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Category: love & relationships

11/15/06 05:02 - 49ºF - ID#37182

The Sound Of Settling

That song is just stuck in my head for some reason ;-)

To have a last conclusion to that passionate theme for a while I could get married this year to any possible 3 people that I know. It's just that if I really was "in love" and everything it would have happened by now. Although over the last couple of years the application of that song to my life is just to have someone to do things with in public and have for those "Special Holidays" It's not a case of not being in a position to have someone, but someone that makes your stomach sink to your waistline...I just wish I could find her, locally!!

Hey, ((e:MrMike)) What time does that NY Dolls show start on Friday? I may be interested in going with you.

Anyway I am going to put this coffee buzz courtesy of the Orange Cat to good use now.

I just now that it's not going to be used to wait in line for a gaming system like these guys...

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Category: dating

11/13/06 11:10 - 44ºF - ID#37181

I didn't mean to bum everyone out

Yea, so after my post of prognosticating the likely hood of landing a Significant Other this season we get back to back bouts of heartbreak. That is a bit scary. There must have been some kind of tension in the air of the universe this weekend. BTW Sorry (e:Mrmike) for bringing you down. None of it was intended to depress anyone. I think I may have mixed up the intended blogs that I post in. Usually good vibrations end up here and the pain ends up in the other one.

I am actually had a pretty good day. SO much so you would have thought that I found a S.O. or something ;-)

Actually I have had my hours cut @ work and I haven't been happier!

Don't worry (e:mk) and (e:lilho) you won't be on the market for too long!

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Category: love & relationships

11/11/06 05:43 - 43ºF - ID#37180

Warm Up the Bus

Since local College Basketball started back up again that phrase popped back into my head. It is used when your home team is blowing out the opponent and basically you're up by so much that you are re enforcing the thoughts of the school you are playing that you just want to get out of your gym a.s.a.p. and the game being played is just a formality.

I feel that way right now with being in a relationship or lack of one. Right now it feels like the 2nd half of a game of which I'm not going to win. If you don't have someone under contract for Thanksgiving the odds of finding someone between then and X-mas and New Years is quite difficult. There is that brief time in January between New Years and V-Day but that's about it until the snow melts.

All of thing was triggered when I realized that I had a subscription that was coming due soon and you can guess what I did [cancellation]

I guess this also fits into the "OMG I'm 30!" thread as well. It's not that I am a whiney boy crying he's alone. Believe me I am quite content right now as opposed to being married to somone that was really negative for me. I consider myself lucky to only have ark ward conversation remaining after that fiasco.

Do I seem myself with someone someday, Yes. Actually to be honest I am actually grateful that I'm a guy at this point of my life. It just seems that as I got older the possibilities are better as opposed to say 10 years ago. I think I may have gotten more attractive with age, plus a guy my age seems more appealing if you're looking for the marriage sort of thing.

A co-worker of mine is 4 month pregnant. It did bring up the thought that if I did get a "I'm Late" phone call I think I would freak. Then again although the bio clock isn't as bad for guys I am starting to wonder if not now then when?

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11/08/06 09:13 - 52ºF - ID#37179

my election $.02

I voted yesterday and I must say the one thing I love about elections in NY State is the fact that you can vote for the same candidate on a different party line. What used to be an "Independent" until the Independence Party came into being; Now I guess I'm a "No Party" person I suppose. So given my parental backround I have the ability to vote for a Democrat without actually voting on that party's line (Catholic Guilt I suppose) I love the pseudo 3rd party line!

The GW speech really irked me this afternoon. We all remember that Rolling Stone Article
So whe he spoke about "Bi-Partisanship" I almost lost my lunch. That hasn't been the case at all in Washington this century at all! Now all of a sudden he wants to be friends! You're Jesus Freaks moved the country so far right I only hope that at least for the first year the Dems do their best to laydown the payback.

On another note I find this pic to be priceless: That is pretty much every snot nosed brat kid in Clarence watching the results with their parents. I am so glad Santorum got his ass handed to him.

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Category: winter

11/06/06 11:43 - 46ºF - ID#37178


It was a wonderful day outside and I spent 4 prime hours of it sleeping it away.

Now I am getting afraid of the darkness screwing with my head. Soon enough I will be waking up in the dark to go to work and coming home in the darkness.

I think i need to purchase a Lightbox soon, URG!!!

Or doing something to pump up my mood.
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11/03/06 12:55 - 32ºF - ID#37177

a bit of relief

I almost have my final paper wrapped up for my one MBA Class. So soon enough I'll be able to have some free time once again on weekends. I would go nuts tomorrow night but I switched with someone at work so they could go to the Bills game on Sunday. Ironically enough my Dad tells me last night that he has 4 tickets for the Jim Kelly Club. After the game against NE I just about have lost all desire to watch NFL football. They have almost broke me.

It's right now I'm in a really "chill" place mentally. The kind of mood where I'm mentally loose and content. I was talking to my Ex last night and she added that over the last few years I may actually be the most happiest I have been. This was after she was looking over at pictures of me from years past. In some ways I have to actually agree with her.

In some ways the good relationship we have had lately scares me. It's just I know my lack of track record of getting anyone around here to be in total commitment with at a high level. The bad part is if by some stupid reason we get back together I totally know that the same B.S. will happen again and the fallout will be so much worse than before. I'm glad to have a great friendship with her, but I just have to be firm in keeping the line. I've had success in keeping things separated especially during my little escapades. The trouble would come in when I would be feeling guilty when I would be out with other people. It's so hard sometimes.

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Category: potpourri

10/29/06 08:35 - 43ºF - ID#37176

Winter's coming

After "wasting a weekend" I actually feel a bit refreshed. My body thanks me for not abusing it. I did manage to do a couple of things in regards to school. Plus my final project in my MBA class isn't going to be as bad as initially thought. Hopefully I'll polish it off tomorrow.

Although I did enjoy sleeping and doing not much of anything I just feel "that time of year" coming on. It'll be dark before 5 now with being back on standard time. I just can feel the chemicals changing in my brain in about 2 weeks from all of the darkness that we are going to be abundantly surrounded by.

There is an upside. The winter months bring the two great pastimes into play, drinking and sex. Since you have to have someone with you in your bed to keep you warm in the winter.

I came across an album cover from the guy from Deep Purple Ian Gillan. I didn't know he recorded his last release a double album here in Buffalo. It's just after looking at it reminded me of the fun times that can happen in winter and it just came over me. Yea it was the thoughts of sex and drinking but it's that building that is his "Inn" that maybe did it for me and not winter itself.


Nothing like a little "Smoke of the Water"

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Category: blah

10/28/06 11:35 - 40ºF - ID#37175

Yes, I'm really pathetic

So I haven't done anything in a while.

It's Halloween weekend and I am not going out. So Yea I sit home on my computer on a Saturday Night like a pathetic loser. I don't even have the motivation to head over to Canada and play cards.

The wind is hallowing and it just gives off the impression that it is worse than it is.

I keep telling myself that I'll snap out of this BLAH next week when I have my last MBA class for the semester.

The worse part is I have almost $400 in my pocket and I have no drive to do anything. . .
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Category: opinions

10/24/06 11:37 - 41ºF - ID#37174

November Elections

I thought that the Dems may have had all of the momentum going into next month, but now I think things may be shifting.

The local commercials with Tom Reynolds a REPUBLICAN saving Social Security and Public Projects are just too surreal. Wasn't that the Democrats battle cry for the last 70 years?

Politics is a business and with the Dow at an all time high and the Real Estate "Bubble" not as bad as hyped out to be I just don't see people ready to take on a risk of giving back control to the Dems.

As we are seeing with the latest round of Tom Reynolds ads that are totally off base with traditional Republican platforms, it basically is going to come to him getting re-elected due to the constant pounding of stupid Ads.

Then again if that doesn't work to combat the Foley/Iraq problem you can always fall back on the "Southern Strategy"

The sad part is it appears to be working.

Garbage advertising like that is going to keep things status quo. I suppose nothing will change until we get 10% Prime Interest Rates and 20% Unemployment. Because "if you mess with da 'Dough you got to Go" is the only way we change things politically in this country.

It's only about the Benjamin's...

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10/23/06 02:03 - 45ºF - ID#37173

Still a bit blah

I ended up getting dragged out to 1 Bills Drive today to witness the drunk fest that themes around a football game. We had 50 yard line seats and I ended up bringing my friend Tom. Yea, the game was pretty much self evident. The highlight was going out to dinner @ Frank's Sunny Italy.

For the past 6 days now I have been pretty much under the weather. I am afraid that "it" is kicking in and I don't know what I can do about it other than pop my stress tabs and other fun supplements.

I had a vision today. If the Dems take back BOTH houses of Congress I'll head down to D.C. and hang out for a few months. I figure they'll need someone like myself that actuallyy remembers the last time that party had that kind of power. They will need someone that can party unlike these DumbF**k's

But I just putz around. I had the temptation to head over to Ft. Erie and play some bingo. Well actuallyy read a book while that wireless lap top like device looks after my bingo cards and tells me if I won or not type of Bingo. I just don't have the mad dabbing skills. Plus I am totally afraid I'll drift off and someone else will collect on my bingo when I actually had it first. SO I put my luck in the hands of technology. Yea, most will say I am not a true bingo player but I just don't care. I want to know if I won or not and not worry about it at all. They have those "t.e.d. machines" I might as well use them, right?

Well back to bed and hopefully I'll feel a bit better when I wake up. I think I'm feeling a massage @ the institute coming on soon.

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