Thanksfully the season is almost over but I think I woulld have been hooked just by Screech. I am a bit embarassed to say I can totally relate to the guy. The wanting to do his own thing, the being intelligent but coming off as a smart alec smartass, the elusive communication, the "finding peace" thing and last but not least popping Zantrex 3 to lose 5 pounds.

I also have to say that Maureen McCormick (Marsha Brady) is still pretty Damn Hot. If I didn't know better I would have though she was at the most in her early 30's.

So I finally had a day off and since it was a nice day and I wanted to enjoy it. I wanted to gamble a bit but at the same time having a desire to be outside I settled on going to the track.

Here are a bunch of pics that I took when I wasn't studying the Daily Racing Form to find a winner or two.

Random Horses













Now I have to throw in a Food Pic. This is a favourite Canadian pastime of mine, Cut Fries with Malt Vinnegar.






Then there is the racing aspect of which if there wasn't this to begin with the whole point of being here would just about be moot for the vast majority of people.







Pics of the jocks & paddock area







Where the money goes. I had the #5 horse and wish I had listened to my gut instinct and boxed the 5 and 6 together for the Exacta (a bet picking the 1st and 2nd horses in order) The 6 horse was owned and trained by an excellent trainer. Andre Cappicetti.

Look at what the Superfecta paid for a $1 wager. The superfecta is picking the first 4 horses in correct order, 1st, 2nd, 3rd and 4th. You could have even had 1/5 on a $0.20 cent bet!!!

I was happy to make some money on the 5 horse





SO afterwards I ended up heading back home and at the last minute went to the Domed Theater and checked out The Deftones. (e:metalpeter) I wish I had your #. If you wanted to go I would have been able to pick you in the Blo after I crossed the Peace Bridge.

Needless to say it was a kick ass show. They played for a little more than 90 minutes and the stage show was pretty impressive. They had the light board going behind them a la NIN style.

The only weird aspet of the show was this woman that I work with was a bartender there tonight. Most of the time I really can't stand her. She's just one of those people that loves to hear themselves talk, and thinks that just because she's skinny she's hot. While in actuality I think she looks like a freaking Muppet! But I digress I did have a good time and picked up a T-shirt. So with the $23 I won @ the track I ended up spending it on getting in and a bit more on an enjoyable concert.

I sure hope there is a movie in the works or something. I was rocking out to Journey's "Don't Stop Beieving" and then .....Black Screen???!!!???


WTF???


Like I said I sure hope there's a movie coming out soon or something.

Not that I was the biggest Sopranos fan. I think i was more enamoured with the theme song in the begining, but I grew to like Christopher and recently A.J.

Plus, it does help to pretend to be related to a main character's actor (Frank Vincent) :-( R.I.P. Which makes it even worse for this final episode.




Now why couldn't they have come close to the finale of 6 feet under??? That was THE BEST ENDING EVER OF ANY TV SERIES EVER.

I was in this place last night until 3am and I pretty much felt as if I was sleepwalking. When I was driving home I was shocked awake when two whitetailed deer were running across River Rd as I was driving home. In being my almost sleepwalking state I had someone else check my car to see if I actually did hit something or not. Apparently I did not, thankfully. It's just that in that state of mind I just wasn't sure if it was real or not.

On a ligher not of being off mentally, I'm humming/singing "Stars are Blind" as we scan the Fox News Channel at the moment with Paris being the only topic @ the moment.

What blew my mind away is they have Ann Coulter on discussing Paris? Let's have an attractive, skinny blonde with an attitude give her $.02 on the current attractive, skinny blonde with even more Money, but not as much iintelligence that is in trouble. I just think it's a bit out of the ordinary, unless Paris is somehow related to the Democratic Party.

I must say I did enjoy the sitting on the porch on a perfect night to do so. Being dry for the time being did give me an interesting perspective on how (e:strip) parties take off in certian directions.

This culminated in my friend Billy-B getting thrown into a frantic state from (e:lilho) !!! Basically this ended up in me taking us out by the Airport if you know what I mean :wink, wink:

So in all, what I can say is (e:lilho) you looked hot and really made a powerful impression on my friend for his first (e:strip) party!!!


So now I just sit here at work getting ready to start. Not that I really care anymore since my days are numbered. It is just that after being in Vegas and seeing how the lower end operators on the strip function and then coming back to this Shithole there just is no comparison. F this place.

I have been out here a week and to be honest I wish I could stay out here longer. This is the first time where I may have to leave something to stay here, Ha Ha.

The best part is I had to stay sober for the entire time out here and I still had a blast. The highlight of the trip was hanging out with my friend Chad from LJ. You just love the way the internet brings people together in very strange ways.

Now I have to pack and try to squeeze some fun in the next few hours before I head back to B-lo.

Oh, the mystery "guest" that sent me the message when I was leaving the Palms after a not so good session brought me a smile.

I saw this when I was running into my local Rite Aide to pick up a script.




The funny part is that the hitching Post in the middle of the pic is an actual hitching post! I asked my Dad when I was a kid what and why there were there. Now I actually saw it being used not for a stupid decoration, but for a practical purpose for not just one but two horses.

On another note I can't believe that in 30 some hours I'll be out of here. The thing that is ghoing to really stink is that due to the meds I'm taking I can't drink for most of the time I'm going to be on vac. I guess I should take it as a sign of synchronicistic good luck and roll with it. It will be the first time that I have been in that town since the age of 17 and not lit up a marb red or drank something. I just need to hurry up and try to pack, ARGGG!

I've been away for a while and to be honest I don't know how I would get 30,000+ views on here when I wasn't posting.

It's just that I have been sorting out what to do with my life lately. The topics of dicision range from 1. Shoud I quit my Job ? Mind you without having a place to land immediately afterward. Given this is almost suicidal since I've known people in this area that have done that and were sitting out in the cold for 6 month until they found another place to work. Then again that just could be a sign of WNY. I really don't want to whine and cry about the particulars but I just can't stand to work with the people any longer. Yes, a lot is going to change but I just can't stomach the individuals any longer and that is basically it.

In another thought I am starting to think I may be Fucked when it comes to "dating." I have to give kudos to (e:Carolinian) to his recent sucess. You still have the desire to go out there and try and make a go of it. For me I'm just like "Um..Ehh???" Basically when it comes down to it the way I'm wired sets me up for failure. If I elaborated it would be a long post and would basically frighten off any female that would read it. All I can say is that I know for a fact now that the people that drive me to show an effort in the end just are not what I want deep down inside. The people that fit my ideal just end up never getting anywhere near me by design or circumstance.

I've justified it to findout other qualities in a person and such, but in the end there are just certian laws of attraction that need to be there with relationshps and if they're not meet then you're just kidding yourself.

I'm going on a trip this week with an Ex. Basically I said you can come along if you just buy your own airfare and I'll take care of the rest. She took me up and her Mom is driving us to the airport. All I know is that deep down inside I'm taking her along as a nice thing to do since she has had a real tough time of thing lately.

When I get back I don't know what I"m going to do with my life. The thought of being free for the summer is quite appealing. Going down to D.C. and hanging out there or tagging along with my Mom to Poland sounds like even a better idea.

For the pics, I ended up going out Friday Night to Broadway Joes to see my boys play. What I noticed was someone reopened the old Mickey Rats. I suppose enough years has passed for a bar to open again on that premisis. It still has that scary feel to it as I walked by with the ghosts of White Baseball cap wearing dude past sizing me up. Missing was the trashy underage girls.

I'm just here on campus studying for my exam's this week. Of course I hear the conversations among the few senior acquaintances I have gotten to know by taking Accounting classes. Basically I just heard of the memories and reminiscing of all of those "nights that they can't remember." A part of me really wishes that I could go back to those days. Actually I had that Eve 6 song pop into my head: Here's to the Night.

I'm not one to post lyrics but the two paragraphs are basically the song itself

Here's to the nights we felt alive
Here's to the tears you knew you'd cry
Here's to good bye
Tomorrow's gonna come too soon

Here's to the nights we felt alive
Here's to the tears you knew you'd cry
Here's to good bye
Tomorrow's gonna come too soon


Yea I wish I could still hang with these single minded kids. The hedonistic one track mind folk that actually are younger than Paris Hilton. These kids are born from 84-85.

So yea I wish I could still go to work and sip a mixed drink from a waterbottle, but the world just doesn't work like that you know.

Who knows, I'm not guessing it's a statement about all the people born during those years, but maybe it's this institution? I guess I have to ask this question to myself; If I had to have some accounting work done, would I feel good about these people completing the work, given that they somehow got the grades but only remember chugging the everclear on a eventful weekend?

All I have left to worry about now is an exam and I'm pretty much excellerating now that the weather is much nicer.

I just can't wait to get out to Vegas in a little more than 2 weeks. Through my past offers I think I may have thrown some drama into the mix, but at this point I'm just happy to be going out there soon. Really I'm more focused on the city and the couple of friends that reside/work there and not who is tagging along with me. Plus it is only for a couple of days not like the entire week will be spent with them. It should be interesting, but deep down I think we're making it more complicated that it really is going to be. The only fear is that the relationship will end when we get back into town. It happen once before to me, but I think it involved betting on a game in which a team blew a 14 run lead and losing a ton of $ on it. Never tell your friends who to bet on, not even if they ask.

Speaking of ghosts of the past I think I may have uncovered the reason why I have not been able to move out out of my current job. I did apply for a low interest credit card and was denied. This really confused me since my FICO score is in the low 700's. Then in the rejection letter a Tax issue was cited as the reason. When I called NYS Dep of Tax & Finance they basically told me that it will come off in July! It almost seems like it won't be worth the hassel of going through the 3 agencies to fix it. Then again it has fucked me for way too long. No wonder why I have been feeling the fustration of not getting hired at any place descent. Right now I almost feel as if a weight was been lifted off of me.

Well for not posting for a bit I think I should keep this semi short.

Just thank God the weather has finally turned.