Posts from December 2006

Interesting article. What do you think?

Women in the "Girls Gone Wild" Era:


We have this on in the office all the time. It's a live cam of a watering hole on a South African game reserve. Check it out:


The other night I had a dream. Reflective of my reality right now but odd how it played out:

Apparently a nuclear bomb was headed our way. Somehow through the mysteries of this ironic universe we live in, I ended up on a tour bus full of people I dislike. Sure it was a fancy bus with white leather upholstery and a well stocked bar, but wtf about the company? Not only was it full of those I dislike, I was also the guest of honor...(come on, can you smell that irony cookin?)...AKA the bus driver.

That's right, the bus driver. Not that I know how to drive an oversized tour bus or anything. The closest thing I drive is a 12 passenger van and that's plenty big for me thanks. Drive a big bus full of people I dislike away from a nuclear bomb. I was adamant that I'd rather die swiftly in a blast of radiant ash than to save these people.

An announcement came from the sky that there was to be an explosion at the quickie mart next to us. Everyone was screaming for me to drive away. I refused. Then a cargo van in the parking lot blew up all Hollywood style. 20 feet of vertical flames, 360 rotation, and a smashing drop. My passengers were freaking out. I was being stubborn. I didn't care.

I began to scream back at them that I was not their savior. Why in the fuck of this world should I always have to save others? Especially this bus load of others I could care less for. People who had betrayed me, hurt me, used me, abused me....I was their savior?

The theme song for this post is Eminem: Cleanin' Out My Closet

There is something on my mind that keeps rearing its ugly head at me. I've tried and tried to work through it but I can't seem to make any sense of it, therefore I'm having trouble moving forward.

I've recently been faced with facts. These facts changed my mind about several people in my life, their sincerity, and how much I've been used for my kindness. It gave me the motivation I lacked to do what I had to do and to be ok with it.

Why be ok with it? I feel for people. Deep down, everyone I have ever known, no matter what wrongs they have done to me, still has a place in my heart. Probably a very, very minute place, but they are never forgotten. So I have a hard time moving people to that remote part of my heart. More often than not I simply get used along the way, and continue to forgive and forgive. Lately the events in my life, though certainly not pleasant, allowed me the opportunity to shift some people over and feel good in the end.

I feel no guilt, not that I should. It was hard but I feel all the better for it. It was a real step in my personal growth. The confidence to know I don't depend on others for my happiness. Friendship is a circle created by two people. When one is holding on only half-assed with one hand, the circle is broken. I've gained the confidence to know I can let go too. There's no sense reaching for someone that doesn't want your hand. Let them fall. Let me fall. It's ok.

I've learned that most of my friends dislike each other. As a result A doesn't want to be around me because of the B, while the B 'won't allow' the A to come around. I don't really care if A and B get along however I will say I think both A and B SUCK because the person being punished for it is C.

My struggle to move forward is, do I let A and B go as well? Since neither wants to spend time with C because of their dislike for each other, there isn't much of a friendship left is there? Can I let go of this too, and be ok? That is the question I have to be able to answer yes to.

I just wanted to say thanks @jenks for really helping me out with the sweet potatoe casserole last night. My kiddos LOVED it. They were really excited to have the chance to try it, since we lost the other one in the fire and all. I just wanted to give a little shout-out, I really appreciate your help! Ciao.

awake again, stars are bright

watch tv to see people more messed up than me

smile :)

it's gonna be alright, no matter what they say


it's gonna be alright cuz I'm alright with me.

(jewel, new sound)

Stormed Toronto Wednesday night to see, you guessed it, 30STM, again. I love those guys so much, it's always a rockin good time at their shows. I think this makes show 7 this year? Didn't do any stalking this round because we had to truck back home after the show. Not to mention Kool Haus is right on the harbor so the whole place smelled like bad fish. Gross. New user sound clip from a live acoustic set. Ciao.



Jared



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Sunday I had to work. We were having the annual Thanksgiving dinner for our international students. I was in charge of the pies, pumpkin and pecan, as well as the sweet potato casserole. The object was to let our students participate in the making of the dinner and then partake in the traditional meal. Sounds like fun eh?

Things were coming along nicely. I was instructing several different students on how to make the pie crusts, the fillings and constantly reassuring others that while sweet potatoes may LOOK like boiled carrots, and they are in fact not.

Apparently cleaning staff are responsible for the kitchen in Campion Hall. Clearly they haven't cleaned the ovens since WWI. Just as I put the pecan pies in the oven, flames erupted.

Grease fire. Hello. People were screaming. I was yelling, "SAVE THE PIES!" followed by "GET ME A FIRE EXTINGUISHER"! Like my priorities? Needless to say pecan pie goo was sloshed all over in an attempt to save them. Then I have to put the fire out amidst the screams and running.

Alarms went off, we had to evacuate. Firemen came, the whole nine-yards. I was a little nerved by the police officer taking my statement. They actually made it seem like I was at fault for USING the fire extinguisher. I guess they'd rather the joint burnt down?

Anyhow, that was my entertaining Thanksgiving dinner story, one all of our students will remember forever.

ciao!

Today's fortune cookie reads:
Your wisdom will influence others.

Today's horoscope for Virgo reads:
Ideas that come to you now show a bit of genius. Any changes you make right now are sure to be a success so go for it. You are very good right now at arguing your case or having a debate. You win hands down!


Happy tofurkey day to my fellow veggies. Happy turkey day to the carniverous folk.

My bosses dig me. I work hard because I love what I do and in return they offer me their wisdom and more responsibility. Yesterday I was asked to entertain two different visiting guests. One from our London Metropolitan school and one from the Bejing center. It was so refreshing to talk to young people in the field I want to work in. I really made some connections with them, not to mention networking. My future is so bright, I gotta wear shades.

You look at my skin
Outside not what's inside you will see
That I'll never change for authority
Cuz my ink's my mark on society
Read between these lines and you'll understand
That my ink is with me 'till the end
(Inked theme song)

I found these photos made me smile. Maybe you will too.














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