[inlink]thesimeon,52[/inlink]
This is crazy, I heard the sirens go by and didn't know what was going on. I thought maybe I was delirious because I was so tired and perhaps only heard one siren that kept repeating in my head....

that's too bad. My neighbor was suppose to do a standup comedy act there (originally set for tonight) how weird is that>
I hope that guy that climbed out the window is ok. Thats really awfull.
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i may just be ready to scream,cry,yell or something.
my father is so back water country thinking sometimes.
i am explaining to him why I am moving to dc today.
he doesn't understand the strongest desire I may
have right now - ADVANCEMENT OPPORTUNITIES!!!!
he thinks i should stay. job security he says. I say: Hey I have
been laid off here more times than GW Bush blinked his eyes
during the debates!!!
sometimes I have to remind myself that I am a spawn of this person.
then it makes me think, what traits of his do I possess? are there any
good ones? are they all bad? I look just like him that goes without saying if you
ever saw him.
Why did I sit there and try to convince him this is a good thing? wasted daytime minutes! I know why, I want him to give me $$$ Moolah! Oh the things we do for money...it often seems like a self sacrificial ceremony each time we talk - He is right - I am not...I must see it his way. Afterall, he is older & the parent & must be wiser...I felt wiser @ age 11! He has done the same thing pretty much his entire life. I need diversity. I could not imagine doing what I currently do in the IRS till the day I retire. I would be in a home for the federal suckers gone insane (F.S.G.I.)
(interesting song playing on my itunes playlist:Starsailor - Alcoholic - even though my father wasnt an alcoholic,its still somewhat relevant perhaps)
is it wrong to want to disown people in your family? does that make you appear as if you think you are better than? i am pretty close to my family whether I agree with the things they do or not. Afterall, I still speak to my father after abusing my beautiful mother, the divorce, never being there for me or my siblings(yet he feels that we should love his mother & call her/the woman who didn't want to be called grandmother while we were growing up because it would make her feel old((she remarried a younger man))-woman you are old/you are a grandmother!!! she also made notso nice remarks about me like you are too uppity for me and high on a horse. whose grandmother calls them names and still desires to be loved?)ETC.
i digress, it could go on and on and on.
i shall not.
just thinking. must go pack now. i will do it on my own, with or without my fathers support.

(This post used the now famous (e:estripSpellChe)cker)
recognize!

FACK!!! - lost an entire mornings post: all about terrys deeleemah, how hot the (e:estripbot) is, how much stuff i need to get done today tomorrow the next day the next week! etc etc.

i think the site only accepts small trivial post from me, anytime its anything of any wurthee content - i lose it. what the frick! serves me right i got shet to do.

(ths post did knot youse de spelle czech funkshen)

luve,
suthuny-anky

LIBRA
Daily Overview
October 18, 2004

Get your errands done this morning while you've still got energy. Once evening arrives, you'll be in the mood to chill out, most likely at your place. Be sure someone lovely, wise and experienced is on hand to share it.

boy, I am pooped and sick! But I got an apartment. I will be moving to the lovely Fairfax Virginia! No time for sightseeing this weekend. All I saw were apartments after apartments and condos. Ate an $80 dinner for two(no drinks). Delicious! - I love seafood. Now I must get other plans underway.

For Example> Who wants to move into my current spacious yet cozy 2 bedroom apartment?
$650/mo incl HEAT!!! Lots of storage in basement. Closet space. Nice View of Elmwood Ave. Bay like windows in Bedroom and living room. 1 full bath. Grand fireplace with mirror in bedroom (doesn't work but very pretty) Lots of built in bookshelves in living room and master bedroom. Also has great built in storage unit right outside of bedroom(about 5 deep drawers and 2 very deep shelves with doors) Great Neighbors. Incl.garage space for vehicle with lock. Decent size kitchen(new floor/fridge/cabinets) Laundry in Basement- $1.00 wash $0.50 dry
Walking distance to lots - Faherty's - Just Pizza - Casa di Pizza - Sweet Tooth - Pier One - Off the Wall - Wilson Farms - Rite Aid - Louies's - Hodge Liquours - Solid Grounds
Bus stop (#20) right out front of house.

Serious Inquiries Only...

[size=m] HAPPY HAPPY HAPPIEST BIRTHDAY (e:SARAH) !!!!! [/size]
I hope you have the bestest, most funnest,most outrageous great time today!!!
[size=m] HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL!!![/size]

Thank you everyone who stopped by 10/12 to celebrate the Birthday of Me! & (e:Tina) too!!!
I had a blast. I hope you all did too!!! I regret I didn't dance half as much as usual but I had a great time with each and everyone one of you who was there.
I really want to list everyone who came but I don't want to leave off anyone - I recalled 32 people.

I also appreciate all the wonderful sentiments given in my honor, whether it was spirits in a bottle or warm fuzzy spirits @ heart. My dear friends, I love you all! I will cherish this Birthday tenderly - as (e:Jill) said in her card :Its your last birthday in the Buff... I said oh on the contrary Jill, I intend to be back next October for Ellicottville with dancin' boots on! So mark your calendars "Columbus Day 2005"

I will miss you all greatly. The next few weeks will be crazy for me so I will apologize in advance for what you may or may not witness...
& to boot... I woke up with the elmwood cold! ick!!! ick!!! ick!!! Head stuffy, Runny nose, Headache, etc. Can I really go one week without being ill in some form or another?

well I spent the entire day (11-11) with my family and the two babies. As soon as little Maria saw the balloons, she wanted to party! Needless to say I am beyond exhausted. I hope I can make it with a smile over the next 5 days at least.


I must sleep now. Thank you all again for a wonderful evening @ troiseptquatre!

[size=m] It's My Birthday! Yay!!! :)
Happy Birthday to (e:TINA) too!!!![/size] :)

Party going on tonight-We're gonna boot scoot boogie !!!! Even the (e:estripbot) was invited! :)

Right now I am playing a montage of "Happy Birthday" songs from various artists. I am a chic geek or what?

Birthday List revisted:
Pre-Birthday List:
1) Digital Camera to replace the one I broke at the love wedding.
we all had fun that night! (maybe by christmas)
2) New Boots, Old ones = old - possible check...come on sugar daddy!!!
3) New Job, better than the one I have
4) Lots of dancing!!! CHECK
5) Vacation (this weekend = dc/working vacation) CHECK
6) New Phone? maybe (dear fairy godmother,please snd me the new sidekick pls)
7) Visit Family -Oh I miss them! CHECK (auntie goint to meet me in DC this weekend)
8) Hair cut by Auntie only by Auntie
9) oh yeah, Big Party w/fellow Libra e peep's!!! ((e:tina)) & ((e:lilho)) & ((e:holly)) CHECK
10) most importantly, that my sister gives birth to little AJ before the b-day week DOUBLE CHECK!!!
11) Party with my friends (that one seems to be a weekly gift!)

*** who wants to add what to the list? ***
p.s.
for those who don't know yet, I am moving to DC in the next few weeks!
Life is a Celebration in itself!

its too early/ my brother called me @ 8:50 and wanted to schedule breakfast. I pleaded that I needed more sleep so that I would have enough energy to last the whole night through @ the 1st (E:Peep) (e:Wedding) tonight.

No later than 5 minutes later, he employed my grandfather to ring me only to inquire the same. I repeated above statement. He rambled on about the baby and such... I nod. "Sleep - 1 more hour,please..."

I have so much to do today yet I need to squeeze them in for an hour.
I will relish the moments now, as I am certain with moving to DC (in a few weeks) where I do not have any relatives, I will surely miss them. Mostly, I am afraid the babies won't remember me as they are too young and need a constant reminder of who is in their life. I love them dearly.

So, I missed the debate last night. But that is the beauty of this site. You can catch up on things...

Instead, I went out satc style w/ a couple of girlfriends. We had a good time despite me not going to Eville as long desired. Next year, it's all eville all weekend long!!!
So oddly enough, I continuously ran into people from the past yesterday. Very crazy. Very tiny town [inlink]lilho,180[/inlink]
I'd like to think that it is a good thing but how can it be? I don't see y'all in months/a year and bammm! Left, right, there they were.

anyway, I gotta go. Third time the family has called this morning. Must go.
latta

ahhhhhhh....
procrastination - my #1 dark cloud.
9 yrs + have passed by. no plan executed. no progress made & now a huge change is suppose to change all of that? I don't really know if it can. So much bottled up right now. Waking up and not feeling good about it doesn't help. Having nightmares about it also doesn't help the cause. hello stress. some decisions are easy difficult. this one seems difficult difficult as I have no intentions of going from one relentless cycle to another even more expensive one.
I need three plans. A. B. & C. (c just in case)
I need to be focused on the plan(s)
I need determination (lost a good size of it at least 3 yrs ago)
I need to sacrifice a little now to gain a lot later. (like (e:Dan) said: [inlink]dan,28[/inlink] this morning.) (this is hard but possible)
I need to be more resilient when things don't work out as plan and move on quicker.

So much to plan... So much to get in order. Not enough time to do it...
This has been a jammed pack week of new things etc.
New Baby Nephew arrived healthy as ever & handsome. Labor took over 24 hrs.
I came down with something on wednesday-sick as ever. Got an offer which requires moving pronto. I have no time this weekend to go check it out. I think my aunt may have thought I should cancel my plans and go to dc for a visit being that I have a long weekend available. Friends in town for visiting. Wedding tomorrow ((e:Trisha) & (e:PaulnotPaul)).
Birthday Party on Tuesday!!!
((for those who were sent evites but haven't check their email or their estrip email is no longer in use, it starts @ 6pm-til...Bring Booze-lots to celebrate!!!))

They always good things come in packages. But how do you know its a good thing?
Martha Stewart used to say that all the time and look where she put herself!
I know you won't know without trying but you never know what's behing curtain #1, #2 or #3.

I think I am going to go for it! But I want to make sure I make an informed decision.

:(

[inlink]hodown,86[/inlink] I think there are lots of lessons that we should learn from that we don't. I think we really do learn from most them but carrying out the lesson is the hardest part.

on another note: my body hates me right now. too much torture this week. will have to give happy details later. must prep for work. pray I make it through the day

Little Nephew is born! cutey pie he is...