Holly is a dear friend of mine, and I feel her pain at times but in a different way. I wish the right people thought that I was gay. Instead of being hit on by my fellow MALE homosexuals, I am constantly being picked by women of all ages, and lesbians. NO NO NO! What must I do to let theses betty's know that, I as of right now do not desire the pleasure of the cooch. I go to gay clubs, the lesbians think I'm hot and want to freaak dance me. Or I go to parties and I am really attracted to the female who came to the party by herself and she only lives two blocks away trying to hint that she wouuld like a walk home and quite possibly get some of dis mutha fuckin chocolate delight........Sorry honey I don't do fish. GIVE ME THE EEL! THE EEL! EEEEELLL! DAMNIT! Keep your flapper snapper at bay honey. Straight boys this is for you. I would deeply appreciate if you would keep and your curious, inexperienced, minds off me. I am not a guinea pig! I am not some lab aminal that you want to slide your coochie stained dick into.
I am sick and tired of your mixed signals, girlfriends who are out of town and will not be home for a month and you are lonely and bored and you are thinking of getting a taste of homo action and me being the deperate monkey I am I agree. WELL IT ENDS HERE DAMNIT!
Now what I do desire: A homosexual who knows his sexuality. No psycho's. You should be a very open minded faggot. You should like walks and sunshine, bunyy rabbits are a plus. NO necklaces eww I hate necklaces. And belt buckles I hate those two I think that might be because my Mother would hit me with them but thats not important right now. What is important is that he must be loyal and true and Butt lovin.
Holly inspired me to write this, so I say thank you, It's been a while since I've been influenced by other people, Besides the time I saw my friend Carla tied up to her bed post and she masturbated using her "Big Red" and her feet, I't was really cool to see I suggest you try it some time. Good night and good fight.

" hey! make a wish and see yourself,on stage, inside out.Ofcourse you were pleasently surprised. And softly he said 'I will mangle your mind'"

Midnight train to Georgia- Gladys Knight and the PIPS

The past week for me has been really tough. I got fired, My mother has a new illness and i had to move. The move should have been the the great thing to end a stressful weeked, But it realy didn't go like that. My roomate was bitching the whole time about Moving her shit, which i must add she didn't have to move. Her boyfreimd and her brother were supposed to move her big heavy stuff. Her brother became exhausted after moving his parents stuff all day, and her boyfreind is just a lazy asshole who ditched her last minute. So it was left up to me to move HER big stuff. I called my friend Mike and asked him to help me move her shit and he quickly said yes. I felt bad for calling him and interupting his plans, but i am in deep gratitude to him, Infact I want to thank all of my freindswho especially this past week have made me feel better. Matthew S., Terry, Paul, Dinah, Carrie, Megan, Mike, Fredia, Thank you all very much words cannot express how much you guys mean to me.
My roomate after Mike and I had just moved her crap wouldn't even give HIm a ride down the street. Talk about a bitch right. Well they say things will come back to those who do wrong, and that of you who have been generally good people, and have sometimes even put other peoples feelings before yours, that your pay off will come as well.
When? It's been too long, I feel i can't stand anymore. I do my best to do "right" to treat others like i want to be treated. But the one thing I want and have wanted the most, still hasn't come. I have begun to give up hope and thinking it will never present it self, that i am only holding on to hope to amuse myself. But everyone say "well you'r still young". NO i'm not IN the past 8 years I have grown so old. Doing things that my freinds who are 25 haven't even done yet. I have experienced heartache, Jesus, war and the one thing i want to keep me stable to feels the hole that so many people have pierced, has not been filled.
-Where are you???

Crayola- Girl I need to get a job or some shit, my babyz father is going to stop sendin deez child support checks.

Laquindella- you don't have a baby.

Crayola- Shit,he don't know that.

I will keep it posted when Crayola finds a job.

Nothing fails- "I'm in love with you, you silly thing, anyone can see. What is it with you, you silly thing, just take it from me. It was not a chance meeting, feel my heart beating, you're the one. Nothing fails, no more fears, nothing fails, yoiu washed away my fears, nothings fails. I'm not religous but i feel so moved makes me wanna pray, pray oyu'll always be here. I'm not religous but i feel such love, makes me wanna pray.
When i get lost in space i can return to this place cause, you're the one. I'm not religous, but i feel so moved mmmmm, I'm not religous, makes me wanna pray... and it keeps going i will sang this for ya'll one day after i visit my gyno.

I say goodbye to DVD dot. It was a cool place to work but now it's time for us to part. As of yesterday, i am no longer an employee at DVD dot. I was discharged for "holding incriminating information" about a certain co-worker. BULLSHIT! So thats my goodbye. I now say hello to elmwood strip officially the 30th of this month. I will be living right off of it on patomac ave. FUN FUN FUN right? haha So i shall be busy either looking for a job or filing for unemployment, which sounds really good right now. And busy moving. BOOM BOOM!Thanksgiving is coming up in two days, that means i must visit Collie, Alien, Gail, Eyvonne, Fredia, Kenita, Alan, Alex, Luara, Tommorow (yes i have a family member named Tommorow)...my family.......yeah

Oh and, It's funny.

all the things that I have; Frick my clothes, Frick love, Frick my friends, Frick my rabbit, Frick the pretty pretty sunflowers, Frick BUSH (both of them), Frick sex, Frick my son, Frick my ass, no damn my ass, Frick my worm of sin between my legs, Frick attics, Frick walking dogs, Frick petting cats that lay on my naked body, Frick bubble bath, Frick capital, Frick my books, Frick computers, Frick sickness, Frick being "HEALTHY", Frick models, Frick advertisements, FIrck the media, Frick my hamster, Frick my allergies, Frick hemroids, Frick crabs, Frick wilson farms, Frick LIFE!....why am I not satisfied?

mommy, i went to this party a few weeks ago and everything got all weird. Well first i went into this room and there was this dead cats skeleton sitting in this chair, and then the boy in that room showed me his penis.
Then laduindella showed up and got all in my face sayin that I was sleepin wit her babyz daddy and that she is going to "yank" my ass if i step on her size 8 again. This old man came up behind me and asked me to go into the bathroom with him and i said "NO,NO, hells no!" and when we got in there he started touching my ass and i screamed.
Now i am about seven drinks in and a couple bumps of coke and i hit the bong but i was totally Ok and when i went to the bathroom i pissed in the tug on this chick, and i could have swore it was the toilet anyway she got up and slapped me from two ways ugly and stormed out. I think i am inlove now too. This guy was so nice to me his name was hank and he gave me more beer and then brought into a room where their naked people sitting around and they were screaming at me to shake it and shake it til my clothes come off. And then all of a sudden my clothes fell off and a whole buch of people were kissing me like all over. Then I saw Hank sandwiched between a big black guy and a midget and i thought, I could be with this person for the rest of my life" and so i acted on it, I called and called I even went to his house and since the door was locked so i crawled through the window, and a black eye and two restraining orders later I felt that there needs to be a change I am going to ask him to marry me ma, what do you think?
- go for it honey.