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Dear Joshua

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Dear Joshua,

Some time has passed and my heart is healing. It was very hard to say good-bye to you, especially being so far away. The day of your funeral there was a man playing the bagpipe outside the station. It was a fitting song.

That night we went to dinner and toasted you. I tried to say it myself but I got too choked up and Rory had to finish it off. Even writing about it now brings tears to my eyes.

We were in the middle of a great conversation you and I, which will have to wait some time to be finished. When I gave you that book and your 'license', I don't think either of us envisioned this road trip.

I came across this poem and I couldn't help but think of you. It's a shortened version.


Ready or not, some day it will all come to an end.
There will be no more sunrises, no minutes, hours or days.
All the things you collected, whether treasured or forgotten, will pass to someone else.

Your grudges, resentments, frustrations and jealousies will finally disappear.
So too, your hopes, ambitions, plans and to-do lists will expire.

It won't matter whether you were beautiful or brilliant.

What will matter is not your success, but your significance.
What will matter is every act of integrity, compassion, courage or sacrifice that enriched, empowered or encouraged others to emulate your example.

What will matter is not your competence, but your character.
What will matter is not how many people you knew, but how many will feel a lasting loss when you're gone.
What will matter is not your memories, but the memories that live in those who loved you.

(An excerpt of 'What Will Matter' by Michael Josephson)

Jason, we think about you often and hope your heart is healing!

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💬 4 comments

  1. jason ·

    It's been hard. I went into the bottle for a good two months, staying out late most nights. On top of this was the stress of a failing relationship (I got betrayed...AGAIN) and all of this has taken its toll on me. What I've wanted to do is take 1 month off from life and travel around but it seems that can't happen, I do need this job after all.

    I've been doing a little better, relationship is over, not boozing as hard or anything, keeping better habits. Cleaning Josh's stuff out is just brutal. I'm going to look for something of his you might want to keep.

    You were always a good gift giver! I know the book you're talking about and I've checked it out. Interesting stuff. I know he appreciated it.

    Thanks for thinking of me

  2. libertad ·

    Nice words @ladycroft. Jason, although we don't know each other that well, I often hope you are doing alright. Sorry that the relationship didn't work out but I'm glad to hear that you are doing at least a little bit better.

  3. ladycroft ·

    I would like that Jason, thank you.

  4. mrmike ·

    T, nice words, I know I'm seeing this a little late, but the sentiments are timeless. J, thinking of you often, glad you are healing

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