" hey! make a wish and see yourself,on stage, inside out.Ofcourse you were pleasently surprised. And softly he said 'I will mangle your mind'"

Midnight train to Georgia- Gladys Knight and the PIPS

The past week for me has been really tough. I got fired, My mother has a new illness and i had to move. The move should have been the the great thing to end a stressful weeked, But it realy didn't go like that. My roomate was bitching the whole time about Moving her shit, which i must add she didn't have to move. Her boyfreimd and her brother were supposed to move her big heavy stuff. Her brother became exhausted after moving his parents stuff all day, and her boyfreind is just a lazy asshole who ditched her last minute. So it was left up to me to move HER big stuff. I called my friend Mike and asked him to help me move her shit and he quickly said yes. I felt bad for calling him and interupting his plans, but i am in deep gratitude to him, Infact I want to thank all of my freindswho especially this past week have made me feel better. Matthew S., Terry, Paul, Dinah, Carrie, Megan, Mike, Fredia, Thank you all very much words cannot express how much you guys mean to me.
My roomate after Mike and I had just moved her crap wouldn't even give HIm a ride down the street. Talk about a bitch right. Well they say things will come back to those who do wrong, and that of you who have been generally good people, and have sometimes even put other peoples feelings before yours, that your pay off will come as well.
When? It's been too long, I feel i can't stand anymore. I do my best to do "right" to treat others like i want to be treated. But the one thing I want and have wanted the most, still hasn't come. I have begun to give up hope and thinking it will never present it self, that i am only holding on to hope to amuse myself. But everyone say "well you'r still young". NO i'm not IN the past 8 years I have grown so old. Doing things that my freinds who are 25 haven't even done yet. I have experienced heartache, Jesus, war and the one thing i want to keep me stable to feels the hole that so many people have pierced, has not been filled.
-Where are you???

Crayola- Girl I need to get a job or some shit, my babyz father is going to stop sendin deez child support checks.

Laquindella- you don't have a baby.

Crayola- Shit,he don't know that.

I will keep it posted when Crayola finds a job.

Nothing fails- "I'm in love with you, you silly thing, anyone can see. What is it with you, you silly thing, just take it from me. It was not a chance meeting, feel my heart beating, you're the one. Nothing fails, no more fears, nothing fails, yoiu washed away my fears, nothings fails. I'm not religous but i feel so moved makes me wanna pray, pray oyu'll always be here. I'm not religous but i feel such love, makes me wanna pray.
When i get lost in space i can return to this place cause, you're the one. I'm not religous, but i feel so moved mmmmm, I'm not religous, makes me wanna pray... and it keeps going i will sang this for ya'll one day after i visit my gyno.

I say goodbye to DVD dot. It was a cool place to work but now it's time for us to part. As of yesterday, i am no longer an employee at DVD dot. I was discharged for "holding incriminating information" about a certain co-worker. BULLSHIT! So thats my goodbye. I now say hello to elmwood strip officially the 30th of this month. I will be living right off of it on patomac ave. FUN FUN FUN right? haha So i shall be busy either looking for a job or filing for unemployment, which sounds really good right now. And busy moving. BOOM BOOM!Thanksgiving is coming up in two days, that means i must visit Collie, Alien, Gail, Eyvonne, Fredia, Kenita, Alan, Alex, Luara, Tommorow (yes i have a family member named Tommorow)...my family.......yeah

Oh and, It's funny.

all the things that I have; Frick my clothes, Frick love, Frick my friends, Frick my rabbit, Frick the pretty pretty sunflowers, Frick BUSH (both of them), Frick sex, Frick my son, Frick my ass, no damn my ass, Frick my worm of sin between my legs, Frick attics, Frick walking dogs, Frick petting cats that lay on my naked body, Frick bubble bath, Frick capital, Frick my books, Frick computers, Frick sickness, Frick being "HEALTHY", Frick models, Frick advertisements, FIrck the media, Frick my hamster, Frick my allergies, Frick hemroids, Frick crabs, Frick wilson farms, Frick LIFE!....why am I not satisfied?

mommy, i went to this party a few weeks ago and everything got all weird. Well first i went into this room and there was this dead cats skeleton sitting in this chair, and then the boy in that room showed me his penis.
Then laduindella showed up and got all in my face sayin that I was sleepin wit her babyz daddy and that she is going to "yank" my ass if i step on her size 8 again. This old man came up behind me and asked me to go into the bathroom with him and i said "NO,NO, hells no!" and when we got in there he started touching my ass and i screamed.
Now i am about seven drinks in and a couple bumps of coke and i hit the bong but i was totally Ok and when i went to the bathroom i pissed in the tug on this chick, and i could have swore it was the toilet anyway she got up and slapped me from two ways ugly and stormed out. I think i am inlove now too. This guy was so nice to me his name was hank and he gave me more beer and then brought into a room where their naked people sitting around and they were screaming at me to shake it and shake it til my clothes come off. And then all of a sudden my clothes fell off and a whole buch of people were kissing me like all over. Then I saw Hank sandwiched between a big black guy and a midget and i thought, I could be with this person for the rest of my life" and so i acted on it, I called and called I even went to his house and since the door was locked so i crawled through the window, and a black eye and two restraining orders later I felt that there needs to be a change I am going to ask him to marry me ma, what do you think?
- go for it honey.

- Girl it's hard!
- Hard?
- Girl hard
- well how hard is it?
- it's so hard it will knock over an elephant. recognize.
- for reeeaaal shiiit.
- girl yes, it will have yo man open
- i remeber when mines used to be that hard
- Bitch please yo shit will neva be dis hard
- Girl don't trip because you can't get as tough as dis
- bitch i will slap you some kind of funky ugly; it will never be this hard.
- well my shit is tight then
- HOE! back up, yo shit is as loose as a fat mans ass
- damn girl why you trippin?
- because yo jive turkey ass think yo shit is as hard as sidewalk.
- girl it is; touch them
- bitch no! i don't do that dyke shit.
- because you know whats up
- you just wait til i put on my orange leather jump suit and spray this shit down. Girl you wont be able to tell me shit.
- yeah whateva when i get my silk coochie cutters out of the cleaners and show up to the party, I will even take Crayolas man.
- Purina yo shit will neva be that hard like mines.
- you know Crayola said yo shit is loose and soft
- Is my name Boomshika
- yeah
- Then you know me and her was about to get to boxin.
- Yeah?
- Yeah girl, I wrapped my shit up, rolled my pants and was about to get ready to throw down
- well anyway i gotta girl my shit is done
- my shit is hard right?
- yeah those finger waves are tight yo
- YEAH!