On a recent visit at my mother's house, we were in a conversation about my favorite toys and activities as a child. I still have some of my cherished belongings and it has been years since I have looked at any of it.

She took me to the part of the basement that stores these fun artifacts. It seems that I have about twenty treasure filled boxes, but we only rummaged through two of them. She has been threatening for years to drop them off where I live (not that I had any extra space). Now that I have ample space to store stuff and that so much time has passed, I am kind of excited about this excavation. I am sure to find toys, school papers, notes to friends, pictures, and all sorts of remnants from my past, until I was 19 years old.

I intend to be selective in what I keep and will toss the rest. I am sentimental at times, but I am not a "pack rat". I think a few good picures and a small sampling will provide plenty for memories in years to come.

I brought home a handful of toys. I never cared much for dolls. Admittedly, I despised them. Instead my favorite toys were stuffed animals, matchbox cars, army men (I called them Marine men, as my dad was in the Marines. I was taught that they were so much cooler than the army dudes), Fisher Price Little People, and anything that I could use to enhance my creativity- house hold items such as boxes, garbage cans, sheets, rope, spoons, etc; things that castles, spaceships and jungles were made of. The large back yard and woods behind it provided me with many hours of imaginative entertainment.

My toys were rarely new as we were pretty poor (I never really felt it though..)Most often they were second hand from family friends or purchased at garage sales. I never knew this or cared. As I reflected upon my absolute favorite toys and moments with them; my mom told how she acquired them. I don't have a lot of those items any longer; but toys that I had as a kid were ones that I had for a long time.

I took very good care of my belongings (unless someone unknowingly gave me a doll.. then,well off with their hair!) and I am surprised that what I do have is in as good of condition that it is.

I hope to find pictures of the items I no longer have.

So what I did find so far..

These were big in the mid 80's. My late friend Mike and I were big Garbage Pail collectors. They really were warped and gross. Wisperin' Woody and his cigarrette butts, and Ronnie Reagan, haha. I have a pile of them, here are a few.. remember these??



















I split my head open when I was two years old. Obviously I had to go to the hospital for some plastic surgery. I was annoyed with the doctors that they made me lay at the end of the bed, as opposed to the "pregnant ladies" side of the bed, where all the pillows were at. I was tired and just wanted to go to sleep. I couldn't understand why no one would let me doze off--either in the car ride to the hospital or while I was lying on the bed. Ofcourse, I know it was to keep me from slipping into a coma.

Later that day, just before being released from the hospital, my parents bought me Mongo, this thumb sucking monkey, as I was quite fond of my thumb as well-- and for many many years to come. I loved Mongo dearly. He now resides with me, sitting on a shelf in my office/exercise room.




CO2 wooden car we made in 7th grade shop class. Very cool.. mine kicked butt in the end of project race.


My beloved kitty, given to me at about two years of age. I still have it on my bed, next to my infamous stuffed turtle, Bob.


Mom made this horse for me, as a Christmas gift. I think I was around four years old. I believe it was a popular type of toy back then, and she decided to make on for me as opposed to buying somehting. I played with this a lot. It is in great condition! I brought that home with me as well.





This is a Whooly Woo. What exactly is a Whooly Woo? Well it was fluffy and cute, and all I needed to love it.


This little poker game machine predated my time, but I always played with it.


hmm, thought I had pictures of the little people and a few other items.. must be saved to the other computer.

Now, I must ask..

What was your first gaming machine?

I had an Odyssey 2. It had two contollers and a flat keyboard. Played games such as KC Munchkins Crazy Chase (just like Pac-Man, but more fun and cute looking. Odyssey was sued for this uncanny similarity), Helicopter Rescue, Wall Street (yawn!), Crypto Logic (a word scrambler. You put in the word, the system scrambled it, your opponent tried to figure it out-- it kept tally of guesses. Imagine all the dirty things we came up with..) and a really cool car race game. Not bad for the early eighties..

Then I skipped to (original) Nintendo.. and a few others. I still have the Nintendo. The Odyssey was tossed out or stolen when my car/apartment/car port was broken into a few years ago. The other systems are no longer around as well. I wouldnt mind something to play on, but I like playing on the PC.. who knows, maybe I will find something. Yeesh, there are so many toys and gadgets I want..

I am stil very much in tune with my playful, creative adventurous side. It comprises much of who I am and how I deal with things. Some of my interests are expensive, but mostly I am able to do a lot with very little. It just takes a little imagination.. a sense of humor.. and the wonderment of exploring life.

People:

1. How did you find out about/why did you become a member of estrip?
I had seen the banner on elmwood- but figured it was something to do with the elmwood initiative (forever elmwood), so I didn't bother to look. I began to see more of this "elmwoodstrip.com" and it wasn't until (e:ladycroft) became an avid member of this community did I dedcide to check it out for myself. I lurked for awhile, trying to determine if it was something I wanted to sign up for. Eventually met the Larson brothers, and with the awareness that I was corsorting with more "peeps", I thought it a good move to officially join the strip, August 2005. I was skeptical for awhile even after joining. I joined and stayed because of the sense of community.

2. How "out" are you about having a publicly accessible online journal. Do your friends know? Does your family know? Do your co-workers know? Does your boss know? Do you use your real name? Do you use your real photo?

Out? I am not actively open about the location of my journals. People know that I write and they know that I write online and they even know that I write on a local blog. Some know the name.. but I doubt they would look for the site.

Friends and Family? Some of my friends are on here. My family does not know where to find my journals and I prefer to keep it that way.

Boss? again, people know that I write, but not exactly where I write. I don't have computer access at work..

Name? Part of my real name is my user name. If I had known that the other "carrie" did not maintain their journal, I would most likely have kept it as just my first name, "Carey" However, I thought ahead, assuming this other Carrie was around. I figured that when someone asks me who I am, I wouldnt just say, "carey".. (trying to avoid "carey? which carey?") I would be "Thee Carey", as in, the one and only ;) Some people read it as 'The e- Carey', which totally works for me as well. I like it just as much.

Photo? yeh, I use my own photo. I cycle through a bunch of pictures of myself, haha. That sounds awful..
I also have a picture of Homer Simpson in his undies, beached out on his couch with a beer on his belly... and a few other silly pics that will occasionally make its way on here. Ooh, and one of my favorites, is of (e:paul) , (e:matthew) , (e:terry) , (e:ladycroft) and myself from one night at the Pink. Its cute, it makes me smile.. it was a fun night of cofferr, sushi, darts, beer and laughter. I have been fortunate to have plenty of great interactions.. but something about that night, that picture makes me smile. I know you agree, (e:ladycroft) ! YOu'll see that pic come up once in awhile.

3. How many epeeps have you met real life?
I met a slew at (e:mike) 's birthday gathering at la luna, immediately after joining in AUgust of last year. I remember thinking, should I go to something that no one will know who I am? Will they care that I am there--some stranger? (timika was going, we went together, she introduced me to everyone there) I am glad that I went. It was a good first impression of (e:strip). I think that helped to solidify my intent on using the strip seriously. I was amazed by the warmth, friendliness, intelligence and energy of many of the peeps I met that night. This continued (and continues) to hold true. I love peep gatherings!!

4. How has estrip changed the way that you meet people, on and/or off line?
Well, I like that I am able to get involved in an activity/outing in a more spontaneous manner-- and it doesn't have to be with people I know. I can jump on and toss ideas out there: "who wants to eat, go to movie, art museum, hike.." I like that informal and formal activities have been arranged or suggested through posts and the chatter. I am probably more open to it, although I am thinking that it has more to do with the opportunity being there. In the past, prior to (e:strip), I have occasionally met people online.
With meeting more new people (and sometimes mass quantities at a time)- through here and college--it has helped me to feel less shy. Or if I am, I can get over it quicker-- get into social mode easier.

5. How has estrip affected your love life?
yeh, ok.. it has made an impact. However, it did not, has not, occured in the sense that I was actively seeking something of that manner. As with anything, when you get people together.. there is a possibility that you may meet someone who sparks your interest. That had happened-- but only after meeting the person, there was no serious thought to it prior. I don't troll, and I don't get the sense that many (any?) of us do. I sense a networking, friendship, shared thought, place to rant and laugh sort of feel to it more than a meat market that you may find with other sites, news groups, etc.
If someone does strike me as interesting, adventurous, fascinating, intelligent... I am more receptive to checking into it-- and hopefully they are too!!:? At the very least, it has been interesting to read peoples stories about their relationships- the good, bad, ugly.


6. How many of your friends have joined estrip because of your influence?

I have suggested to a few people that they should check out the site. A few have.. only two have stayed on. Yay for (e:pyrcedgrrl) and (e:vincent) ! I kinda like not having my friends (such as co worker and school friends) and family on here.

7. Are you from Buffalo/do you live in Buffalo?
Born and raised in Youngstown. Bounced around Western NY (Lockport, Niagara Falls, Buffalo (linwood!), Hamburg, Town of Niagara..etc) then moved back into Youngstown about three years ago for family reasons. I needed to be in the school distict that my neice goes to school (Lewiston-Porter)-- atleast through graduation, was the deal. I am often in B-Lo.


Equipment:

1. What type of hardware or software purchases have you made as a result of using estrip?

Havent made a direct purchase, although I have looked into, researched and tried new software, versions, betas etc from the knowledge and input shared on this site. It does bring out my techy tendencies. I intend to take a class, play around more in this department, after I am done with school. I prefer taking computers apart and putting them back together.. but I wouldnt mind the challenge of some software learning.

2. Have you used the mobile version of estrip? Why or why not?
I love to figure things out, but I hate reading manuels. They feel like directions. I am the one who will drive around lost and refuse to stop for directions. My old cell phone did nothing more than make the occasional phonecall. So I just purchased a phone that appears to have capability, but havent played around with that aspect of it yet. YET. Time is a factor. If I would just read the manuel, time wouldnt be as much of a factor--(which some manuel are kinda fun-- I just prefer to figure it out on my own!..
I also have to see how this would effect the cost of my bill.. what the increased useage would be, even though I havea media package, I don't want to pay more than I have to.

Lifestyle:
1. In what way has estrip changed your Internet surfings habits? Describe the amount of time you spend on estrip, when you use it and about how long?
Please don't make me quantify the amount of time I am on the strip!!!n Lets just say, that I log onto the strip on a daily basis- but only after 4:30 pm, as I do not have computer access at work. It might be good that I do not access the site through my phone. I am on the comuter all evening working on school assignments, so it is quite easy for me to meander over to the strip to see what is going on. This repetitive behavior has conditioned me to jump on even when I have no dire need to be on the computer. So regardless, I check in atleast once a day. Some days, it seems I don't ever leave-- I do, but I am never far away.
On the occasions when I am away for a few days, I try to make sure to catch up with as many journals as I can.


1a. How many journals do you usually read per day?
I usually read the latest- I skip some and there are a few journals that I always read.


2. In what ways has estrip changed the way you perceive your local community?
I lenjoy seeing the commonalities and the differences among the (e:strip) members. I like the passion and energy people have for issues, concerns, politics etc. I have learned a lot about peoples perceptions and views. We really are a friendly region..

3. How has journaling about your life affected the way you spend your free time?
I am more aware of what I do and don't do.. and what I should be doing more or less of. Make sense?

4. Has estrip changed your living situation in any way?
no

5. Do you find that you mediate/document more of your experiences now that you share them with others?
I think there is an increase. I also write in a paper journal, which is more about deeply personal thoughts, feelings and behaviors. I like to write about silly stuff that I do in my online journal- along with some of the deeper stuff.


6. Has publishing on estrip affected the way that write?
I am all over the place in this blog-- how I write and what I write about-I put in a better effort to make sense when I write on here- there is a greater and more diverse readership with the strip than of other blog spots.


7. Do you have other online journals? If so, with what service and has estrip affected your usage of that journal?
Live Journal. Member since 2000. I rarely post in there anymore.

8. Have you ever gotten in trouble for using estrip at work? n/a

9. If you have stopped using estrip, why? n/a

Good night, peeps. Hope all is well :)

I miss my sister.

After a three year absence, I saw her today. She pulled into the driveway right after I returned from a garden shopping excursionn (I love my jungle-garden).

I hugged her and didn't want to let go.

No time to really talk, as my bro in law, two other nieces and his parents werent far behind (admittedly a bit overwhelming) but thats fine for now.. I think her and I will be ok, from here on out...

((we seem to be ready to work on being sisters))

I hope my mom and sister can work things out. I am not sure if my mom will be around this evening to see any of them. My mom is terribly stubborn. She is awesome, intelligent, capable of fixing and building anything, but stubborn.

Anyhow, I hope to get a few pics before my sister leaves. We will meet up this evening at Art Park for the graduation of my oldest neice, Ashley. Then they are heading back to NC; wish they could stay longer. I plan to visit for a weekend in the fall-- after school is over for me.

Yep, gonna keep positive about this..

Just finished watching C-Span's coverage of the US-European Union Summit (held at Hofburg Palace in Vienna Austria). On the agenda: Irans nuclear program.
I am not sure what I enjoy more- the answers or the questions. I am fascinated with Presidnet Bush, Chancellor Shussel and President Barrosso's responses and reactions to audience questioning; both verbal and non-verbal.

And I will leave it at that, for now.

well, and this..

Check out the Summit in written form:


Wolfgang Shussel:

Chancellor of Austria, President of European Council

Jose Manuel Barosso:

President of European Commision

You know the other guy, the Bushmeister:



hehe, now my mental voice has a french accent. My spoken words have an accent and I am interjecting a few french words. Monsieur Shussel brings out the french in moi. I could listen to him for hours.

So, I must brush up on my foreign languages. A true Marquis will have a better grasp of the french language. I have been slacking severely on this.. I miss conversing in (broken) french and polish.

a bientot, mon amies!

I just viewed a ritualistic animal sacrifice...

I wasn't expecting to see it, and now I feel ill. Not sure what to make of the lump in my throat.

I understand plenty..I am not ignorant to the various world religion rituals and practices--but I didn't expect them to *show* it-- the horse being held on the ground.. blinking its eyes, looking around. The sharpening of the blade..

I spare you the rest.

You can see it for yourself on the History Channel, Voodoo Secrets

Show description:

A cult of magic spells, diabolical curses, satanic worship, human sacrifice, zombies, and dolls stuck with pins? Experts explain how, over the past few centuries, the ancient religion of Voodoo has been systematically maligned, persecuted, and nearly wiped out. To uncover the truth behind Voodoo, we travel to where it began at least 5,000 years ago on the central west coast of Africa. In the tiny nation of Benin, Voodoo is practiced today as it has been for thousands of years. Our cameras captured a rarely-seen event--an African Voodoo ceremony with animal sacrifice. We also investigate grisly events blamed on Voodoo, such as: the sinking of a ferry in Haiti that killed 200 people and was blamed on a Voodoo curse; death of Robert Tallant, author of the 1947 bestseller Voodoo in New Orleans; and how Marie Laveau, the "Queen of Voodoo" in New Orleans, saved two men from the gallows in 1850. Could these tales be true? Michael Dorn narrates

I had it in my head to make mojitos today. I havent had a drink in quite some time, as it hasn't been of interest to me in the least for a few months now. I am not much of a drinker, but I have had my fair share this year, and that isn't like me.

However, a refreshing mojito sounded nice. I invited (e:pyrcedgrrl) to come over and have one with me.

I made sure that I had everything I needed: Bacardi, limes, sugar, club soda, ice and mint.

I grow mint in my garden, so ofcourse I choose to use those fresh leaves instead of a store bought variety ( or syrup, gasp!)

As I am mashing the mint, I begin to wonder if my sense of smell is off today. It smells minty.. yet it doesn't.

Asking (e:pyrcedgrrl) what she thinks is not fruitful, as she is just coming off a cold and can't smell much.

So I proceed to make the drink and everything appears fine. It even tastes fine.. but not quite like the mojitos I made in the past.

Then I wonder what exactly I picked from my garden...

and I wonder.. did I make a mojito using spearamint?

or catnip??? hahaha

It still tasted good whatever it was I used.

I haven't seen this before as a weather alert in my Yahoo! weather (or that annoying aol weather bug)

Anyway, be careful of breathing during the hours of 5am and 11pm tomorrow..

btw, I missed An Unconvenient Truth (e:theecarey,166) it slipped my mind, then I dozed off.. Anyone get out to see it?
I think the Buffalo Zoo field trip may have kicked my butt?? The day was very enjoyable-- gorgeous weather, noted progress in my autistic student ("Care, was it the grisly bear or the polar bear he tried to join last year?" heh, the bear may be ferocious, but my money is on the kid!) -- oh, and lots of fun with my co worker/friends.

I am still groggy from my nap. I have residual effects of the dream that I had. It was so real... whats going on?

Now the moment you have been waiting for: onto the official lung pollution report..

...AIR STAGNATION ADVISORY REMAINS IN EFFECT FROM 5 AM TO 11 PM
EDT SATURDAY...

AN AIR STAGNATION ADVISORY REMAINS IN EFFECT FROM 5 AM TO 11 PM
SATURDAY.

MONROE...WAYNE...OSWEGO...JEFFERSON...ONTARIO...LIVINGSTON...
ALLEGANY...CATTARAUGUS...CHAUTAUQUA...WYOMING...ERIE...GENESEE...
ORLEANS... NIAGARA AND CAYUGA

AIR QUALITY LEVELS IN OUTDOOR AIR ARE PREDICTED TO BE GREATER
THAN AN AIR QUALITY INDEX VALUE OF 100. THE AIR QUALITY INDEX...
OR AQI...WAS CREATED AS AN EASY WAY TO CORRELATE LEVELS OF
DIFFERENT POLLUTANTS TO ONE SCALE. THE HIGHER THE AQI VALUE...
THE GREATER THE HEALTH CONCERN.

WHEN POLLUTION LEVELS ARE ELEVATED...THE NEW YORK STATE
DEPARTMENT OF HEALTH RECOMMENDS THAT INDIVIDUALS CONSIDER
LIMITING STRENUOUS OUTDOOR PHYSICAL ACTIVITY TO REDUCE THE RISK
OF ADVERSE HEALTH EFFECTS. PEOPLE WHO MAY BE ESPECIALLY SENSITIVE
TO THE EFFECTS OF ELEVATED LEVELS OF POLLUTANTS INCLUDE THE VERY
YOUNG... AND THOSE WITH RESPIRATORY PROBLEMS SUCH AS ASTHMA OR
HEART DISEASE.

A TOLL FREE AIR QUALITY HOTLINE HAS BEEN ESTABLISHED SO NEW YORK
RESIDENTS CAN STAY INFORMED ON THE AIR QUALITY SITUATION.

THE TOLL FREE NUMBER IS: 1 800 5 3 5 1 3 4 5.

Have a great night. Breathe now while you can!

a little bit of this that and the other..

• feeling a strong sense of deja vous- or something to that effect. Not sure what to make of the feeling. Not sure where it is coming from, or why.. weird.

• field trip to the Buffalo Zoo tomorrow. Maybe I can find out about those scultptures, (e:shawnr,272) posted about.

Wish me luck, there is a certain amount of dread that accompanies field trips. I do well with the challenges that come about taking the kiddos into the community.. so it isn't *that* dreadful--but I know I have to be on my game, be prepared and ready for anything..

• newest class rocks. Professor intrigues me. Seems pretty intense and thought provoking; just what I needed. yipee! I've been a little bored lately.. so this has really sparked my interest and makes me a little giddy.

• (for my notes)- increasing the output pertaining to a personal challenge. I am data and fact driven..adjustments have been made and I will be sure to follow through on them. darn tenacity..sometimes it get me moving on something, sometimes in gets me in trouble, haha.

• (e:pyrcedgrrl) sent me the link to Consumer Freedom home page:

I have been reading through some of the articles...You may find it of interest. I provide no feedback at this time.

From the "about us" link:

What is the Center for Consumer Freedom? (excerpt)

The Center for Consumer Freedom is a nonprofit coalition of restaurants, food companies, and consumers working together to promote personal responsibility and protect consumer choices.

The growing cabal of "food cops," health care enforcers, militant activists, meddling bureaucrats, and violent radicals who think they know "what's best for you" are pushing against our basic freedoms. We're here to push back.

• It supposed to be toasty this weekend. Maybe sitting on my porch, sipping a home made mojito with fresh gown mint shall be on my to do list ;)

• still looking for a car..

and thats about it.. hope all is well!

Optical Fiber!

Information has been popping up more and more within Computer World, one of my favorite ezines. The intriguing research, feasibility studies and the financial projection of switching to optical fiber from copper cable has left me in nerdy anticipation-for a few years now.

Initial investment is mad expensive- but we all like new, fast stuff, so the return on investment should be pleasing to the compnay who decides to install it. However, it has to be a company who is able to strategically plan for such a grand scale venture. Money, labor, materials, knowledge management, IT, marketing.. are just a few facets of what goes into making this happen. I have been waiting for a company (other than AOL, Time Warner) to jump on this medium, for this area..and atlast, Verizon steps up.

Anyone using fiOS now?? How is it in comparison to DSL or cable?


excerpt from Buffalo News article, Verizon Replacing Copper Phone Lines with Strands of Glass" written by Peter Svensson.

Optical fiber - strands of glass 15 times thinner than a human hair - have been used by telecommunications companies over long-haul routes since the 1980s.

Now, Verizon Communications Inc., is making a big and expensive bet on replacing the network of copper wires that has provided phone service since the 19th century with fiber, giving it the capability to carry TV and super-fast Internet service in the bargain.

In the Buffalo area, phone company crew have begun installing fiber optic cables to homes in Hamburg, Orchard Park and West Seneca.

Lisa Donohue is happy with the service Verizon calls FiOS.

"With cable, the picture would stop. Or we'd have those digital things going," she says, gesturing to mimic the picture breaking up.

The family pays about $220 a month for TV, phone, high-speed Internet service and two cell phones, which she says is cheaper than what they were paying before, when they had cable.

"It comes as one bill, which is nice because I don't have to remember to pay four times," Donohue says.

Factors like that have made Verizon's FiOS TV a success in the few areas where it's available, judging by Verizon's data. It has said that 6.5 percent of households in Massapequa Park signed up for TV in the first three months after its launch on Jan. 24. That figure is disputed by Cablevision Systems Corp., the incumbent cable company, which said it had a net loss of less than 2 percent in the area.

Verizon has permission to sell TV service in about 80 communities in New York, Florida, Massachusetts, Maryland and Virginia. It has fiber available for phone and Internet service in many more - 3 million homes. Verizon doesn't say how many homes are connected, but analysis of a tally by research firm RVA LLC indicates that Verizon had about 400,000 homes connected as of April.

"This is a once-in-a-lifetime project," said Paul Lacouture, Verizon's vice president of engineering and technology.

Chief among fiber's advantages is its almost unlimited capacity to carry information, which Verizon only nibbles at with its current system: It lights fiber to the home with just three laser beams, though the fiber can carry many more.

The single beam that carries video (the others carry data and telephone calls to and from the home) has more capacity than an entire coaxial cable of the kind used by cable companies.

In practical terms, that means better image quality, because the digital TV channels don't need to be degraded to save bandwidth.

Fiber provides almost limitless Internet connection speeds. With current technology, Verizon could provide download speeds of 644 megabits per second, a bigger step up from DSL at 1.5 mbps than DSL is a step up from dial-up.

But for now, the maximum speed Verizon sells is 30 mbps for small businesses, or 20 mbps for homes.

"Right now there are not a lot of applications online that demand 100 megabits," Lacouture said. That's true, but probably in large part due to the lack of home connections at that speed - a chicken and egg situation.

Verizon expects to cut costs for its outside equipment by 40 percent by switching to fiber. But to get there, it has to spend big.

Verizon's average cost of pulling fiber down a street was $1,400 per home at the beginning of last year, not including the cost of actually connecting the homes. The target cost this year is $890 per home, reflecting improvements in materials and techniques. If it reaches its target of laying fiber by another 3 million homes by the end of the year, that's a cost of $2.7 billion - about half of Verizon's annual earnings.

A large part of the cost, however, is labor, which doesn't get cheaper by the month. Drawing fiber along a street involves putting it underground or putting up plastic tubes on the utility poles, then pulling the fiber through the tubes.

Home installation is another cost: the target here is $715 this year, but Verizon has acknowledged that costs are running above that target. It's a big job, at least if TV service is involved. It took the installer all day to get the Donohues up and running, for instance.

Getting a "drop cable" with fiber to the home from the nearest utility pole is the small part. The installer then attaches a large box, called an Optical Networking Terminal, to the side of the house. On the other side of the wall, he installs a backup battery, which should keep the ONT running for six hours if there is a blackout.

Then he strings coaxial cable from the box to the TV sets (Verizon will use existing coax if it's not substandard), Ethernet cable to an Internet router, and a phone line to handsets.

In addition, a small box called a Network Interface Module is installed inside that needs to connect both to the coaxial and Ethernet cables.

"People talk about the risks of doing this," says Michael Render, who tracks fiber buildouts for RVA, the research firm. What they should be talking about, he says, is the risk of not building out fiber. "The world is changing very rapidly."

about Verizon fiOS:

Computer World article (2000), "Users: Optical Fiber Gives Copper a Run for the Money"

"..Verizon could provide download speeds of 644 megabits per second...Right now there are not a lot of applications online that demand 100 megabits...for now, the maximum speed Verizon sells is 30 mbps for small businesses, or 20 mbps for homes..."

ofcourse, I want it all!! Give me the whole 644mbps.. I am sure to have some fun with it. I need it, right?? Limit me to 20-30mbps? as if.

hmmm 644mbps--global domination, here I come. Who's with me? haha :)

I am not sure if I know how to use a paper journal anymore! I seem to have lost the ability to write. I mean, literally- how do I use this thing called a pen?? (heh, and does it have a back space?)

Anyone else have this problem??

How long have you been writing, in any means??

I sit here with a pen and a plain, lined notebook. It is about a quarter full, with the last entry dating back a month. Entries for the past year are scant, although some things needed to be written there as opposed to here or even over at Live Journal.

I used to supplement my paper writing with an occasional post to my LiveJournal, which I have maintained for five or six years now. I have been writing consistently in a paper journals for fifteen years, and not so regularly for over twenty years. I still have almost all of it. I also have a collection of bad poetry, story lines and other writing attempts beyond my personal opinion/thoughts of everything.

It is wild to look back over the years. I havent pulled out the old journals in quite awhile, although I have been meaning to. It is fascinating to see where I have been, as I have been writing since I was 8 years old, atleast. Ha, imagine the stuff you would (or have?) come up with at eight years of age. What would you have written about??

I called my notebook a "diary" (although hated that word and looked for something else) until I was 14, then switched to the term, "journal" and have stuck with that ever since. Now I have to keep myself from calling it a blog, haha.

Anyway, I was in an off mood for awhile earlier. I wrote a semi rant, which turned out to be really pathetic, as my "bad moods" are really nothing notable. I concluded that I am destined to be mentally stable and lovable 363 days out of the year. Forgive me ;)

I had decided to write this so-called rant in another location, such as my paper journal, but suddenly couldn't function with the blank lines and pen in hand. I used to write all of the time. I think I need to walk into a deserted forest and sit down on the mossy earth and re acquaint myself with the pen. I figured that in this past year (ten months, two weeks-if anyone is counting), I have averaged less than one paper entry per month; albeit that when I do write, it is a locquacious entry, but those who have been on the receiving end, know that my electronic posts, comments and emails tend to run on the lengthy side :)

So here I am, writing in (e:strip) and all is right with my world again. Ahh, backspace, you are my friend.

(e:Paul) , what have you done? ;)

...and whatever it is, thank you very much for doing it, your efforts are much appreciated!