Yea, you think you're going to Charlotte & you end up doing the polar bear swim. One of my earliest memories is a crash in D.C.

Hopefully these people got out in time before it sank.

You have about 10 minutes max in that kind of water temperature on a day like today??? Yikes!

Hope everyone got out on those ferry's before it sunk.

I've just realized that I just watched the recent Trifecta of British apocalyptic movie offerings recently.

V For Vendetta
Doomsday
Children of Men

Are the premium cable channels trying to tell me something?

Shitygroup may be more after it falls below $5 a share.

Now we are going to have TARP II since the first one didn't work? All I can say is that if you're buying stocks these days you better be on the 2035 Plan, since that is the year that you are going to have to sell them to get even. What do you think is going to happen to the economy when in a year or so we our National Debt equals our GDP? Yikes!

Yea it looks like we are going to need it to get anywhere South or West.

Although it's been a vision of mine that we are going to see Civil Unrest this year due to the economy and taxes I didn't think it would be so close to Buffalo so soon. I remember 1997 and that was no Joke. What is scary this time around is that the State is totally broke & they need every penny they can get. Also Patterson wasn't elected and who says he will seek office again, so he may just pull the "nuclear option" which he may feel is the right thing to do in his mind with no re-election consequences.

I just wonder if they pull another 90 blockade, if anything will happen at the Casino?

But yea, this is why we need another route out of here. What are you going to do if I-90 is gone? Go through Canada? In the 90's when Quebec had Oka going on, they ended up building a highway around the reserve without any environmental studies or any red tape just due to a road that went through the native territory that was shutdown for over a year during the dispute. Is that the reason why the started the 219 project, since they knew this day would come again?

It's something that I haven't done for a while. In years past I have done it just to try to alleviate a case of seasonal affective disorder. Nothing lifts the spirits in the cold freezing dark Buffalo winter than coming out of a tanning place after a session complete with a bit of sweat. The way I figure I am not getting any vitamin D when I'm in my pod at work during the 7 hours of overcast daylight we do get. That's why I have a light box sunlamp at my desk. Plus with some wacky skin stuff I do get in the winter I've read that some UV radiation does some good actually.

Plus I think (e:metalpeter) is right it does "But it could make you feel better and hotter..." I remember when I first hooked up with my Ex, we were in some "no-tel motel" over in Canada by the "places" over on the Lane. Well the room featured mirrors on the walls and thinking back I did feel pretty hot in comparison to her as she's kind of an albino in the sense that she has no color & burns extremely easily and I did tan kind of regularly back then.

I had a very good 2008 and to be honest there is a part of me that is afraid that this year won't stand up to last year. I don't know what motivates women, but for guys the negative is more of a motivator that positive reassurance. I guess it comes down to sports and the "I'll show your ass" mentality that we learn early on in life when the other team runs smack or someone criticizes you. Just look at the NFL playoffs the top 4 top awarded people are out golfing & the two most badgered are playing next weekend. Heck I think of the bowl games only UB didn't cover the spread as an underdog or win outright.

Anyway I have a ton of work to do this year. As I was looking back the only things that would have made a great year into a stellar year would have been me getting married &/or having a kid.

Here is a list of things to do:

1. Get mentally healthy

2. Go to a chiropractor

3. Start being more assertive & take more risks in social situations

4. Go tanning at least once a week to keep my current color going.

5. Work some OT to continue building savings

6. Lose 10 pounds to get back to my "ideal" weight

7. Enter into a healthy relationship some some woman
Simple enough right? Well the OT is not guaranteed, I know you can't bank on something that is out of your control, but from the indication I got today, we may be in for a repeat of last year since I didn't get settled yet back into the job today when the question was popped!

What a really good time last night. Too bad that I had no idea that my friend Steve just would be blown away by the level of how (e:strip) parties. Although I failed in providing him a good description of what we were going to be doing along with the type of friends that he was going to encounter of mine it was great to see his surprise after he felt out the place. Initially when we pulled up to the 24 he thought that he was going to have a boring night at a stuffy, stuck up and listless group of professional people. This impression of his was due to the "size" of the mansion & me bringing a shrimp plate. Boy, was his initial "size up" off the night WAY OFF...

The party was a good time and pretty wild, but I just had no clue that there are still people that get even more crazier than we do

Reading (e:jenks) post about not having the night go so well for her it made me think of how many bad NYE's I've had in the past. The one's that stick out were the one's that I had to work or go in early in the am the next day. Where at that point in time my life was just stagnant and emotionally I felt the same way as in this video.

Yea, these aren't all that great, but I did take them during my weekend in Vegas earlier this month. So here's a couple of song's from Oasis when I saw them @ the Pearl in the Palms.

Wonderwall



Morning Glory

Was stumbled upon by me duirng this "forced vacation" as (e:terry) calls it. Since I'm not working I have a lot of time on my hands to do things I enjoy like watch CNBC and play the financial markets. Well I ended up making a wrong move come Fed time last week & was down $2700 dollars. Well I held my position and when the opportunkity came to get even I bailed, even though iif I had held on I would have been making a few bucks over th last couple of days. So in all I just basically lost some commision and my great 2008 is sitll intact. Now fast forward to me at a happy hour B.Sing with some descent looking attractive Drug Sales Rep at a happy hour in a bar. I go thorugh the motions and don't even have any expectations, but deep down inside if it wasn't for the social lubricant, I would have just kept staring at my phone reading (e:strip) posts without even just being social and making an effort.

It just got me thinking about how my mind works , how screwed up I am and the task that lies ahead for me to correct it and get myself healthy. If speaking to a friend last week I realized that the prospect of losing $2700 did not scare me as much as say "attempting to start a relationship." Deep down inside I may have knows subconsciously that the market would turn and the "Fed Frenzie" would not last as reality of how much the economy sucks will bring everything back down to earth. So yea I can drop that kind of money and it would bother me as much as say going out to bars and trying to pick someone up to get laid. Which is a task that most people perform with no shame as the transaction happends every day everywhere in the world. Yea, I would like to get to the point where I MARRY the women of my dreams, but i have to start somehwere & I'm getting way too freaking old to have this Social Anxiety keep me living in a life of fear.

So yea, (e:Vincent) would rather lose money on Wall St or in a Casino than face the prospect of rejection by a Woman that he iis attracted to.

I should post about this later, but I just had to get this out in it's basic form, since this is somehting that must be addressed and fast.

It only gets better from here on out. A bit more daylight everyday.

This year it is kind of cool that Hanukkah starts on Dec 21st, the longest night of the year for an event that centers around bringing light into darkness.

I'm just listening to The Twilight Singers first CD tongiht for some reason tonight.

I'm kind of laying low at the moment. Really all I'm doing is just recharging myself and trying to focus on what I want out of life next year.