"This is semi-degrading" written by Vincent on estrip.org

05/04/06 05:12 - 70ºF - ID#37099

This is semi-degrading

So here I am at my local Library. This is not bad in itself but I am here using the computer. The reason is my Internet access at home is no longer. I had been meaning to get something set up prior to expiration but now I have nothing. I'm like some loser here feeding my net addiction. to be honest I don't think I have been in this building in 10 + yeras. When i was a kid still in school I almost spent all of my free time here. Yea, it was socialization and messing around but still it brings back some memories. The "Red Brick School House."

Now what do I do? DSL is not an option in my hood. I really despise Adelphia, but if I can mange to get a deal I may hop on board. What I am thinking for the moment is get Earthlink and wait another 6 month and hopefully someday Verizon will offer that service in my supposedly affluent subdivision. Yea, get it all the time from my neighbor 0.5 miles away that has DSL.

Not much going on lately. In some ways I am right back in the same place I was last year with the same couple of people. It is surreal how it has come back full circle, but without the guilt or other drama.

Something is going to give regarding all of the aspects of my life. I can feel it and at the moment I don't know how it is going to play out. I am just hoping that a few things I have been laying the groundwork pan out.

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Location: Youngstown, NY

05/02/06 02:03 - 70ºF - ID#37098

Monday Fun

My Monday, drive to Buffalo. Go over the Peace Bridge to Niagara Falls Ont. Drive back to Buffalo, Drive home to Youngstown. Turn around go to work.

Yea, I am going to be really sore today.

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Location: Youngstown, NY

04/29/06 08:37 - 60ºF - ID#37097

Mindless Drunkeness

It was just a strange day. I had my Ex over for dinner early in the evening which was a very spur of the moment event. It all begins when I received a text message from her and then I replied back asking for advice in regards in what to do with an old friend(An Ex wife/friend that I never married!) It was a tough decision to make, but I have to stand my ground. This person is just toxic, and has dragged me down for more than a decade! Allowing myself to get sucked back in her life will result in nothing good.

So I ended up inviting my most recent Ex over for dinner. Yah, good times. I feel a bit inadequate for the fact that we ordered takeout.

This was most likely the fuel for my crazy bender last night at the show. It was a blast seeing everyone out. It was a fun time having my DD ((e:theecarey)) and we had a blast. BTW, what the heck kind of pics were was taken and received on my phone last night? I honestly don't remember at all.

The highlight was seeing everyone out at the infamous Broadway Joe's. The second highlight was seeing that couple bump and grind to radiohead! Good Times!!! That place just has a soul for that kind of college age love. It wasn't as strong as the last time I went ther about 5-6 years ago, but they had a Dead band playing and Mickey Rats was open next door.

It was a great fun night out. Too bad I had way to much. That is why I'm updating so late this evening. Getting a call at 12 this afternoon from you parents in FLA and feeling like death worn over is not a great feeling at all.

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Location: Youngstown, NY

04/28/06 05:59 - 54ºF - ID#37096

My Lame Happy Hour

Missing Image ;(

Well here is a pic of me and where I was for my lame Friday Happy Hour. I just love this place in quaint little Lewiston. It was really good to see a great amount of people out enjoying the sunshine. What really surprise me was the traffic outside of the Day Spa next door. Seeing these underage girls going in and out of this building that houses two businesses one being a more mature boutique and the other a day spa I knew which one they were patronizing. The whole Paris Hilton Phenomenon has finally hit home to me.

Then again I have lived in Lewiston/Porter most of my life this should not be a shock. Just I don't remember the girls in my high school wearing pointy designer shoes and wearing ambercronbiesque type of clothes getting their stuff done as frequently as the girls these days do. Then again now in today's America we are living in even "Fatter" times than even the 1990's. Feeling wealthy in regards to your custom home that you can touch and feel and buy stuff form Home Depot is a bigger boost to your financial ego than a stock portfolio that is extremely volatile of a daily basis.

I know where I am going to be tonight. Broadway Joe's on Main St hopefully around 10PM. The hockey game may complicate things a bit but I am going to the Karma Police Show tonight. If anyone has any idea's about tonight let me know.

This should be a good night :-)

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Location: Youngstown, NY

Category: senseless killing

04/27/06 04:35 - 54ºF - ID#37095

I have become a treehugger

As I was leaving my "job" from the den of debauchery in downtown Niagara Falls I came across this as I was heading home.

Yes, I have lived here most of my life and am totally aware that the city of NF vibrates at a lower frequency than the rest of the universe.

But, this just made me really F*n pissed.

Missing Image ;(

Why have I noticed a senseless war against trees' lately?

In Lewiston last week they just clear cut all of them on the riverbank leaving stumps. Must open up "The View!"

Arg, perfectly healthy trees. No, immediate threat to power lines and for what? Your casino $ hard at work I suppose.

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Location: Youngstown, NY

Category: car break in's

04/26/06 11:31 - 38ºF - ID#37094

Crackheads

So my friend's car got broken into this morning. They broke the window to grab a $20 portable CD player. The car was parked right on Elmwood between Allen and Virginia.

In a way I feel it was my fault. I should have been more persist ant for her to come down here and spend the night as I was casually mentioning to when she called after I got off of work last night.

My buddy Jeff was right. In my neighborhood it is like a nice "Easter Basket" nothing bad happens and it's that warm and fuzzy feeling :-/

This is just evident that I have to be sliding by on something when it comes to women. It sure isn't my Don Juan suave that is doing the job that is for sure.

I'll think I'll change this journal name to Mr. Passive or something along those lines.

mrdt writes at 11:40:59 04/26/06 - Comment #7064: I have to say that by stating only people living in cities, which are the only places for diversity, are open minded is the most ridiculous close minded stance I've ever heard.

I'm catholic and italian, not to mention the most open minded person that I know. I spent lots of time growing up in kenmore, buffalo, amherst and niagara falls while attending various schools and working. I don't think I'm an exception to the rule either. My neighbor, who also happens to be catholic, is one of the most brilliant painters/artists I've ever met.

Long story short - there's diversity every where, it's just more concentrated and prevelant where the population is denser. and the same goes for open/closed minded individuals and you proved it with that belief on the topic.

dcoffee writes at 10:35:09 04/26/06 - Comment #7059: I live on north street and someone broke my window for a portable cd player too, it was a piece of crap cd player that I got from wal-mart before I was boycotting the place. and it cost me $160 to fix the windshield. crackheads. I still like it here though, there's pros and cons everywhere. in Allentown, you can't keep anything in your car over night, but you can walk anywhere you need to go, and the trip is always scenic.

lilho writes at 06:17:09 04/26/06 - Comment #7051: al i have to say is this. their ain't jack shit to do on grand island or in the burbs, everything is drive, drive, drive. and that just sucks. plus, i hate bush, and you should too.

matthew writes at 04:12:47 04/26/06 - Comment #7043: i should have been more clear, i meant open-minded as in "everyone doesn't look/act the same". Haha. I'm talking about diversity! And it's living in and around diversity that creates open-mindedness (i belive). I wasn't talking so much from a political point of view. How many non-WASP's live in east aurora or williamsville? not many. why? because of close-minded people.

scott writes at 04:00:47 04/26/06 - Comment #7042: Now now... that's not a very open minded view of the 'burbs, is it?

I think there's sections of the 'burbs with every bit as mich personality as Allentown. (i.e. East Aurora... very quaint and charming) An open-minded view would see that there's good and bad in both places. I think elmwood/allen is rather closed minded when it comes to conservatives. If the area is so open-minded, walk around in a "George Bush Rules!" t-shirt for a day. (The idea's laughable, isn't it?)I'm not conservative and I'm not liberal, and I seem to think noplace is terribly open-minded in Buffalo, quite frankly.

matthew writes at 03:38:06 04/26/06 - Comment #7040: where is your neighborhood? Allen & Elmwood can be pretty sketchy at times. But most of the people in the area would agree that things are getting a lot better. It just takes people with positive attitudes who want to see things change in their community.

At least it has personality and an open-minded community. These are somethings the suburbs will probably never have.

mrdt writes at 02:20:28 04/26/06 - Comment #7038: I live on Grand Island. Last week I left a portible boom box, a case of wegman's bottled water and my rollerblades on my porch. the next day I woke up and everything was still there. am I lucky, maybe; do I live in a great nieghborhood; maybe, did I beat the shit out of a few punks that stole stuff right out of my house years ago, yes; did they finally move, yes.
plus I never lock my trucks with valuables in the glove box. (gotta stop doing that) but it goes to show you it's not so bad in the burbs

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Location: Youngstown, NY

Category: living situation

04/25/06 03:13 - 48ºF - ID#37093

Empty/Full

So my Dad/Housemate is off to France today. Leaving me just a little bit empty on the person to go out to dinner department for the next week or so. At the same time eating just doesn't seem like a good idea, I believe I have put on a few pounds recently. I must get motivated and rotate the wheels on my blades for the basic fact that my marathon skates have worn them down to nothing last year.

What really is bugging me lately is the fact that it now appears that I did not learn anything from last year from my "relationships." For some reason, "they always keep coming back!" ((e:theecarey)) gave me some insight into this weekend. It's good to know those sort of things for the future :-) and why women find me attractive in this way. It is just if I had the opposite problem of not having anyone want my company, overcoming that adversity to fight to get any kind of attention from a woman would be a battle that I may really not be up for. Then again it is one that I haven't had the need to take on in a long while. After years of thinking of locking my drive in a box figuratively speaking due to a lack of outlets and opportunities, I have now finally become one of those confident, normal, red blooded males. While at the same time bringing all of the problems, but compared to the alternative I can't complain.

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Location: Youngstown, NY

Category: going out

04/23/06 06:06 - 50ºF - ID#37092

Trying to redeem a weekend

Well after not doing much of anything this weekend it came to the point where I had to do something. So in speaking with ((e:theecarey)) I suggested that we go out in the immediate locality. In doing so I guess I took her Lew-Port bar virginity, Ha Ha! Initially we were going to go to "The Stone Jug" but it just looked really dead. So we went to Lewiston and checked out the Brickyard. Not too lively either, but I knew a few people in the place so we stayed. We ended up hanging with all the members of The Karma Police which was an enlightening time for Carey. We also ran into an old friend of ours Scott.

My two Blue Moon's just made me too much of a debater/conversationalist, but it was fun. The low point of the night was some skinny blonde chick that just gave me some weird vibes. As we were walking outside to enjoy the fog on the patio she gave me the old scratching my eye with the middle finger thing. I had no idea who she was, but her constant talking to anyone that would listen really creeped me out. Other than that it was just a chill night in Lewiston, 7-1 guys to girls. To think my Ex thought I would go out locally and pick up women to cheat on her with, Ha Ha

Anyway this is to see if My Camera phone posts better pics that Carey's.

This was taken about 40 minutes after the place closed. It was nice not to be screamed at to "GET THE F* OUT!!!" or "PUT IT IN A CUP AND TAKE IT TO THE SIDEWALK!" When we decided to leave it was, "See you later, Take Care." Ah, Small town bars where everyone knows you.

Missing Image ;(

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Location: Youngstown, NY

Category: love & relationships

04/21/06 10:45 - 73ºF - ID#37091

Things that make you sigh

I was looking around last night for something for my date last night with an old friend. I stumbled across my blue faced Timex watch that my Ex bought me. I had thought I lost it in Vegas, but I had it all along. It was just a bit of a sting since I had considered it our "relationship ring." I don't think the universe was telling me that I was making a mistake for going out last night, but at the same time I have never felt the kind love that L* gave to me. It did make me a bit sad and distraught. Then I remembered that she did dump me.

Why do they always seem to come back? I got another text from my Ex/Old Friend D* today. After a while I am just not sure what to actually call them.

Well I think I'm finally awake. Time to figure out what and where I am going to go tonight.

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Location: Youngstown, NY

Category: blah

04/20/06 05:57 - 73ºF - ID#37090

being anti-social

This week all I wanted to do was accomplish this one thing. It should have only taken a normal person 1 day to do this, I stretched it out for an entire week. Argg!!

Not only that but I really have just felt totaly isolated and blah all week. The only real social thing I did all week so far is have ((e:theecarey)) tag along on my degenerate mega millions run on Tuesday. I haven't even been getting my usual spam e-mail!

I think that I am just afraid that I am going to fall off the face of the earth of something.

Really I know that I am just being irrational right now.