02/23/07 01:04 - ID#38249

120 hours

I'm back from Boston but I'll talk about it in a later post. There is something more pressing on my mind right now. The 'promotion' I got has bit me in the ass.

I was under the persuasion that I was taking on these responsibilities and would be compensated. Today I find out that instead of being paid the 2 grand, this job has been turned into a 3rd internship for me. I don't get paid and I have to complete an additional 120 hours. This means I'm going to be working full-time to the end of the semester and not getting one extra dime.

To say I'm disappointed is an understatement. I feel like I've just been given a prison sentence for a crime I didn't commit. I guess there is a reason I identify with La Femme Nikita.

Fuck me.

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Category: depressed

10/11/06 08:45 - ID#25448

Nil ann ach an marbh: updated

I feel like I'm in a dream where I am in a car. I am the passenger and also the driver. I see many obstacles in the road ahead of me but I have no control. I cannot direct the wheels to avoid colliding with objects. I yell but I cannot wake the self that is driving. Lost in time I will step into the darkness once more. There in the comfort of my night, the world cannot see me. It is the only place I truly feel safe.

Ta mo chroise go bron
Oiche' s me liom fein
Speartha dubh go domhain, a choich
Uaigneas mor, go deo, a choich
Taim bronach, buartha' s briste
Nil ann ach an marbh.

It is Gaelic, from an Enya song.
Translation:

My heart is grieving
Night and I am alone
Endless deep black skies
Great loneliness, forever, and ever
I am sad, sorrowful, and broken
Nothing is left except the dead.

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Category: depressed

11/05/05 06:02 - ID#25250

lemons, lemons, lemons

So, my joy in only spending $200 to fix my car was short lived. Yep, you guessed it, Aqua Mouse won’t start. One start to get it home and now it’s dead in the parking lot. I could cry. I could scream. But I remember reading a quote by (e:Jason), that when life hands you lemons say, “Hey, WTF is this” and throw them at people!!! Yah, I think I’ll skip the crying, skip the screaming and just go straight into throwing. If you see a woman skillfully beaning people in the head with lemons, seek shelter.