05/23/06 11:37 - 50ºF - ID#35942
Melting Snows of Kilimanjaro
I went on a Lentil shopping spree, having stocked up at the Lexington Co-Op then again at Tops, where bags of red lentils were mere pennies a bag. Red, Green and Indigo. Score!
I am looking for a book. I remember picking it up at a local rummage sale. I probably read it eight years ago. I recall that it was falling apart and that the pages were randomly shoved back into the book. It was a fiction book (propaganda) about the effects of global warming and how might the planet look and operate as global warming takes its effect. It was fascinating, scary and real.
If my memory is correct, the book was written by a SUNY Buffalo professor. The title eludes me. Although I have held on to many of my books, there are some that just havent made it through the years, or I have lent out and never seen again.
So looking for the book reminded me of the film that is opening this weekend, "An Inconvenient Truth"-- which is about global warming.
Go see the trailer at You Tube:
Reviews at Rotten Tomatoes:
Plot Summary from imdb.com is as follows:
Director Davis Guggenheim eloquently weaves the science of global warming with Mr. Gore's personal history and lifelong commitment to reversing the effects of global climate change. A longtime advocate for the environment, Gore presents a wide array of facts and information in a thoughtful and compelling way. "Al Gore strips his presentations of politics, laying out the facts for the audience to draw their own conclusions in a charming, funny and engaging style, and by the end has everyone on the edge of their seats, gripped by his haunting message," said Guggenheim. An Inconvenient Truth is not a story of despair but rather a rallying cry to protect the one earth we all share. "It is now clear that we face a deepening global climate crisis that requires us to act boldly, quickly, and wisely," said Gore.
List of theaters across the US where it can be seen:
Around here, so far the only theater that will be showing it is:
Dipson Theater 3 (Amherst)
if you like to Google: (MAP TO: 3500%20MAIN%20STREET%20BUFFALO%20NY%2014226%20US%20)
Or if you are more into Yahoo!ing it, like myself and (e:ajay) then go here:
Anyone interested in going?
something to think about..
Location: Youngstown, NY
05/22/06 11:15 - 47ºF - ID#35941
Music can open doorways into what it means to be human beyond our limited cultural definitions. If the listener is open, music becomes a magic carpet carrying the participant on a flight of becoming.
of becoming what? hehe
..anything I want, I suppose. hmmm..
Stearns created the soundtracks to Back to the Furture: The Ride and Star Trek: The Experience. Also Chronos and Baraka, two non verbal "global masterpieces". I have some music from Baraka, although not nearly enough. Which brings me to this post. I found a sampling at Amazon.com:
LimeWire is limited in sources, although the songs are available. I may have to try another music sharing site.
And so, I roll out my new user sound:
African Journey- Dead Can Dance
I have off Friday.. I am thinking about a venture out to Letchworth..
I have a bunch of stuff in mind for the long weekend, weather permitting. Well, not that that EVER stops me.. but I am in the mood for some sunshine and calm air.
Who's up for some adventure??
Location: Youngstown, NY
05/21/06 11:05 - 46ºF - ID#35940
I thought of how many of us have begun planting, etc.. and one frost will undo all that hard work...here is a heads up..
Cut and pasted from Yahoo! weather:
AN UNSEASONABLE CHILL TO THE AIR FOR THE NEXT COUPLE OF DAYS...
A LARGE LOW PRESSURE SYSTEM PARKED OVER EASTERN CANADA WILL BRING UNSEASONABLY COLD AIR ACROSS OUR REGION OVER THE NEXT 36 HOURS.
THE COLD AIR WILL BE ACCOMPANIED BY RAIN SHOWERS TONIGHT, WHICH WILL MIX WITH SOME WET SNOW AT TIMES.
BRISK NORTHWEST WINDS WILL COMBINE WITH TEMPERATURES IN THE 30S TO PRODUCE A RAW CHILL IN THE AIR.
THE BRISK WINDS AND CLOUDY SKIES WILL AT LEAST KEEP THE THREAT OF FROST TO A MINIMUM TONIGHT. HOWEVER MONDAY NIGHT THE WINDS ARE EXPECTED TO WEAKEN AND THERE WILL NOT BE AS MUCH CLOUD COVER AROUND.
IF THOSE CONDITIONS DEVELOP, THE COMBINATION COULD LEAD TO A WIDESPREAD FROST AND POSSIBLE FREEZE.
THIS SITUATION WILL BE MONITORED CLOSELY AND FROST OR FREEZE WARNINGS WILL BE ISSUED IF NECESSARY.
AS THE WEEK PROGRESSES, OUR REGION WILL SLOWLY WORK ITS WAY TOWARD MORE SEASONABLE TEMPERATURES (sunny and 70!). BY THE END OF THE WEEK A WELCOME
WARMING TREND IS FORECAST TO DEVELOP ACROSS THE AREA.
I will eventually return to more thoughtful posts..
stay warm, peeps
Location: Youngstown, NY
05/20/06 11:30 - 53ºF - ID#35939
With just 206 graduates, the Medaille ceremony was quick and did not require large tvs for everyone to see it, as UB graduation ceremonies often do. Paul noted/has picture in his journal about a friend who just graduated. (e:paul,4351) My undergrad is from UB.. I didn't go to that ceremony. I know now that I didn't miss out on anything. Yuck.. too many people.
The speaker (college President??) was fun and motivational. I might track him down at a later date to pick his brain.
My mom, Ashley(niece) and (e:pyrcedgrrl) (Dana) attended. Thank you! I needed the moral support :)
I had fun bantering with my classmates. We were a bit obnoxious at times..sometimes I am the ring leader in creating a laughing frenzy. I just find so many opportunities to make silly comments, that one of these days will be sure to get me into trouble. Anyway, it was a good time. I set out with that attitude in mind..
I'll look over the pics that Dana took and will eventually post some. When I do pictures, I have to be on a different computer. One of these days, I will install the software on this computer as well,so it wont matter which one I am on.
After the ceremony there was a reception of the sort. Cookies, juice, etc. I didn't go. It was mad crazy crowded.. so I chatted with classmates for a few then headed out the door. Dana had to leave for work, otherwise I am sure she would have joined us out for a late lunch. Right after we ate, Ashley took off. She had plans with friends to go to Grad night at Darien Lake (she graduates high school next month).
The rest of the evening was spent with my mother who took me shopping. I am not a shopper. I buy necessitiies when I absolutely must. And I enjoy buying books and techy stuff and a couple of girly things once in awhile. My mom can usually be found at Sears or Home Depot, as she knows how to do everything. Really.
So we went to Sears. hahaha
ok, she wanted me to look at an outdoor screened "gazebo". I had one last year, but it eventually fell apart. The day of my birthday party was spent duct tapping it back together as some freaky winds undid the welding. Remember, (e:ladycroft) ?? haha. Shortly thereafter, it came down and was trashed. Knowing that I wanted another (of better quality), she had been looking around for one for me. She liked one (of many) at Sears. I liked it too (I am easy), and she bought it for me (and some other neato stuff). Yay.
It will be delivered soon. OY, I think I have to put it together..
but bonfires, lazy summer nights and pitchers of lemodade/iced tea/mojitos will make it well worth it :)
I crashed early last night. I didn't want to go back out. It was a busy day. Once I returned home at 9:00, I knew I was in for the night. I was so hungry that I ordered food to be delivered. I just couldn't bring myself to cook anything or open anything. I didn't even have milk for cereal..
My food arrives, I watch the tail end of Close to Home (?) and then settle in for an hour of Numb3rs. I am really liking that show. I just never remember to watch it, or rather, I am often not home to watch it. Then I watched some Law and Order (hmmm, my long time favorite show-- the only thing I watch) and eventually passed out. The day wore me out and I slept well.
Forward to ---> 8 mile walk/hike this afternoon, conversations with strangers, shopping at the Co- Op, made a yummy dinner, late night 2 mile walk under the stars (super clear tonight..go out and look!) and now, finishing this post before playing a computer game for the remainder of the night.
Tomorrow: nothing definite.. probably homework, clean, bike ride if it isn't too windy. Maybe see who is out and about. Whatever happens..
Good night :)
Location: Youngstown, NY
05/19/06 12:31 - 49ºF - ID#35938
a cup of tea, relaxing music and a computer game or two should help..
or just turn off the lights and day dream until I am pulled into sleep.
so.. graduation ceremony is in twelve hours. (1 pm)
I need to get up early...but I am not tired at all. Too much energy, too many thoughts. I could use a mental diversion..
If I wake up early enough, I would like to take a long walk before I get ready to do the "walk" across stage.
Afterwards, no plans.. some of my classmates want to go drinking/bar hopping; but that just doesn't appeal to me. At all.
Instead, I will probably come home and do some homework, heh.
Happy Friday :)
Location: Youngstown, NY
05/17/06 11:23 - 56ºF - ID#35937
coffee tea or me
I was telling a friend about this tea that I recently purchased.
Now I have to post about it.
Yogi Tea brand "Bedtime Tea"
its insane. or makes me feel that way.
it says, "natural sleep aid: promotes restful sleep and relaxation"
and "crazy ass dreams and other states of delerium"
ok, that last part I made up, but it should be on the packaging somewhere.
I drank. (chugged not sipped)
I put the cup down.
I fell over on top of my pillows and Bob (stuffed turtle)
and dreampt. kind of...
My body wasnt ready to sleep. I would awaken then get pulled right back under. Dreams were elusive but I recall some strangness.
I vividly recall sitting straight up at one point in the night with a revelation of the sorts.
made me think (again) how much stuff we have kicking around in our minds. "Brain Poo" (TM)
so here you go, Yogi Tea Healing Formula hahahahaha
on another note:
I walk in less than two days. I finally picked up my cap and gown. I have no idea how to wear the hood. Do I put it on or do they? I am nervous. Now I am beginning to think about what I will wear and how I will do my hair hahahahaha. I find humor in that. I think I will wear a dress... and straighten my hair...and... ahhhhhhhhhh
I officially took the day off from work, as it is at 1pm. Well, my team pretty much made me take the day off. "You are not coming in on your graduation day". I was going to do a half day, but now I am glad that I am not. I think I will need the time to mentally (and apparently physically) prepare myself for the ceremony. yeesh.. I'm 30, why such nevousness?
Alright, I am finishing my tea..
good night :)
Location: Youngstown, NY
05/16/06 12:01 - 55ºF - ID#35936
graduation and slayer
instead I hop into bed and onto my laptop. My mind is too bouncy to read.. so instead, I write. Not sure where this is going to go.. please excuse all grammar, spelling and mental meandering..
I think my head and heart have been in a battle lately.
I have my graduation ceremony on Friday. The last graduation I went to was for highschool, and I didn't even want to go to that one. I skipped the Associates and the Bachelors ceremony.
Heh, I remember being on campus the day of my Bachelors ceremony. Know what I was doing? I was playing Vampire, a role playing game. My mom didn't talk to me for weeks. She wanted me to go and I didn't..
I can be really shy even though it doesn't really appear that way. I can get in front of people and do the public speaking bit, I am pretty outgoing and I will give anything a try.. but I am still shy. I am assertive, that isn't a problem either. I always work to get over the shy bit. I detest being in the way of myself.. (if that makes sense?)
.. And for some reason, doing the "parading across stage" in a cap and gown just weirds me out. Maybe it has to do with attention being placed on me? Not sure..
I know I am going this Friday (1pm Kleinhans), as I realize that it isn't about me anymore. My mom really wants me to go and my classmates expect me to be there as well. If my neice goes, it will be good for her to see a family member graduate from college.
But I still feel all anxious inside. Since I am open to trying anything, i have to be open to this as well. Come on, it is just a ceremony. If this is the least of my concerns, I am very grateful.
Ok, so this sense of anxiety leads me to having to face my next career step. I know not what to do. I regularly say that I have maxed out my postition. It bothers me that I have been saying it on and off for a couple of years now. But it has suited me while I have been in school. Good hours, benefits, awesome co workers, consumers, etc...and during this time I havent had to really attend to the process of making the next step.
But now I am approaching the end of my schooling (well, atleast with this degree, anyways-- I will always take a class or soemthing.. ) I need to figure what my next step is. Do I stay in the mental health field? Do I try somthing else, switch gears a little.. Do I begin the process of figuring out how to start my own business (whatever that may be.. I know its in the cards, my entrepreneurial spirit wont let me have it any other way.. )
heh.. or do i go onto another degree? Ofcourse it is something I think about.. but then I wonder, am I doing it for the challenge or for the "safety net" that comes with being a college student? I have to grow up sometime, right? I could go on for a doctorate (I've been provisionally accepted) or I could try a masters in something completely different, which is very appealing. I could wait a few years..and see where my life takes me... see so many options, choices, motivations to figure out.
so, although I think my head and heart have been in a battle, I don't think either knows what it wants (in regards to college/career stuff). Maybe I am squirrely on a bunch of things. I know that when I get to feeling like this, I need to just relax my mind/heart and from there what truly matters will surface. Then I can tackle whatver comes of it..
onto other stuff as of late..
My on again, off again stalker managed to make contact very recently. I jotted down notes during a conversation. I try to find the humor in it, but it creeps me out all the same. I find myself wondering if I am doing anything to lead this person on (not that there has been any contact in over 21 months-- even though he has persistently tried).
Now that contact has been officially made, I am disturbed. I am tempted to share the details of the conversation (again, I took notes because it was so creepy, odd, and such..), yet I am deciding against it at this time. Although I don't feel it is a serious matter, I don't want to make light of it either. Lets just get to the main point that I "tried" to make.. "no, i don't see us as friends, as I think you are looking for something much more than I can give you... I have reservations in talking to you.. or seeing you.. it isn't going to happen.. not interested in you.. no connection.. blah blah" Yeh, it sucks to put yourself out there and be shot down.. but then you move on. I mean, I was very clear then and I was clear this time as well. No need to read between the lines.. I said what was necessary, yet with respect and dignity...
Now I remember that firm wasnt good enough two years ago, as firm may not be working now. Back then, I had to get mean, which isn't me. I felt sick by it.. but it never stopped him from calling. ever.. and it still hasn't. I have always gone the honest approach.. but now it may be useful to try another tactic. Such as (e:pyrcedgrrl) suggested.. have a male be on my outgoing messages and/or have a male pick up the phone sometime under the guise of being my boyfriend/fiance/husband. I never seriously considered it before...
So again, I try to laugh it off.. it does have its humorous elements to it...but I am not comfortable with it, as I can't seem to get through to him. (e:pyrcedgrrl) affectionately refers to him as "slayer". Friends share..but you know what, he is all yours, hahahahahaha :)
- breathe in, breathe out*... again, not at all the worst thing that has happened.
But from all this perceived craziness, I again, truly appraciate my family and friends (old and new). I am always learning from them.. and love that they are in my life. thank you.
heh, my dishes aren't done and eveything appears to be a mess. Tomorrow after work I will make it all look, feel and smell good again. mmmm, will also cut a bunch of lilacs to place around the apartment. Cleaning and organizing can be fun when I am in the mood. It is especially helpful when I have some great songs to dance to while I am doing all this.
So on that note, I have some really great songs added to my iPod. I spent a good part of yesterday downloading music. I will probably change my user sound once again. It is (or was) Art of Noice, Moments in Love (trance)... a pretty hot song. But now its time to try something else. I am very happy with a few specific new ones that a friend shared with me. It is great when a song makes me smile...
Its about that time.. good night, be safe, smell the lilacs.. and make time for yourself. Some things *can* wait..
if you are into drums as I am, you may appreciate the new user sound: japanese traditional - Kodo Ibuki Taiko Drums
Location: Youngstown, NY
Category: fast and the curious
05/14/06 10:41 - 60ºF - ID#35935
Taking a Brake
I go a little faster, and the truck gets closer.
I speed up a little more and so do they.
This truck could have gone around me, there was plenty of room for them to pass me. I figure, if I am doing 70 plus, and they want to go faster, then go ahead and pass me. I was expecting to be flashed with their headlights, ya know, the signal to move the heck over.
No, instead they chose to ride my butt. Heh, at that point, the truck was so close that I could only see its front grill. If I dared to touch my brakes, I would have been read-ended. yeh, it was tempting.
See, I used to mess around a lot with drivers long ago, but I still have occasional spikes of automotive mayhem in me. (e:theecarey,126) My stories are fun and ridiculous and admittedly, immature. I've raced (ok, still do on occasion), I have done power brakes, burn outs, time trials, off roading, mudding, chasing, and all sorts of other craziness. It has been (many) years.. I have let most if it go.. but not all of it. On occasion, you'll hear me/see me gunning the engine of whatever crappy car I am driving at a stop light...come on, you know you wanna race me! heh, my little beater and your tubbed big blockm muscle car, hehe. Its the thrill and delusion in trying :)
ok, so I felt that this truck driver could just go around me if they wanted to. Lots of room pal, be gone! But no, you insist on riding my bum-per
((heartbeat quickens, residule effects of past thrill emerge))
So I scope out the situation. Truck on my ass. A bunch of cars up ahead in other lane. I gas the car to speed up to them.
Truck still attached to my rear end. Now I KNOW this driver is messing with me.
I catch up with other cars. I "pace" them. Now both lanes are are driving 65-70 miles. The truck can't pass and the truck knows I am on to him/her. Oddly, the cars seem to be slowing down, and instead of pacing them, I am beginning to pass them. I fugured, next course of action is to pace through all of the cars, and then once I am side by side with the last car (which would be first car ahead), I will step on the gas.
This goes as planned. And truck knows I am messing as hard with them as they are me.
So once I speed up to 80.. I then suddenly slow it down to 70. This allowed the truck time to go around me..
Which they did. Well.. first they paced me. (nice move, by the way)
I didn't dare look over.. didn't want to give them the gratification of my looking to see who it was. Besides, they were so high up, that we wouldnt have been able to see each other. But just in case.. I didn't look.
Well, the truck paced me for a moment before gassing it himself and then sharply pulled in front of me, and tapped his brakes. (another good move I must admit)
Forcing me to tap mine.
Then I saw.
I found myself tapping my brakes again, a little harder this time...
((Ya know, the kind of reaction you get when you are suddenly faced with a trooper when you are going too fast. But you know its a silly move as its obvious already that you are speeding.))
so yeh, I tapped the brakes..
because the truck that was messing with me and me with it..
...was a State Trooper-- in a larger chevy blazer!!!!!!!!!
My heart stopped.
Then I burst into nervous laughter.
I thought, what the heck was that all about.. and why didn't he pull me over, on or off duty?? (and now I know why all the cars slowed down..)
Not to sound disappointed, but I would have pulled me over just for the fun of it. omg.. I can't believe that happened. I think its funny that I stomped on the brake pedal once I realized who it was... a natural reaction.
So, I would say he (she?) won that one.
I just drove a few miles dumfounded and in awe. The trooper just driving ahead of me, but with my slowing down considerably, I eventually lost sight of him.
and I wonder, was it as good for them as it was for me???
good night and drive safe, kiddos :)
Location: Youngstown, NY
05/11/06 11:40 - 60ºF - ID#35934
It is always nice to come home, especially two hours earlier than expected.
Before entering my apartment, I stood out in the rain. The air was still mild, the rain droplets fell softly and the scent of lilacs were in the air. I don't have to go inside yet, I thought to myself, and turned away from the front door and towards the steps that would lead me back out into the night.
I had no destination or length of walk in mind as I took off down the dark quiet street; the waxing moon covered by clouds. The only sounds were frogs, raindrops and my footsteps. Every few houses I passed a lilac bush. As the lilacs bloom, the aroma builds. I love that there is a lilac bush right outside my bedroom window. How wonderful to have the fragrance drift into my room as I sleep. As I walk, I breathe deep the scents of lilac, earth and rain. (Essence of Worm will be tomorrows olfactory delight if this rain continues.. ;) )
The village remains quiet during this evening walk. I walk briskly down the street until I reach the river. I decide to go down a hill to the Youngstown Mariners Landing. There are benches, boat docks, and yachts. Sitting on a bench, I take a moment to look at the lights reflecting off of the water. The raindrops continue to fall softly, wetting my hair and clothes, but not making me cold. Tonight, the air is warm; the light from the lamp post shows the fog over the river. It is dreamlike and peaceful. And sexy too. I just love a warm rainy night..
A few minutes later, I pull myself from my imaginative thoughts. I decide to continue on my walk with a focus on breathing and taking note of the historical homes, and entertaining memories of childhood through my teen years.
A few miles and many thoughts later, I return home. Before I wander up the steps to my front door, I stop at the lilac bush. With nose to the bloom, I inhale; then I pluck a branch off the bush and bring it inside with me.
Location: Youngstown, NY
05/09/06 10:57 - 65ºF - ID#35933
a little bit of this
- Viewed two bonfires during last nights walk through the village. The smell of burning wood, the site of flames and sparks, and the non descript chatter heightened my desire to have a bonfire myself-- hopefully sooner than later. Who's in?
I could see that one yard had torches lit.. and I thought I heard a little somethin' like water.. could that be a jacuzzi? hehe ..and can I join? *vision of myself walking into the strangers back yard and settling myself into their jacuzzi, "hey, what's up?" * What would they do? Not something I would actually do..
- Tonights stroll led me past houses with music cranked high. It certainly added to my already bouncy steps. I sorta peeked into the windows of one house (shhhh..don't tell anyone! ;) ) as I could hear and feel some techno. Techno, baby, yah!!! The guy I saw seemed to be really into the music- perhaps he was creating the beats I heard? Anyhow, my sly prying eyes only glanced in as long as I walked past the house, so it isn't as though I stopped, went up to the bushes and peered in.. I leave that for Certified Stalkers and Other Creepy
Peeps PeoplePeepy's :)
Not much of a country music fan, so the second melodious house did nothing for my auditory preferences. What I thought was interesting is that the guy appeared to be washing his truck. At ten pm. Sure, I would do that, maybe.. but there were no lights on!! Then again, this area does glow in the dark.. right, (e:libertad,5) ? ;)
- Work endlessly fascinated me, even if I have maxed out my learning capacity. Heh, I need to figure out my next step, SOON! Everyday, the kiddos do something that amazes me. I have seen and been part of the progress that they have made over time. At some point, I will actually write about my job- what Autism is, what it isn't, Applied Behavioral Analysis, Discrete Trial Instruction, Behavior Modification, etc.. In the meantime, I share little amusements.
The children have been talking more and more. I have seen them go from being completely non-verbal to being able to state basics needs and using hundreds of words. Today was about my name. It wasnt planned that way.. but somehow, one little girl perseverated on my name. "Carey Carey Carey" "Hiiiiiiiiii Carrrrrrrey" "Carey". The boy I work very closely with, has taken to saying my name as well.. very softly, in a whisper, "Miss Carey, I want _____ please" (fill in blank with any number of requests: pretzel, water, bathroom, cereal, gummy, tickle, ball, etc). Another child was calling me everyname but the correct one. So we worked on that... and had a lot of fun working it into everything. He laughed a lot. So did I. Good stuff.
Now the one incident that cracked me up for hours, was whiile I worked on a "greeting" program with another boy. It goes something like this..
So I start off with a primer: I say to him, "My name is Carey".
Then, "What is my name?" the response we want from him is, "Carey". so he responds, echoing my name, "Carey"
For the scoring part of the discrete trial, I verbalize the cue-
"Hi Bob" (fake name)
in which we want him to respond, "Hi Carey"
well.. instead of restating my name..
me: "hi Bob"
him: "hi computer"
COMPUTER??? hahaha. Sometimes the greatest challenge is to keep a straight face during these trials and correct the child with a neutral tone of voice. But really.. computer?? Many responses are rote. When they aren't fully into the sesson, they will say anything that is in their plan. However, this just cracked me up.
I can pull off a good Interactive Voice Response..but I promise I don't sound like that in real life, hehe.:?
- What else.. this week can slow down, as with every week there is a lot to accomplish for school. This class has me searching through old material as it incorporates many aspects of what I have learned so far.. although some stuff I have naturally forgotten. I'll be just fine. I just can't let it bog me down!
Maybe I will spend part of my evening at Paneras on the Blvd after work tomorrow. I dig the comfy booths and wifi access. Oh, and the minimized distractions that otherwise occur when I am at home.. not that I mind a few distractions here and there. Besides, they have good soup :)
- The front porch is right outside my bedroom window. I have my window open. I hear something. My ferocious house gaurd-cat, Joey just jumped into the window to take a look (we all know he is all talk-at best, he can protect me from a rabid marshmellow, but not a hairy spider and definitely not some crazy lunatic!). I'm a little too chicken to go investigate it. If I close my eyes and bury my head under the pillow, will it go away, whatever it is??
Almost hump day.. have a good one!
Location: Youngstown, NY
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