sitting in my non airconditioned car eating a small cup of chili. Thinking back to my hot soup the other day, I ponder whether my tastes are eclectic or eccentric! ---back to work, later gators

Hello Monday, are you really here already?

I'm not so sure about this early morning stuff- ya know, rising with the sun when I would rather sleep for a few more hours, tucked snuggly under my pillows and blankets. hmmm. I have been doing it for over three years, but it is never easy.

I just got off the treadmill and feel positive about this week being fully back into routine. Last week was to figure out how to sleep, this week is to exercise in the morning like I normally do. Then evenings I can do recreational activities.

Quick shower time, just jumped off one treadmill to get on another-
I have fun at work, I enjoy the environment, the challenges and it is rewarding on some level, but I know that I am not going anywhere, professionally. That is a realization that I must face, accept and plan to move on from.

I think it will be fully liberating when I allow myself to move on.

anyhow, I have to leave for work in a few minutes.. Have a great day everyone :)

90 degrees or so..

and what better to enjoy the day than a big bowl of

hot soup.

say what you must. Me, my soup and legwarmers are gonna go catch some rays in the chaise.

Have soup envy :)


I'm baaAAAaaAaaaAaack

No major plans so far for the weekend, other than school work and a few other responsibilities that were neglected this week. I'm getting down to the scary portion of the degree.. wrapping it up and kicking butt to the very end. Six more weeks, I think.

I wonder what I will do when I am done. I don't mean necessarily career-wise (thats a given), but I am referring more to all the stuff that I havent been involved in while in school the past two years. Something like reading a book- for fun- mindless fun, even! eek, I have a stack of magazines I have yet to read. Or doing all of my laundry, haha or going away/traveling without concern as to how I will get something done. Oooh the possibilities!! maybe I can resume dance classes! art classes! database classes! global domination! I am sure to delve into all sorts of projects, adventures and anything else that intrigues me.

Wait, I kinda do that already. I try to incorporate some elements when I can. Balance, happiness, accomplishment and experience is imprtant to me, so while I write a lot about work and school, there is so much more that I do. I suppose it is the constraints that I am looking forward to shaking off. Well, it will certainly give me the time to do all the icky stuff that I have put on the backburner for about two years; sadly, no more excuses for not doing the dishes :(

I managed to get through the week, somewhat in a blur, but I survived none the less. I must resume all that I was doing prior to this "5 day funk". I wasn't in a bad mood nor really in a blah mood, other than knowing that I wasnt functioning at an optimal "me". I'm not sure if I know how to do a seriously bad mood. I try, but it never seems to work, grrr :)

Really, it was just getting back into routine after a work-break. Sleep was difficult all week, ate crap food that made me feel like what I ate, worked on school stuff in a daze and barely moved my body once I returned home from work. Not fun, not me, not a good feeling. 5 days. I allowed it, so it all comes back on me. Now, I return back to "normal" come Saturday morning. I insist.. and I look forward to it.

I'm home bound this evening--I need to pick up my car from the shop. Although I feel like I am vegging, it is in a clear headed- energetic manner. I am working on a project and feel like I am accomplishing something. I will make a cup of my crazy bed time tea, and hopefully drift off to sleep by 1am.

I am sure I will get out at some point-- need to.. just not sure where, what, with who, etc. I think some major quality time with my treadmill, bike, weights and anything in nature is in order. Bah, still gotta do those dishes..

When I am looking for something to do, I usually start by checking to see what is going on around the region- arts, museums, hiking, and festivals.. ofcourse, check to see what the peeps are up to and other friends, neighbors, family. Ooh, maybe go swimming..

This link is usually helpful:

I didn't know that there were so many festivals going on this weekend. Was that strategic or poor planning? The local news highlighted the Polish, Peurto Rican and Italian festivals.

MEDITERRANEAN FESTIVAL: With ethnic food, cultural entertainment, a Kids' Village, ethnic dancing and more, 5 to 11 p.m., St. George Antiochian Orthodox Church, 1073 Saunders Settlement Road, Lewiston. Continues 11 a.m. to 11 p.m. Saturday and noon to 7 p.m. Sunday.

CANAL FEST OF THE TONAWANDAS
Fri. Jun 16 to Wed. Aug 23
Nightly entertainment and daily youth activities along the banks of the Old Erie Canal. With food concessions, amusement rides and midway, noon to 11 p.m., downtown North Tonawanda on Sweeney and Webster streets.
Erie Canal Banks
Tonawanda, N.Y. 14150
www.canalfest.org
716-692-3392


POLISH-AMERICAN ARTS FESTIVAL
Fri. Jul 14 to Sun. Jul 16
Enjoy and partake of Polish and American heritages together. h/c access
Cheektowaga Town Park
Cheektowaga
www.tocny.com
716.686.3292


INTERNATIONAL FESTIVAL
Mon. Jul 17
10 a.m.-5 p.m.
h/c access
Amherst Museum
3755 Tonawanda Creek Rd., Amherst, N.Y.
716-689-1440
See Map

ITALIAN HERITAGE AND FOOD FESTIVAL
Thu. Jul 13 to Sun. Jul 16
A celebration of Italian food and culture. Something for everybody. h/c access
Hertel Avenue
Buffalo
716.874.6133

ANNUAL GREASE POLE FESTIVAL
Fri. Jul 14 to Sun. Jul 16
Celebrating Puerto Rican heritage and culture. h/c access
Augustin Olivencia Center
Buffalo
716.852.1648

hmm, well, thats a start. I think I am in an art mood. I want nothing to do with food. I need to fast/purge/detox my body-- I feel gross. Literally, unhealthy gross not self esteem gross. Yogurt, tea, fruit and veggies is it for a few days. Might check out some kayak rental prices-- thats a must this summer.

Level regatta is next weekend, I think. (e:vincent) , confirm?

Anyone who wants to come out, watch some sailboat racing, people, street parties, and perhaps put up a pop up tent in my yard and chill next to a bonfire, maybe we can set something up..

Alright, thats it..
later gators,
~Carey

so i run out the door this morning without my lunch. I am on my lunch now, and decide between the limited choice of food venues- I opt for Burger King and order a veggie burger. They ask if I want bacon on it. haha! I say, sure, load it up! j.k.

I come home from a full day at work to settle down to an evening of school work and paper writing, when I see my fuzzy guy pacing through the living room, anxious and flustered looking.

As with prior situations, (e:theecarey,149) I have learned to investigate when Joey is displaying warrior-like behavior. Although he appears to be pacing, Joey is actually sizing up the situation, trying to figure out a way to get to the window. An airconditioner hinders his efforts.

So I think to myself, "Bon dieu, what is in the window, Joe?"

And then I look.

The Domesticated Warrior himself..







Creatures unearthed by the torrential downpours today?

I find myself face to face with this attached to the outside (phew!) of the living room window..something big and green and leggy:






and a fully unwelcome visitor.. knocking on my window, peering in..grossing me out, making me want to pack my bags and leave-- until I realize it is on the outside and I conclude that I am better off staying put.. 'cause its out *there*.. eek!

(why oh why terrorize me like this? *shiver*)





I really think that if Joey had the opportunity, he would have successfully tackled these bugs. I have seen an increase in his bug-slaying prowress this season. Thats ma boy.

Did you know that moth guts are powdery?

heh, maybe it was the huge full moon..

maybe the stars are realigning themselves..

maybe it is something in the air,water, koolaid, blue cheese..

maybe it isn't anything other than a temporary funk that the peeps are in.. Would that be an (e:funk)?

anyway, if you happen to find yourself in Shits Creek.. worry not, you can now buy yourself a paddle:






"To love what you do and feel that it matters - how could anything be more fun?"
- K. Graham


Stumbled across this Og guy earlier..

"If I feel depressed I will sing.
If I feel sad I will laugh.
If I feel ill I will double my labour.
If I feel fear I will plunge ahead.
If I feel inferior I will wear new garments.
If I feel uncertain I will raise my voice.
If I feel poverty I will think of wealth to come.
If I feel incompetent I will think of past success.
If I feel insignificant I will remember my goals.
Today I will be the master of my emotions."

Og Mandino- "The Greatest Salesman in the World"

I might be able to swing a couple of those. I like the part about remembering goals and plunging ahead. It can be difficult when you know you are the only one holding yourself back..

Oh wow.. the full moon is so bright tonight!
From my living room window it appears to be a spot light out there.

Must go look outside!

I took a few pictures with my phone. Lets see how they turn out.


ok, so they look like white bright dots... but you can kinda see the trees and the moon..






oh yeh, it was only yesterday, but I forgot that I took a few pictures while at Deleware park. What a lovely night :)





Saving the best for last.. (e:leetee) brought cutie pie, Ava, and her human, Kierstin (sp). I snagged a pic of the cute pugs mug.

First day back to work after a relatively long break. bah.
I am beat and feeling the weight of the world upon me.

I know it is temporary and I will be bouncing again after I am back to "normal" on a more semi-regulated sleep schedule. As is, I had to wake up this morning at the very time that I have been going to bed pretty much throughout the entire break.

see why I am beat and fizzled out like flat pop?

I tossed and turned all night. And the thunder/lightening didn't help. On a positive note, what dreams I did have were freakin' fabulous.

Even with liittle sleep, I woke up super bouncy and happy. And I was super bouncy and happy all day at work..the kiddos are so cool..and I adore my coworkers-- it wasnt until the drive home that it all caught up with me. Which brings me here, with eyelids propped open with toothpicks...

yeh, so the thought of doing anything that i would like to do/need to do seems awfully heavy on my mind.

Maybe I'll try a short nap afterall- so I can feel more like my energetic, tackle the world, cheerful self. :)

I scored a car, so I am going to Shakespeare in the Park.. who else is going for sure??

I know (e:leetee) and (e:imk2) so far...

Anyway, I am heading out solo and will be looking for friendly faces to join!!

I am going to stop and grab a bottle of wine, I think, on my way out... and cups and who knows what else.. ooh, I know.. GUMMI BEARS!!!

leave post-it or text/call me (deleted) we can share a blanket and half-ass pay attention to the play :)

Later peeps!