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Category: feeding my addiction

05/09/06 01:27 - 72ºF - ID#37101

@ Cafe 59

Got an early out today at work, but I didn't make out so well since I went in at 5am. Feeling a bit groggy, but I'm ok. Again my guilt about being indoors on a day like today but this is only going to be for a short while. All I can say is that this whole experience makes me a bit nervous about how much the net means to me.

So as I am here I am ease dropping on a conversation between someone from Youngstown and her financial adviser. She is marrying the big local bartender j.b. Interesting.

Now back to something kinda important.

Well at least no Internet has given me a reason to catch up on the MTV show 8th and Ocean. Unfortunately I have been feeling much pain in watching "Teddy." It just hits too close to home with T.J. and I could see myself doing what he has done. It doesn't hurt to be from the same neck of the woods and have a couple of the same mannerisms

On another note, Am I am bad person for getting some satisfaction in seeing David Blaine "Fail" last night?
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Category: tech support

05/08/06 04:44 - ID#37100


No home Internet service until Saturday!

I am actually having withdrawal. The only time I came close to this was when I was in Poland and for 2 weeks wasn't connected at all. Finally my cousin found me a Internet lab and I was extremely happy. The only person that could relate to my plight was my cousin in law if there is such a concept, cousin Bogdon that lived in Australia for a number of years and spoke fluent English. All the way in Eastern Europe I found someone that once had a M.U.D addiction as well :-) ah, the global connectivity of it all :-)

Well the day is just too nice to be cooped up in my local library all day.

I rotated my wheels and I am going rollerblading?

If anyone every wants to get together please let me know. Having a pace partner would be so sweet!!!!

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Category: life changing

05/04/06 05:12 - 70ºF - ID#37099

This is semi-degrading

So here I am at my local Library. This is not bad in itself but I am here using the computer. The reason is my Internet access at home is no longer. I had been meaning to get something set up prior to expiration but now I have nothing. I'm like some loser here feeding my net addiction. to be honest I don't think I have been in this building in 10 + yeras. When i was a kid still in school I almost spent all of my free time here. Yea, it was socialization and messing around but still it brings back some memories. The "Red Brick School House."

Now what do I do? DSL is not an option in my hood. I really despise Adelphia, but if I can mange to get a deal I may hop on board. What I am thinking for the moment is get Earthlink and wait another 6 month and hopefully someday Verizon will offer that service in my supposedly affluent subdivision. Yea, get it all the time from my neighbor 0.5 miles away that has DSL.

Not much going on lately. In some ways I am right back in the same place I was last year with the same couple of people. It is surreal how it has come back full circle, but without the guilt or other drama.

Something is going to give regarding all of the aspects of my life. I can feel it and at the moment I don't know how it is going to play out. I am just hoping that a few things I have been laying the groundwork pan out.

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05/02/06 02:03 - 70ºF - ID#37098

Monday Fun

My Monday, drive to Buffalo. Go over the Peace Bridge to Niagara Falls Ont. Drive back to Buffalo, Drive home to Youngstown. Turn around go to work.

Yea, I am going to be really sore today.
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04/29/06 08:37 - 60ºF - ID#37097

Mindless Drunkeness

It was just a strange day. I had my Ex over for dinner early in the evening which was a very spur of the moment event. It all begins when I received a text message from her and then I replied back asking for advice in regards in what to do with an old friend(An Ex wife/friend that I never married!) It was a tough decision to make, but I have to stand my ground. This person is just toxic, and has dragged me down for more than a decade! Allowing myself to get sucked back in her life will result in nothing good.

So I ended up inviting my most recent Ex over for dinner. Yah, good times. I feel a bit inadequate for the fact that we ordered takeout.

This was most likely the fuel for my crazy bender last night at the show. It was a blast seeing everyone out. It was a fun time having my DD ((e:theecarey)) and we had a blast. BTW, what the heck kind of pics were was taken and received on my phone last night? I honestly don't remember at all.

The highlight was seeing everyone out at the infamous Broadway Joe's. The second highlight was seeing that couple bump and grind to radiohead! Good Times!!! That place just has a soul for that kind of college age love. It wasn't as strong as the last time I went ther about 5-6 years ago, but they had a Dead band playing and Mickey Rats was open next door.

It was a great fun night out. Too bad I had way to much. That is why I'm updating so late this evening. Getting a call at 12 this afternoon from you parents in FLA and feeling like death worn over is not a great feeling at all.

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04/28/06 05:59 - 54ºF - ID#37096

My Lame Happy Hour

Missing Image ;(

Well here is a pic of me and where I was for my lame Friday Happy Hour. I just love this place in quaint little Lewiston. It was really good to see a great amount of people out enjoying the sunshine. What really surprise me was the traffic outside of the Day Spa next door. Seeing these underage girls going in and out of this building that houses two businesses one being a more mature boutique and the other a day spa I knew which one they were patronizing. The whole Paris Hilton Phenomenon has finally hit home to me.

Then again I have lived in Lewiston/Porter most of my life this should not be a shock. Just I don't remember the girls in my high school wearing pointy designer shoes and wearing ambercronbiesque type of clothes getting their stuff done as frequently as the girls these days do. Then again now in today's America we are living in even "Fatter" times than even the 1990's. Feeling wealthy in regards to your custom home that you can touch and feel and buy stuff form Home Depot is a bigger boost to your financial ego than a stock portfolio that is extremely volatile of a daily basis.

I know where I am going to be tonight. Broadway Joe's on Main St hopefully around 10PM. The hockey game may complicate things a bit but I am going to the Karma Police Show tonight. If anyone has any idea's about tonight let me know.

This should be a good night :-)

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Category: senseless killing

04/27/06 04:35 - 54ºF - ID#37095

I have become a treehugger

As I was leaving my "job" from the den of debauchery in downtown Niagara Falls I came across this as I was heading home.

Yes, I have lived here most of my life and am totally aware that the city of NF vibrates at a lower frequency than the rest of the universe.

But, this just made me really F*n pissed.

Missing Image ;(

Missing Image ;(

Why have I noticed a senseless war against trees' lately?

In Lewiston last week they just clear cut all of them on the riverbank leaving stumps. Must open up "The View!"

Arg, perfectly healthy trees. No, immediate threat to power lines and for what? Your casino $ hard at work I suppose.

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Category: car break in's

04/26/06 11:31 - 38ºF - ID#37094


So my friend's car got broken into this morning. They broke the window to grab a $20 portable CD player. The car was parked right on Elmwood between Allen and Virginia.

In a way I feel it was my fault. I should have been more persist ant for her to come down here and spend the night as I was casually mentioning to when she called after I got off of work last night.

My buddy Jeff was right. In my neighborhood it is like a nice "Easter Basket" nothing bad happens and it's that warm and fuzzy feeling :-/

This is just evident that I have to be sliding by on something when it comes to women. It sure isn't my Don Juan suave that is doing the job that is for sure.

I'll think I'll change this journal name to Mr. Passive or something along those lines.

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Category: living situation

04/25/06 03:13 - 48ºF - ID#37093


So my Dad/Housemate is off to France today. Leaving me just a little bit empty on the person to go out to dinner department for the next week or so. At the same time eating just doesn't seem like a good idea, I believe I have put on a few pounds recently. I must get motivated and rotate the wheels on my blades for the basic fact that my marathon skates have worn them down to nothing last year.

What really is bugging me lately is the fact that it now appears that I did not learn anything from last year from my "relationships." For some reason, "they always keep coming back!" ((e:theecarey)) gave me some insight into this weekend. It's good to know those sort of things for the future :-) and why women find me attractive in this way. It is just if I had the opposite problem of not having anyone want my company, overcoming that adversity to fight to get any kind of attention from a woman would be a battle that I may really not be up for. Then again it is one that I haven't had the need to take on in a long while. After years of thinking of locking my drive in a box figuratively speaking due to a lack of outlets and opportunities, I have now finally become one of those confident, normal, red blooded males. While at the same time bringing all of the problems, but compared to the alternative I can't complain.

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Category: going out

04/23/06 06:06 - 50ºF - ID#37092

Trying to redeem a weekend

Well after not doing much of anything this weekend it came to the point where I had to do something. So in speaking with ((e:theecarey)) I suggested that we go out in the immediate locality. In doing so I guess I took her Lew-Port bar virginity, Ha Ha! Initially we were going to go to "The Stone Jug" but it just looked really dead. So we went to Lewiston and checked out the Brickyard. Not too lively either, but I knew a few people in the place so we stayed. We ended up hanging with all the members of The Karma Police which was an enlightening time for Carey. We also ran into an old friend of ours Scott.

My two Blue Moon's just made me too much of a debater/conversationalist, but it was fun. The low point of the night was some skinny blonde chick that just gave me some weird vibes. As we were walking outside to enjoy the fog on the patio she gave me the old scratching my eye with the middle finger thing. I had no idea who she was, but her constant talking to anyone that would listen really creeped me out. Other than that it was just a chill night in Lewiston, 7-1 guys to girls. To think my Ex thought I would go out locally and pick up women to cheat on her with, Ha Ha

Anyway this is to see if My Camera phone posts better pics that Carey's.

This was taken about 40 minutes after the place closed. It was nice not to be screamed at to "GET THE F* OUT!!!" or "PUT IT IN A CUP AND TAKE IT TO THE SIDEWALK!" When we decided to leave it was, "See you later, Take Care." Ah, Small town bars where everyone knows you.

Missing Image ;(

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