight???

Commercial: "Im always up for a good time, and I get it on Hardline" haha Its about damn time!!! Late night tv is usually replete with telephone sex ads featuring girls. Now the commercials are all half naked men. right on!

I need sleep..

but first, a chapter in The Art of War and the remainder of the Baby Cow episode of South Park. "if you don't eat meat, you break out into vaginas" what??? haha


Good night and Happy Friday :)

oh my goodness

crunch time tonight.

I am finishing my Portfolio tonight; it must be handed in tomorrow.

I have section one completed-- select individual assignments from each class, cover sheet, table of contents, etc etc etc All of it took a lot longer than I planned on. Its taken days.. But that part is done and looks damn good.

I am still working on section two-- the paper. I am taking a very personal approach to it. I have a list of deliverables, which I will address, but I am exerting my creative flair. I am integrating a certain level of personal honesty and reflection to this section that would require it to be written in more lay terms for it to be done justice. Section One is full of specifics and the Masters language. I am making section two alll about me. Will it fly? Not sure.. but that is the approach I have decided to take.

Maybe I will even put in a plug for (e:strip), seeing as it has been my experimental public blog--initially written in for the purpose to see if I can be more 'open'. There were many 'tools' involved, but this mean has some of it chronicled.

Without going into it at this time.. I used to be very reserved-- it was difficult to pry anything out of me.

skip to--> you've read my posts, haha. I am not an open book, but I seem to write them on occasion. Before, that would be kept stricly to my personal paper journal. The craziest and juiciest of it all still goes in there..

Maybe one day I will trascribe ALL OF IT and make it publicly available. Word count will shoot up a few million..

eek.. one step at a time Carey. baby steps...

Anyway, this post may not make any sense. I am rambling yet am trying to clear my head for the next round of writing. I have already hit my page minimum, um, 4 pages ago... but my segue into the topic went on for pages and pages. I am telling a bit of a story before I get to the meat of the paper. It is relevant.. but I need to wrap it up soon. Its late, I am tired.. Thursdays are super long for me... but I have to keep going. Its due tomorrow.

And I havent procrastinated.. it has all just taken a lot of time.

3.5 weeks to go...

Then what?

:)

Feeling lazy and kinda hot. Dishes are dirty and I have too much to do to be bothered with taking time to cook. So, I declare that I don't intend to cook anything today; although if I were, it would be something from the scrumptious list of dill recipes (e:theecarey,221) provided by the following thoughtful (e:peeps):

(e:ladycroft)-- I never thought to just toss a bit on top of just about anything. I have some experimenting to do. And yes, ofcourse I will share!! :)

(e:zobar) --I love tzatziki! HAHA, that is my kind of recipe! If I throw this and that together it will form this.. I can follow that logic. Tzatziki, here I come..

But if I really want it to turn into tzatziki, maybe I will try the detailed recipe route. I have learned that not all of my creations or 'very loosely followed' recipes turn out spectacula..or edible. Thanks (e:dragonlady7) :) btw, I feel kinda silly asking.. but how do I start a new crop of dill? I think mine has gone to seed (thats where the flowery things are on top, right?).. and I have plenty of room to grow more if I know what I am doing.

(e:leetee) hmmmm dill butter sounds good. I think I could handle that. ooh, especially with corn season..

(e:pyrcedgrrl) failed to mention that the Noodle Recipe is all that she thinks I can aspire to. "I thought you might try the noodles.. how bad can you fuck up noodles??" heh.. I am quite capable of fucking up anything in the kitchen, pardon my language. Ive burned, melted and exploded cookware. And annihilated food.

Maybe I'll try making the butter first ;)

oh Daaannnnnnnaaaaaaaaa, I have two eggplants in my fridge, waiting for you to come over and make babaganoush.. its been almost a year.....

So, thank you very much, peeps! I appreciate the time all of you took to help me out, as (e:mrmike) said, in the great pickle I found myself in. har har.

I recall making pickles as a kid. Didnt have anything like a dill-crock as (e:jenks) mentioned. We made them from home grown cukes and sliced them up with the herbs and other seasonings before tossing them into the freezer. Now I need to ask my mom about the recipe.

My herbs are growing really well; they are not cooking in this heat yet. Basil smells so good, as does the lavender and lemon balm. I love the mint as well-- it makes my nose tingle.

(e:libertad) , which herbs are your bunny's favorite?

I have basil, lemon basil, oregeno, parsley, sage, dill, lavender, rosemary, thyme, mint, ornage mint, chocolate-orange mint, spearmint, catnip (?? stuff I made mojitos with, haha), stevia, maybe more..

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHHH! Friday night (e:pyrcedgrrl) and I stopped at Wegmans. We raided the produce aisle and looky what I found, to my delight and to the confusion of other shoppers:







(WIKIPEDIA - Lychee)


Lychee nuts. Juicy!

(e:ladycroft) and I scoured New York state last year looking for these damn fruits. Nice that we can finally buy fresh ones..

Got a few stories here..

Friday evening theme: If you build it, they will come. Or.. if you set chairs around the table you are sitting at, (e:peeps) (and others) will come. Gorgeous night, good company and conversation. Just what I needed.. yay!

Saturday: drove out to a beach party out on Erie lake in Chautauqua county-- Irving, I think, --not Cattaraugus county as (e:mrmike) informed me :) Stayed for a few hours-- enough to say hello, relax, eat and have a drink. I knew it was my time to go as the conversations were humorous only to those that were drunk. I had no intentions of drinking, so I headed out.

I went straight into Buffalo with the plan to sit at Spot with my schoolbooks (I figured that I have been doing so well staying focused that it just might be possible to actually do school work at Spot). Right after I parked, I turned the car back on and headed out to see (e:kangarooboi,31) at his temporary abode on the Boulevard. He wouldnt allow me to set a fire in the room to see if the sprinkler system worked. It was hot in there.. but thats what happens when you set the temperature contol to "low warm" and not "low cool" haha



For the record, I am no longer a Crackhead Barrel virgin.

rather, Cracker Barrel. I think Crackhead Barrel is more fitting. I want their french toast RIGHT NOW. There were millions of people waiting to get in to eat. The food is homey and I imagine that it would be perfect the day after a night of insane debauchery.


This game stressed me out. I was an 'eg-nor-amoose' more than a few times. Might have been a 'genius' once, not sure.. It was more fun to try to see how many golf-tee's we could keep in the wooden block.


While (e:kangarooboi) and I waited to be seated (which didn't take long at all), we walked around their country store- full of chotchsky and candy. Oh, and clothes.

And this: Baby Devil Dolls!!!!





who'd play with something like that???? I think those horns were actually molded to be little pony tails. They look like horns to me.

• shiver* things that nightmares are made of.

We had just been talking about scary stuff. I admit to fearing:

clowns-- you love them!








spiders..






eek! a horde of babies. Something about a pile of babies does not warm my heart. weird? I don't care..







this kind of monkey freaks me out..




e! ew! ew!

I must get those images out of my head before bed..
oh, I know!!
one more little story..

Got a sweet tooth, honey??

It isn't unusual for me to come home from work with gummie bears, smarties, pieces of pretel and other candy variations in my pocket. Usually the confections are kept in a sandwhich bag and carried around throughout the work day as an easily delivered positive reinforcer for behavior modification purposes.

Different kids like different things, so there is usually a mix of candy in the baggie. I saw a bunch of round candies in the bag and took them to be all Skittles-- a favorite among a majority of the kiddos. I began to empty the bag into the garbage when I saw that there was some chocolate bits in there as well. Upon closer inspection, I realized I have a baggie of Skittles and M&M's

so??


Well, to my amusement, I then realized that I have a bag of
S & M's.. hahaha







Now its time for bed..

Here's to a happy Monday, everyone!

~carey

My little break is over... I gave/allowed/forced myself to take a break from all school related projects and thinking. It was at times hard not to think about it, and quite a few times I felt out of place, as I have become accustomed to working steadily at everything. It just felt weird to stop, not have a book in front of me, computer turned off and miles away and not doing anything productive.

blahblahblah
blahblah

blah

so I must get back to it shortly.

ick, there is a family issue to contend with before I get into a little house cleaning-paper writing. I think I dreampt about it last night. More about that mess later...

I have a few pics to post later as well. I'll post a pic of the devil babydoll I saw. *shiver*

clowns, spider monkeys, spiders and babies are scary.

what going on tonight? im in cattaragous county on lake erie i plan to leaue 7-8 ish text-call (deleted)

Yeh, I can't draw with this thing quite yet.

I'm not a fan of sweetened tea. I went through the drive up Starbucks around the corner from my college.. I tried sipped my tea only once I arrived to class. Its sweetened. Yuck. I'm drinking it anyway; worse things could happen :)

My flowers look scorched. If nothing else I have been tending to my flowers. I deadhead them, pull the occasional weed and water my beauties almost daily.

Yesterday I gave them all a good drink-- and by 4:30 pm today, they look wilted. I need to get back outside and take care of them, pronto.

My garden spots look like a jungle as everything is overgrown and needs to be divided and replanted. I had hoped to have been able to take care of that a few weeks ago, but now the opportunity is gone-- I need to wait it out a few more weeks before I can clean it up a bit. (e:matthew), when you are finally in your new home and settled-- I will share anything that you want.

I even have half a dozen bush/tree/plants that need to be planted. However, I do not see that happening until the end of summer., either. They are holding up well in their pots so far.

If- When I move, I will be digging a lot of plants out of the ground. I have accumulated so many in the past two summers. I have a knack for growing things outside. Just don't let me near an indoor plant...

My next home, which I would rather be in a position to buy (preferably B-Lo) as opposed to rent-- 'cause my apartment now is great for the rent price, size, privacy, etc.. and as I have too much 'house' stuff to just move into any old place.. I must have a little bit of a yard to plant my jungle. I don't like things to be overly manicured. I like it kinda wild- yet with some planning to it. I make things look nice-- I just don't need or want a cookie cutter look.

I imagine a smallish yard for my secret garden.. er, secret jungle? And a place to sit, read, write, drink wine, socialize and escape into the smells, sight and ambiance of nature.

So although I also wanted to put in a vegetable garden this year and was not able to, I managed to put in an herb garden. I have a bunch of different herbs lining a huge built in flower box that runs the length of my front porch. It great to cook something and just step out the door to snip some fresh herbs. Yum. I have used everything that I have planted so far except the Dill.

Now, What do I do with dill??? besides make a dill dip???

any ideas???????????????????????????????


I am clueless! (e:kara) ?????? help!!!! :)

ooh, while i am thinking about it.. (e:ladycroft) remember-- you must let me know what your schedule looks like in general. :)


I better get back outside and do some watering.. then its school work. surprised? nah, me either.

I'm on top of things though yay!

nerdy self observations ahead...

I used to dislike reading a lot of information from a computer screen. Most of the time I would print it out for the comfort of reading from something in my hands. I am talking about reports, chapters, and other documents of length.

I'd say that the time spent in Grad school changed that along with changing habits and interests. First from necessity and practicality then from an ever increasing love of all things computer related.

Its always been there, now I have found the outlet and know-how.

Ok, so these past two weeks (ok, two years) I have had to read some pretty heavy material. Often I read what I thought I needed to depending on the book. This weekend I started a good size school book that I needed to read in its entirety for an upcoming writen review, analysis and application paper. I thought my eyes were going to fall out of my head! When I turned to the computer screen instead to read, my eyes were happy again.

Before, when I used to print out lengthy sources of information, it was partly due to that reason. It made my eyes feel funky to ready a lot from the computer screen. I find some humor in this change. After a few hours (days?) of reading, I adjusted to reading from a book again. I mean, I read my school books, but I was trying to get this all read in a few days-- which I succeeded (YAY)-- along with the other readings and assignments and such.

Last week, I needed to work my way through a book that, while fascinating-- it was OMG heavy. I loved it-- but that meant I had to try to keep my mind from wandering, or it would take so much longer to get through the material. I guess, my mind wandering serves a purpose. I tend to find myself assimilating and accomodating the information as I read it-- so I pause and think about how it fits into things..

Well, in order to fully grasp and remember the material, I found myself plugging it into mathamatical formulas. I have little equations jotted throughout the book. Now, I am not particularly mathamatically inclined. Heck, I'd consider myself mathamatically challenged. Yet I find myself doing things like this. As I can visualize things after seeing them, I have found this useful- among other styles of notes, etc. Sometimes (ok, often) I figure things out without actually knowing how. I'm picking things up along the way-- it is a normal occurance.
So while my middle school/high school/ college math aptitude was less than stellar-- I would be very much interested in revisiting applications that were once completely lost to me. I learn quick, I tend to 'get' things and I enjoy trying new things-- so why not?!! Whats the point? just to learn.. I wont ever stop.

Ok.. so I am working my way through this book.. when at some point the writer is reiterating a theory and plugs it into a--guess what? --mathamatical formula-- which--- looks like mine. OK, so mine was tweaked and looked even better, imo. I thought, ok, thats cool--I am thinking beyond the material, understanding the relationships, etc-- still a norm for me-- but the math formula thing has been recent (past year). Probably seems elementary to you brilliant mathamaticians!

..but I am humored.

so maybe a math class is in my future? not sure if I can find something like that.. might need to start off with some 7th graders!

Maybe I will dust off the GED book that I accidently bought when I thought I picked up a GRE book!!! HAHA Not sure if I ever told that story.. It had two of the three letters right? so thats 2/3.. hey, I might do alright afterall. hahahaha

Its after 10pm already. Time to get ready for bed and the work day...

be good-- keep learning, questioning and unlearning :)

Carey

approximately two years ago I signed up for a gmail account- for research purposes. I wrote a bit about googles privacy policy and gmail in (e:theecarey,88)

Recently I have done a few searches within the gmail app, using the "search the web" option.

Two fairly recent searches have been on foreign languages and internet dating. The first, for translations and a global perspective, business-wise. The latter, research for an upcoming project (the things that I do!).

I have maintained my gmail account for a few reasons. For one, it is great for keeping spam that ends up in my primary account, yahoo, to a minimum. I have ezine subscriptions, newsletters, research related stuff and a bunch of other email required accounts that have really added up to an excessive amount of email.. so it keeps it all away from my precious yahoo email. xxoo

So naturally, I receive a lot of spam. Gmail pretty much takes care of it. I have around 4000 in the spam box daily. I don't bother deleting as there are just too many to contend with. I also receive some spam in my regular inbox- no surprise considering the purpose for this account is to manage subscriptions and such.

well.. some recent spam that has ended up in my regular account in mass amounts has been in spanish, french or german- and/or has been in the context of international business ('be our foreign financial officer', etc) and I have received a ton of mail pertaining to dating sites of ALL kinds.

"eroticy dating" --'Hot xxx dating' (is it any other way? haha)
"cherish dating" --'Interactive Adult dating'
"single christians" -- 'where Christians meet'
"thirty plus singles" ((im not at the plus yet!!!!!!!!))
"perry suarez- naked dating club- Our members get laid" HAHAHAHA
"real mature singles" 'find love after 50'

oh and the list goes on..

"wealthy men" --this one kinda weirded me out. I thought it was crazy. I posted a link to in in the chat the other day. Anyone set up an account? haha

www.wealthymen.com

anyway, seeing how I didn't sign up for anything (I swear its for research-- at least at this point in time. That Perry Suarez seems pretty promising, haha)- I wonder if it is coincidental that I am receiving all of this email after I used the gmail search option.

maybe it is coincidental.

maybe not.

maybe I will try another search. What do you suggest???

maybe i'll take another look at the privacy policy..

or maybe I will send off an email to Sergey, ala (e:twisted) style ;)

(i have a pic of you dressed in drag, man!!!!!)