I'm only going to lay out a few because I don't have that much time and I'll prolly loose you after the first one.

The Elephant Man

Yes, John Merrick, and his name is prolly as misspelled as my excuse for the word probably, but he's creeped me out for so long and so deeply that I'm to freaked out to look him up. I don't care if it's misspelled.

I remember hearing about Mr. Merrick for the first time as my sister told the plot of the movie "The Elephant Man" to my siblings and I one dark and boring saturday night. There I was, pressed against the side of the love seat clung to every word she said with the rest of my siblings who were sprinkled around the room also rapt in amazement. No one saw me loosing it slowly to my self near the couch under blankets that didn't do their job of protecting me from anything. I think they rather enjoyed them selves really, while every shred of reason I might have possessed slipped out of me like a litter of aborted puppies.

Later, when ever there was any mention of anything that could remind me of his existence the same horror popped back into my head all jack-in-the-box style and knocked me around. An elephant, a long tube of anything, other malformed people, anything. The movie mask was way off limits after that, and I don't I was the same for a while. Or ever. Hell, even, typing the title of this segment was a feat, Eeeeh....

Being Alone

Most nights. I would stay in my bed and watch a version of the same nightmare replay in my lil tiny Tony head until I was too petrified to leave it for any reason.

Yah, it was the same everytime. I'd do something I had to do and in the process I'd take my eyes off of whomever I was with, typically it was my mom (which is hilarious now since we don't hang out very much at all anymore), and when I turned back she'd be gone. I'd be alone in my house at the bathroom sink, on a bus driving through some terrible part of the city, in a field with tall grass and mangled trees and I'd loose total control of my body. When I woke up I'd be to petrified to move no matter what the reason. I learned to live with the consequences until I got braver.

Kinda explains my social addiction now that I think of it. Gotta work on these things...

Ok here goes. Here's a pic of the "E" man.... nope no, I can't do it. Hmm.. anyone who's into childhood fears should go borrow (from me) or buy the graphic novel "Squee". The writer Johnan Vasques who is also the creator of Johnny the Homicidal Maniac and Invader Zim a once popular children's show on Nickoloden and the forever after decoration of goth children who adore cute things to this day. The Squee book is about all those fears made more real and dangerous than they could ever be. It's effin' funny, and really cute.

Squee

Missing Image ;(

go buy it here or ask me to borrow it sometime.

I love it that this actually happened in real life somewhere.

Don't you ever call it "Just a slingshot!"

Ok. I love science, even though I haven't really be as involved with it as much as I used to be.

I saw a poster for this event at the gym (which will not be named) and started inviting a few people, but then thought to my self. The world must know! So here goes.

Science & Art Cabaret 4.0: SCIENCE FICTION / SCIENCE FACT

::link::

Yerp. My most favored part of this discussion is that there taking space travel seriously.

I heard that Russia is beating us to this (again), but I'm not disparaged. We'll find a way to make more (or loose more ) $ doing it than they will, or my uncles name's not $am.

It's totally free (with a cash bar), so you can get hammered and go home with a hot nerd... ok maybe I'm getting my events mixed up, but hey stranger things have happened.

Ok, anyone who's spent any time with me has known that I have a hatred for my phone that's slow and low and steady, but I haven't changed it since none of the devices I've seen on the network have really impressed me much. It's super slow and does some of the dumbest things when it's at it's worst. Many mooses have gotten punched over this device...

To boot two of my plan mates have the critically acclaimed EVO and it's a nice device. There's the EVO shift (ie. same crap with a physical keyboard), and some other lame devices that don't need to be mentioned, but I didn't see the point in upgrading to any of those when there wasn't enough of a shift in what I wanted or needed most on those devices.

Over the weekend (e:paul) sent me a link on engadget that got me going. Apparently the first 3D phone will be out on sprint and it'll be on par with (e:paul)'s Nexus One or maybe a little better.

Just today I found out that the Nexus S will be showing up on sprint later this spring. I'm pumped. Never before has my patience paid off so well. I can't wait to own a decent phone again... Now I only need to choose which one I want to get, the 3D phone or the pure Googler.... oooh my mind she wabbles. I'll just have to play with (e:ejtower)'s Nexus S to find out how sweet that is before deciding. I'm plumping my piggybank for the day when it's out.

Look how cute it is!

Ok, so this article is going to piss some of you off, but go ahead and read it: The workplace should be segregated. Maybe.

She's so cute, you'd think she'd be a really nice lady


Made some people I know really mad and they starting calling Ms. Trunk really rude names like "Stupidhead" and "poopypants" and "smellycunt" (my personal favorite). This was my reply.

I know this article is going to get people emotionally charged as it was intended to do, but unless you wish to prove dear Ms. Trunk right I beg all readers of all genders to stop and think about what she is saying before reacting.

To be clear, I don't "agree" with her out of hand. I don't entirely disagree with her either though. Still If I were to make statements about the information she's collected, they'd sound completely different.

I'm only going to make this point before standing back from this dervish of emotionally charged blades of scientific stereotyping and sexism. Averages are tools to be used to protect you from dangers not subject you to servitude. If women are generally better at a certain task it'd serve the employer of one to perform such a task to seek a woman when trying to find the right "man" for that job. You'll save time and energy not rejecting every candidate, but you'd also rob your self of an amazing candidate if you were to ignore every male applicant. It goes both ways.

Ultimately if you're bent from reading that article you're making the same kind of mistake as a stereotyper but to the article writer and the publications advantage. Notice the adversing in the margines. You're also just human, so I forgive you. Hopefully that'll give you enough cause to put down your picket signs and pitchforks and maybe be a bit more entertained than offended. Yah, think of this article as microcosm of the Fox News business model. It's really just entertainment ...dangerous irresponsible misleading polarizing entertainment.

I'm going to go bake a more delicious cake than you can make now.

No, I'm not sharing.

I responded to someones assertion to love that read as follows:

"Love never fails. If it's not gonna matter tomorrow, make it right today ♥"

Like this:

"Love fails all the time. Sometimes we keep trying to make it right with the wrong alcoholic convict harlot theif sociopath cause we loooooove them, but no hard feelings, nothing's perfect."

Some one named Sarah responded with:

"Thats not love boo boo thats lust cause pure unadulterated love never returns to you void.."

And I was a jerk who dismissed her comment by calling her "young". Lame I know. I tried to fix things with this next bit whcih I think is apropos what with candy and cards day just around the bend.

"You're right Sarah. Dismissing someone's knowledge of anything on a the basis of youth or any quality of that individual outside of their understanding of the argument at hand is fallow. So I apologize for my gruff assessment of your view. I really don't know you, and that was rude of me. I just like to think I'm funny sometimes...and I am, just not this time.

Otherwise, I feel like l understand this emotion as well as any human can (I might be wrong). I just get perturbed when peoples romantic assessment of anything, let alone a chemical system of our physical minds denies the fact that all things can and do fail. I'm not a pessimist, I still do have hope for healthy functional love, but I can't ignore the fact that things break sometimes.

I think that when people ignore this fact it leads to greater failure. Such as loving the 'wrong' person or thing, which include all the former, but don't exclude those from the following: people who just don't love you back enough or the way you want and need. Hobbies and habits that destroy you in tiny undetectable bits or huge wave, and the list goes on. I've seen love without reason destroy lives and create wonderful things at the same time, as much as I've seen reason without love exclude a person until they've become emotionally caustic to everyone around them and them selves.

I think we're on the same team after all though. Love works sometimes, and when it does it's one of the greatest things that can be experienced by a life form on this planet ask any fat house cat. I think that was Aprils point. Still, the idea that anything is perfect is just an imperfect idea...it's kinda why I think love exists; to allow for the imperfect to stick around long enough to matter....

Ok I'm done, but stop talking bad about lust. It's just as necessary and dangerous as love, but really, lust is not what I was talking about. No one who sticks around to get abused by someone who's been drunk and out of shape for years is in a wild fit of lust. That's reaaally something else."

What do you think estrip?

PS. I missed you. You're so cute when you read lengthy stuff.

Hey hey eStrippers! Tony here for some phone hate...again.

This is a fun comercial. The microsoft people had to pick some angle to market their phones on, so they decided to choose the "hey, stop using your phone so much" angle. Really?

So this phone makes me not want to use it so much, how did they go about doing that?

Oh this wooden background is my favorite on estrip ever Paul, very nice.... here's the video.

Oooh, note the sexy lady that the guy is ignoring is so hot I keep watching this video, but um, well let's go to tape.



Paul was complaining about his phone making the same noises as everyone elses phones the other day, and that that was one of the reasons he was glad to make the switch to Android. I wonder if it's enough to make him want to try a Windows 7 phone. Prolly not.

Oooooh, migawd. This trip is almost over. One last plane to puddle hop home from Cleaveland. Thank goodness. I started traveling yesterday at this time by boarding a bus in Torrace,CA at 9:00am and I'm still traveling. I can honestly say all I wanna do is get home and squeeze my baby. Matt my travel buddy is actually more worn out than me...

if I find the energy later I'll jot down some trip details, for now (e:strip). Take care. I'll see you and the rest of buffalo in just a few hours.

This blog post kicks off a new category for me. It's the properties category.

Right now the rental properties thatI have something to do with consist of a 3 bedroom house and a three bedroom apartment and I've have been and will be doing nothing but taking care of them since the begining of the month. I'm super tired, and even when I do have time to enjoy my self I end up too tired to do to much. (Had some friends over last night and I feel a sleep 1/2 way through Zombieland of all films).

I have a new roommate as of tomorrow, the downstairs tenants are out today and I have a new tenant on Sanders in the house. The house people seem nice a small family with no pets, a four year old an a new baby on the way, my roomie is a buddy and we have a bunch in common which can be both nice and claustrophobic depending on how you do it, but we're planning on have 2 separate living rooms so we shouldn't need to worry about butting heads, and I have to speed rent the downstairs unit out before it too long, but there's a ton of intrest and I might be able to get someone in there before the 15th of September.

I've been doing far less with my nights and days since this month started, I can not wait for it to be over and for all the things in transition to be done with. At least for another year.

Wish me luck peeps.

Ok. This link is not for the weak willed.

It's actually quite disturbing, hence the category, but I imagine that this kind of thing goes on all the time, not every puppy can be loved. The girl is perdy cute (she has some kind of Euro accent too) Still... to see it happening, well... Here you go: