Category: halloween
11/01/15 08:11 - ID#60307
Party
I wish (e:metalpeter) could feel the same way.
Honestly we all go through some stuff in this life. God knows I lost a good years going through some BS. It's hard to get to the point where you can cut loose & accept the cards you have been dealt & move on. There is so much that I wish I could/still do, but I just live one day at a time. Sometimes to my detriment as some people just lose their stuff at me when they see my post on fb, but It's my life not theirs.
Anyways here are a few pics from a great night. This isn't as good of a job as the Peterazzi could do, but just to fill the void.
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09/18/15 05:23 - ID#60226
Wedding @ Hotel Lafayette
Congratulations!!!
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Location: Youngstown, NY
Last Modified: 09/18/15 06:36
Category: facebook
09/13/15 06:22 - 54.ºF - ID#60225
Something September Thing
Now we're all different & being a guy like myself I got no where near the love on my own compared to when I had tagged my "concert girlfriend" in the posts. But still I had to ask "Who & What am I doing these things for & Why am I Oversharing?"
So I just decided to like & comment as I've realized that most of the time on my phone is on there. One modification I've purposely done is to use the Paper app. This is due to the fact that I get most of my fluff news from there & it works better than the newsfeed. Plus it also cuts down on the pics of people's first day of school pics & other nonsense.
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06/06/15 12:47 - 60.ºF - ID#60022
Dreaming about living at Canalside
I guess a part of me wishes I could buy a condo right there. Since I missed out on the boom in Toronto. Then again Buffalo doesn't have really much in terms of new construction as most of the new lofts downtown are all rentals. With that in mind I'm not interested in throwing money away. But in all actuality I So wish one of the rooms in the Harbor Center Marriott was a condo that I could buy.
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Location: Youngstown, NY
Last Modified: 06/06/15 12:47
Category: going out
12/12/14 02:59 - ID#59650
Baby Steps
I'm actually out & about today while posting on my phablet iPhone 6 plus. Yeah Not to bring up the old drama about an app but who needs one when you have a big screen & processing power? Although I have to admit I have been posting using the LiveJournal app! Yeah I still check that place just due to a few old friends, I still can't believe it's mostly Russian, who knew?
Anyway with friends dying & life getting crazy collectively I guess my perspective has changed about life. Yes I've had a ton of loss family wise bit sometimes you can't see the forest through the trees when you're in the middle of it. The only way to describe my perspective on life these days is like when jigsaw gave a speech on appreciating your life in a saw movie after someone won a game & survived. In some ways I feel like that after my friend died in Oct.
So maybe my New Year's resolution will be to use this site when I'm out and about in the city? Also have to figure out a way how to upload pictures for work around with flash on an Apple product.
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Location: Youngstown, NY
Last Modified: 12/12/14 02:59
Category: life
11/01/14 03:43 - ID#59528
Getting back out there
Honestly it him coming out would have made the night even better. When you're in that state of mind where you want to preserve you just have to get in that comfortable place in your mind first. I guess going for so many years put a bit of confidence that usually I don't have. Usually I'm paranoid about my car in the city (This is a huge issue that I still need to work on), but I knew that if I got there early enough I'd get that nice sweet spot between driveways further down the street.
Even though I kind of had minor triggers of reminiscing about a former friend & an ex girlfriend on the same street, it was good to see how absurd those concepts were. Yes my ex was a descent thing at the time but honestly it wasn't going to work. Although I have to say not having a girlfriend in the city & physically not being up there is something I wish I could change.
Anyway here is the song that I had in my head as I was the lead singer as my costume. Sorry about the video as the colorized clean version was scrubbed when Gregg when he disbanded everything about the New Radicals. It was feel good music then & still holds up to this day.
In all it was an awesome night, I just wish our friend could have came out & snapped a few pics.
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Location: Youngstown, NY
Last Modified: 11/01/14 03:43
Category: life
10/06/14 10:26 - ID#59458
Getting back to my true self
But I've rediscovered some old books that I purchased down in Sarasota & with my free time I'm trying to at least stimulate my mind once again is this distressed time I'm having at the moment. The downside is that I'm feeling kind of like I'm a waste at the moment. The thought of volunteering has crossed my mind. I wish I was just wasn't so stupid earlier this year with money as I would have moved away for a bit.
Anyway I actually took another step today & went out in the city for a bit today. Yeah it's been a while but I was able to plan it out & enjoy a beautiful day sipping a smoothie with a bunch of people from a meetup. It's just good to get back into a good place & start taking baby steps again.
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Location: Youngstown, NY
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Category: life
10/03/14 02:13 - ID#59437
Reflecting on Walt (e:uncutsaniflush)
I'm happy that his experiences (old school punk rock), insights and thoughts will be with us digitally. Whenever he commented on a post I always was happy that he noticed. Also I'm pretty sure that he is one to have contemplated his existence & life as it's too late to do that once you're gone.
Lastly he gave me hope (As I'm also in the very far from Brad Pitt in the looks dept also) that one day I may find love of someone of upstanding character despite our challenges.
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Location: Youngstown, NY
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09/25/14 04:37 - ID#59411
Slowly moving back to normal
I've just realized that I am kind of drifting back to a funk like I was in back in February but in all honesty I wasn't focused on just being the solo person that I've become for the most part this year. I just have a fear of the city unfortunately. It's not what you think of being a victim of something (although I do have a personality security issue of being physical safe ie people bumping into me, getting knocked around by flying objects.) It's mostly boils down to my car. I just don't trust people in the city to parallel park & drive. I have a nice new German automobile & from past experience I just have to go on what I've experienced & seen. So unless I can play the odds & park far away from everyone in a lot relatively safely from the masses, I just didn't feel confident in going out.
Does this make me sound like a materialistic prick? Probably I would say so. At the same time I have a reason to put Things>People They let me down everytime & also I don't have much currency with them honestly as I'm not really that attractive anymore (What I had is rapidly depreciating.) Although at the same time it is nice in not being invisible to people as they stare me down while turning their heads on the road. That phenomena is close to giving me something to smile about although at the same time it does have it's draw backs.
But anyway baby steps. I doubt I'm going to get a girlfriend that lives in the city to give me a home base of operations but I do plan on getting out to shows or whatever more often. It's time to get back into the swing of things & slowly move back into taking risks once again.
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Location: Youngstown, NY
Last Modified: 09/25/14 04:37
Category: concerts
05/11/14 12:40 - ID#58968
I missed it
The thing is that this song
Ever the Same was always playing in the morning back when 101.1 was the River & played "Adult Alternative" whatever that means. It was a point of my life where I was at a crossroads. I mean I was Ok at my job at the Poker Room, but I knew I wanted more something that allowed me to have time off & a bit more freedom instead of being in that soul sucking place.
I just remember back in the day watching VH1 & listening to the "behind the music" of the 1st matchbox album & the true meaning of 3AM. How he used to drink Manischewitz Wine staying up late worrying about his Mom (Who the song it about not some drunk late night booty call/text hookup.) I also worked with a guy briefly who was in a matchbox twenty cover band, but that was before this solo album come out for him.
Wow so I have a post about a particular memory that a song gave me to a time at place & at the same time made a semi relevant Mother's day post out of it.
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Location: Youngstown, NY
Last Modified: 05/11/14 12:40
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