i should sleep.cannot.caffeeeeeeine...
brrrr-cold.seagrams.bad.clean(semi)
crazy dreams.too much running from the unknown.
new ceiling in a day.yay.
vacation on the horizon?
no money. wants shoes.
better than ...[inlink]rachel,105[/inlink]
well...maybe

Pre-Birthday List:
1) Digital Camera to replace the one I broke at the love wedding.
we all had fun that night! [inlink]southernyankee,12[/inlink]
2) New Boots, Old ones = old [inlink]southernyankee,63[/inlink]
3) New Job, better than the one I have
4) Lots of dancing!!! 8*
5) Vacation
6) New Phone? maybe
7) Visit Family -Oh I miss them! :(
8) Hair cut by Auntie only by Auntie
9) oh yeah, Big Party w/fellow (e:peep) Libra's!!! (e:lilho) & (e:holly)
10) most importantly, that my sister saves birthing little AJ till after the b-day week or next week is looking good... (selfish priorities aren't they?)


this list shall continue...
must convince myself to sleep, sleep, sleep.such a waste of time.

mmmmmm....yum!

My friend Lisa and I went to see DeLovely tonight. A biography of Cole Porter's life as an american composer.I like musicals and plays; so being that I did not attend Curtain Up 2004 this year around, I will count my $7.50 ticket purchased to see this movie at the North Park Theatre as a suitable fill-in. I am one all for nostalgia and such, but wow are those seats uncomfortable after 2 hours. 8* We also went to North Park Trattoria to have cocktails before hand. Very nice atmosphere and the aroma from the open kitchen was wonderful! I can't wait to return again for dinner - yum! :)

Overall a nice evening that definitely helped erased the craziness from the night before. Someone invited me to go out with them and their friends who I did not know. Granted not knowing someone has never really stopped me from talking to anyone, I can pretty much hold my own, but sometimes there is a threshold for whats right and not so right. So anyway, after barhopping two lame places, the inviter who I know broke out on me and left me w/three strangers (guys) on the street corner which was as akward as crap since all these dudes wanted to do was chase blonde tail all night. I am never one to block a guys mission for tail or stay where I am unwelcomed, so afterwhile I too broke out of another lame place and walked home from chippewa furious as all getout :( . "All she wanted was to have fun...not looking to chase anyone, just good old fashion dancin' fun!!!" Gotta listen to instinct more often, it told me to stay home and craft like a good girl should. друзьÑ? мальчиков плохие хорошие. (granted neither of those may apply in all circumstances)
oh well, all's well that ends well? is it really true...

[size=m] Today & Tomorrow (18th/19th) 11am1-9pm[/size]
Great food, music, BIG Park, lots of people and a seperate kiddie pavillion.
Downtown St. Catherines, Ontario
Went a year ago - lots of good food & wine to sample & purchase.

met the (e:peeps) out tonight. that was nice. I love (e:peeps). Y'all are awesome!!!
sorry (e:mike) if I seemed loud and crude in any way. thats the way the red rolls.
and ps, you don't realize your strength but I did fall but so not on purpose.

Hey, (e:stickboy), tell your friend mike that I checked out motorhead. not my cup of tea. I will stick w/Dave, although I am open to lots else, just other than metal. But I promised I'd check it out and I did. Good seeing you though. Hope you take my advice so we see more of you and your talent.

Off the wall had good tunes, wish more people were there but nonetheless, its was still cool, 'cause wherever the (e:peeps) are the cool people follow...

sorry you missed us all (e:sqb) [inlink]sqb,124[/inlink].

another night on the elmwood strip, Off The Wall, The Pink, ALlen St. Harware Wine Bar and back to home base all right on the same strip...


oh before I forget I got to see pics that Jeffrey took from (e:terry) & (e:mike)'s birthday bash. Here is one of Trish and I...

Missing Image ;(

'night all.

ps

• too much caffeine today
  
• too much red all at once
  
• too much fast food
  
• too little rest

I love Elmwood (e:Radio) !!!
It nurses me to bed & its there to jolt me out of bed...
It soothes my rattled mind after work...
It comforts my soul
It fills the elmwood air with sweetness
rock on (e:Radio) !!!

procrastination sucks! but often feels good. is this transparent? my superior called me out on it... made me want to prove them wrong. but can I? everyone else has faith in the cause except me but I want it more than anyone else does for me...
:(
if I could eat or drink in the knowledge I certainly would. who wouldn't? perhaps I truly sulk over this matter because I don't believe in what I am studying and the true need for it in the first place other than to get over the hurdle to get to those damn fake green pastures & hoola skirts! I mean I could sit here and bark about why one needs this or that but how much of that changes anything, especially in the world of govt. as we all know. One must take A*C*T*I*O*N!
As of late I have tuned out everything I don't believe in...(this isn't always a good thing, trust me its not a braging statement, but more of a realization)
work being the first. again, not intentionally but my brain won't allow anything of its likes to seep in and take up residency. "No Vacancy for your BS" the sign reads through my eyes. and they all see it. Better your brain act first for you than stupid human instincts...I suppose the rest will follow through.
(ps) this post is a procrastination tactic too! HELP!!!
Is it really meant to be? all the things that I think I want...
Is it meant to be to spend what I feel are precious moments of my fading youth doing what I am currently doing (which is nothing)? I fear dying with nothing contributed to society.


Something must be meant to be right?

too many silly questions, i need to do some calculations that I loathe right now.

-the southern one-

8*

beautiful day isn't it? :)
I am just chilled. or should I say chillax (cp) I have not posted in a while; guess I should catch up...
(e:Sarah), your apt is quite nice. I am glad you have a new home to call your own w/ nice roomies to boot!
Enjoyed the 2.5 hr bike ride the other day w/ (e:Terry) and Jeff. Although Jeff scares with me with the stunt action, it's still pretty cool.
(e:Rachael) I hope you are doing well today. Hope you had fun the other night. I did - thanks to the epeeps who hung strong @ Faherty's ((e:Rachael), (e:Drchlorine)). (e:Sqb), [inlink]sqb,93[/inlink] I am glad you could join us that evening, even if for just a minute. Enjoyed talking with you and your escortee!
You should definitely come out with us more often. :)
(e:Mike), Happy 21st year again. I enjoyed meeting your parents the other night. Very lovely people. (e:Paul), you look like your dad.: )

• This weeks personal mission is to avoid eating things that make me sick...

This is really hard to do. I love cheese and creamy things and coffee. I still have a container of Dulce de Leche Ice Cream in the freezer. I have been very good at convincing myself not to eat it. Why did I buy it then? Because I wanted to!
I had to leave work early yesterday and yet I was given a semi-hard time about it. I am like look, I work, its my time, I am not a slacker (quite the opposite), I need some time to take care of myself. Deal with it! You only get one body (often with the option of some replaceable parts) But I have never researched a replaceable stomach although someone I once knew promised me a new stomach for christmas!!! So at that that moment when I was leaving work I wished that I were just leaving work inorder to hop on a plane to a tropical beach! but I just came home.
they annoy me there. I am sure I do a good job of returning the favor.

Maybe this is T.M.I. but whatever... An old friend told me once, that some things should be kept private. I would have agreed 110% a couple of years ago. Now I only agree about 66%. I figure secrets will always manage to find its way out into the light for all to know. Wouldn't it be less shocking being upfront than hiding behind secrets?

so off to better things in life today, possibly a luau with the family-I miss my niece and some major socializing later with fellow epeeps. I should post a pic of my niece. She is so much fun!

1) got to work late 8* (sorry (e:Terry))
2) left work late :( (sorry (e:Terry))
3) bought some red :)
4) skipped the studying 8*
5) declined another "dumbass" federal job! :)
(who calls someone @ 9:30pm to offer a job unless you work @ Big Joe's all Night Diner???? Uncle Sam that's who & it ((the offer)) lacked any sort of enthusiasm & professionalism-just another reason not to work for the man)

• Yes M'aam, I would love to come to atlanta to work seasonal for 6 months, this sounds like a better shittier deal than the one I already have...**

6) felt good after a shower :)
7) felt better after venting w/best friend :)
8) felt heavenly after eating cake from yesterday's baby shower (nephew on the way)
9) pc still crashes :(
10) feel like never returning to s.r.i.
11) life is G*O*O*D :)
12) looking forward to wednesday (e:rachel) and other e peeps who care to join
13) You can continue my list for me...

feel good song of the moment: James Brown's Livin' in America...

speaking of list, I need to start a Birthday list being that it's only a month away!
I love Fall!!!! & 10/12. It makes me feel good that its the day that I was born as I was my mommy's first born & she was excited to have me here!!! yay!
If no one else ever love's me in life, at least I know my mother loved me and I loved her (one of those adage's of "its better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all..." or something)

me and my rattled posts. whatever.